Watching
‘Seriously.’ Meredith mumbled to herself as she angrily pulled herself onto the gurney in the basement hallway. She didn’t talk to any of her friends, she just kept mumbling to herself. After a few minutes Cristina moved to sit with her. ‘What’s up with you?’ Meredith looked up at her and shook her head. Cristina raised an eyebrow. ‘I’ve only got 5 minutes Mer, so you better start talking.’ Meredith nodded and climbed off the bed and started pacing. ‘She keeps watching me. She’s driving me insane…she asked me to be professional and I’m really trying but I can’t stop thinking about her…and then she’s looking at me…really looking at me. It’s too much…I want her to stop. She can’t have it all her way, you know? She wants me to be professional, maybe she should try it too…I mean seriously…how can I-’ Meredith trailed of and started mumbling to herself again. ‘Mer, you need to breath.’ Meredith nodded and stopped her pacing and took a deep breath. ‘Is there any chance that this is all in your head? The watching, I mean? Maybe you want her to be watching you so your thinking that she is?’ Cristina asked quietly, Meredith shook her head. ‘No, she’s actually watching me. I don’t want it…I wish she’d stop because it’s making getting over her, trying not to love her impossible…I just want it to stop.’ Meredith whined. ‘Well maybe…and this might be a stretch but maybe she doesn’t want you to get over her? Maybe she doesn’t really want Derek and she’s not ready to say it…I don’t know. Talk to her. Tell her that she’s doing it and ask her to stop…it’s the only way you’ll get what you want.’ Meredith nodded and sighed deeply. ‘Why does it have to be so complicated?’ Meredith whined. ‘You really want me to answer that?’ Meredith glared at her. ‘Come on we have work to do.’ Cristina said as she walked off towards the stair well, laughing a little.