Chapter 9
**Lexas POV**
“But why her?”
She lifted her head from where it laid on Lunas stomach to look at her face. Her eyes looked sad and she felt her heart clench quickly. She lifted herself off of her slightly in order to trail kisses from Lunas belly button up, she smiled quickly at the reaction Lunas body had to her lips before quickly pressing a kiss to her lips when they were face to face.
“Because Clarke is my friend, yours too by the way, and I rather go with her than Lincoln.”
She shifted her body so she was next to Luna and had her head propped up on her hand. Luna turned onto her side to face her.
“When did you two get so close?”
“Are you jealous?”
She was joking, smiling to show it, but when Luna looked at her with serious eyes and a slight frown her smile dropped.
“Should I be?”
Her heart began beating wildly and she prayed Luna couldn’t tell. She closed her eyes and saw Clarkes eyes in her mind, she shook her head trying to get them out, but they wouldn’t go away so she opened her eyes instead to see Lunas brown eyes watching her.
“No.”
“Okay.” She felt Lunas hand pulling her head down and she closed her eyes thankful she no longer saw blue as she kissed the woman in front of her.
**Clarkes POV**
“Okay, I will be back Sunday. Lex I’m giving you a copy of my keys just in case.”
Clarke sat on the couch and watched Luna run around for fiftieth time, Lexa stood by the door holding it open.
“Lun, the Ubar has been downstairs for like five minutes already, you are only going for the weekend come on.”
“I know, I know.”
Clarke pulled her eyes away from Lexa when Luna began walking towards her. She bent down and pressed a kiss to her cheek quickly.
“Take care of Lexa for me, and have fun this weekend, you deserve it.”
Clarke smiled up at her, “I will and you too.”
Luna walked towards the door, Lexa grabbed her bag and ushered her out, before closing the door she turned and smiled at her.
“I will see you tomorrow, text you in a few.”
She felt her heart skip a beat, she would have Lexa to herself and she couldn’t wait.
**Next Day**
She stood in front of her almost empty closet trying to figure out what to wear, glancing over at her now covered bed where Octavia sat on the corner just picking through the mess.
She couldn’t decide and it was driving her crazy, she threw herself on top of the clothes making some fall to the floor.
“Christ Clarke, just choose something, you’re just going out with Lexa, nothing special.” She looked over and glared at her, she just didn’t understand but she couldn’t blame her. She had told no one of her feelings they were wrong and seemingly unrequited.
Her phone buzzed and she grabbed it quickly.
Commander: Ready?
She sighed loudly making Octavia raise an eyebrow.
Clarke: What are you wearing?
Commander: Dress and heals.
Commander: Too much?
She smiled at the second message that came directly after the first.
Clarke: Sounds perfect J
Clarke: I will be ready in 15
Lexa: I will be there in 10
She jumped up and grabbed a black shirt and her white skirt, she quickly put them on and grabbed her comfiest black boot heals from her closet. She ran to the bathroom and plugged in her curling iron and did her makeup as it heated up.
“Umm Clarke, you don’t think this is a bit much? Are you trying to meet someone?”
She looked away from the mirror when she heard a knock on the door, before Octavia could go open the door, she yelled. “Use your key!”
Octavia turned towards her and had a questiong face but then Lexa was standing behind her and Clarke swore her jaw dropped. Octavia spun around and she knew hers must have dropped because so did Octavias.
“Lexa, wow. Like wow, you look amazing.”
Lexas cheeks turned a light shade of pink making her look even more amazing.
“Thanks O.”
Lexa looked over and their eyes met, she saw as Lexa looked her up and down and her smile grew wider making her blush and smile in return. Octavia looked between them. “If I didn’t know any better I would say this was a date.”
Lexa rolled her eyes and shoved Octavia out of the way walking into the bathroom, she walked until she was standing right in front of her and held out her hand. “You ready?”
She nodded her head and took Lexas hand as she pulled her towards the door. Octavia followed behind them grabbing her stuff and Clarkes bag handing it to her.
“You know Lincoln and I both resent not being invited.”
“Isn’t he spending the night at your place tonight?”
Octavia rolled her eyes dramatically, “Not the point Lex.”
Lexa leaned forward and pressed a kiss to Octavias cheek, Clarke felt a flash of jealousy and rolled her eyes at herself. She laughed at Octavias blush.
“Ohhhh I’m telling Lincoln, you blush when Lexa kisses you.”
“Ugh, fuck you both.”
Clarke and Lexa both laughed as Octavia stormed out of the apartment. She turned to look at Lexa, she truly looked amazing.
“You are in an extra good mood, why?”
Lexa shrugged her shoulders her smile never leaving her face, “I have been looking forward to this all week, seeing my favorite movie on Broadway, with my best friend.”
Clarkes eyes widened she placed her hand over her heart and pretended to wipe a tear. “Oh my god I have been promoted to best friend.”
Lexa rolled her eyes placing a hand on her hip. “I take it back already.”
Clarke shook her head. “Nope too late, you said it, no taking it back, and we need bracelets to make it official!”
Lexa glared at her and took out her phone bringing it to her ear.
“Who are you calling?”
“Octavia, you are no longer invited.”
Her eyes widened, she couldn’t be serious. “Haha, lets go.” Her jaw dropped open when Lexa pulled the phone from her face and pressed the speaker button.
“Lexa? Hello?”
She reached and snatched the phone out of her hand. “Butt dial sorry!” She pushed Lexa out of the door as she laughed at her.
“Not funny Woods.” She couldn’t help but smile, she loved this girl. She froze at the top of the stairs at her own thoughts. Lexa paused at the bottom her smile dropping from her face, she walked back up to her and stood in front of her.
“Clarke? What happened? You Okay?”
No. No. No. No.
“Yes”
Lexa studied her another moment before grabbing her hand and pulling her down the last few steps. When She tightened her grip to make sure Lexa wouldn’t let go she knew.
She was screwed.
**Lexas POV**
When they made their way into the Minskoff Theater she stopped, taking it all in, it was one of the most beautiful things she had ever seen. She looked to the side and saw Clarke doing the same, taking it all in. Definitely one of the most beautiful things she had ever seen.
They stopped to grab drinks from the bar.
She grabbed Clarkes hand, they shared a smile as she led them towards their seats.
She thought the original movie of Lion King was the best thing she had ever seen, she was wrong this was so much better. When the curtains closed for the half point break. She tore her eyes away from the screen to see Clarke watching her.
“This is amazing!”
Clarke laughed at her enthusiasm making her frown in embarrassment.
“Oh no, no pouting Lex.” She was going to deny her pout when Clarke ran her finger over her bottom lip making it tingle. She licked her lips willing it to stop and looked away eyes focusing on the stage.
Clarke ran her hand down her arm asking for her attention, she looked to her. “I’m going to the bathroom, be right back.”
“Do you want me to go with you?”
Clarke shook her head quickly and stood up to get past her. A few minutes after Clarke left there was a tap on her shoulder.
She turned to see two women sitting behind her, a blonde and a brunette. The blonde one being the one who tapped her.
“I just wanted to say you and your girlfriend are adorable.” Lexas face scrunched up in confusion, her girlfriend? The blonde had an English accent which also threw her off. She gestured to Clarke seat as an emphasis.
The brunette spoke up this time. “How long have you been together?” That same kind of accent.
She began shaking her head quickly. “She isn’t my… I have… She’s my girlfriends roommate.”
The brunette made a face that almost made her burst out laughing.
“Rosie! I told you not to assume. Sorry my wife was convinced and wouldn’t listen to me. Obviously I’m the bright one.”
She didn’t know what to say to that, were they about to fight?
“Shut up Rose the roommate is coming back.” Lexa looked away from the women to see Clarke making her way back towards her with a smile on her face, she tried to smile back but it didn’t make it to her eyes and she knew Clarke could tell when she stopped smiling.
Clarke handed her another drink.
She sat and pulled Lexas hand into hers trying to soothe her by rubbing her hand with her thumb.
“What’s wrong?”
She glanced behind her and saw both women watching her with raised eyebrows. She pulled her hand out of Clarkes and pretended to move her hair away from her face.
“Nothing, can’t wait for it to start.”
Clarke just nodded her head not looking convinced but then the lights began to dim and they went back to focusing on the show.
**Clarkes POV**
When the show finished Lexa seemed back to herself, when she wasn’t looking she quickly placed the bag with her purchases into her purse.
“That was amazing.” She laughed and pushed some of Lexas hair away from her face as they waited for the people around them to begin making their way out. Lexa stopped smiling for a moment glancing behind them. Clarke looked to where she saw Lexas attention was to two women sitting behind them. The blonde was raising her eyebrow at Lexa. While the brunettes eyes were on her.
“You are very pretty.”
She looked between Lexa and the woman but none of them said anything else.
“Umm thanks?”
Then Lexa was tugging her up to leave, she glanced over her shoulder one last time to see the brunette kiss the blonde on the lips. They looked cute.
When they stepped outside it was pouring, at that exact moment she felt her phone vibrate she took it out to see the flash flood warning and showed it to Lexa who glared at her phone as if it had betrayed her.
“My place is closer, we will take a cab and you can wait out the rain there.”
She nodded her head and they ran into the rain, hailing for a cab. Thank god they lived in Nyc, it only took a moment for a cab to stop.
In the months she has known Lexa she had never been to her place, out of the group Luna and Octavia were the only ones to have gone over. Octavia only because she was with Lincoln.
When the door was unlocked it was so.. Lexa and Lincoln. All earthy tones, completely clean while still looking like a home. She froze on the doorway, her skirt dripping onto the floor, they may have caught a cab quickly but the rain was crazy.
Lexa walked in and turned to see her standing there, so she gestured to the dripping.
“Aw Clarke you couldn’t hold it a little longer?”
She raised her middle finger trying not to smile. “Fuck off Lex.”
Lexa laughed and she couldn’t hold her smile back.
“Come on I will give you something to wear just don’t sit anywhere.”
She followed Lexa into her room but froze in the door way when her attention was caught by something. Her artwork.
Lexa began rummaging through her drawers as if it wasn’t there at all. When Lexa looked up at her she followed her gaze to the painting hanging above the bed.
“Oh ummm, surprise?”
“You bought my art?”
She tore her gaze from the wall to Lexa who held her hand out with clothes in it. She quickly grabbed them and began taking her shirt off, Lexa quickly turned and began changing her own clothes.
“Do you want to just spend the night? I don’t think its going to stop raining any time soon?”
“Stop changing the subject, just answer the question.”
“Yes I will sleep over, I get the left side. Now you bought my painting?”
Lexa turned around to face her, placing her hair in a bun on her head. She did the same hoping it would keep the dry shirt from getting wet.
“Yes, I told you I thought your work was amazing.”
“Clarke sat on the bed. Lexa sat behind her and undid the bun she just did and bega to braid her hair. She had gotten used to Lexa doing her hair and knew not to move.
“Why didn’t you tell me? If I knew you liked it that much I would have just given it to you.”
Lexa swatted her head and she hadn’t even moved.
“Hey!”
“Don’t be stupid I can’t let you become a starving artist. I want to be supportive, you are talented, when you become even more famous I need to have an original Clarke Griffin.”
She smiled, Lexa got more comfortable placing one leg on each side of her. Clarke heard her phone rining recognizing her dads ringtone.
“Lex, I need to get that.”
She heard Lexa sigh in frustration but she tapped her thigh to emphasize and Lexa tied off mid braid o she could rummage through her bag for her phone.
She answered while resettling herself between Lexas legs not noticing it was a facetime call until it was too late.
“Clarke!”
“Hey Dad, what’s up?”
“How was the show? What is happening with your hair?”
Lexa had begun braiding again when she sat down but her fingers froze when her dad asked.
“I’m with Lexa, she’s braiding it.”
“Ohhh the famous Lexa, I want to see her.” She rolled her eyes at him making him laugh. Lexa peaked over her shoulder making herself visible to the camera.
“Hello Mr.Griffin.”
“Call me Jake please, Clarke has told me so much about you, I feel like I know you already.”
God how could he be so cool and embarrassing at the same time?
“Dad, stop.”
“What I’m not going to lie to the girl. Lexa next time Clarke comes over you have to come with her, I have to see if you are as amazing as she makes you out to be.”
“Dad!”
“I can tell you embarrassing stories!”
“Father! I have to go now.”
“I definitely wont miss out on the stories ser.”
“Its Jake. Goodnight girls behave.”
“Good night dad, we will talk about this tomorrow.”
“Goodnight Jake!”
She clicked the button to end the conversation her cheeks bright red. If she could hide without getting another swat from Lexa she would.
“You two seem close.”
Lexas hands dropped and Clarke felt that her hair was in a braided up do. Lexa swatted her hand away and she rubbed it. Turning so her legs were over Lexas and she was facing her.
“Yeah, he’s amazing I couldn’t have asked for a better father. Even if he loves to embarrass me.” She shook her head knowing the horrible things he would show and tell Lexa.
“That’s nice, I wish I had that.”
“You aren’t close with your father?”
“We were…. He died when I was sixteen, he was a police officer.”
Clarke couldn’t imagine what she would do if anything happened to her father, he was one of the most important people in her life. She would fall apart.
“Lexa I’m so-“
“Don’t say you are sorry, I hate when people say that, you didn’t kill him, don’t apologize.”
She nodded unsure of what to say or do. She stood up and went to her bag getting the bag within it. Lexa raised her eyebrows at her in question.
She sat back on the bed in her previous pistition.
“I wasn’t kidding about the bracelets Lexa.” She smiled brightly at Lexas face of realization as she pulled out two identical charm bracelets. She saw them at the store on her way to the bathroom at the show and knew they were perfect. Lion King charm bracelets.
Lexa smiled brightly and put her wrist out for Clarke to put one of them on her. She then put the other one on herself.
She watched as Lexa went over every charm her smile growing with each one.
“This is amazing Clarke. Thank you.” She was taken by surprise when Lexa jumped up and wrapped her arms around her pulling her in, so caught off guard that she was pulled forward and on top of her.
She was pressing Lexa into the bed but neither one of them tried to get up. Clarke stared at the green eyes below her and then down to the full and very soft looking lips. When Lexa licked her lips she bit her own.
She wasn’t thinking, not at all. When she moved forward and brushed their noses together her mind was blank. All she knew was she wanted more, she needed more. She ran her fingers along Lexas jaw and began to tilt it up. She needed to taste her.
She moved her other hand to Lexas hip and gripped it tightly eliciting a gasp, they were so close that she felt the air from Lexas mouth on her lips, so close. Her entire body was on fire where they touched. She closed her eyes ready to close the distance.
“Clarke, Luna”
Her eyes snapped open and she felt Lexa pushing on her shoulder for her to get up. Shit. She sat up quickly rubbing her face to hide her embarrassment. She tried to kiss her.
“Lexa, I’m so sorry.” Lexa just shook her head and scooted to the other side of the bed.“Oh my God Luna.” Lexa was rubbing her temples. Her heart was beating fast, too fast she was beginning to panic.
“Stop, its okay nothing happened Clarke, relax.”
“But I tried, I just tried to kiss you. What the fuck is wrong with me?”
“Look we drank too much, its fine, let it go. Please.”
Clarke wanted to roll her eyes they had two drinks each they weren’t drunk and they both knew it but she just nodded and focused on calming herself down.
Lexa grabbed her computer without saying a word and began setting up Netflix. They laid with a lot more space between them than usual. She thought Lexa was fast asleep after four episodes when she turned it off.
She turned to face her for a moment.
“I wouldn’t have stopped if you didn’t stop me.”
She was surprised when Lexas eyes shot open and she just stared at her. Neither of them said anything for a moment yet neither broke their eye contact. But then Lexa turned over giving her her back.
“I know.”
**Next Morning**
**Lexas POV**
She couldn’t sleep not with Clarke that close, not without replaying what happened over and over again in her mind.
She tossed and turned most of the night probably only getting three hours of sleep, spending the other 4 hours watching Clarke sleep, wondering what would of happened if she hadn’t stopped her but then Luna flashed into her mind every time she thought that and she felt like the worst person ever because she didn't want to stop her.
She wasn’t a cheater, she just wasn’t. At around seven thirty she climbed out of bed and got dressed. She glanced one more time at Clarkes sleeping form and left. She knew what she had to do, knew where she had to go. She just hoped she would be back before Clarke woke up.
The bell rang as she walked in, she went straight to the counter waving over the nearest waiter.
“Is Niylah here?”
The man nodded and went to the back, moments later Niylah walked out. Lexa knew the moment she recognized her by the glare she couldn’t quite contain, but she came over to her anyway.
“I remember you.”
“Can I get your number?”