Chapter 2
Shit. Lexa thought as soon as she saw Costia, what she feared most happened, she hurt Costia. Costia wasn’t the jealous type, she was kind and she trusted Lexa, but not seeing her girlfriend for months and then finding her dancing with someone else, was really painful.
Lexa tried to get close, slowly, but Costia moved away from the brunette.
“Costia, wait! That’s not–” Lexa tried to reach her but the dark skinned woman has vanished among the other students. “I can’t believe it…” The brunette said running her hand through her hair, trying to calm down.
“Hey, what happened?” Clarke said touching her shoulder lightly.
“I doesn’t matter, I have to go now.” The brunette said walking away.
Clarke frowned, she didn’t see Costia, and she didn’t understand why the brunette was so worried. Maybe she was just shy… Clarke wondered.
Lexa tried again “Come on Cos. answer the phone!”
The brunette threw her phone on her bed and punched the mattress when the call went to voice mail once again.
Lexa kneeled on the floor and put her head on the bed sighing. She heard someone knocking the door gently and got up fast, she thought it could be Costia.
“Can I come in?” Clarke said with cautious voice.
“Clarke?”
The blonde opened the door and got in the room.
“You didn’t have to knock, this is your bedroom either.”
“I know, it’s just that you didn’t look like you were feeling well, I didn’t want to bother.”
“It’s ok. I just messed up…” Lexa said lowering her gaze to the floor.
“What do you mean? Wanna talk about it?”
“Not really. I just need some air.” Lexa said getting out of the room.
“Look, I know we just met, but I’m here if you need someone to talk.” Clarke said to the brunette before she leaves the room.
Clarke was a really caring person, and that’s the reason she wanted to become a doctor, to help people, and it wouldn’t be different in this situation.
Lexa nodded without turning her face and walked out the room.
Clarke and laid down on her bed, and in a matter of time she fell asleep. Clarke was too tired to even take a shower, at least that was the excuse she was using to herself.
*****
Lexa was pacing around the campus, she was worried about Costia, she had been using excuses not too see her girlfriend. Not that Lexa didn’t care about Costia, but she didn’t want to face the girl, to tell her how she really felt.
Lexa felt a buzz in her slacks and reached fast to her phone “Hello? Costia?” She asked in a desperate tone, without even knowing who it really was.
“No, you dumbass, this is not Costia!”
“Anya?”
“Yes! Lexa, I can’t believe you have done this to her!”
“Wait, Anya, just listen to me! This is a misunderstanding!”
“No! You listen you looser, when I made the huge mistake of introducing Costia to you, I did this thinking that you were the best person for her. She is my best friend Lexa, she trusted you, I trusted you, I can’t believe how you hurt her.”
Anya was Costia’s best friend, and she was like a big sister to Lexa, so she managed to get them two together. She thought it would be a good idea, at the moment. Now she was upset because Lexa hurt Costia like that.
“I know, and I’m sorry. But it’s not what you think, I need to talk to her, you need to tell me where she is.” Lexa begged “Please, Anya.”
Anya sighed and pinched her nose, trying to calm her nerves “She’s sleeping. But I’ll talk to her tomorrow.”
“All right, thank you Anya.”
“But first, we will have a little talk tomorrow.”
“Of course, see you tomorrow then.”
“Yeah.” Any responded dryly.
Lexa shoved her phone back in her pockets and headed back to her room, she was really worried about Costia, she didn’t even know if she would be able to get some sleep after that. Lexa hated to disappoint people, especially the ones she loved.
*****
BEEP. BEEP. BEEP.
“Geez!” Clarke mumbled putting her pillow over her head. “Turn this off." Her voice muffled by the pillow.
“Oh, I’m sorry, I forgot to turn it off last night.” Lexa said reaching out to turn the alarm clock off.
The blonde was too sleepy to say anything else, and got back to sleep as soon as the bothering noise stopped.
Lexa sat on her bed rubbing her eyes and moved slowly to the bathroom, she turned the shower on and let out a deep breath. Today Lexa had to clear things up between her and Costia. It won’t be easy. She told to herself.
After a long shower the brunette got out of the bathroom, already dressed with gym clothes. She picked her phone and unlocked the screen. 6:00 am. "Time to get your shit together Lexa."
Lexa got out of the room and put her headphones on.
Tree hours later Clarke woke up, she was still dizzy because of the sleepiness and she was feeling a headache. “Why did you have to drink that much?” She told to herself.
Clarke turned her face to the nightstand still managing to open her eyes and saw that she just got a notification on her phone, she took her phone and looked at it with narrowed eyes as she unlocked the screen.
Mom
9:23 am: Hi, sweetheart, I don’t know if you are already awake, so I’ll just leave this message. How are you doing? I love you, call me when you can.
Clarke smiled at the message, but didn’t answer anything, she was planning to call her mother later.
Clarke got off her bed and went straight to the bathroom to take a Wake-The-Fuck-Up cold shower.
After getting ready, Clarke went to Raven’s room.
“Hey, Reyes! Open up!” The blonde knocked the door for several times, but no one answered, so she got back to her room.
When she entered the room Lexa was already there.
“Hey.” Clarke said without much enthusiasm.
“Hello, Clarke...”
Clarke sat on her bed and let out a long sigh, facing the ceiling.
“Are you okay?” The brunette asked as she took her sneakers off.
“Yes, it’s just that I thought I could have breakfast with my friends, but they weren’t in their room.”
“Oh… Well, I didn’t have breakfast yet, so if you just wait while I change, we can go to a coffee shop nearby.”
“Sure, why not?” The blonde answered with a little smile.
The brunette quickly changed her clothes in the bathroom and got out of there, she took her jacket and put it on.
“So, let’s go!” The brunette said opening the door and letting Clarke walk out of the bedroom first.
*****
The two entered the coffee shop. And picked a table. The waitress came quickly to their table.
“What it’ll be ladies?” The waitress asked with a polite smile on her face.
“To me, a chocolate frappuccino, please… uh…” Clarke looked at the apron of the waitress trying to read the name written “…Harper.” The blonde said with a polite smile.
“Ok… and what about you ma'am?” Harper asked looking at Lexa, who’s was distracted looking through the window thinking about her upcoming meeting with Costia. “Ma’am?” She tried again.
Lexa snapped out of her thoughts and looked at the waitress “Sorry… I’ll just want black coffee.”
“Is something wrong?” Clarke said with a frowning.
“No, it’s nothing.”
“Ok, then…” Clarke put her hands over the table and started fidgeting with her fingers “There’s anything that I should know about you?”
“What? What you mean?” The brunette asked confused.
“We’re roommates so I think it'd be good to get to know each other better.”
“Of course…” The brunette narrowed her eyes thoughtful. “I don’t like cats.”
Clarke laughed at the statement “That’s something, I guess.”
The brunette just smiled “Yes, I think you already figured out that I’m not the best when it comes to social skills.”
“That’s OK. I’ll try to help you.” Clarke said smiling “So, what are you studying for?”
“I’m studying to become a lawyer.”
“Woah, so you’re a future lawyer? Awesome.” Clarke said enthusiastically trying to cheer her up, she realized that the brunette wasn’t too happy.
“Yes, that’s what I want. What My parents always wanted. They were both lawyers, and I…” Lexa stopped when she remembered about her parents. They were good people, always supporting Lexa and being there for her.
Clarke instantly understand what was going on, and that made her remember about her father, a engineer who died in a car crash.
She squeezed Lexa's hand trying to bring some comfort the brunette. Lexa just gave her a little smile and nodded as a thank you.
The brunette broke the silence “What about you?”
“Medicine…” She paused before continuing “My mom is a doctor, she loves to help people, and so do I.”
The brunette opened her mouth to say something when she was cut by Raven who was approaching their table with Octavia.
“Hey, princess!” Raven said sitting beside Clarke, Octavia just kept standing there.
“Rae! Where the hell have you been?” Clarke said crossing her arms.
“It’s not my fault if you like to sleep until noon.”
Clarke scoffed and glared at her friends “Wait, what? You’re the one who kept me in that party until 2 am.”
Raven rolled her eyes and glanced at the brunette. “Will you introduce your new friend?” She said looking back at Clarke.
“Oh, yes. This is Lexa, my roommate. Lexa these are Raven and Octavia, my best friends in the world.”
Lexa shook both of their hands and gave them a polite smile without saying anything.
“Your roommate? The same you called a jer–” Raven was cut off by a elbow on her rips.
Lexa’s phone buzzed on the table, Anya sent her a text saying to meet her at the square that was close to her house, Lexa stand up as she read the text.
“I have to go now, sorry.” She said taking some cash from her pocket and putting it on the table. “Here.”
“It’s not necessary, I can pay.” Clarke offered.
“No, that’s on me.” She said with a smile and walked away.
When the brunette was out of sight when Raven started to speak again “So, how I was saying, didn’t you say that she was a jerk? Also a bitch if I recall correctly.”
“Yes, I thought she was by the way she treated me, but she’s actually a good person, she was just having a hard time.”
“Uhm. I see…” Raven looked up at Octavia with a mischievous grin on her face, Octavia who understand instantly what this was about, rolled her eyes with a smile on her face. “So, Clarke…”
“Yes?” Clarke said as she took a sip of her frappuccino.
“Your roommate is pretty hot, isn’t she?”
Clarke almost choked “What?”
“You heard what I said.”
“Yes, but… you know what? Don’t even start it Raven.” She said turning her face to window. Lexa was actually pretty cute, she thought, but snapped out of her thoughts quickly.
*****
Lexa was walking towards the square when she spotted Anya seated on a bench. She approached cautiously to the taller woman.
“Anya?”
“Lexa.” Anya said standing up. “Let’s take a walk.”
Lexa only nodded following her almost sister, who was really disappointed, and Lexa knew that.
“It was a misunderstanding, Anya. I wasn’t doing an–”
Anya cut her off “I know, I know you would never cheat on Costia, you’re not that kind of jerk…” She said with a steady voice. “That’s not the reason I’m upset with you.”
Lexa nodded in understandment.
“I know things between you and Costia aren’t going well. You pushed her away Lexa. You shut her down."
Lexa let out a deep breath “I know, I didn’t mean to hurt her Anya. I thought that staying away was the best choice to do. I didn’t know how to say that I don’t love her anymore without breaking her heart.”
“I love you Lexa, but you’re so stupid. If you didn’t love her anymore, you just had to spill it out.”
“I see it now. But I was afraid of how she would look at me, how she'd hate me. I still am.”
They stopped in front of Anya's apartment.
“Well, you know what to do. So stop being a coward.”
“I’ll try to fix it Anya.”
“I don’t think you can fix it, the damage is done, but you can do the right thing.” Anya said before walking away.
Anya lived on the third floor, so Lexa opted for the stairs. She thought time after time what she would say to Costia. But there wasn’t an easier way to do that, she just had to be honest.
She took a long breathe before knocking on the door. “Costia?”
“It’s not locked.” Lexa heard from the other side of the door.
“Hi.” She said as she entered the apartment.
“Hi.” Costia answered with a sad tone on her voice. “You came.”
“Of course I did.”
“I didn’t know if you were coming, you’ve been avoiding me for so long that I thought this time wouldn’t be different.”
Ouch. That words hurt Lexa deeply “I am so, so, sorry Costia...” She sit beside her on the couch and took her hands in hers “I want you to know that you mean the world to me. I love you…”
“But?” Costia said with teary eyes.
Oh, that eyes that showed so much pain, because of her. She caused this to Costia. “But not the way you love me. Not the way you need to be loved. I’m sorry Cos.”
Costia nodded and sighed trying not to cry “Don’t be, it’s not you fault, you can’t control your feelings.”
“I wish I could. If I could, I would choose to love you the way you deserve to be loved.” Lexa said lowering her head.
Costia lifted Lexa’s chin with her fingers and cupped the brunette’s face “I know…” She brought Lexa closer and kissed her cheek.
“Do you hate me?” Lexa asked with a shaky voice.
“No, but you really hurt me when you pushed me away, no even saying why.”
“I know and I'm so sor–”
“It’s ok, Lex. Really.”
Lexa closed the gap between them wrapping Costia into a tight embrace. “You’re such an amazing human being, I don't deserve you. I love you.”
Costia pulled away of the embrace to look at the brunette face “I love you too… not in the same way, but… I think ending up things is the best for both of us.”
Lexa nodded with a faintly smile “Can we still be friends?”
“Yes, of course Lex. I just need some time.”
“Sure, take your time, and when you’re ready, call me. We may be over as a couple, but I don’t want to loose you.”
“You won’t.”
“Are you living now?”
“Yes, Anya is taking me back.”
“Oh, ok.”
“So… you and that girl?”
“No! She is just my roommate, and she just asked me to dance with her, but there’s nothing between us. I actually barely know her.”
“I got it…” Costia looked at her watch before continuing “I think it’s time to go.”
“Right… I’ll help you.” Lexa said grabbing Costia's bags.
“Thanks Lex.”
Lexa helped Costia to take her bags to Anya’s car. After saying goodbye, Anya started the car engine and drove away.
*****
Clarke, Raven, Octavia and Lincoln were sitting on the edge of Clarke’ bed, watching a movie on her laptop. They started to get up as the credits rolled on the screen.
“I think I better get going.” Lincoln said as he stand up.
“Yeah, me too.” Octavia said walking to the door with Raven beside her.
“Bye princess.” Raven said before walking out of the room.
Clarke closed her laptop and put it on her desk. She turned off the lights and laid on her bed to get some sleep, but before she could close her eyes the door cracked open. "Lexa." She muttered.
Lexa entered the room on the tips of her toes, closing the door slowly behind her.
“What are you? A super spy?"
“Haha. I was trying to be quite. I didn’t want to wake you up.”
“You didn’t.”
Lexa turned the lights on and entered the bathroom to take a quick shower, she changed to really, really, short jersey shorts and a white tank top showing her tattoo on her right arm.
She got out of the bathroom and was about to turn the lights off when Clarke started to speak.
“Nice tattoo.”
“Oh. Thanks.” The brunette said with a smirk.
Clarke nodded and turned her back to the brunette getting comfy on her bed. The brunette turned off the lights and laid down on her bed.
“Good night, Lexa.”
“Night, Clarke.”
She is actually pretty hot. Clarke thought.