Endless Love
Lexa is freaking out a bit. She’s waiting in the car for Clarke. Today is the day that Clarke is going to meet up with Anya for the first time in years. She knows Clarke is trying to be supportive of her but she’s still scared that this whole ‘civil’ dinner is going to blow up in her face.
Clarke hops in the car and smiles at Lexa. “Hey sexy.” Clarke rasps out and it sends shivers down Lexa’s spine. Clearly, Clarke isn’t as nervous as Lexa is.
“H-hey baby.” Lexa stutters out. Clarke chuckles and bites her lip.
“No hello kiss?” Clarke pouts cute and Lexa laughs, her nerves immediately washing away from her body. Maybe that was Clarke’s plan all along. Maybe Clarke knows exactly how to make Lexa at ease. Clarke calms Lexa’s very soul.
“How can I deny you?” Lexa teases, gently pulling Clarke’s chin up so that their lips can meet in a gentle motion.
“Mm you better start driving before I pull you in the backseat for a repeat of last week.” Clarke bites her lip and Lexa gulps. Clarke knows how to rile her up with just a few words.
“Clarke.” Lexa whines. “You’re turning me on and now we have to sit through a whole dinner with my sister.” Lexa pouts adorably. Clarke chuckles and leans over to kiss Lexa’s cheek. It just so happens that Clarke’s ample cleavage is in Lexa’s face when Clarke does so. Lexa groans some more and throws her head back. Clarke just laughs.
“Hey I can’t help it if you’re a horny person.” Clarke giggles.
“Only for you. My body only reacts like this for you.” Lexa says sincerely and Clarke’s eyes soften. Clarke leans again and whispers in Lexa’s ear while lightly caressing her lover’s upper thigh.
“Well then if you’re good tonight, maybe you’ll have a chance to act on your body’s wants and needs.” Clarke murmurs seductively before teasingly biting Lexa’s earlobe. Lexa gasps slightly. Clarke Griffin will always keep Lexa Woods on her toes, that’s for sure.
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Anya is already in the restaurant and she’s freaking out. She’s constantly checking herself in the front camera of her phone. Does she look okay? Will Clarke accept her apologies? Is Clarke coming her only to humiliate her and yell at her? No. Clarke Griffin would never do that no matter how angry she might be. And trust me, Clarke would have every right to yell and scream at Anya. Anya knows she fucked up all those years ago. And because of her mistakes, her sister was absent of the love of her life and her daughter’s life for seven whole years.
Pain in My Ass [7:35 P.M.] : Hey babe. You got this. Everything will be okay just take some deep breaths. Maybe I’ll come over later to help you relax ;)
Anya smiles at the text. That girl has been one amazing lay, but truthfully Anya knows this one is special. This one might just be her forever.
“Anya, hey.” Lexa calls out from behind her. Anya immediately stands up. Clarke is dressed in a simple yet flattering grey dress. Lexa is wearing a white button up and black slacks. Immediately, Anya feels underdressed. She’s wearing a nice blouse with jeans.
What was I thinking wearing jeans?! Now Clarke isn’t going to take me seriously and she’s never going to forgive me. I’ll never meet my niece either.
“Heyllo.” Anya says and winces as soon as she says it. She awkwardly laughs. “I meant to say ‘hey’ but then last minute I wanted to say ‘hello.’ So uh..”
“It’s fine Anya. Let’s sit down.” Lexa chuckles at her sister’s rambling. Anya is rarely uncomposed. Lexa was nervous for this dinner before as well but then Clarke calmed her down (but riled her up in a completely different way).
“So Anya..” Clarke starts out and the Woods sisters’ both hold their breaths. “I understand you’re working at Nyko’s bar?” Clarke says nonchalantly, in a friendly tone.
“Oh uh y-yeah. It’s good work and pays well. I know what you’re thinking..” Anya says with an uneasy smile. Clarke’s brows furrow and she looks at Anya confused. “You’re thinking ‘Oh wow the addict working at a bar. Great choice.’” Anya remarks sarcastically. “But I promise I haven’t had a single drop of alcohol or any forms of drugs for seven years. I’m clean. And for good this time.” Anya says sincerely and Clarke’s eyes soften. “I’m so sorry for what happened. I will never be able to give you those seven years back that I stole from my sister’s life, your life, and most importantly my beautiful little niece’s life. I was selfish. I ruined everything. I take full responsibility. And I understand if I’m never allowed to see your family again. Just know that I promise to never touch drugs or alcohol again.”
“Hi ladies, I’m John and I’ll be your server today. Can I start you off with some drinks? Wine?” The server asks and the whole table breaks into a laugh. Anya just went off on a spiel about how she’s clean and not a second later, somebody is offering her alcohol. Maybe they don’t even know why they’re laughing, but nevertheless they are. It’s dark humour but perhaps that’s exactly what’s needed to lighten up the mood.
“I think we need a minute, John.” Lexa says in between chuckles. John looks at them confused but nods and scurries away. Once the laughing dies off, Clarke holds out her hand for Anya to take. Anya briefly glances at Lexa and her little sister softly smiles and nods. Anya hesitantly takes the blonde’s hand.
“When I asked about your work, I wasn’t hinting about your addiction. I genuinely just wanted to know how you were spending your days.” Clarke says softly and Anya’s cheeks heat up in embarrassment. “That being said, I’m happy you shared that with me. I’m so proud of you, Anya. It’s not an easy thing to fight addictions. You’ve made mistakes. There is no use denying that. But I asked Lexa to make this dinner so we can put all that unpleasant shit behind us. I don’t want the shadow of the past haunting our future.” Clarke smiles and holds out her other hand to Lexa. Lexa of course takes her hand with no qualms. “I love your sister. You know that. We are a family now. Perhaps we always were. And that family will always include you.”
Anya nods and wipes away her few stray tears. “Thank you blondie.”
“Of course. Now where’s that waiter of ours? We should order.” Clarke smiles and starts looking around the room for John the waiter. Lexa stares at her girlfriend in absolute awe.
I’m gonna marry her someday. Lexa thinks. And she definitely isn’t wrong.
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Anya gets home from the dinner with her sister and Clarke infinitely lighter. The dinner went well, better than well actually. Clarke was gracious and mature. She’s truly grown into a great woman.
Clarke admitted that she was angry at Anya, angry that she didn’t come to them with her struggles. They could have helped her, Clarke said. The blonde said that if they are to truly be a family, they need to communicate. Anya can’t fight her demons alone anymore. There were a few tears shed and hugs given.
Clarke agreed to set up a meetup for Anya to be introduced to her niece. Octavia’s birthday is coming up. Clarke reasoned that’s the perfect place. There’s no pressure of the meeting. Anya can be introduced to Alex and they’ll take it from there. Baby steps. That’s more than Anya was expecting to ever get.
Anya sits down on her couch, exhausted.
Pain in My Ass [9:18 P.M.] : Hey there beautiful. Still down for meeting up tonight? I can be at yours in 15.
Anya bites her lip and quickly texts back. Maybe she’s not as exhausted as she thought.
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Clarke and Lexa get back to Clarke’s apartment and relieved Raven of her babysitting duties. Alex is already in her pajamas, waiting for her mommies to tuck her in.
“Mama! Mommy!” Alex runs up and hugs Clarke’s legs. Lexa and Clarke chuckle and bend down to embrace their little girl. They pepper kisses all over her face. Alex giggles. “Stopsit! Mommies!” Alex giggles some more until Clarke and Lexa finally relinquish their hold on their baby girl.
“I’m sorry peanut. We just missed you sooooo much.” Lexa says sweetly. Alex nuzzles into Clarke’s neck as they walk her into her bedroom.
“‘s okay. I misses you too.” Alex mumbles tiredly. “Are you sleeping over, Mommy?” Alex asks with a yawn. Lexa and Clarke smiles in amazement at their daughter. There are just small moments when you’re a parent when you just can’t believe you’ve created such a beautiful smart careful human. This is one of those moments.
“Yes I am. We can make pancakes in the morning and maybe we can convince Mama to watch Sunday cartoons with us.” Lexa says teasingly. Clarke hates cartoons. She always used to joke that hating cartoons is unnatural. Clarke sticks her tongue out a Lexa.
“Mama stuck her tongue out at you!! That’s no nice, Mama.” Alex pouts slightly and her parents chuckle.
“You’re right baby. That’s wasn’t nice of me.” Clarke says while chuckling. “I’ll have to apologize to your Mommy later.” Clarke says and Alex accepts this as an appropriate response. Lexa gulps as soon as she sees Clarke wink at her.
Clarke and Lexa tuck Alex in and sit on the edge of her bed, ready to tell her a bedtime story.
“What kind of bedtime story do you want to hear tonight?” Clarke asks patiently, tucking Alex’s covers in tight. Alex rubs her chin and her features scrunch up as they do when she’s thinking really hard. Her eyes light up like a lightbulb when she figures out what story she wants to know.
“Tell me about when you two were in love!” Alex chirps out excitedly. Clarke and Lexa wince slightly at the past tense of ‘were.’ They are in love. Maybe they should tell Alex soon about their romantic reunion. But not right before bed. The girl will never go to sleep after learning that news.
“Well I’ll always love your Mama, peanut.” Lexa says sweetly. “How about I tell you about the time I first knew I was in love with your Mama?”
Clarke looks over at Lexa with a soft smile on her face. She doesn’t think she’s ever heard the story of the exact moment that Lexa just knew.
“It was my sophomore year. Your Mama and I were friends for about two months…”
9 Years Ago
“Hey Lex. Can I paint you for a school project?” Clarke asks, her mouth full of jello. Lexa rolls her eyes and chuckles. Clarke is such a messy eater.
“Is this a nude picture?” Lexa smirks and Clarke pushes her jokingly.
“Shut up jerk. It’s just going to be your eyes. I have to do a painting that focuses on a body part. Your eyes were the first thing that popped into my head. There’s a beautiful complexity behind them.” Clarke answers sincerely. Lexa’s smirk is wiped right off her face. Her heart starts beating fast. Nobody has ever said something like that to her.
“I...yes.” Lexa says quietly. Clarke smiles excitedly at her.
“Wait really?! You’ll do it?” Clarke asks happily.
“Yeah Clarke sure.” Lexa says sweetly.
“Oh I’m so excited! Okay okay, let me go grab my art supplies. Meet me outside in the lawn by that tree we eat lunch under sometimes. You know the one, right? Okay great! Thanks Lex!” Clarke jumps out of her seat in the cafeteria, her half eaten sandwich and jello long forgotten. She kisses Lexa’s cheek and hurries out to gather her supplies.
Lexa sits there frozen. Her heart is pounding and she can’t wipe the gentle loving smile off her face. She’s in love. She just knows it. She’s in love with Clarke Griffin.
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“Really? I don’t even remember that.” Clarke says fondly. Lexa smiles back at her and shrugs.
“I always will.” Lexa murmurs quietly and Clarke feels her heart beating with the utmost love for Lexa.
“But..that wasn’t...you didn’t tell her you loved her! How did she know?” Alex asks confused. In the princess movies, the prince always tells the princess that he loves her as soon as he figures it out. Alex can’t wrap her mind around it. Why did her Mommy wait?
“Well, sometimes it’s scary to admit your feelings. Your Mama was my best friend and I never was in love before.” Lexa answers truthfully.
“But you can only be in love once right?” Alex asks confused. Her parents look at each other, biting their lips in hesitation.
“Sometimes people fall in love a bunch of times and that’s okay baby. It doesn’t always happen like the princess movies.” Clarke answers carefully. Alex’s eyebrows furrow up as she thinks over what her Mama just said.
“But sometimes you only fall in love once. It just depends.” Lexa supplies and Alex looks between her mommies curiously.
“Haves yous ever been in love with anyone else but eachother?” Alex asks quietly. She’ll be really sad if she finds out her mommies have loved other people.
“No we haven’t.” Clarke answers honestly and Lexa bites her lip to stop her smile.
“Okay then.” Alex says simply. “I liked that story.” The little girl says as she yawns and snuggles into her pillows. “Sing the daisy song, Mama.” Alex mumbles.
Clarke smiles and hums the song that she’s sung Alex ever since her daughter was a little baby. Lexaa watches as Clarke’s beautiful voice guides their daughter into a deep sleep.
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“Fuck that was amazing.” Anya breathes out as the tan girl kisses back up the older Woods’ body.
“I’m just that good.” Raven’s head pops out from under the covers with a smirk on her face.
“Don’t get cocky Reyes.” Anya says with a dopey smile on her face. “Are you staying the night?” Anya tries to sound casual. Her and Raven aren’t serious. They’ve been sleeping together for about a month now. It all started when Raven walked into Nyko’s bar with a date. Her date was boring and Raven asked Anya to do her a solid and pretend she was her ex girlfriend who wanted her back. Raven’s date left in a huff, angry and pissed at the bartender for stealing her date.
One thing lead to another and the two of them ended up in bed together. They’ve been sleeping together since. Anya would like to say that it’s just casual but it doesn’t feel casual. Little does she know, Raven feels the same way. After all, she hates hiding things from Clarke. But this. This feels different. She needed time to figure it all out.
“Yeah. I plan on making you come several more times.” Raven says confidently, going in for a kiss. Maybe one of these days, these two girls will finally admit that it’s so much more than hot hot sex.
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“So you really fell in love with me back when I was a freshman?” Clarke asks as she strips out of her dresses. Lexa bites her lip enjoying the view of Clarke in only her panties and bra. “Lex? Earth to Lexa?” Clarke turns around and smirks. Her girlfriend is so predictable staring at her ass with a wide open mouth like a fish.
“Huh?” Lexa says dumbly. Her mind finally catches up to the question. “Oh uh yeah of course I did. You were amazing, actually no..you are. So loving and caring. And you had such passion in your eyes. I couldn't resist loving you. I never could.” Lexa whispers lovingly as she comes behind Clarke and kisses her cheek.
“Always the charmer.” Clarke murmurs as lexa starts to kiss her neck seductively. The firefighter’s cold hands roaming all over Clarke’s creamy stomach, teasing her fingers in the waistband of Clarke’s red lace panties.
“I believe you owe me an apology, Ms. Griffin.” Lexa rasps out hotly against Clarke’s ear. Clarke closes her eyes and moans softly as Lexa’s fingers lightly explore her folds. Lexa is pressed against Clarke’s back. Clarke starts to rub her ass up against Lexa’s front. The firefighter grunts softly.
“More.” Clarke needily says as she leads Lexa’s free hand to cup one of her breasts. Lexa moans quietly.
“We’ll have to be quiet.” Lexa whispers and Clarke nods.
“Very quiet.” Clarke husks out. “Get on the floor. The bed will make too much noise.”
“The floor?” Lexa asks unsurely.
“I want to ride you.” Clarke murmurs and Lexa sucks in a sharp breath.
“Oh okay.” Lexa says dumbly, her member hardening more and more by the second.
“Get out of the clothes while I lay down a blanket and some pillows.” Clarke instructs firmly and Lexa obeys. Clarke spreads out the pillows and blankets. Lexa immediately lays down naked and Clarke straddles her.
“You want to be inside me?” Clarke rasps out, her voice dirty.
“Fuck Clarke.” Lexa’s hips jerk up as Clarke grips her shaft, using her hand to pleasure her lover.
“You want to come?” Clarke says hotly and Lexa moans.
“God yes!” Lexa whisper screams out.
“Then be a good girl and let me ride your face first.”
Lexa groans. She loves when Clarke takes charge like this and instructs her.
“Fuck let me taste you. I’ll make you come so good baby.” Lexa moans out as Clarke takes off her own underwear and unhooks her bra, all while still straddling Lexa. Clarke situates herself on top Lexa, lowering her dripping core near Lexa’s mouth.
Clarke gasps out as Lexa’s tongue immediately pushes inside of her eagerly. Lexa’s strong arms wrap around Clarke, keeping the blonde in her place. Lexa pushes her tongue in and out of her girlfriend. Clarke’s breathing is so fucking heavy. The blonde is trying so hard not to scream out loud because their daughter is fast asleep down the hall.
Lexa rubs her nose against Clarke’s clit. The blonde cries out and Lexa immediately stops. “If you can’t behave yourself, I’ll have to stop.” Lexa softly warns and Clarke whimpers. Lexa resumes her movements, this time sucking and licking Clarke’s clit. Clarke’s hips roll as much as Lexa will allow. Clarke is close, Lexa can tell. Lexa eats her out until Clarke’s body is tense and she can’t help but ride her lover’s face.
Clarke shakily gets off Lexa and lays next to her. Both girls are wearing lazy content smiles on their faces.
“Give me five minutes and then you’ll be coming so hard you might pass out.” Clarke whispers as she gently kisses Lexa’s cheek. The two girls come two more times before getting dressed and moving onto the bed for a couple hours of sleep. They're finally sleeping peacefully for the first time in years and that's because they are in each other's arms. They have found their way to one another again. Their love is eternal. It is endless.