Not my fault but I'll take it as mine.
What is family? 'Family' is a single word, with many different meanings. People have many ways of defining a family and what being a part of a family means to them. Families differ in terms of economic, cultural, social, and many other facets, but what every family has in common is that the people who call it a family are making clear that those people are important in some way to the person calling them his family. Statistically, family is no longer a mother, a father and their biological children living together under one roof (and certainly not with Dad going off to work and Mom staying home). Although perception and acceptance often lag behind reality, there is evidence that a new definition of family — while far from universally accepted — is emerging. Family means a lot more than a relative by blood or marriage. It means the people who accept you no matter who you are, where there's no hatred or judgment. The love of a family should be unconditional, and everyone should try their best to provide all they can for the people in their family, emotionally and financially. Family are the people that everyone deserves to feel secure, and comfortable with, even if they aren't lucky enough to have that. Holtzmann always thought that about family, her grandfather and her mother were her family. But after that...she was alone. Was she? No.
Many people consider friends to be as close or even closer than extended (or immediate) family. People who have lost close family members may create a family unit of friends with similar interests and goals to become replacements or enhancements to a lacking family structure. This type of family unit, while untraditional, can be just as close, if not closer, than a traditional structure. Friends are chosen by an individual; at times, these people may be more special or important than the family a person was born with. In addition, some people who have supportive families also have an extensive network of friends who they consider to be a second family or as additions to their blood or legal relatives. For Holtz, Dr. Gorin was part of her family, she always believed in her, she never judge her, when Holtzmann came out to Dr. Gorin, all she did was smile at her and hug her, Jillian will never forget the words that left Dr. Gorin's mouth 'No matter what, know your value, nothing else matters, you are you and it's always going to be that way'. Dr. Gorin was a big part of Holtzmann's life, she was thankful for her. When she met Abby, she thought that maybe Abby was going to think she was crazy and she was going to walk away but stead, she stayed and became part of Holtzmann's life. Then Erin, Patty and Kevin came to the story, Holtz couldn't be happier. Holtzmann didn't need more. She was happy, she had her own little family, it was all she ever wanted.
"Holtz!" Holtzmann looked at Kevin who was standing in front of her already.
"Hey buddy, what's up?" Holtzmann smiled.
"Oh just wanted to come say hi. Hi." Kevin smiled.
Holtzmann chuckled. "Kev, if Erin or Abby or Patty sent you to take care of me, don't you worry about it, alright?"
"Well, but I'm here if you need me, we are a team and you're like my little sister, actually big sister because you know more about everything than I do but...sisters and brothers are always there for each other so, I'm here for you." Kevin smiled.
Holtzmann looked surprised at Kevin and then smiled. "That's...wow, never thought I would hear you say that but...you are right and you are like my brother." Holtzmann smiled and hugged him. "Now, go answer those calls."
"Yes ma'am." Kevin saluted and then went down to join the others.
Holtzmann laughed a little and kept focusing on her work, at the end of the day, she thought it was the only thing that could keep her away from her thoughts. She did not expect him to come back and look for her, it was not fair. Why did she want to talk to her? Why did he come back? He never loved her, he never cared, he was an asshole when he was with her, he treated her like shit, it was not fair at all.
"Holtzy?" Patty asked again, furrowing her eyebrows.
Holtzmann snapped out of her thoughts and looked at Patty. "Swet Patty, what you doing up here?" Holtzmann smiled.
"Yo, what happend to you? I've been here for like 10 minutes and you were deep in your thoughts. Everything alright?"
Holtzmann smiled. "Everything's fine, my precious."
"Alright then." Patty sigh. "Hey, Abs and Gilbert went to the market and I know they are going to be in there for a good time so, why don't we go see rings? We got the size and we can go look for it." Patty smirked.
"Sure thing, let's gooo!" Holtzmann smiled and took her googles off. Maybe that was going to keep her mind clean.
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"Hey Erin, is Holtz alright?" Abby looked at Erin.
"She is now, or at least that's what she told me." Erin sigh.
"What really happend yesterday? Who was that man?"
"All I can tell you is that he was Jillian's father. I'm not sure if Holtz wants me to tell you what she told me."
Abby nodded. "I totally get that, I'm just glad that you are there for her." Abby smiled.
Erin smiled. "I'll never leave her, I love her way too much to leave her, more in a moment like this."
"You guys are seriously goals." Abby grabbed what was on the list.
Erin laughed. "Don't be ridiculous."
"You guys really became a clumsy couple."
Erin laughed again and shook her head. "Well I mean...I think it's worth it."
"I can tell it is. You guys don't care about if someone sees you kissing or holding hands."
"Why should we? Couples do that."
"But they never thought that the ghostbusters were going to do that." Abby smirked and laughed.
"Well yeah, I actually never thought I would do that. I mean, I wasn't into girls or at least that's what I thought...I kind of was."
"Kind of because you asked a girl out."
"Well it was to prove if I was into girls."
"So you're saying that you proved you were right when you kissed Holtzmann?"
"When I started liking Holtzmann, when I couldn't stop thinking about her, that's when I knew."
"Ah right." Abby noddedand grabbed some more things.
"Jillian is just..." Erin smiled. "She's different and I love that. She's just awesome and I just really love her."
"We have no doubt about that, Erin." Abby laughed.
"Stop laughing about it, yes, I'm in love and I don't really care because I'm happy and she's all I want, I'm crazy for her."
"We all can tell that you are crazy for each other." Abby laughed and looked at Erin. "Erin?" Erin stopped and looked at Abby. Abby sigh. "I just want you to know that I'm very happy for you even if I make fun of you."
Erin smiled. "I know that and thank you."
Abby smiled. "Now, let's hurry up because I bet that your crazy engineer is crying for you."
Erin laughed. "Shut up!"
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"I'm telling you, it was the best desicion you've ever made, Holtzy."
"I just...I want Erin to love it, I want everything to be perfect, you know?" Holtzmann looked at her.
"I know, Holtz. But I know that Erin would care less about that, she will be excited for you to propose."
Holtzmann smiled and nodded. "You are right."
"Do you know how you want to propose?"
"Not yet but I'll figure it out."
"Well in like 6 months is your anniversary so maybe you can plan something."
"Right but...I don't think I want to wait that long."
"Oh come on, girl! They will be 6 months, they will pass flying, you won't even notice." Patty nodded.
"I just...well yeah. God I don't know. What if Erin regrets what she said and she says no?"
"I'm sure she won't. Baby, she loves you way to much to say no to you. You guys have been together for a long time now, I'm sure she will say yes."
Holtzmann sigh. "You are right. I'm just overreacting."
"Something you don't normally do, damn it."
Holtzmann laughed. "What can I say? I'm in love."
Patty laughed. "I didn't notice, Holtz." Patty looked at the ring once again and then heard the door.
"Guys! We are home!"
Patty closed the little box and hide it on her jacket. She looked around and smiled. "Hey you girls!"
"Heeey!" Holtzmann smiled.
Erin left the bags in the table and smiled. "Hey Patty. Hey babe." Erin hugged Holtzmann.
Holtzmann picked Erin up and smiled. "Hey, my beautiful Erin."
Erin laughed a little and pulled away, kissing Holtzmann's lips lightly. Erin smiled against Holtzmann's lips and giggled. "Missed me?" Holtzmann put her down still holding her.
"Everytime you're not with me." Holtzmann winked at her and Erin blushed.
"Uuuggghhh come ooooon you guys! Holtz, that's an old pick up line, couldn't you pick a better one?" Abbby said while Patty was laughing her ass off.
"She loved it." Holtzmann said looking at Erin and smiling.
Patty rolled her eyes. "I wouldn't have fallen for that."
"I wouldn't have either." Abby shook her head.
"Well I did." Erin cupped Holtzmann's cheek with her hand and smiled.
Abby rolled ehr eyes. "Clumsy couples, what did we do wrong?!" Abby said while walking to the downstairs and raising her hands to the air. "See you tomorrow, lovebirds. Bye Patty!"
Erin and Holtzmann laughed and looked at each other. "Hey Holtz, I was thinking...maybe we should go out tonight, how about that?"
"My darling, you know that's one of my favorite things to do but, Abby ordered me to finish the new ghost trap." Holtzmann pouted.
Erin sigh and played with Holtzmann's necklace. "Alriiight, I'll wait for you home. Because you are planning on going back, right?"
"I'll try my best, I promise."
Erin smiled and pecked her lips. "Ok." Erin was about to walk away but Holtzmann pulled her again into her arms. She laughed. "What?"
Holtzmann smiled and kissed Erin. "I love you." Holtzmann said against her lips. "So much."
Erin smiled and blushed. "I love you more." Erin kissed ehr lips lightly. "Do you want me to stay with you tonight?"
"Nah, don't worry about it, go rest, I'll be ok." Holtzmann smiled a little.
Erin nodded and smiled. "Alright, I'll go home."
"Good." Holtzmann kissed her cheek.
Erin smiled. "I'll see you later."
"You got it, baby." Holtzmann winked at her and smacked Erin's butt.
"Hey!" Erin turned around and looked at Holtzmann.
"Couldn't help it, it was like she was calling my name." Holtzmann winked at her again and bit her lip.
"Damn, you guys are so gross." Patty rolled her eyes and grabbed her things. "Let's go, Erin. I'll drop you on your apartment."
Erin laughed. "Alright, see you later, babe." Erin followed Patty and waved Holtzmann goodbye.
Holtzmann sigh and smiled. She looked at Kevin. "My man, would you help me to go look for some things on the trash before you go?"
"Sure thing, boss!" Kevin smiled.
"Let's go then, buddy!"
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"Alright! this was the last thing, thank you Kevin." Holtzman tapped his shoulder.
"You're welcome." Kevin smiled. "Anything else?"
"Mmm, I don't think so. You can be free now."
Kevin grabbed his things. "Do you want me to stay with you? I can wait for you if you want to."
"Nah, it's ok, Kev. I'll just go finish my work and then I'll head home."
"Alright, boss. See you tomorrow." Kevin smiled and waved goodbye. He went out and closed the door. He saw someone standing in there looking at the forehouse so he walked to him. "Sir? Are you lost?"
"I'm looking for Holtzmann?"
"She's in there, actually. You can go in." Kevin nodded and opened the door for him. "She will leave in a while so please be quick."
"Thanks." He entered the firehouse and and walked up.
Kevin looked at him for a while but then shook his head. "Probably a teacher or something." He closed the door and walked home.
Holtzmann turned the music up and danced at the sound of Smooth criminal by Michael Jackson, Holtz smiled and worked in her lastest project. Holtzmann heard something but thought it was probably Kevin. She shook her head and kept working. Holtzmann thought about what Patty told her earlier, what could she do for the proporsal? She wanted everything to be perfect, she wanted to see the exciment on Erin's face, she wanted to see her beautiful smile on her face, it was everything to Holtzmann when Erin smiled. Her smile light up her world, it's just amazing how a smile can make you feel a lot better or how it can just make you feel like you're whole. Holtzmann couldn't help but smile, it was just so amazing and she loved Erin so much. She never loved anyone like she loves Erin, never. She was surprised when she started feeling all of these things for Erin, she knew how of a casanova she could be, she knew that she couldn;t be in a relationship, not for her past, but with Erin everything changed. Holtzmann was so into her thoughts that she didn't hear the doord of the lab opening until she heard then closing and a laugh. Holtzmann jumped and froze when she saw the men standing in front of her.
"Told you I was coming back." He smirked.
"What are you doing here?" Holtzmann grabbed her knife from her table and hide it so he could not see it.
"You never deserved to live. I should ahve killed you when I got the chance, but I thought you were going to be good, you were going to change and not be like your mother but I was wrong, you were so like her and like your grandfather and last but not least, a fucking dyke. And you asked why I didn't want you? That's why, you're not worth it, you weren't, you aren't and you are never going to be. You think those girls love you? Of course they don't, they are with you because you are smart and you can help them but if not, they won't be your friends anymore and that Erin..." He laughed. "She doesn't loves you, she's just playing with you just like all the girls that you thought you were dating."
Holtzmann laughed and shook her head. "Don't think that your words are going to hurt me, they won't. I'm stronger than you think."
He laughed. "But I know your weakness."
Holtzmann's smile disappeared. "I don't have one."
"You sure about that?" He smirked and grabbed a picture of Erin that Holtzmann had in one of her work tables. "So...if I go to Erin, you won;t care of I have a little fun with her?" He smirked.
"Leave Erin out of this."
"Well, then if you don't want me to hurt her...I'll hurt you."
Holtzmann swallowed hard and she felt tears in her eyes. "Hurt me...but don't you dare hurt Erin."
He smiled and walked to Holtzmann, he grabbed her by the waist and pulled her closer. "I don't think I will anymore, I will have fun with you so." He laughed. "I will show you that men can be better than women." He kissed her neck.
Holtzmann closed her eyes and felt more tears rolling down her face. This can't be happening. Not now. Why? Why her? He pushed her to the floor and Holtzmann looked at him scared, he took off Holtzmann pants and started taking off his. He covered her mouth and Holtzmann started screaming. No. No. Please no. This can't be happening. No. Make it stop. Make it stop. Please. Holtzmann thought and cried even more, this couldn't be happening. And worse is that HER father was the one doing this but she had to protect Erin, she couldn't let him hurt her, she wouldn't be able to live with that guilt but...neither with this one. She was literally cheating on Erin, this couldn't be happening. Fuck.
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Erin walked to the firehouse and clsoed the door behind her. She smiled at Kevin and went up the stairs, waiting to find Holtzmann in the kitchen or in the couch. She looked at Abby and Patty talking with serious faces. They heard Erin and looked at her.
"Erin."
"Hey guys, everything alright?" She left her things in the couch and walked to them.
"Did you...did you and Holtzmann fight last night?"
Erin furrowed her eyebrows. "What? Of course not, she didn't come home and Patty left with me last night."
"Well yeah, that's right."
"Where is Holtz?"
"When we came here, Holtzmann was laying in the ground hugging her legs and crying, we didn't know whaty exactly happend but...she just looked at us and just left."
Erin looked at her phone and shook her head. "Why would she-" Holtzmann walked to her lab and grabbed some things. Erin walked to her. "Baby? You didn't go home last night. You ok?"
Holtzmann didn't say anything and just cleaned the floor and her work bench. Abby looked at her. "Holtz?"
Erin touched her shoulder but Holtzmann took a step back. "Holtz, what's wrong?"
Holtzmann looked at the floor and sniffed. "I don't think our relationship is working anymore."
Erin felt a big punch on her chest. "W-What? Babe...Holtzmann what are you talking about?"
"I-I...I don't want to be with y-you a-anymore."
Erin felt tears in her eyes. "Holtz, if it was for the marriage thing I'm very sorry, I-I didn't-"
"Don't." Holtzmann walked to the stairs.
"Jillian please...let's talk about this."
Holtzmann sigh. "I cheated on you. I'm sorry." Holtzmann walked down the stairs and left.
Erin felt tears rolling down her face and she looked at Patty and Abby who were staring back at her. "S-She wouldn't do that...r-right?" Erin felt her legs shaking and fell down.
Abby ran to her side and hold her while Erin was breaking down. "It's ok. I don't think she did that."
"S-She never lies to me...y-you know s-she's not good at h-hiding secrets. Please tell me it's not true, it can't be true. Jillian is not like that."
"Baby, I don't think she did." Patty sat beside her and caressed her hair.
Erin cried even more and hugged Abby.
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Holtzmann waited outside the door and looked around. She grow up in these streets, she played here, she proved all her inventions here, it was her yard. Holtzmann smiled a little and sigh. She heard the door open and looked behind her.
"Jillian! What are you doing here?" Dr. Gorin smiled.
Holtzmann felt tears in her eyes again and sobbed. "I-I cheated on Erin."
Dr. Gorin's smile dropped and she looked at Jillian with a serious face. "What do you- What happend?"
Jillian covered her face and Dr. Gorin held her. She pulled Holtz inside and closed the door. What really happens in here?