Don't leave me(Just hold me).

"Hey Patty! Come here, a moment, my precious Patricia." Holtzmann smiled and walked to the lab.

Patty followed her. "No, I'm not proving one of your new inventions, Abby and Erin can do that, I'm sure your girl would be more than happy to prove them." Patty said furrowing her eyebrows.

"Oh my sweet Patty, I don't need you to prove one of my inventions, I need you to do me a favor. I know you are good at simulating. Well, kind of."

Patty raised one eyebrow and crossed her arms. "What is exactly what you need, Holtzy?"

"You see, yesterday after an amazing sex, Erin and I-"

Patty raised her hand stopping Holtzmann. "Yo, I don't need to know your sex life, if you may skip that part please." 

Holtzmann chuckled. "Ok so, Erin started talking about marriage something I never thought she would, at least not for the moment-"

"Don't tell me you want me to break up with her for you. You two look so damn happy! Maybe it was a thought and maybe she just wanted to share it with you, you really don't have to break up with her, she loves you waaaaay to much Holtzy and I can see that you are also happy and-"

"IwanttoaskhertomarrymeandIneedyoutoaskherthesizeoftheringsheuses." Holtzmann said like she was on a marathon and smiled.

"I'm sorry? Say it again, man it seemed like you're flash, dude, please calm down." Patty shook her head. 

Holtzmann took a deep breath and sigh. "I want to ask her to marry me and I need you to ask her the size of the ring she uses."

"Oh my...are you serious?!" Patty smiled.

"Shhh, they could hear us!" Holtzmann looked behind Patty to make sure there was no one. "Yes, I love Erin way to much and yeah, it's been 2 years but, the time that they will take making the ring, plus the planification of how I'm going to propose to her, it will take long so, it's not like I'm asking her tomorrow." Holtzmann chuckled a little.

"So wait, she said she wanted to marry you and you were already thinking about it?"

"I was, of course I didn't tell her, bu yes, I want to be the one proposing to her."

Patty smiled. "You really do love her, don't ya? I mean, when I first met you, you said love was bullshit even tho you were crazy for Erin, now look at ya, crazy for her."

Holtzmann smiled and tried to hide her blush. "Yeah well, Erin totally changed that."

"I can totally tell." Patty smiled. "I will help, don't ya worry, I know exactly how I can do it. I'm happy for ya, seriously."

"Thanks Patty, I knew I could count with you."

"You know you guys can count on me, always." Patty hugged Holtzmann and laughed. "Damn it, we'll have a weeding pretty soon! Thought Kevin was the first one getting married with his girl but it seems like you guys are winning."

Holtzmann laughed a little. "Erin still has to say yes."

"Oh come on, she was the one who started talking about that, of course she's going to say yes."

"I know but...I don't know, I'm nervous. Should I do it? Should I wait? Oh my god, now I'm doubting." Holtzmann shook her head and grabbed her head.

"Hey, Holtzy, calm down. Like you said, is not like you're proposing tomorrow, you still got time and yes, I do think is a good idea and I think you should go for it." Patty nodded.

Holtzmann nodded and sigh. "You're right, yeah sure."

"Woah, I've never seen you this nervous. Gilbert really changed you." Patty laughed.

"Oh shut up." Holtzmann laughed and did Patty. "Now, I do need you to proving one of my toys, come on, it will be for you fi it works, I promise."

Patty sigh and shook her head. "Just because it will be mine, come on."

Holtzmann smiled and clapped like a little girl, she grabbed the gadget and ran to the roof.

***************

"Soooo, did you guys talk about it?" Abby smiled.

"We did, actually and she told me that she also wanted to marry me." Erin smiled. "Just that, I told her that not now, even tho I would say yes if she asked me in this very moment." Erin sigh.

"Are you thinking about buying the ring?"

"I am I just have to know her size that I'm kind of sure I know." Erin looked at Abby.

"I can find out." Abby smiled.

"Would you?"

"I would and I will." Abby smiled and stood up. "I'll go talk to Holtzy." Abby winked at her and went to Holtzmann's lab.

"My girl, Erin! Just the girl I was looking for." Patty smiled and sat down. 

"Really?"

"Yeah well, remember you told me you liked this ring?" Patty showed it to her.

"Sure, I love it."

"Well, I decided to give it to you." Patty smiled.

"Really?" Erin smiled.

"Yeah sure, I have more of those." Patty gave it to Erin and smiled.

"Wow, thank Patty." Erin tried it but it was too big. "Damn, it doesn't fit."

"Really? What is your size then?" Patty looked at her.

"I'm 6." Erin looked at her and gave it to Patty again.

"Oh my bad, I'm a 9." Patty laughed and shook her head. "Then I'll get you one so we can match."

"Oh, Patty, you really don't have to do that." Erin smiled.

"Don't say anything, I will." Patty smiled.

"Thank you." Erin smiled and then cleared her throat. "So um...have you um...have you talked to Holtz?"

"Not really, I just played with one of her toys in the roof and then she went back to work. She's very into her work."

Erin nodded. "Right."

"You alright?"

"Would it be weird if I asked her to marry me any time soon?"

Patty had her eyes open wide and opened her mouth to say something. "I um...I d-don't know. Have you talked about this with Holtzy?"

"I have, yesterday night, I'm just not sure if she wants to get married and I bet she thinks I don;t want to right now because I said I wanted but not now, I feel that I screwed up."

"Don't you worry, my girl. Holtzy loves you way too much and you haven't screwed anything." Patty smiled. 

Erin smiled. "I know she loves me and I love her too." 

"I can see that." Patty smiled.

"Erin I couldn't...oh hey Patty." Erin and Patty looked at Abby.

"What's up, Abs?"

"Oh nothing, I was just-"

"She was trying to get Holtzmann's size so I can buy her the ring."

Patty's eyes windened again. "Oh well I mean, you'll find out soon." Patty smiled.

"I'll try to ask her again later but I don't think she will tell me." Abby sat down.

"Oh well, no problem. I'll go get her some water." Erin smiled and grabbed a bottle then headed upstairs with Holtzmann.

Patty hit Abby's arm. "You can't ask her again."

"Ouch! Why not?" Abby touched her arm.

"Cause Holtzy wants to propose to her. I already have Erin's size."

"How did you- Wait, Holtz wants to propose to Erin?" Abby smiled.

"Yes girl, I'm actually going with her so they can make the ring, Holtzy already knows how the ring is going to be and it will be perfect."

Abby clapped. "Oh my god then what should I tell Erin?"

"Well, try to distract her or something, I don't know, make her forget about the ring."

"That won't be easy at all, she's super excited about it."

"You'll plan something, babygirl." Patty nodded.

"Holtz?" Erin asked looking around. "Holtz?" She called again while walking to Holtzmann's lab.

Holtzmann jumped behind her and grabbed her waist. "Boo!"

Erin jumped and turned around to face Holtzmann. "Jillian!" Erin hit Holtzmann in the arm and Holtzmann laughed. "You scared me!"

"I'm aware of that." Holtzmann laughed. 

"It's not funny at all, Holtzmann." Erin pouted.

"Aww, my sweet Erin is mad?" Holtzmann pouted and smiled. She took a step closer to Erin.

Erin looked at her. "You scared me." 

Holtzmann pecked Erin's lips. "You still mad?" Said against Erin's lips.

"Just a little." Erin whispered.

Holtzmann kissed her lips lightly, pulling her by the waist. As soon as the kiss started, it ended. "Now?"

"If you keep kissing me and don't pull away then probably, I won't be mad anymore." Erin smiled.

Holtzmann smirked. "I was waiting for you to say that." Holtzmann was about to kiss Erin again but Abby came into the lab.

"Um...guys? Sorry to interrupt you but uh, Holtz there's someone looking for you."

Erin looked at Holtzmann and Holtzmann sigh. "Let them come up."

Abby looked behind her. "You can come in." Abby looked at Holtzmann and then left.

Holtzmann tensed and Erin looked behind her. There was a man standing in there, staring at them, he looked a little dissapointed and also mad. Erin couldn't help but notice that he had the same eyes as Holtzmann, also he was blonde, was he...?

"Jillian." The man finally talked after a few seconds of justt standing in there. 

"What are you doing here?" Holtzmann sounded serious. Holtzmann never talked in that way.

Erin looked at Holtzmann and saw fear in Holtzmann's eyes. "Holtz?"

Holtzmann looked at Erin and smiled a little. "Everything's ok, baby. Why don't you go with Abby and Patty while I talk to this man?"

Erin nodded. "Sure." Erin smiled a little and kissed Holtzmann's cheek. Erin looked at them man while she walked to the stairs. She looked at Holtzmann one last time and Holtzmann smirked at her even though her eyes were showing fear. Erin sigh and walke down the stairs.

Holtzmann's smile dissapeared and she looked at them man again. "What the hell are you doing here?"

"Not happy to see your father again?"

"Why would I be? You kicked me out of MY house!"

"You needed to learn the leason, Jillian."

"Don't call me JIllian." Holtzmann shook her head.

The man shook his head and looked at her again. "You haven't changed at all."

"I changed more than you think. To a better person, actually." 

He laughed. "Better person? You are an engineer and a dyke."

"And I'm proud." Holtzmann crossed her arms.

He shook his head. "Jillian...you still have time to change."

"It's Holtzmann and no, I'm good just like I am."

"Holtzmann is not-"

"Holtzmann it is. You were never my father so I don't want and don't need you name. I rather have my grandfather's name. He was my father."

"Jillian, come with me, I promise everything's going to be ok and you'll be alright."

"I already am! Can't you understand that?! I'm happy! I'm ok!" Holtzmann had tears in her eyes.

"You are not! Look at you! You're a woman, not a man,  you still flirt with girls and-"

"I don't anymore." He looked at Holtzmann and was about to smile. "She is my girlfriend and she's the woman I love and I want to spend my entire life with."

He shook his head. "You are-" He raised his hand and Holtzmann stopped him.

"Leave before you regret it!" Holtzmann yelled at him never looking away.

"Or what? You will fight me?" He laughed.

"No, but I have a friend who will if you don't leave now. All I need to do is scream and he will be here any second."

"I don't believe you." He grabbed her by the neck and pressed ehr against the wall.

"Kevin! Kevin!" Holtzmann yelled and tried to hit him but she couldn't.

"Holtzmann?!" Kevin and Erin came up to the lab and saw Holtzmann against the wall. "Leave her alone!" He grabbed him by the shirt and throw him tot he floor.

Erin ran to Holtzmann and hold her. "Holtz? Baby?"

Kevin kicked him and made him stand up. "Get out!"

He looked at Holtzmann. "I-I'll come back." He looked at Erin and then left.

Kevin looked at Holtzmann and Erin. "Holtz? You alright?"

Holtzmann took deep breaths and smiled a little. "Sure thing, boy."

Kevin smiled. "Did you see that? Was that good?"

Holtzmann nodded. "It was, thank you, man."

"You're welcome." He smiled.

Erin caressed her cheek. "Babe? You alright?"

Holtzmann looked at Erin and nodded slowly. "I am now, don't worry."

"How can I not when he shoved you to the wall?! Who was that?"

"He was my um...my father."

Erin studied Holtzmann's face and kissed her forehead, hugging her tight. Holtzmann hugged Erin abck and hide her face into Erin's neck, letting some tears fall down. Erin heard Abby and Patty walking into the lab and she looked at them, Erin shook her head slowly and Patty and Abby exchanged looks, they nodded and at Erin and with Kevin, they went downstairs to leave Holtzmann and Erin alone. Erin hummed one of favorite songs of Holtz and rested her head in Holtzmann's. After a few minutes, Holtzmann sigh and looked up at Erin, Erin looked at Holtz and smiled a little.

"Hey, hot stuff." Holtzmann smiled a little.

Erin smiled a little. "Hey there, beautiful." Erin kissed Holtzmann's nose and Holtzmann giggled.

"I'm sorry for what happend."

"You shouldn't be sorry, it wasn't your fault at all."

Holtzmann sigh and rested her head on Erin's shoulder. "Holtzmann is the last name of my mom, I changed my last name because it was a shame to use my father's last name. I don't even remember what it was his last name." Erin was playing with Holtzmann's curls and just listened to her. "He left us when I was just 6, I was old enough to understand things and I asked my mom to change my last name, my mom and my grandfather were always there for me, they never left me, even when I told them I was gay. After a few years, my grandfather had a heart attack, he died, I was jsut 17. It hurt like hell and he just left us...we missed him like crazy, we only had each other until my father appeared...h-he killed my mom." Erin tensed a little but kept holding Holtzmann. "I thought he was still on jail and that's why I never talked about it, horrible past. I had to stay with him and well, after he knew what I was doing, he kicked me out of my own house, a house that my mom and my grandfather gave me. After that I had no where to go, I had to go to college and I didn't go for a few days...Dr. Gorin helped me a lot. I lived with her for like 2 years. She also believed in me. She always has." Holtzmann sniffed. "You can say something, you know?" Holtzmann chuckled a little.

Erin smiled a little. "I'm just letting you talk, I don't want to interrupt you."

"I think I finished. Unless you want me to answer questions."

Erin shook her head slowly. "I don't have any questions."

Holtzmann nodded slowly. "Then I finished."

Erin looked at Holtzmann. "I'm really sorry about this, also that I'm so weak that I couldn't protect you, I should have stayed near of you."

"You kidding? You're the strongest woman I know. Remember when you used that swiss army knife I gave you? Or when you fought all those ghost? What about when you saved Abby? You saved her and saved us." Erin smiled and so did Holtzmann. "You're my hero."

Erin shook her head and smiled. "Don't be silly."

"I'm silly, sorry for that." Holtzmann shrugged her shoulders. "You'll have to deal with it."

"I'd love to deal with it, I've been for like 3 years, before we dated." Erin laughed a little.

Holtzmann laughed a little. "Right." Holtzmann looked at her feet.

Erin looked at Holtzmann and grabbed her face in her hands. Holtzmann looked at Erin. Erin smiled a little and kissed Erin's lips lightly. Holtzmann kissed back and smiled a little. Erin pulled away and smiled. 

"I love you." Erin rested her forehead on Holtzmann's.

"I love you more." Holtzmann smiled.

"You sure you are ok now?" Erin looked into Holtzmann's eyes.

"Yes I am." Holtzmann smiled a little. She leaned in and kissed Erin's lips lightly.

***************

After a few hours of asking Holtzmann how she was and if everything was ok, all Holtzmann could say is that she was ok and everything was just fine, what else could she say? The truth so they will get even more worried? Not a good idea. She just told Erin part of her past, something she never did with anyone, that was between her and her mind. Of course she was going to tell Erin some day, after all Erin was her girlfriend, her person, the woman she wanted to spend her life with, of course Erin was going to know, jsut she never thought that this way. She kept asking herself how he found her, why would he try to talk to her again? All this years, she's been alone with no one, he didn't want her in his life, why now? She was ok with her life, she was happy and he had to come. Not fair. He was never her father, not even legally, she's always been Jillian Holtzmann, her grandfather was her father, and he was a good father. He was always the one she could talk to, he was her shoulder to cry, her best friend at the time, her only friend(of course her mother was too). He believed in her and he believed in what she was doing. After she lost them, Dr. Gorin was the only person Jillian had, no one was there for her, but Dr. Gorin was, she believed in her. Jillian was thankful for that, at least for a time she was not alone anymore. And then Abby came to her life. Her only friend. Holtz was happy about it, her only friend and she actually believed in her and loved her for who she was. After that Erin and Patty came, their new family.

At first Holtzmann didn't want to involve her feelings for Erin with their friendship, Erin was a good friend and she was straight...or at least that was what she thought in that time. She remember the first time they kissed. They were on a hunting, acording to Patty, this house was one of the most scariest place of all New York, they used to kill people in there, they were first slaves and then, they killed them after a few weeks, they enjoyed to see them suffering and begging to stop. At first, Patty was not sure if they should be in there but of course, Abby, Erin and Holtz, convinced her. After catching 4 ghosts, the most important seemed like he wanted to play and his toy was Erin. Erin froze when the ghost tried to fight her, she was in shock and she did nothing to stop him until Holtzmann came to the rescue. When they got to the firehouse, Abby and Patty left and Erin and Holtzmann stayed. Erin didn't have the chance to say thank you to Holtz so she thought that maybe it was a good idea to interrupt Holtzmann fro her work. When Erin went to the lab, Holtz was singing and dancing as always, Erin laughed and just stared at her for a few minutes, smiling like crazy. When the song finished, Holtzmann noticed Erin standing in there, just staring at her.

"Enjoyed my dancing and singing?"Holtzmann smirked.

Erin shook her head and snapped out of her thoughts. "I-I um...I'm sorry, I just thought that um-"

Holtzmann chuckled. "Come on in, hot stuff."

Erin walked to Holtzmann and smiled a little. "I just um...I wanted to say thank you for saving me back there. I don't know what happend to me."

"No need to thank me, I wanted to play the role of superhero." Holtzmann winked at her.

Erin blushed a little. "I don't know how to thank you, really."

Holtzmann took her googles off and thought for a second. "Maybe giving me some salty parabolas."

Erin laughed. "Come on, there has to be something else."

Holtzmann shook her head. "What could be better than some delicious salty parabolas?"

Erin thought for a moment and stared at Holtzmann, she smiled and walked closer to Holtzmann. "I know what can be better than that."

Holtzmann raised an eyebrown."What could that be?"

Erin looked at Holtzmann eyes and then at her lips. Erin bit her lip and looked back at Holtzmann's eyes. "This." Erin grabbed Holtzmann by the neck and pulled her close to her face so their lips could meet.

Holtzmann gasped but as soon as she figured what was happening, she grabbed Erin by the waist and kissed her back. It was not like she thought it was going to be, it was way better. Soft, sweet, gentle but with a bit of passion. It was all Holtzmann ever wanted, also Erin. After a few minutes, they pulled away and smiled at each other.

"So...was that better than the salty parabolas?" Erin looked into Holtzmann's eyes and saw a beautiful glow.

Holtzmann but her lip and nodded. "Way better." Holtzmann brought Erin close to her again and kissed her once again.

That day, was the first time they kissed, after a few months of that, they became a couple and it was the best desicion they every made. Holtzmann was happy and she believed in love again, jsut like Erin did. Remembering those things made her happy but then the thought about her father being in New York made her body shiver but she had to be strong, she had to pretend all was ok. It was better that way. Past is in the past. We all have to live in the present.