This is it
Meredith was dancing with Alex. Addison was dancing with Derek. Addison was watching Meredith. It made Meredith uncomfortable so she excused herself and left the room. She didn’t know that Addison had followed her until they were alone in an exam room. ‘Addison, please go. Leave me alone.’ Meredith was taking deep breaths. ‘I just wanna make sure you’re alright.’ Addison placed her hands on the bed on the opposite side to Meredith. ‘NO! I’m not alright. You have a husband. I’m trying to deal with that, I’m trying not to have feelings for you. I’m being professional like you asked me too. I’m doing everything you want me too but then you’re looking at me. For days, weeks even you’ve been looking at me and watching me and I feel like I can’t breath with you looking at me like that. I need you to stop looking at me.’ Meredith was becoming more emotional by the second. ‘I’m not looking at you.’ Addison said as she stepped around the bed, Meredith matched her step by step trying to keep some distance between them. ‘You are looking at me. I’m really trying here. Trying to move on from you, trying to be happy but then you’re watching me and I can’t breath with you looking at me like that so just stop!’ Addison didn’t stop the tears that streamed down her face. ‘Do you think I wanna look at you? Don’t you think I’d rather be looking at my husband? He doesn’t drive me crazy. Make it impossible for me to feel normal. You slept with George…and I know that it was awful and a mistake for both of you but do you even understand how jealous I felt when I found out? And then there’s Derek, I couldn’t care less if he slept with half of the hospital Meredith. Do you know how insane that is? I can’t think straight any more…I would give anything to not be looking at you.’ Addison stepped up behind Meredith and waited for her to face her. When Meredith turned they stared at each other for a few seconds. Addison stepped forward and grabbed Meredith’s head in both of her hands before kissing her, Meredith responded by moving her arms up around Addison’s neck. They both moaned into each other’s mouths. Addison slipped her hand down Meredith’s back and unzipped her dress before pushing her up onto the edge of the bed. Meredith unzipped Addison’s dress and let it fall to the floor, Addison stepped out of it leaving her in only her panties. She trailed her kisses down Meredith’s neck and let her hands fall to Meredith’s waist and pulled up her dress and then slipped her panties down her legs. ‘You’re so beautiful.’ Addison whispered into Meredith’s neck. Meredith smiled and pulled Addison back to her lips briefly. She moaned as Addison kissed and sucked her way down the centre of her chest. She wrapped her legs around Addison’s waist and started to tease Addison’s nipples with both of her hands. Addison moaned into Meredith’s neck before slipping her hand between them and pushing her fingers into Meredith and letting her thumb work at her clit harshly. Meredith pulled Addison’s head back to her mouth and kissed her again. Addison pulled her head back and took in Meredith’s face, she was flushed and her eyes were darkened and a little hazy. Meredith moved one of her hands to hold Addison’s in place as she started to clench around Addison’s fingers. It didn’t take long for Meredith to reach her high, she had to bite down on Addison’s shoulder to quieten her moan of Addison’s name. She kept Addison’s hand in place for a moment while she regained her breath and then she pulled Addison’s fingers into her mouth. After a moment Addison pulled her hand away from Meredith’s mouth and kissed her. Meredith slipped off the bed and turned them both so that Addison was sitting on the edge, she wasted no time and began to kiss and suck her way down Addison’s body, letting out little moans as she did. When she reached her wetness she settled on her knees with Addison’s legs over her shoulders, she pulled Addison’s panties down her legs and tossed them to the side. She felt Addison squirm beneath her as she licked slowly at her clit. Addison’s hands moved to hold Meredith’s head in place. When Meredith thought Addison was almost at the edge she slipped 3 fingers inside her and curled them against her for a few moments. She slowed her movements when Addison reached her high. After a moment or two she slowly moved to her feet and kissed her way back up to Addison’s lips. Her fingers still working inside Addison and her thumb working expertly around Addison’s clit. Addison moaned into Meredith’s ear as Meredith kissed and sucked at her neck, in a way that was bound to leave a mark, both women were to preoccupied to think about that. Addison was panting heavily and pulled Meredith to her mouth to muffle the loud moan that she let out. After a minute they moved away from each other and started to put their clothes back on. ‘What does this mean?’ Meredith asked. Addison shook her head. ‘Do you see my panties?’ She asked, ignoring Meredith’s question. Meredith crossed the room and picked them up before handing them to Addison, who struggled to put them on under her dress so she held onto Meredith for support. ‘Addie, what does it mean for us?’ Meredith asked as tears filled her eyes, she held tightly to Addison’s wrist as she tried to walk away. ‘I don’t know. I, uh. I need to talk to Derek. I left him out there.’ Meredith sighed. ‘Wait.’ She rushed forward and brushed her fingers through Addison’s hair to smooth it out a little before reaching behind Addison to fix the zipper on her dress. ‘Turn around.’ Addison whispered through her tears. Meredith did as she said and Addison tied up the back of her dress. When they turned around they were faced with the one person neither of them were prepared for. Derek Shepherd. ‘Derek, I-’ Addison started. ‘Don’t’ Derek said cutting her off. She turned to Meredith. ‘Go.’ Addison whispered. ‘Addie -’ Addison sighed. ‘Meredith, please.’ Meredith nodded and walked out of the room. Neither of them said anything for a few minutes until finally Derek broke the silence. ‘Our marriage was over long before Mark and me leaving New York.’ He stated matter of factly. ‘Yes.’ Addison said quietly. ‘But that doesn’t make this okay.’ He replied. ‘I know. I’m sorry, Derek. I didn’t want to hurt you. I really didn’t.’ Derek let out a breathy laugh. ‘I’m not hurting because of you…that’s the worst part. I don’t care that you had sex with Meredith, I care that she had sex with you. That’s how I know our marriage is really over Addison.’ Addison nodded. Derek stepped towards her and kissed her. It wasn’t like any other kiss they’d shared. It was goodbye. It was sad and desperate and both of them were crying but when they parted they smiled at each other. ‘This is it.’ Derek said quietly. ‘Yeah, I guess it is.’ They both smiled sadly at each other before leaving the room and going their separate ways.
Addison made her way to her office, not really wanting to deal with everyone at prom any more. She opened the door and saw Meredith curled up in her chair crying. She instantly moved over to her and moved the chair so that she could lean against the desk in front of her. ‘Hey, hey. It's okay, talk to me, babe.’ Addison whispered as she rubbed Meredith’s back. ‘I screwed up. We screwed up and now Derek probably hates both of us…I’m so sorry.’ Addison pulled Meredith into her arms as she saw Meredith’s tears. ‘It’s okay. I got you. Derek doesn’t hate us I promise…well at least not you.’ She whispered and let out a quiet laugh. Meredith pulled back a little and whispered. ‘How’d it go? I’m sorry, Addie. I should have stopped us. I should have stopped.’ Addison shook her head. ‘I should have stopped it but I wanted it. I want you, Meredith. Derek and I are getting divorced. For real this time.’ Meredith wiped her tears. ‘Really? I, uh…I probably shouldn’t sound so happy about that.’ Addison laughed. ‘Yeah. Really. It’s okay to be happy Meredith. Derek and I were over a long time ago…way before he left me. It’s not on you or on us really…it was a long time coming. I’m sorry I hurt you so much by not realising that sooner.’ Meredith nodded and pressed her lips against Addison’s gently. Addison stood up and sat down on her chair and pulled Meredith into her lap, were they sat quietly for a little while. ‘Do you happen to know somewhere I could crash tonight.’ Addison asked a few minutes later. ‘Oh, I know somewhere you can crash any night.’ Meredith smiled. ‘Oh really?’ Addison turned to look at Meredith and raised an eyebrow. ‘Yeah.’ Meredith nodded. Addison smiled at her before nodding. ‘I love you, you know that right? And this won’t be easy for us but I’m in this.’ Addison said. ‘I know. I love you too. I know, it’ll be difficult but…we’ll make it work. We have too because we have spent enough time apart so…we’ll make it work.’ Meredith replied as she reached a hand up to cup Addison’s cheek. Addison nodded. ‘We’ll make it work.’ She repeated before pressing her lips to Meredith’s gently.