If you let me down, let me down slow

The car stopped in front of the huge campus, a beautiful place, surrounded by trees; the students were walking around, talking about trivial things and laughing, they seemed very happy, unlike Clarke. She was sweating, nervousness taking over her body while she tried to less this awful feeling by fidgeting with her fingers.

“It’s OK Clarke, everything is going to be just fine, no need to get so tense.” Abby said to her daughter as she caressed her daughter’s back softly.

“What if I fail mom? What if I screw up this opportunity?” Clarke said and sighed.

She earned a full scholarship to Polis, one of the best colleges of the D.C. thanks to her great grades on high school. Clarke used to be confident, but college was something totally different, besides, medicine wasn’t simple, at all. Clarke didn’t want to disappoint her mother.

“You won’t screw anything up, Clarke. You’re is smart, I’m proud of you. I know you can do this.” Abby said, squeezing her daughter’s shoulder as reassurance.

Clarke nodded and hugged her mother “Thanks mom.”

She grabbed her bags from the trunk and after waving a good bye to her mother she walked towards the building that she would be living from now on. She exasperated her nervousness away and put her headphones on, she let the beats of the song fill her mind and kept walking, now more relaxed.

“You can tell me whatever you want, love
Cause I can't really guess what you want
If you let me down, let me down slow
If you let me down, let me down slow

If you got feelings for me
You just gotta speak honestly
If you let me down, let me down slow
If you let me down, let me down slow…”

*****

She was approaching her new room when a girl came in her direction, she got wrapped into a tight embrace, her best friend, Raven. The girl with red jacket and brown eyes let go of her friend to look at her face.

“I thought you weren’t coming anymore, you’re late!” She said, as she helped Clarke grabbing one of the bags she was carrying “It’s good to see you.”

“Yeah, I know… it’s good to see you too.” Clarke said, smiling relieved to see a familiar face.

“What are you bringing in this bag? An anvil?.” Raven said gasping for air as she dragged the bag with difficulty, but the playful smile never leaving her face.

Clarke shook her head and giggled “Looks like you need to work out, Raven.”

“Wait, what? No! I was kidding!” Raven grabbed the bag that was in Clarke’s hand and took the two bags to the room “Who did you say that need to work out, huh?”. Raven said proudly.

“Oh come on, I was just joking, but thanks for bringing my bags, that was really kind of you.” Clarke said in a playful tone.

“Whatever.” Raven huffed rolling her eyes.
They walked into room and dropped the bags on the bed, Clarke let out a long sigh and sat on the bed.

“What are you doing?” Raven grasped Clarke’s wrist pulling her out of the bed, Clarke frowned and protested. “I just got here and I have to unpack my stuff! Where are you taking me?” Clarke said hesitatingly of leaving the room.

“I want you to know my new friends, they are pretty cool, and I want to show you the campus, so let’s go!” She said reaching out to grab Clarke’s wrist again.

Clarke hid her wrist behind her back, stopping her friend of reach her wrist again. “Oh, come on! Can’t we do this later, I’m tired…” She said pouting.

“Arg… all right princess, I’ll let you rest, but I’ll come back soon to get you out of this room, even if I need to drag you down, ok?” Raven said with a smirk on her face.

“Ok, ok… see you later.”

Raven walked out of the room and Clarke closed the door, she threw herself on the bed and buried her face into the pillow trying to get some sleep before Raven come back and drag her away. She was almost falling sleep when she heard the sound of the door opening and groaned.

“What the hell Raven, I said I–” She turned around and saw a girl, but she wasn’t Raven, she was a tall woman with tanned skin, chestnut hair and beautiful green eyes that were narrowed looking at her with confusion.
“I uh, I’m sorry, I thought it was someone else.”

Clarke sat straight on the bed before speaking again. “I’m Clarke Griffin, your new roommate.”

Blue eyes locked with green ones for more time than it supposed to be, but the brunette looked away.

“I don’t care.”

The brunette said it harshly as she grabbed her car keys on her desk and got out of the room closing the door abruptly, leaving an open mouthed Clarke behind. Clarke frowned as a rage grew on her chest.
“What a bitch!” She said before leaving the room as well.

*****

“Listen, you should ignore this girl, Clarke, if you don’t get along with your roommate the best thing to do is to ignore her and avoid any arguments.” Raven said while fixing something on her desk.

Clarke let out a long sigh. “You right, violence not always need to answer violence.”
Clarke’s stomach rumbled loud. “I think I need to feed a monster.” Clarke said rubbing her stomach.

“Yes, I heard it, loud and clear! Let’s grab something to eat.” Raven giggled and stood up walking out of the room with Clarke.
“To the nearest snack bar, please!” Clarke shouted.

They’re were going to the snack bar when they saw a brunette waving towards them. “HEY PRINCESS!” Clarke immediately recognized the girl, it was Octavia, one of her best friends. Octavia approached them and hugged Clarke and Raven tight with a smile drawn on her face.

“When did you get here princess?” Octavia asked Clarke.

“I got here a couple of hours ago... we’re going to grab something to eat, why don’t you come with us?” Clarke answered.

“I think she has someone way more interesting than us to hang out with, Clarke.” Raven said playfully teasing her friend pointing at a tall and strong guy with brown tanned skin.

“Wow, really? Will you introduce him to us O.? He looks pretty hot.” Clarke teased giggling along with Raven. “You should ask him to come too.”

Octavia just rolled her eyes and started walking “No, he’s going to go out with his sister… So, where are we going?” Octavia asked as she looked forward.

“I think we can go to Arkadia, they have delicious burgers!” Raven said as she put her hands into her jacket's pockets.

“That sounds good.” Octavia said and turned around to look at her friends “You two are paying though, I didn’t bring my wallet.” She said winking at her friends.

*****

The waitress came to their table to deliver their order. “Here, tree x-burgers, and sodas. Anything else misses?” She said putting their plates on the table.

“No, thanks.” Clarke answered as she grabbed one x-burger and started to devour it. “Hmm, delicious. I was starving.”

“Take it easy princess, the burger is not going anywhere.” Raven joked seeing the hunger of the blonde.

“Gross!” Octavia said rolling her eyes.

“I just really needed this burger right now.” Clarke stopped eating to look at Octavia with a mischievous grin. “What about that cute guy O. Will you tell me who he is?”

“Well, he’s a friend, Lincoln. I met him last month and I found out that we were going to the same college… and you know, now we’re hanging out. He’s a really sweet man.” Octavia said smiling just of the memory of Lincoln through her head.

“Yeah, friend, I think you forgot tree letters O.” Raven said teasing her friend.

“Shut up Raven! He’s cool, but where not dating… not yet.” Octavia said smiling.

“Mhm, I got it. So, Clarke, what about Finn?” Raven asked looking at Clarke with a frown wanting for an answer.

“What about him?” Clarke said as she cleaned her mouth with a napkin.

“Well, you know… did you accept his apologies?” Raven asked worried about her friend.

Finn was Clarke’s boyfriend since they were 16, but just before she goes to college, Finn cheated on her and left a heartbroken Clarke behind. He tried to apologize, but Clarke wouldn’t listen. They were dating for 4 years now, and she didn’t know if she really wanted to break up with him, but she wasn’t stupid. Clarke knew she deserved better than a cheater.

“I… I was in love with him, but I can’t keep dating someone I don’t trust anymore.” Clarke lowered her eyes, sad for remembering those terrible moments, when she saw him kissing another girl. It hurt Clarke deeply.

Octavia shook her head and frowned at Raven like saying “Why did you have to bring this up?”

Raven tried to ease the tension she has caused by changing the subject.
“Hey, Clarke! I just remembered that Jasper is having a party tonight at his place, we’ll have fun! There’ll be goof music, drinks… and maybe you could meet some cute boy or girl?” Raven winked at Clarke with a mischievous grin on her face.

“I don’t know, I don’t think I’m on the mood.”

“It’ll be fun, I promise. You don’t have to sleep with anyone, just dance and drink something. You need this! For your own sake.”

“You know what? You’re right.”

“Yes! That’s the spirit princess!” Raven celebrated high fiving Clarke.

The tree friends talked and laughed about silly things and what they expected for the year of college. After several hours they decided to leave Arkadia and get back to the campus, they needed to choose their outfits to the upcoming party. When they were about to leave, they bumped into Lincoln at the entrance of the place.

“Octavia!” He said with enthusiasm. “I didn’t know you were here.”

“Yep, just having a good time with my friends…”

“Of course, and what a rudeness… Hello Raven, good to see you.” He said as he shook her hand.”

“Good to see you too Linc.”

“That’s my other friend, Clarke, she got here today.” Octavia said pointing to Clarke with her hand.

“Oh, nice to meet you Clarke.” He said shaking her hand.

“Nice to meet you too Lincoln.” She said smiling.

A awkward silence started to form when Raven broke it.

“We’re going to a party tonight, you wanna come?” Raven asked Lincoln.

“Sure, I’d love to. Thank you for the invitation.” He said smiling at Octavia’s direction “I see you there Octavia.”

“I guess so. See you there then.” She said as the trio walked away.

Clarke was walking behind her two friends, she was looking around, listening to the birds chirping when she met green eyes that now we’re looking at her either. She felt something weird at the girl’s gaze, like butterflies in her stomach. She didn’t understand the reason of this feeling, she was pissed at the brunette, this was not what she supposed to be feeling right now, but she kept staring as defying the woman. The brunette narrowed her eyes and quickly turned her face around to avoid Clarke’s glare, then she got in Arkadia. Clarke chuckled at the action of the brunette and kept walking.

*****

“What do you say Lexa, are you coming or not?” Lincoln asked his younger sister as he ate his burger.

“I don’t want to go to any party Lincoln, you know that I don’t like parties.” She said sighing.

“Please, you need to go to this party, you need a time to have fun. You’re tense these days.”

“Yeah, I know… It’s just that, Costia is driving me mad.” The brunette said with sadness in her voice.

“Yes, I know, but you have to make a decision. These fights are not healthy, for any of you.”

“You’re right, I think the right thing to do is to free both of us. But I really care about her and don’t blame her bitterness, I pulled her away…”

“If your relationship is not surviving the distance, maybe that’s a sign.”

“Well… I love her, but no like a girlfriend, just as as a friend.”

“So you better tell her the truth and get this over with.”

“I don’t want to hurt her.” Lexa said closing her fists.

“If you keep lying to her, you’re gonna hurt both of you. Just go there and talk to her.”

“Yes, you’re right, I can’t keep avoiding seeing her. I can’t keep lying to her about my feelings. I’ll go this weekend. Thank you brother, for supporting me.” Lexa said with a faintly smile.

“Always, Lexi.” He said squeezing his sister’s hand.

“Arg, don’t call me that!” Lexa said rolling her eyes.

“Ok, fine, I was just kidding.” He said laughing. “So, are you going to the party tonight or not?”

“Yeah, I think I really need a drink… or lots of it.”

*****

Clarke entered her dorm and started to unpack her things, she had to find her clothes and make up to go to the party.
After several minutes, she had unpacked all her stuff, she actually unpacked everything really quickly.

She sat on her bad and sighted “Finally! Now I just have to get ready to this party thing…”

Clarke got into the bathroom to take a quick shower before the party. She started to take off her clothes and turned on the shower. She washed her hair first, running her hand through it and letting out a sigh of pleasure of the touch of warm water over her skin.

Lexa entered the room with her headphones on. After a long running she was all sweaty and needed to take a shower, she took off her hoodie, her sneakers and her socks, then she increased the volume of the music.

“But I won't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Passion or coincidence
Once prompted you to say
"Pride will tear us both apart"
Well, now pride's gone out the window
Cross the rooftops
Run away
Left me in the vacuum of my heart”

Yep, Lexa loved these classic songs, specially rock, when she was running.

She made her way to the bathroom and opened the door fast, actually, way too fast to Clarke realize that someone was coming.

“WHAT THE FUCK?” Clarke yelled totally embarrassed as her cheeks turned red.

“OMG, I… I’m sorry, I didn’t know you were here.” Lexa said stammering and getting out of the bathroom as fast as she could. Her cheeks were red and she was breathing hard. She was so embarrassed that she got out of the room before Clarke get out of the bathroom.

After some minutes the blonde got out of the bathroom, still with a trace of pink on her cheeks. She saw that the brunette was gone and locked the door of the room to prevent having another incident like that when she changed her clothes.

Clarke chose a black short and sleeveless dress that fit her body with perfection emphasizing her curves.

“Hey, princess! Are you ready? The party is waiting for us, GET OUT OF THERE!” Raven said hitting the door.

“I’m coming out you dumbass, now stop making noise!” Clarke opened the door “So what you guys think?”

“Wow, you look gorgeous princess!” Raven said whistling.

“Yep, I think the princess wants to find someone to fill the throne beside her.” Octavia said giggling.

“Haha, come on guys! I just want to have a good night with no issues, and love is kinda troublemaker.”

“Damn right princess, now let’s go, Bellamy is waiting for us.” Raven said.

“Wait, Bellamy is here?” Clarke asked.

“Yep, he’s here to make sure that I won’t have fun.” Octavia said rolling her eyes.

“Cheer up O. Clarke and I won’t let Bellamy screw anything up this time. Right, princess?”

“Of curse! We got your back O.”

“Thanks guys, you’re the best.”

*****

The music was loud, the beats of the song making the floor vibrate. Teens dancing, drinking and making out , just the usual as any other crazy college party. The trio entered the house and headed to bar.

“Hey Jasper!” Raven shouted her friend that was preparing some cocktails.

“Hey Rae!” The thin boy with weird googles on top of his head shouted back.

Raven and Clarke sat on stools as Jasper gave them the cocktails. Octavia didn’t sit, she was seeking for Lincoln, but he didn’t arrive yet.

“Chill O., he must be on his way, just sit down and drink with us, will ya?” Raven said pulling her friend next to one of the stools.

“Ok, ok… Hey Jasper, where’s my cocktail?” She said frowning at her friend.

“Just a second O.” Jasper said as he started to prepare another cocktail.

Lincoln and Lexa entered the house, he was looking for Octavia, and Lexa just wanted a drink and stay the hell away of other people. Lexa wasn’t the most social person in the world, she was private person, she didn’t like parties at all, but she came anyway because of her brother’s insistence. He said she needed to have a little bit of fun. In the past years the only thing that Lexa did was to study hard. Lexa didn’t even had time to spend with her girlfriend that was in another college. The distance just pulled them more apart from each other than they already were. Lexa was dating Costia for 3 years; she wasn’t sure of her feelings anymore though, but she also didn’t want to hurt Costia’s feelings. Costia loved Lexa way too much and Lexa knew it, but tonight Lexa didn’t want to think about these feelings that were breaking her heart, she just wanted to drink and forget about her problems, even if just for one night.

The two headed to the bar to get some drink when Lincoln spotted Octavia. “It’s her!” Lincoln said with a smile spreading on his face.

“I see…” Lexa said looking at the bar, and then this time was her who was stunned at a woman’s vision. “It’s her.” She said seeing the blonde laughing with her friends, she didn’t realize that she was also smiling.

“What?” Lincoln said narrowing his eyes.

“What what?” Lexa said frowning at him.

“Nevermind, I’ll talk to her.” He said walking to meet Octavia.

Lincoln walked to the bar, Octavia jumped off the stool and hugged Lincoln as soon as she saw him, he greeted Raven and Clarke and walked away with Octavia beside him.

Lexa gathered a little bit more of courage before going to the bar, she was still ashamed of the rude way she treated the blonde the first time they met and embarrassed of seeing her naked in the bathroom early, her cheeks become pink as she remembered it.

After letting out a long sigh she approached the bar and tried to apologize to the blonde “Hi, uh… Clarke, right?” the blonde looked at her but ignored the brunette’s question and kept drinking her booze. Lexa lowered her head and nodded it as an understatement to the blonde's action. “Fair enough.” She thought, turning her head to Jasper and asked him a drink.

One of Clarke favorites songs started to play.
“Yes! I love this song, come on Rae, we have to dance!” Clarke said pulling her friend out of the stool.

“Hey! No! I was kinda busy here.” Raven said pointing with the corners of her eyes to a boy that was sit next to her. “You go dance, bye.” She pushed Clarke and got back to her flirting game.

Clarke rolled her eyes and headed to the dance floor. The brunette finished her drink with one last sip and gone after the blonde. Lexa reached Clarke’s arm to stop her.
“Wait, please.” She said with a smooth voice, she didn’t want to scare Clarke.

“What do you want?” Clarke said harshly yanking her arm away from Lexa's grip.

“I just wanted to apologize for my behavior early. I didn’t mean to treat you like that, I was having a rough time. So please, forgive me.” The brunette begged.

Clarke melted at the brunette’s action, asking for forgiveness with a sad look on her eyes like an abandoned puppy on the street. She actually chuckled a bit.

The brunette frowned at her action, she thought she was making fun of her. “It’s ok… really. I understand, sometimes I have one of those rough days too, everybody does.” She said with a amicable smirk. The brunette immediately smoothed her look and nodded.

“So… we’re ok?”

“Yes. I don’t want to spend my whole year in college hating my roommate because of a silly thing like that.”

“Of course.” Lexa said smiling “My name is Lexa, by the way.” She held out her hand to the blonde.

Clarke shook her hand with a smile on her face, she felt those butterflies on her stomach again when she felt the soft and warm skin of the brunette against hers.

The brunette was the first to break the contact. “I almost forgot, I also wanted to apologize for the inconvenience… I didn’t know you were in th–”

“I got it, that’s okay.” Clarke said as her cheeks turned pink and chuckled seeing that the cheeks of the brunette become red as a tomato, Lexa tried to mask her embarrassment but Lexa wasn’t that subtle.

"..."

“Do you wanna dance?”

“I’m not the dancer type.”

“I can teach you! Come on, it’ll be fun!”

She hesitated, but this time was Clarke who was looking at her like a lonely puppy on the street. “I, uh… fine.”

Clarke grabbed Lexa’s wrist and headed to the dance floor.

Clarke began to move her hips, side to side, slowly, running her hands over her body, letting the beats of the song control her body. Lexa’s eyes were following every single move of the blonde.

“Won’t you try? You just have to move.”

Clarke grabbed Lexa’s hands and put it on her waist “Here.”

Lexa clenched her jaw, she was nervous, Clarke was so pretty, but Lexa kiked herself mentally. Lexa still was Costia's girlfriend.

She pulled away of Clarke and when she turned around she saw a girl with sad eyes, almost crying, staring at her with disappointment.

“Costia?”