Chasing for this hit
"We are the pickles and we couldn't be prouder! If you can't hear us we'll yell a little louder. Pickles! P-I-C-K-L-E-S We're the pickles were the best!"
was the last thing I heard before I got hit by the ball while failing miserably trying to hit it.. Absolutely embarrassing... Rochelle saw it all happen too. Wish she was gone a bit more before this happened, I just wanna run and hide why did this have to happen?-
"LAURIE? Omg girl are you okay?"
Rochelle yelled out. I heard her but I was to much in pain to talk. I heard her run over to me and picking my head up.. My heart started racing.. Lately it has been anyways.. But only with her? I can't explain this feeling.. It's so.. Confusing.
"Uhhhhgggmm.. Oh Rochelle- YEAHYUP immm good hahah!! HAHAHA!"
I stood up laughing hysterically. I gotta make sure she doesn't think I'm a weakling omg this is so embarrassing. My face felt so hot and I know it was as red as a tomato. This was such a confusing feeling.
"Haha.. Uhm. Really I'm fine just got hit a bit to har-"
"HEY OFF THE FIELD YOUR OUT!" yelled out Frank
Ugh.. Yeah yeah I know. I grabbed onto Rochelles hand and ran back to the bleachers to wait out.. We were gonna win anyways it was 5-2.. Sometimes I felt like I was only bringing the team down.. I was such a failure.. I hope Rochelle doesn't think that.
"Hey you sure your okay? That ball hit you pretty bad.."
Rochelle sighed. I saw her approach her hand towards my face and my eyes widen to her touch. She was rubbing my cheek.. Oh God this is so embarrassing. I think she knows I'm blushing.
"You know.. You don't have to act all tough. You can be honest with me Laurie. I care about you!"
"Uh.. Yeah I'm fine really.."
I whispered while leaning more in her hand slowly closing my eyes. I heard her giggle a bit. This is so weird.. Do I.. Like her? No. I don't.. I can't. But do I?..
I opened my eyes.. She was already staring at me. Why did she have to stare at me..!? With those beautiful brown ey- WOAH. No. Can't think of her like that she's just being friendly.. Right?
"Hehe! Laurie you're so cute you know? And so goofy."
I felt myself zap like with electricity.. Did she call me cute?! Oh God this is just making it worse..
"C-cute?! What do you mean cute I'm not cute. the freak."
I stood up crossing my arms while side eyeing her.
"I'm completely fine that hit just made me stronger!"
I Exclaimed while flexing my "muscles"
"Yeah yeah whatever girl.. Anyways wanna get some dairy queen? It's sweet that your mom owns one especially since she gives us free ice cream hehe!"
I saw her roll her eyes.. She's so sassy I love it.. NOT in a gay way totally haha.. Right?. YEAH RIGHT. Ugh..
"Yeah dairy queen! After the game obviously.. Can we uhm. Just go just the two of us?"
I squeaked while shutting my eyes hardly.. Oh God why would I say the last part.. What do you mean just the two of us Laurie that's so weird.
"Yeah! I don't mind going just us! I love being with you anyways. Yuwen is such a dick I swearrrrr. He's always picking on you. You need to learn how to stand up for yourself Laurie"
She didn't care.. She said she loves being with me. That makes me so happy..
"Uh yeah yeah whatever. I can stand up for myself bro. He's just a bitch anyways"
I said while rolling my eyes. Ugh I hate yuwen he's so annoying but at the same time he's cool I guess.. I thought I liked him like a crush but I didn't. I was just forcing myself to like him.. So I can feel normal like every other girl..
"Wow? You calling him a bitch is crazy. Anyways how are you Laurie? You've been really clingy lately..- are you good? Is something bothering you?"
What? I've been clingy? I didn't know.. I hope she doesn't think I've been weird.
"Oh sorry. I didn't notice I was.. I guess I just only uhm. Wanna be with you.. You get me Rochey! Like a lot. You’re my 4lifer!"
I giggled.. I meant it. She was my 4lifer and she really did get me. She never judged me for being so weird or having such weird interest.. That's what I lov- I mean like about her.. Oh Rochelle.. Your my everything.. Your such a good friend. I'm glad to be your friend. Maybe I'm just confusing this as love! Yeah shes been with me since kindergarten so I just love her platonicly.
"Awww your my 4lifer too Laurie. You mean a lot to me! Ughh come here let me hug you!"
She reached out to me and grabbed onto me while nuzzling my face.. Yeah. I like this.. I like our relationship right now.. She's really my everything. I hope she isn't like this with her other friends.
We were talking the entire game and after hours the game finally ended! Finally.. We can get dairy queen just us!
"Great work pickles! Especially you Kai. Great catch. Anyways you guys can go now!"
I wish my dad would pay attention to me like how he does to everyone else.. I hope he knows I'm trying.. I'm not a failure right?.. I'm really trying my best.
"Laurie!! Cmon were gonna miss the bus!"
Oh right! Rochelle.
"Coming! Bye dad see you Tuesday!"
I ran off to Rochelle.. We ended up missing our bus but I found it a other opportunity to spend more time with her. When the bus finally came she held my hand and went onto the bus.. I hope she doesn't feel how sweaty my palms are.. Why is my face so hot?
"Okay.. Look seats! Here you can have the window seat Lurs!"
I sat down.. She didn't let go the entire time.. It was the only thing I could think of. She was rubbing her thumb on my hand. It was so comforting and I felt safe. I leaned my head onto her shoulder without thinking. I heard her giggle quietly. What's so funny? Oh God. Am I blushing again?
"Hehe! Laurie your hands are so sweaty-.... Do you always sweat while holding peoples hands? You nervous or something?"
Ughh I knew my hands were sweaty.. So embarrassing.
"Sorry! I'll let go if you don't wanna hold hands anymore..and no I'm not nervous! I've never held hands with anyone before so I didn't realize my hands got sweaty during that sorry"
I tried pulling my hand away but she pulled me into her arms.. Oh Rochelle.. I love how she held me. She's such a.. Good friend.. Yeah. She makes me feel loved like any ordinary Friend.
"No! It's okay.."
she said happily.. She interlocked our hands. Her hands were so warm. Like Usual. I hated it whenever she held her other friends hands.. I only want your hands with me Rochelle.. Is that okay? I mean. Yeah probably. I just wanna be her only friend. I nuzzled against her neck while smiling with my eyes closed. I felt her wrap her arms around me. After a few minutes our stop came up and we went out the bus, still interlocked.
"I can't wait to have some dairyqueen especially free dairy queen!! You know Laurie? I love the way we are. Your very special to me-"
she squeaked a bit?.. It seemed like she didn't mean to say the last thing but why? Am I not special to you?..
"Um. Oh were here!"
She pushed me in while smiling. While were ordering I went off to find a place to sit. I waited for her to be done ordering.. I wanna hold hands again.. I miss her warmth.
"Here you go! Your ice cream and my ice cream!"
She started eating here but I was more fixtated on wanting to hold her hand. I didn't realize I was biting the inside of my cheeks out of nervousness. I started reaching closer to her hand that was on the seat.. My finger touched hers but I got scared and pulled away but she grabbed my hand and pulled me in closer.
"You know you don't have to be such a scaredy cat just to hold my hand right? We hold hands like everyday."
She laughed. Yeah.. We held hands everyday but it's so scary.. Anyways I nodded and went to eating my ice cream.. Yuwen came in with Taylor and some other few and he saw us. I knew immediately he was about to start some bullshit.
"Hey look it's the two love birds!!"
he laughed to the others. Oh God.. I hid my face in my palms I know my face was burning red. I felt Rochelle get up while still holding my hand
"Hey! Shut up yuwen. Your so annoying. You act like a little boy."
I peeked a bit and saw him start sweating while Everyone was giggling at him. He backed off and went to go order.
She sat back down and let go of my hand and held my face while making eye contact with me.. She soften her gaze. Her face was so pretty. Her smile was too.
"Huh?.. What."
I questioned.
"Nothing. Yuwen can just be so... Yuwen you know? He's so annoying.."
"Oh yeah I guess. That was embarrassing."
I felt her getting closer to my face.. Does she know she's getting closer..? I pulled away before she got any closer.
I coughed
"Anyways you wanna go hang out at my house? My sister won't be home. She's doing driving lessons again with my dad. And my mom is out working."
I saw her gaze sadden a bit but why? Was it because I pulled away?..
"Uh yeah! We can go to your place."
She got up and threw our trash away and held my hand again. We took the bus back home.
"Were finally here!! That took forever hold up let me find my keys.."
I could've sworn they were here in my bag.. Ugh.
Suddenly she came up behind me and rested her chin on my shoulder.. I blushed a bit but it was nothing. She's just being friendly. I finally found my keys and opened the door.
"Alright.. You can change in my room and I'll change in the bathroom! I can't wait to get out of this uniform."
After we changed we sat down on my bed together holding hands while watching YouTube. I loved spending time like this with her. It was so nice.
"Hey uhh I'm gonna get some water alright? I'll be back you want anything?"
I stood up while facing her slowly walking towards the door
"Uhhh just some soda I Don't really care.."
Alright.. Soda. I nodded at her with a smile. When I was walking back to my room I thought about a few things.. I questioned myself. Who am I? Why are these feelings popping up randomly an only with her? Is this what happens when your friends for years? Am I just excited to be with her? That's probably it.. When I entered my room she was laying on my bed while giggling with her phone. Shes probably looking at some stupid cat videos again.. She's so goofy I swear.
"Hey I got your soda.. I didn't know what kind you wanted so I got you orange soda." I placed it onto the counter while drinking my water
"Oooo yes I love orange soda thanks Laurie!"
She sat up perfectly with the sunlight. Her brown eyes sparkled against the light.. She was the light in my life. When everything was dark. I'm glad she's with me.. That I get to be with her.
"Sooo what are you watching?"
I giggled guessing it's those cat videos
"Oh you know some funny cat videos. I love cats. You know you remind me of a cat. Your so goofy and cute like one. Especially clumsy"
My eyes widen to the word cute.. And love. She loves cats? And she said I remind her of one?.. Does that mean she loves me?
"I can't tell if the last one is supposed to be a compliment or not.."
"Well I don't mean it in a bad way.. Laurie."
She raised her hands towards me and held my face again like inside the dairy queen.. She was getting closer again.. Why wasn't I moving? What's going on? I thought she was leaning in for a.. Uhm. Never mind she was just getting close to my hair so she could fix it.
"Your hair is such a mess laurs.."
I wasn't paying attention to what she was saying. I was too focused on her shiny brown eyes.
"There.. Hey Laurie?"
"H-huh? Yeah?"
She grabbed my hand..
"So like we've been friends for a while.. And you haven't told me who your crush is. Like. It's obviously someone on the softball team right? You have to tell me."
Crush?.. I'm not sure if I have a crush.. Or.. Is she my crush?.. What. No that's wrong. And not correct.. She's not my crush.
"Uhm. I don't think I have one if I really think about it.. No one has catched my eye anyways."
I waved my hands around while talking trying to change the subject.. She ended up staying for the night and she fell asleep on my bed with me.. We were cuddling for the first time. I don't she noticed she was grabbing onto me.. I finally felt at peace that night and slept well for the first time.