Chapter 27
**Clarkes POV**
“What!”
Her head snapped up at hearing Lexa yell. She was watching Luna with a face of shock as Luna glared at her most likely for the outburst.
She watched as Luna leaned in and began whispering to Lexa who seemed to get angrier by the second. She wanted to find out what was going on, she almost stood up when she registered that Bellamy was still talking.
“Clarke? You okay?”
She turned and gave him a friendly smile feeling somewhat guilty at having no idea what he had been talking about.
“Sorry what?”
He looked confused for a moment before giving her a smile. “I was asking if you are okay. You know, seeing Finn?”
When Finn had said that she reached out to him she had frozen, she was terrified. She had Lexa in her arms again and she clung to her harder afraid she would pull away and leave her again. She hadn’t, but she was also worried if that would be her reaction now, fear of losing Lexa at every turn it made her feel weak.
She began chewing on her bottom lip. Bellamy reached towards her as if to caress her face and she pulled back which left his had hovering. He dropped it quickly with a look of hurt.
She gave him a small smile. “I’m okay Lexa helped.”
“I was going to go help.”
She reached out and placed her hand on his, “I appreciate that Bell but we had it handled.”
Bellamy nodded his head and took a big gulp of his drink.
She turned her attention back to everything that was happening aroud her.
Luna was about to take another shot when Lexa grabbed it away from her. Luna glared and stood from the table walking towards the bar.
She watched as Lexa rubbed her forehead in frustration before standing up to follow her.
“Looks like a lovers quarrel.”
She snapped her head to look at Bellamy whose eyes seemed unable to focus for long.
“You know they aren’t together anymore, why would you say that?”
He shrugged his shoulders. “I mean look at them if two people were ever made for eachother its them.”
“Bellamy shut the hell up.”
She turned to see Jasper glaring at him feeling grateful for his interruption.
“What? I’m just saying.”
Jasper shook his head taking a sip of his beer. “No you aren’t.”
Bellamy huffed and stood up heading towards the bathroom with a stumble in his step.
Octavia took the moment to steal his seat. She sat down a smiled brightly at Clarke pulling her in for a hug.
“Ignore him, he can’t seem to handle his liquor tonight. Clarke nodded her head and reached for Octavias hand looking at her ring.
“It really is perfect.”
Octavia nodded her head and glanced at Lincoln. “It is, and so is he.”
Clarke wondered what that kind of contentment felt like, knowing the person you loved most in the world loved you just as much and that you were going to spend the rest of your lives together.
She looked away from Octavia towards the bar where Lexa was holding Luna by her shoulders talking intensely.
Octavia tapped her hand.
“You will get that you know?”
She nodded her head.
“With or without her Clarke.”
She turned and looked at Octavis face for a moment.
“Do you think Lincoln is your soulmate?”
Octavia nodded her head quickly.
“I think she is mine, but she is hurt, she lost someone she thought was her soulmate, I won’t let her be alone because of that, I can show her a new love if she lets me. Octavia she is letting me.”
Octavia just watched Lexa as she seemed to get more and more frustrated.
“I just don’t want you to get hurt.”
“If I do I will get through it and at least I know I tried.”
**Lexas POV**
“What!”
Luna glared at her, well she glared to the best of her ability. How much had she already drunken?
She leaned in and began speaking.
“When we went out for dinner he seemed nervous and I could not figure out why. I kept trying to talk to him to tell me what was up. He said he had to end things with us even though he didn’t want to. When I asked why. The mother fucker said his wife was pregnant.”
She tried to pull away and say something as her anger grew. But Luna pulled her closer to continue talking. “Turns out he is married, him and his wife were separated for the past couple months but then she told him a few days ago she was pregnant and now they want to try and save their marriage.”
Luna let her pull away then. And when she looked into her eyes all she was sadness.Something she never wanted to see on her face again.
“He is a fucking asshole and you deserve better. I will kick his ass.”
Luna shook her head and looked down at the other drink in front of her.
This wasn’t going to end well if she kept drinking and Lexa knew this. As Luna reached for the drink she did too grabbing it before she could.
Luna took a moment to glare at her before shakily standing up. She began stumbling her way towards the bar.
She closed her eyes and rubbed them tiredly. This was going to be a long night, men were terrible. Finn and Atom were prime examples. Thank god she was a lesbian.
She stood up to go follow Luna and hopefully get her a glass of water before anything else.
She got the bar as soon as the bartender was about to hand Luna another drink. She took it instead and handed it a lady waiting next to Luna.
Luna glared at her before laughing loudly. The shift in mood startled her and she didn’t know what to do.
“What’s so funny?”
Luna just keeps laughing, until tears are starting to form in the corner of her eyes. She steps forward and puts her hands on Lunas shoulders.
Luna has stopped crying and just allows the tears to fall. Lexa pulls her in holding her tight. Luna sniffles and takes a moment to hug her back.
In a whisper so quiet she almost doesn’t hear it Luna says, “No one ever picks me first.”
She felt the words as if they were a blow to her chest and if Luna wasn’t holding onto her she was sure she would have stumbled back. She doesn’t know what to say. Doesn’t know what to do because Luna deserves so much more than what she has been given.
“I’m sorry.”
Luna shakes her head and takes a deep breath. “I shouldn’t have said that.”
Lexa tightens her grip and shakes her head. “You deserve so much more than I or Atom could give you. So much more Luna.”
Luna pulls away and wipes her face. “Shut up this isn’t about you.”
She looks at her confused for a moment.
“I’m tired, and drunk.”
“Want to go home?”
Luna looks over at the table. “Raven will understand.”
They make their way over to the table and grab their things. Clarke is watching her closely trying to figure out what she is doing. She puts her coat on and walks over to her on the other side of the table.
“Where are you going?”
“Taking Luna home, she isn’t doing too good right now.”
Clarkes face falls for a moment. “Come with me.”
She watches her for a moment before her eyes flick over to where Luna is half standing half leaning on her chair. Lexa watches the emotions cross her face.
“Hey.” She reaches out and tucks a piece of Clarkes hair behind her ear with a small smile on her lips.
Clarke looks into her eyes then and they just stare almost as if they are reading each other. Clarke smiles and leans forward rethinking and pulling back. So instead she leans forward and presses a kiss so close to Clarkes lips that she felt their warmth on the edge of her own.
Clarke smiles then and shakes her head. “Go ahead I will take a cab home.”
“Are you sure?”
Clarke nods her head
Lexa stand and turns to walk away looking over her shoulder. “Text me if anything.”
Clarke nods her head slowly. Then turning to Octavia who is handing her another drink.
**Clarkes POV**
She takes the drink and watches as Lexa helps Luna walk away.
Octavia nudges her and she turned to look at her.
“You good?”
She nods her head and smiles, and its genuine, she knows where her and Lexa stand. She loves Lexa and Luna and she can’t worry every time they are alone. They are best friends and she cannot try and stop that nor does she want to.
“Watch out O.”
They both looked up to see Bellamy waiting for her to move. Octavia rolled her eyes and got up moving back to her own seat. Bellamy turned to her she glared at him for a moment before turning away from him and listening in on Jasper and Montys conversation.
“Why can’t I ever drive it?”
“Jasper its my bike, obviously I’m the driver.”
She smiled as Jasper drunkenly pouted at Monty. Monty who she realized was sober.
“But people think I’m your boyfriend when I get off the bike. How am I ever going to get a girl?”
Monty rolled his eyes. “Maybe get your own bike.”
She put her hand on his shoulder. “That sounds about right Jas.”
“Not helping Clarke.”
As the night went on she got to enjoy a night out with her friends, she hadn’t realized how much she had missed them. Slowly everyone began trickling out until it was only her, Bellamy, Jasper, and Monty.
“You good to ride Jas?”
Jasper chugged the rest of his glass of water. Stood and walked a straight line tapping his nose switching hands each time.
“I got this.” She burst out laughing earning a bow from him. It still amazed how fast he could get sober when he needed to.
“Alright lets go.”
They hugged their goodbyes and she turned to look at Bellamy who had been uncharacteristically quiet. He looked at her through his eye lashes looking like a sad puppy.
She sighed and lightly punched him on his arm. “You okay?”
He nodded his head and took the last gulp of his beer. “Ready to head out?”
She nodded her head and stood. When Bellamy went to stand up he didn’t make it and fell right back into his chair. He was beyond drunk.
“Passed your limit huh?”
He shook his and tried to say no but it was too slurred to be the actual word.
“Damn it Bell.” She watched him look at least a little embarrassed. What was she supposed to do with him and how had he become her responsibility?
She went and grabbed him a bottle of water from the bar. “Come on start drinking this, I don’t want you puking in the cab.”
“Cab?”
“We are heading back to my place you will be enjoying the couch tonight. I swear if you puke on my carpet I will kill you and Luna will help. Got it?”
He nodded his head. She motioned for him to stand and he did stumbling again. She sighed and reached over taking his arm and putting it over her shoulder taking on some of his weight.
“I hate you Blake.”
“Love you too Princess.”
**Lexas pov**
She had gotten Luna into bed and was exhausted herself. She just wanted to go home and crawl into bed.
Yet she wanted to be with Clarke just as much. She sighed and went back into Lunas room trying to be as quiet as possible grabbing her pajamas. She grabbed a towel and headed for the shower trying to stay busy until Clarke got home. Was it weird that she was just assuming she could spend the night? What if Clarke wanted to be alone? She could always go to Luna instead right? She was starting to question herself. She shook her head, Clarke loved her, she was sure of it so this doubt, she felt it for no reason.
She toweled off and got dressed heading for the couch in the livingroom. Maybe it would be better for them if she waited out here instead of assuming by just being in her bed when she got home. She turned on the tv and settled into the couch pulling the throw blanket over herself as another episode of Are You The One came on. She swore this group would never win. She felt her eyes get heavier as the episode went on until sleep completely took over.
That was until the door got slammed open.
Her eyes shot open as her heart beat skyrocketed in fear.
“I just don’t understand Clarke.”
Bellamy?
“Its called putting one step in front of the other dummy.”
“No. Why her? What makes Alexandria Woods so damn special?”
She felt her anger begin to rise but she didn’t move, she wasn’t supposed to be hearing this. Which made her want to hear more of course.
“Don’t”
“I mean I know you are bisexual, but its just she’s Lunas girl you know?”
“No she isn’t”
“They may have broken up but shes Lunas. Why go after someone you can’t have when so many other people are willing to give you everything?”
“Other people?”
She heard Bellamy sigh and then silence for a moment.
“Me Clarke, me. I would give you everything.”
She shut her eyes as tight as she possibly could. She didn’t want to hear this.
“Bell, look I’m sorry if I have ever lead you on, I didn’t mean to honestly. Me and you it isn’t going to happen.” The sound of the water in the kitchen being turned on filled the silence.
“Because of her?”
“Stop talking about her, with or without her me and you will never be a thing.”
“That’s bull and you know it.”
“It isn’t.”
Next thing she knew was she heard glass shattering and she jumped up from her position on the couch to see Bellamy sitting at the table staring at the glass of water he dropped.
Clarke jumped and yelled when she saw her.
“Lexa you gave me a damn heart attack!”
Bellamys face was completely red staring at her in shock.
She looked between them both for a second until Clarke made her way towards her. “What are you doing here?”
She glanced at Bellamy who was hiding his face in his hands now before focusing on Clarke. “I wanted to stay here… with you. If that’s okay?”
Clarkes face lit up into a smile as she nodded her head.
“Go to bed, let me get this one set up on the couch okay?”
Lexa looked over and glared at Bellamy for a moment who looked away from her and stared at the wall.
Clarke tugged at her hand calling her attention. “I got this.”
She nodded her head and began walking towards the room.
“Lexa?”
She turned to see Bellamy watching her.
“What?”
“Sorry.”
She shook her head at him and rolled her eyes.
“Go to sleep Blake. Don’t puke on the rug or Luna is going to flip.”
He nodded his head and she walked into the room closing the door behind herself sighing. She got into the bed and less than five minutes later Clarke walked in grabbing some clothes before heading back out to shower most likely.
She felt herself beginning to drift off once more, being awoken by movement on the bed.
She rolled over as Clarke began trying to get comfortable without bothering her.
“Hey.”
“Sorry was trying not to wake you.”
“Its okay.”
They laid facing eachother for a moment not saying anything.
“Lunas okay?”
She looked away then repeating what Luna had said to her earlier in her mind, blaming herself.
“She will be. How are you?”
“I’m with you. How do you think?”
She rolled her eyes with a smirk on her face and moved closer to Clarke who was now laying on her back. She leaned her forehead onto Clarkes shoulder.
“Me too.”
Clarke began running her fingers through her hair as sleep began taking hold of her once again.