Lost And Insecure!

Lost and Insecure!

Thursdays had become Clarkes favourite day of the week for two simple reasons. One being Lexa would always be waiting in Abby's office for her with a single rose in hand, and the second being it was date night. Ever since Lexa released her first official single there life quickly changed over night, where ever Lexa would go the paparazzi would follow not only her but Clarke too, they wanted to know the ins and outs of their lives together, they wanted to no where they ate, what they wore, even what mood they were in, sometimes it could become extremely intense. It had almost been two years since she released her first single, and although at first Lexa had struggled getting use to her new fame she had struggled even harder with her anxiety. Every day she fort it in one way or another and Clarke couldn't be more proud that she was confronting her demons instead of letting it take hold of her life like she had allowed it for so long.

"Hey you" Came the familiar voice as Clarke practically barged in her mothers office with excitement. Turns out Lexa's fame had changed many things even the amount of time they spend together while Lexa's schedule quickly became even busier than her own despite working double shifts at the hospital. At the beginning of the change Lexa and Clarke found themselves apart more than they were together, struggling to adjust around each others schedule with Clarke working at the hospital for days at a time, while Lexa had to be one end of a town to another country all together. It was almost like they wasn't together at all and the press loved to kick them while they were down.

"Hi" Clarke beamed eyes flickering briefly to the rose in Lexa's hand before her arms were pulling her girlfriend in with a death grip. It had been two solid days since she had seen her in person, since she had kissed her and help her and breathed her in, so Clarke wasted no time in pressing her lips to Lexa's in a lingering passionate kiss that told her exactly how much she had missed her. "You're early" Clarke whispers against pouty lips before she's kissing them tenderly again.

"I couldn't wait any longer" Lexa confesses while her arms wrap around Clarke's waist forgetting all about the rose she had took fifteen minutes to hand pick from a florist. "I can wait here while you finish up"

"Don't bother" Clarke grins biting her bottom lip while her mind wonders down sinful paths that were inevitable to happen after all date night. "Niylah said she will finish up for me"

Ah Niylah.

The women who had been the centre of many arguments during there dark patch over eight months ago. After just about seeing one another for a few hours in a single week for three solid months straight Clarke hit breaking point. Lexa had came home early hours in the morning expecting everyone to already be asleep, only Clarke wasn't. She was sitting in the living room holding Lexa's journal in her hand and the moment her blue eyes looked up to Lexa's, Lexa's heart dropped instantly with worry.

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"Clarke?" Lexa says a little panicked as she drops her keys on the side and moves quickly in to the living room.

"Why am I scared to read this?" Clarke questioned out of no where as Lexa took a seat by her girlfriend in a panic. "You gave me permission to read this when ever I wanted. When ever there was something going through your head that I struggle to understand, when ever I wanted to know something I wasn't sure of, this spoke for you when you couldn't" Clarke explained.

"I don't understand" Lexa mumbled with a furrowed brow while reaching out for her girlfriends hand, only when she did Clarke moved her hand away dropping her gaze to the floor, and suddenly Lexa felt like she had just been scolded from her fingers to her toes.

"I can't keep doing this anymore"  Clarke whimpers a sharp sniffle ringing in Lexa's ears as the words hit her. Clarke stood up abruptly wiping at her face before turning to face Lexa. "I don't see you anymore" She says trying not to break all over again. "I don't feel like I'm in a relationship with you Lexa" she says with tears streaming down her cheeks but she refuses her voice to break once again. "You're never here anymore. You're always working, or to tired to travel back home so you stay in hotels"

"Clarke" Lexa says in a panic quickly reaching out for her girlfriend. Despite Clarke's objections to be held Lexa does it anyway and takes her hand in her own pleading for her to stop talking nonsense.

"I'm sorry" Lexa pleads while green eyes connect with blue. "I'm sorry" She repeats because she knows things have been different. "I love you Clarke" She confesses not noticing her own tears build.

"It's not the same anymore" Clarke says sadly her eyes dropping to the ground but Lexa refuses to let her face go as she brings there gazes back together with a even deeper furrow to her brow.

"What isn't?" Lexa questions urgently. "I love you Clarke" she says more determined than ever. "that has never and will never change" She breathes eyes searching Clarke's face for something, anything. But all she see's is sadness with eyes unbelieving so Lexa holds her even tighter because this is not happening right now. Not ever. "Clarke" Lexa says desperately her voice cracking at the thought of Clarke having enough. The silence lingers for a moment until Clarke blinks yet another tear down her face, its then she actually looks at Lexa directly its then Lexa goes to speak only to stop as Clarke starts herself.

"Is there someone else?" Clarke questions her eyes unable to stay on Lexa any longer, scared of the answer, scared of the possibility of the woman she loves walking away with another while she's left behind heart broken and lost.

"what?" Lexa questions in disbelief her grip loosening from the shock of the question until Clarkes pulling away from the embrace her arms crossing protectively over her chest. Very little people see Clarke in a venerable position, she's not scared to cry infront of the world, or declare her sappy feelings either its just not much can ever get to her. It takes someone special for her to get like this, for her to have her heart on her sleeve while she bares all, you either stamp on it or take care of it. "Clarke" Lexa says a little speechless while looking at her like she can't be serious right now.

"It's a simple question Lexa" Clarke says more sternly needing the answer.

"No" Lexa says harder than normal with her back straightening at the accusation. She's hurt. "How can you even ask me that?"

"I hardly see you anymore" Clarke says sadly slouching on the couch before putting her face in her hands. "You're always gone and you make no time for me anymore. You're living this big new life now, there's  just no room for me anymore. You use to travel for hours just to be with me no matter what"

"So you assume I'm cheating!" Lexa snaps. "I'm not the one who has someone flirting with me all day everyday"

"What's that suppose to mean" Clarke says her head snapping up. The argument was quickly escalating to something more than it should be.

"Nothing. Forget I said anything" Lexa says shaking her head as she turns away to the kitchen.

"Don't walk away from me Lexa, what does that mean!" Clarke snaps hot on Lexa's trail.

"It means every where you go Niylah's by your side, Everything you do Niylah's there. Niylah this, Niylah that" Lexa snaps spinning around on the spot. "She is besotted with you, you would have to be blind not to see it"

"That is ridiculous!" Clarke says furrowing her brows. "We're friends Lexa. That's it"

"Are you sure about that?" Lexa questions her arms crossing across her chest once again. "because I've been with you Clarke, I've watched her myself" Lexa explains looking to the floor in anger remembering all the times Niylah had hit on her girlfriend right in front of her eyes she dreaded to think how many times she did it when she wasn't around, but Clarke was oblivious and didn't believe her, or she just didn't want to see it so Lexa kept her mouth shut time and time again, not one to speak up but also not wanting to embarrass Clarke. "When ever I call you you're with her" Lexa says defeated. "you're busy eating lunch, or having a drink after work. I try Clarke, but i can't do this on my own"

"You guys alright?" Raven says walking in to the kitchen wrapped in a blanket still half asleep.

"Yeah" Clarke says quickly. "Sorry we woke you up. Go back to bed" Clarke instructs but Raven takes one more look at the both of you before leaving again. It's silent for a moment while both allow the screaming words to settle in.

"i decided to wait for you to call me when you're free because i didn't want to keep disturbing you. I know how hard you have worked to get where you are and you know I'm so proud of that despite you not needing to work. But i couldn't keep calling you to hear about everything you're doing with the woman that's trying to get in your knickers. You think I'm imagining it and that's fine, but if you're so sure ask her. Ask her if she wants something more" Lexa says with a sadness to her tone but she knows she's right. "I love you Clarke and i always will but you know me" Lexa explains moving into the living room to grab her journal.

"You say you're scared to read this but its for all the wrong reasons" Lexa explains handing over the book. "I Would never look at another woman because I'm in love with you. What ever page you choose to read will say that, but i do speak of Niylah in this on a lot of occasions, what she says, what she does" Lexa explains dropping her hands to the side as Clarke looks at the book.

"I think we need time to cool down" Clarke suggest finally looking back up to Lexa. "You can sleep on the couch tonight"

The words slice deeper than Lexa ever expected but she nods silently non the less as her gaze stays on the ground. It's only been a handful of times when Lexa feels every feeling, every emotion from when she was younger, the scared girl that was lost looking for someone to hold her and tell her everything will be ok, but as Clarke walked silently up the stairs with her journal in hand Lexa felt seventeen all over again, the one where she closed of and curled in on herself. Kicking her shoes off before laying across the couch, she should be konked out in a few seconds flat due to her long day, but unfortunately it didn't work that way. She laid for what felt like hours staring at the ceiling, they had never slept separate before, even after little bickers they had always shared a bed holding one another but this was different.

Just as Lexa's eyes started to close the creak of the floor board on the second step had her eyes opening again, until Clarke was standing in front of her looking at her in a softer way than hours before. Without needing to even think Lexa scooted further back on the couch while opening the blanket for Clarke to scoot in.

"I'm sorry" Clarke muttered her arms coming around Lexa's waist in a death grip. "I just miss you so much" Clarke whispered but Lexa heard the crack in her voice, the vulnerability, the insecurity and more importantly the love.

"I miss you too" Lexa confessed pressing her forehead to Clarke's while closing her eyes to savour the moment. Clarke wasn't wrong a distance had been growing between them due to there terrible work schedules and there insecurity's that neither one of them had discussed. "you're more important to me than anything" Lexa hummed pressing her lips to Clarke's in a lingering kiss.

"I'm Scared" Clarke confessed curling in to a ball against Lexa while playing with the baby hairs on the back of her neck. "I'm scared i'll lose you"

"That wont happen." Lexa said seriously cupping Clarke's face. "We need to just come to a arrangement that suits both of us. Make time and trust one another"

"I do trust you" Clarke says eyes flickering to green ones. "I just, I get scared sometimes and i can't help all the things that i think about. Sometimes i might just need you to tell me I'm a idiot"

"You're a idiot" Lexa smiles her thumb gliding back and forth against Clarke's cheek as her smile grows to.

"i Read your journal" Clarke says after a moment. "I didn't realise how much she bothers you"

"It's not her personally, its just with you"

"I don't look at her that way, you know that right?"

"sometimes" Lexa says honestly. "Sometimes it feels like you like it"

"I don't!" Clarke says quickly. "I mean i don't even know she's doing it. I'm Sorry"

"Sh" Lexa hushes pulling her lover closer because god it feels like forever since they held one another. "Lets not get to this again"

****

The next time Clarke saw Niylah she asked her in private if she had feelings towards her more than friendship. Hesitantly Niylah has said yeah but she would never act on them unless Clarke wanted her to. After that everything changed, Clarke had made it perfectly clear nothing would ever happen between them, not only because she was with Lexa, but because she didn't look at her that way. Lexa totally wore a told you so smirk that night as Clarke replayed the conversation while admitting she really couldn't blame her for wanting Clarke at all. Clarke decided it was in Niylah's best interest to give her time away from Clarke to help her feeling evaporate, Lexa couldn't deny she felt more at ease than ever to hear that. Slowly everything started fitting back in their correct slots until Clarke and Lexa became Clexa in the magazines all over again. Despite them always promising to come home unless Lexa was out of the country Thursday was their absolute favourite night of the week.

"Where are you taking me this time?" Clarke questions biting her lip flirtatiously.

"Somewhere special" Lexa grinned wiggling her brows at she pulled Clarke even tighter against her.

"Sounds.. You" Clarke confessed "I just need to get changed quick" Just as Clarke is pulling away Lexa quickly pulls her back looking her up and down in her blue scrubs and white coat, she had seen it on Abby on a regular basis when they lived at home, but there was something about the way Clarke wore it.

"You don't have to"

"is that right?" Clarke questions seductively, her eyes already trailing down lexa's slender neck down to her exposed chest before being rudely cut of by Lexa's black vest. "and what would you have me doing?" She teases pulling at Lexa's loops to her jeans while painfully leaning closer to her lips but not nearly close enough.

"I would-"

"Girls!" Abby says a smile spreading across her lips as she walks in and throws the files on her desk. "Date night again?" she question as Clarke steps away from Lexa with a silent smirk that tells her she's lucky because they certainly wouldn't be leaving this office anytime soon.

"Yeah" Lexa says trying to distract her sinful thought and the way Clarke's finger is still looped in her jeans. "You doing anything special tonight?"

"Oh the best" She says sarcastically "I have a spinal surgery in a hour"

"I'm going to get changed quick" Clarke whispers pecking your lips and disappearing while you turn to Abby fully.

"All set for tonight?" Abby says the moment the doors closed.

"I think so" You say nervously patting the pocket of your leather jacket to make sure the ring is still in there. "What if she says no?" She says nervously while playing with her fingers. It was a habit she still couldn't grow out of.

"Oh honey" Abby say stepping in Lexa's personal space and clasping her hands over her face. "She loves you more than anything. I would be surprised if she hasn't got a book hidden away somewhere with all the decisions made already." Abby laughs before she has time to tear up. Carefully Abby take's Lexa's hands in her own and looks at her with a softness only a mother could. "When Clarke was just a little girl me and Jake renewed our wedding vows, and Clarke put on a pretty little princess dress while she stood at the alter with us" Abby explains. "She had told us she wanted to hear our vows properly so refused to sit in her seat. The ceremony continued and while we read our vows to one another Clarke had a death drip on her Dads trouser leg as she watched, then as he kissed me Clarke couldn't stop smiling. She pulled us down to her height and declare to us she couldn't wait till she gets married. Jake had teased her telling her that would never happen because no one was aloud to marry his little girl because no one could possibly deserve her. He dreaded that day when someone would ask for permission but when you asked him Lexa" Abby says softly squeezing Lexa's hands in her own. "He got emotional" she grins. "He couldn't think of anyone better, because he knows he doesn't even need to tell you to take care of his little girl. You just did the moment you walked in her life. Getting Clarke to say yes will be the easiest thing you will ever do. Jake on the other hand would have been your challenge and I think if you left it much longer he would of been asking you himself when you would pop the question" Abby laughs her eyes watery from tears because her beautiful family certainly are something.

"Thank you" Lexa babbles her tears already trickling down her face before Abby could wipe them away.

"Come on" Abby says breathing deeply herself. "We need to stop this before she comes back, or she won't let it go"

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"is this really necessary?" Clarke whines making sure her hairs not splayed messily around the blindfold.

"Nope" Lexa laughs.

"Then why am I wearing it?"

"I wanted to see how long you would last"

Without another word Clarke was pulling the blindfold from her eyes to give Lexa daggers. Daggers that weren't all that convincing considering the smile paints Clarke's lips and the way her brows lifted in challenge before she's yawning her head off.

"Tired?" Lexa questioned.

"I'm not a night owl you know" Clarke says with a grin.

"Or a early bird"

"I know I'm some kind of really exhausted pigeon all the time" she whines.

"We can go home if you want? I know you've had a long day" Lexa offers thinking of the ring in her pocket. It could wait she thinks, until the moment is perfect.

"Don't even think about it, I look forward to this every week" Clarke says honestly reaching out for Lexa's hand on the gear stick. "It's just you and me"

"You and me" Lexa repeats with a wide spread smile as she pulls up infront of her destination. "We're here" 

Lexa unbuckles her seat belt before stepping out the car, watching a very puzzled blonde step up beside her.

"A fair?" Clarke says looking for other people. "It looks closed" She frowns turning to Lexa for a explanation.

"That's because it is" Lexa says through a amused smile taking Clarke's hands in her own and pulling her through the fair. "Its only open to us" She explains admiring all the pretty lights and some workers standing behind some a few small fun games.  

"What?" Clarke asked confused her brow furrowing even more as she turns to look at the few people working with smiles on there faces. "You paid for it privately" 

"Yes" 

"Lexa" Clarke says a little dumbfounded as she turns to the brunette eyes wide and mouth open. "This must have cost a fortune" Clarke says while eyeing the size of the fair. "You didn't have to do that"

"I wanted to" Lexa says simply. "Everywhere we go we get interrupted" 

"You know I don't mind" Clarke tries to explain wrapping her arms around her girlfriends neck.

"I know" Lexa says capturing Clarke's lips in a simple kiss. "But I wanted it to be just me and you. Just once, no interruptions Plus there's a reason" Lexa grins kissing her once more before pulling her with her to a fun game stall. 

"Remember this?" Lexa questions pulling her up to two ladders leading up to a bell to win a surprise.  

"Halloween" Clarke breathes a smile forming at the memory. It felt like forever ago since they were back in high school sharing there first bunch of kisses. They hadn't a clue back then what life had installed for them, but standing here with the same woman that still is capable of making her feel a explosive amount of emotions at once in the best thing she could have hoped for. "We competed" Clarke smirks turning to green eyes.

"You beat me last time" Lexa says looking to the ladder. "that won't happen again" She says confidently.

"Have I ever told you confident Lexa turns me on?" Clarke husks pulling at Lexa's jacket to give her a deep kiss that has Lexa's arms wrapping her while shuddering against Clarke's lips. "You're still going to lose though" Clarke whispers pulling from the kiss to quickly place one more leaving Lexa confused for a few seconds. Yet as Clarke gets in position Lexa quickly remembers what they were about to do and gets in place too.

"Ready?" The man asks standing to the side. They both nod in union and before they can do anything else other than smirk at one another they're off. The moment Lexa steps on the ladder she works out balancing it quickly placing her feet directly in the middle, the longer she waited the more it threatened to flip so she moved quickly step after step keeping her hands in sync just as she's about to ring the bell Clarke's goes of before she's crashing to the bouncy castle.

"To slow" Clarke laughs looking up to the brunette before she crashing down beside her.

"Out of three?" Lexa suggest making Clarke laugh harder. 

"Sure" Clarke grins pulling her girlfriend above her to kiss her. "I love you" she mumbled attacking Lexa's lips even quicker than before not wanting her to get up and go anywhere at all. Honestly if Lexa just stayed on top of her all night it would still be one of her best dates ever. Only Lexa could do this, no matter how much people tried Lexa was the only one that could make her forget her workload, make her forget people she had thought hard to save but failed, she was the only one who could make her feel young again and Clarke loved every single bit of it. 

"i'll love you even more when I win" Lexa whispers before quickly jumping of the blonde and getting in position. 

"That will never happen" Clarke laughed climbing to her feet. 

Like Clarke predicted she won all three earning her a beautiful pout from Lexa's lips. Clarke could do nothing but kiss it away and admired her attempts before admitting she use to do them all the time with Anya and her dad, they had family competitions like this all the time. It was something new Lexa was forever learning and she hoped she would never stop. They played every fun game they could find, one was throwing a ball at some cans needing to knock everyone down. Clarke pretended she didn't see Lexa's jaw straighten when she proudly knocked them all down with one ball, While Lexa ignored Clarke's bragging when she won the ball through the hoop game. 

"This was different" Clarke says softly pulling her candy floss from her stick and shoving it in her mouth before turning to face Lexa shyly. "Thank you" Clarke says her blue eyes focusing on Lexa's beautiful face before her hand comes up to cup Lexa's cheek. "Not just for the date. For everything" Clarke breathes stepping a little bit closer. "For loving me" She hums trailing her thumb along Lexa's bottom lip just because she knew she loved it.

"Loving you is the easiest thing I've ever done" Lexa confesses green eyes sparkling as they look in to blue. "I should be the one saying thank you" Lexa confesses. If it wasn't for Clarke she wouldn't be here today. Clarke brought her out her shell, taught her how to step out of her comfort zone and live, she taught her how to love and what it's like to be loved. 

"You could have any girl you wanted" Clarke says through a playful smile but deep down Lexa knew Clarke had a insecurity about her new found fame. Apparently just because you are in the public eye you attract millions of fans that claim to be in love with you. Men and women would happily bow down to be with Lexa and had read some disturbing tweets over the years confirming just that. However Lexa never entertained any of it, instead she would prefer to spend her time showing her girlfriend she had no worries and she would continue to do so as long as it takes. "Everyone wants you"

"None of them are you" Lexa admits honestly brushing her finger along a blonde lock. "None of them even know me" That's all Lexa had to say to Clarke to have her feeling like she was on top of the world all over again. Deep down she knew, she knew Lexa was forever hers but she would never tire of hearing it. "Come" Lexa instructs taking Clarke's hand in her own as she walks her to the end of the fair until they were standing infront of the Ferris wheel. Lexa turned to Clarke squeezing her hand softly, this could go either way really.

"What?" Clarke says looking at the huge ride. "I can't go on that" She shakes her head. Her fear in heights had never improved but Lexa wanted her to do this with her.

"Please" Lexa says softly turning to hold her girlfriend. "I won't let you go. You've done it with me before"

"That was because you never rid one before, plus Costia would have had a field trip with you on that ride back in high school" Clarke says giving Lexa the look as in see I thought for you.

"Well this time I have something to show you"

"If its how far ill fall to my death I'm good thanks" Clarke says looking how high the ride is. "It's bigger" She says like she's thinking about it while twitching her lip but Lexa can't help but smile.

"I'll kiss you again" Lexa offers making Clarke smile too.

"Don't even thinking about letting me go" Clarke warns her jaw tightening as she takes Lexa's hand in her own.

"I won't" She promises gripping it just as tightly as Clarke as they are guided to a seat before being strapped in.  "Ready?"

"No" Clarke whines her eyes closing as the ride begins to slowly move, her hands gripping Lexa's tighter than she ever has.

Suddenly all the nerves Lexa's been trying to avoid feeling all night seem to overwhelm her as she looks out to the night sky squeezing Clarke's hand back. She hadn't prepared a speech because words never went her way anyway, plus Clarke always seems to guide her through her troubles, so she thought writing a speech would be time wasting. Looking at Clarke with her eyes closed had her heart fluttering at the fond memories from their Halloween Carnival where Clarke rid this this with her despite the fear she felt, yet the moment she kissed Clarke she forgot where she was, her fear evaporated, and Lexa felt like for the first time her heart pounded with meaning.

"Do you remember this the first time round?" Lexa questioned her voice breaking just a little bit.

"Hard to forget" Clarke confessed eyes still closed while her knuckles turned white around Lexas.

As easy as this would be with Clarke's eyes closed Lexa wanted them open. So like the first time she leaned Closer and softly pushed her lips to Clarkes who instantly responded with a hint of a smile. It was like de ja vu, back to when she was petrified, back to when she was scared to kiss Clarke with out her initiating it, but here they six years later. She wasn't scared to kiss the woman she loved anymore, infact she felt like she lived for it. Just as she felt Clarke's body relax around her's she parted her lips keeping her forehead pressed to Clarke as she panted for breath.

"Clarke" Lexa says softly placing her hand on Clarke's cheek. "There's something you don't know" She says honestly watching blue eyes flicker open to stare directly in to green making Lexa smile even wider, because Clarke trust her again. "It feels like forever ago since we did this. Like another life or something. Yet I remember it so vividly, I remember always feeling scared. I thought I wasn't normal and no matter how much I tried to fit in I just couldn't" Lexa admitted never looking away once as she held Clarke even closer. "no matter how I felt about myself, you always made me feel different, better. I can't explain it, but you always seemed so strong, scared of nothing I admired you so much for it" Lexa said honestly with a wide spread smile causing Clarke to smile a small one while looking at Lexa questioningly. "Then we came on this ride and you were just so scared, i'd never seen you scared of anything I even wondered if you had a fear at all. But you got on, you fort through your fears and worries and just did it. For the first time I didn't feel so weird, you made me feel normal in that moment, because it wasn't me scared, but you placed your trust in me" Lexa admitted her eyes sparkling remembering the feeling. "When I first met you I didn't hear sirens, I didn't get goose bumps, and I didn't feel a spark" Lexa breathes squeezing Clarke's hand.

"Lex" Clarke says nervously but her eyes are sparkling as she places her hand on Lexa's cheek lovingly.

"I didn't feel all of those things when I first met you. Yet when we were up on that Ferris wheel I felt like I couldn't breathe because you were so intoxicating. It was the first time I felt like someone trust me, the first time like I felt like you were really looking at me and god I couldn't look away from you" Lexa hummed honestly. "I fell in love with you so quickly after that"  Lexa grinned with a small giggle. "and I know i'll never be capable of loving anyone like you, and I don't care to find out" Lexa breathed swallowing harshly as she reached in her leather pocket and pulled out a velvet black box. She watched Clarke's eyes drop to it immediately before her eyes widened and was looking in to green eyes once more, they were already watering as her smile grew to a size Lexa has never seen it before.

"I don't want you to trust anyone how you do me. More importantly No one could possibly love you how I do" Lexa breathed looking how high they are. "I love you Clarke Griffin. You didn't make my heart beat faster, you created my heart on your own, you taught it everything it knows so I plan on loving you until I take my last breath" Tears are streaming down both there faces as they sit god knows how high in the air. "I want to Marry you Clarke, god I've wanted to marry you for so long" Lexa laughs pulling open the ring as Clarke clasps her hands over her mouth with tear stained eyes.

"Yes!"

"I haven't asked yet" Lexa laughs.

"You don't need to" Clarke says quickly "It's always been yes!" Clarke mumbled against Lexa's lips and then they are kissing. It's all tongue and smiles and biting lips and soft tears pressing against the others cheek. Clarke completely forgets about the height and Lexa completely forgets to slide the ring on Clarke's finger. Instead they hold one another kiss until they can't breath and look at one another with so much adoration Clarke's heart feels full.

"I love you so much" Clarke breathes between kisses making Lexa smile against her lips.

"Oh the ring" Lexa quickly remembers making Clarke laugh spreading her fingers out as Lexa slides it on.

"It's beautiful" Clarke admits finally admiring it. Honestly she didn't truly look at it when Lexa asked, because it never mattered what ring was on her finger, as long as Lexa was the one to put it on.


When they finally got of the ride they took longer than necessary getting of the grounds because If it wasn't one of then pulling them to a holt to make out it was the other. Not that either of them were complaining. It took Clarke less than five minutes after entering the car to face time her dad while instantly flashing the ring infront of the Camera. He got emotion on the camera too. He was a babbling mess Betime he stopped speaking and couldn't wait to see them next week. When Clarke got home she didn't tell Raven, she started showing her left hand off until Raven eventually saw the diamond ring on her finger. Lexa swears she still hasn't heard a squeal like it. Raven pounced on both of them and demanded to know everything while Anya just hit Lexa and said about dam time too!

Abby was right she really had nothing to worry about, it was always a yes. Now Lexa woods would become officially a Griffin.