Lost And Insecure!

Lost And Insecure!

"Please shut that baby up" Anya pleaded while covering her ears.

"He just needs changed" Clarke says a little clueless already regretting agreeing to babysitting for a hour.

"Yeah hopefully in to a puppy or something quieter"

"Anya! You cant say that" Clarke snaps while laying the fidgety screaming baby on the ground.

"Oh please, like a ten month old baby can understand me"

"they recognise things" Clarke defends unbuttoning the baby grow while the baby refuses to stay still.

"Obviously not silence" Clarke could only roll her eyes as she struggles to pull the baby's kicking legs out of its clothes to make way for a stinky nappy.

"Can you help me here" Clarke huffs turning to Anya before turning the screaming baby.

"I'm good here thanks I prefer fresh air"

"Anya"

"Fine, fine! Where's Lexa? why do I have to be on baby duty?" Anya groaned sitting beside Clarke on the floor equally as clueless.

"You're the one that agreed when the neighbour knocked on our door, claiming I'm a expert with babies"

"Well baby Annabelle use to love you"

"It was a doll" Clarke deadpanned, shaking her head while wishing the baby would just shut up so she could think.

"Well what do you want me to do?" Anya questioned while both Griffins stare down at the crying boy.

"I don't know" Clarke shrugs. "I've never changed a baby before, he keeps kicking his legs" She points out. "hold his legs, that way I can get his nappy of without poo going anywhere" Clarke suggest.

"why do I have to hold his legs?"

"You can wipe his bum if you prefer?"

"I'll hold his legs" Anya nods quickly taking hold of the babys legs gently. "Why do people have these?" Anya questioned like she was disgusted at having someone ruin her quiet time. "woah! he's a fidgety little thing"

"Hold him still then" Clarke orders undoing his nappy while the baby seemed to scream even more.

"I'm trying!" Anya snapped. "I don't want to hurt him"

"This is useless" Clarke huffs sticking the nappy firmly back around. "This is your fault"

"How is it my fault?" Anya asks offended.

"it just is" Clarke says picking the baby back up to hold infront of her. "Please stop crying" She pleads about ready to cry herself.

"Look mate" Anya says seriously with a pointed finger. "We are just trying to help you, now stop being a pain in my butt, and keep that butt still, you hear me?" she questions as the baby continues to scream out. "His rather rude" Anya says turning to Clarke.

"Do you think we should just wash his bum in the bath?" Clarke questioned "Wouldn't it be easier?" 

"I Ain't unplugging no shitty plug hole" Anya said seriously  "Nu-uh you Can Anya me all you like you're on your own on that one"  

"Well this was your dumb idea!" Clarke barks. "Stop answering my front door anyway you don't even live here!"

"Whatever you say" Anya ignores.

"Let's just go for it" Clarke says placing the crying baby down once more.

"You lead"

"Fine" Clarke wines looking to baby Frankie one last time. "Here goes nothing" she Pulls the nappy open once more while Anya tries to hold the baby still, his cries only becoming more erratic.

"Oh my god!" Clarke gags while pulling the nappy beneath his bum to make sure no poo goes on the carpet before gagging again.

"ew" Anya quickly closer her eyes and holds her breath refusing to see or even smell the kid.

"Hold my nose" Clarke orders gagging as she uses a wipe to clean up his bottom. "ERGH" she gags again covering her mouth. "Anya!" Blindly Anya released the baby and searches for Clarke's nose before pinching down on it.

"What kind of baby poo's like that" Anya says in disbelief holding Clarke's nose along with her own. "FIRE IN THE HOLE!!" Anya shouts out startling Frankie along with Clarke.

"Wha-" Just before Clarke could ask what Anya was on about she felt a small wet puddle forming on her jeans where Frankie was confidently weeing on her.

"GRAB THE NAPPY!" Clarke points "QUICK!"

"YOU GRAB THE FLIPPING NAPPY!"

"Umm what are you doing?" Lexa questioned confused as she places her car keys in her back pocket, not sure to laugh, ask a hell of a lot of questions or not be surprised at all as its Anya and Clarke. They looked like a tangled mess with Anya holding her nose and Clarke's, Clarke's jeans soaked through while trying to fend of the on coming wee.

"changing a nappy" Clarke says innocently shrugging her shoulders like it was the most innocent thing in the world.

"Clarke" Anya says.

"Yes"

"You have shit on your finger"

Lexa couldn't help it, she laughed as she leaned against the door frame while her girlfriend seemed to be trying to detach her finger from her body while she uncontrollably gagged.

"Need a hand?" Lexa questioned already moving closer.

"Apparently not a shitty one, Clarke's got one of those" Anya laughed earning her a shove.

"Do you no how to change a nappy?" Clarke questioned defeated not bothered if poo gets on the floor at this point.

"I do" Lexa smiles innocently as she gently takes over gripping Frankie's ankles and raising them slightly in the air to get to his bottom while pulling at some wipes. She didn't really realise it but as Lexa cleaned up the baby effortlessly while cooing him to silence the two Griffins were frozen to the spot watching amazed and slightly shocked.

"Hello you" Lexa says slightly leaning over the baby as she buttons his baby grow back up. "that wasn't hard was it?" Lexa questioned Frankie who just stared on at her cutely.

"How did you learn to do that?" Clarke questioned after watching Lexa pick Frankie up.

"I've been around many kids" Lexa shrugged "There are loads of babies without any homes" She says sadly looking down at Frankie with a glint in her eyes while tickling his tiny chin. "I use to ask to help sometimes"

"that's cute" Clarke says eyeing her girlfriend with her own special glint behind blue, She gave up on thinking Lexa could no longer surprise her with anything a while back, so instead she smiled and admired her girlfriend who seemed to be able to turn a screaming bratty child in to a cute little angel.

"Weirdo" Anya says shaking her head as she stands and plops herself back on the couch. 

"I'm just going to go wash my hands" Clarke says "will you be ok for a sec?"

"sure" Lexa says leaning forward anyway to kiss her girlfriend.

When Clarke came back in the room she stood quietly by the door for a moment eyeing Lexa on the floor with Frankie, god she looked beautiful in her leather jacket and dark blue jeans and combat boots. They had spent the afternoon separate as they were going away soon so Lexa spent the day with Costia but Clarke still couldn't help but miss her for even those few hours, and just seeing her so in control of a situation had Clarke biting her lip.

"You know I love you?" Clarke questioned while placing either leg around Lexa from behind.

"I do" Lexa says with a drop dead gorgeous smile. "How come you have him?"

"Dib shit over there volunteered" Clarke shakes her head making sure Anya heard 'Dib shit'

"He is very smiley" Lexa says widening her eyes playfully at the baby.

"Really?" Clarke questioned turning to Mr stinky who had no evidence of ever crying at all. "He did nothing but cry with us"

"Really?" Lexa questioned before placing Frankie back on the floor and turning to Clarke. "Costia says hello by the way"

"How is she?"

"She's fine. She actually wanted me to let you know that, next week the day before graduation she's throwing a party"

"Did you want to go?" Clarke questioned.

"Only if you come with me" Lexa says shyly as Clarke plays with her fingers.

"I can't let you go alone now can I?" Clarke says playfully. "As if I will let someone else snatch you up"

"No one will snatch me up"

"Course they won't" Clarke says smugly. "I'll be there fending them off" She teases placing a loving kiss on Lexa's lips who seemed to moan at the force of it.

"i'll be there to fend them off" Anya mimicking in a funny voice. "Pass me the sick bowl"

"Here" Clarke says with a smug grin as she places the shitty nappy near Anya.

"You're sick!"

----

Lexa wasn't about to start complaining but for the last few days something in Clarke seemed to have kick started leaving her nothing but a horny mess every time she greeted Lexa. She wouldn't even need to be doing anything in particular before Clarke would jump her bones sometimes not having so much as a hello being whispered between them before Clarke was ripping the brunettes clothes of until she was completely naked. Only Yesterday Clarke came home while Lexa was playing guitar on the bed and before she could even look up and greet her girlfriend Clarke's lips were on hers with the instrument trapped between them, the day before that it was movie night so all the Griffins laid on their separate couches cuddled up under blankets and before the movie even got half way through Clarkes hand had began wondering under Lexa's top before bravely trying to creep under her thongs, but of course Lexa wasn't about to have Sex in the front room with Abby and Jake in the room so had pushed Clarke's eager hands away more than once with a warning look. Clarke didn't stop there she kissed and nibbled teasingly through out the movie until Lexa was biting back moans, it didn't take much longer until Lexa excused herself to try and regain herself not expecting Clarke to follow so bashfully yanking her in to the bedroom like she hadn't had sex all year. Today was no different the second Frankie's parents picked him up and Anya left to go see Raven Clarkes spark in her eye returned.

"You have no idea what this leather jacket does to me" Clarke husked climbing over Lexa before gripping on to the jacket bringing her closer.

"It's yours" Lexa grinned.

"Exactly" Clarke smirked biting down on her favourite spot on Lexa's jaw. "You make them, sexier" Clarke confessed gripping at Lexa's baby hairs and pulling her head back to open her neck even wider. "Don't you think?" Clarke questioned licking the length of Lexa's long slender neck.

"Clarke" Lexa moaned gripping on to her hips to stabilise herself "We're in the living room" She tried, she really did but Lexa's eyes were already closed at the sensational feeling of Clarke's lips tracing her weak spot she knew far to well. Somehow Lexa found herself at a disadvantage.

"Sorry" Clarke lied nipping on Lexa's earlobe. "Would you prefer the kitchen counter?" Clarke smirked remembering their encounter rather well on the very spot they make toast every morning. Lexa instantly blushed bright red remembering quite vividly that day.

"You're so cute when you're embarrassed" Clarke grinned resting her forehead against Lexa's. "never lose it" she pleaded in barely a whisper taking Lexa's hands in hers and fiddling with her fingers like she knew Lexa was itching to do it.  "I discovered something today" Clarke confessed with a proud smirk.

"What?"

"You happen to be a expert with babies" Clarke grinned showing her pearly whites. "I would have never have guessed that"

"Why?" Lexa questioned her beautiful green eyes focused on Clarke's fingers as she plays with them before rubbing her thumb back and forth across her palm.

"I don't know" Clarke shrugs "I Just didn't. I liked it" Clarke confesses. "It suits you, babies. You had a way with him"

"There easy when you know what you're doing" Lexa shrugs like once again it was nothing, apparently she shrugged at everything she did like it was nothing special, nothing worth talking about or even something worth being proud about, but Clarke wasn't having any of it.

"I don't think so" Clarke argues pulling at Lexa's leather jacket once more for green eyes to connect with blue in the loving way they always seemed to. "all babies could need is food, change of bum and sleep. He had all of those and he still cried for the whole fifteen minutes I had him before you got here, I wanted to cry" Clarke admits pouting her lip making Lexa laugh. "then you flew in like superwoman and boom not even a murmur"

"hmm"

"not hmm" Clarke mocked "You're really good with kids" Clarke says softly wrapping her arms "Is it weird that you kind of turned me on?" Clarke questioned shyly wiggling her eye brows. 

"How did it turn you on?" Lexa questioned her smile growing with every second, it was only Clarke that could do this, make her feel so incredible, so amazing from the smallest of things that were literally nothing.

"You had complete control of the situation" Clarke husked "You knew what to do and how to do it" Clarke confessed "Plus you were like my hero" She grinned finally capturing Lexa's lips in a slow lingering kiss barely feeling Lexa's tongue against her own but enough to make her want more and kiss her harder and deeper. "Shower with me" Clarke ordered standing up and holding her hand out.

"What If someone comes home?"

"Then ill tell them I'm showering with my girlfriend" Clarke says shrugging her shoulder as she pulls Lexa in to her. "Sexy girlfriend actually" Clarke corrects.


Sex with Clarke was something Lexa could never quite explain and had accepted the fact that maybe she never would. She hated how some people would explain their sex life as earthshattering, or out of this world and found the explanation rather bland and boring sounding more like a lie than the actual truth. It wasn't even the way Lexa would cum until her eyes closed like they would never open again, or the way her breathing became almost hysterical with the sensation shooting through her veins and across her body. It was the after part, the part where she would cum until she swears she would see little spots, the part where Clarke would hold her, sooth her with gentle kisses and nips to her lip like she would never be done, like she could never get enough no matter how many times she watched Lexa fall of the edge. It was just the simple way Clarke's eyes would hold a spark in those incredible blue eyes while struggling to contain themselves with Lexa's still naked body infront of her.

"You ok?" Clarke whispers lovingly.

Maybe it was that question too.

"Perfect" Lexa breathed heavily her eyes finally opening to see Clarke's eyes do exactly what they always did, with that beautiful spark while soothing her body back down from its high. Her fingers now long lost in Clarke's tangled wet hair, her legs like jelly not that that matter as Clarke supports every inch of her.

"I love you" Clarke whispers her dark eyes back to soft and loving as her finger slowly rises to play with wet curls hanging around Lexa's face. "How did I get so lucky?" She questioned seriously her eyes shifting from the water droplets to Lexa's green eyes.

"I'm the lucky one" Lexa says after a moment resting her forehead on Clarke as she slowly steady's herself completely on her own two feet.

"Hmm.. I don't think so" Clarke says her finger following the water droplets down to Lexa's breast. "You are so much more than you think" Clarke says softly pushing her body further in to Lexa's. "You're talented, god so talented you're voice is incredible and you play the guitar fluently and may I add you taught yourself" Clarke says proudly. "You gone through more crap than most people do in a life time and here you are" Clarke says looking Lexa up and down "Here you are with your heart open to me, already aware of the pain you could possibly feel, but you are here" Clarke says softer, slower and more in thought with her own words than Lexa actually was. "With me" she says softly with a glowing smile.

"You don't want to hurt me" Lexa says like she knew it all along.

"I won't ever" Clarke says "That isn't even a option"

"I know" Lexa whispers her arms snaking around Clarke like they were meant to be one.

---


"You realise some Hoe is trying to get in Lexa's pants right?" Anya barks as she intrudes the group.

"I can see that Anya" Clarke says smiling looking over in to Costia's front room where Lexa had never looked cuter in her life. Standing their shifting foot to foot while looking around the room supposedly for Clarke while a girl awkwardly drunkenly flirts with Lexa.

"Am I missing something here?" Anya questioned looking to Clarke, Octavia, and Costia's amused smiles completely focused on Lexa. "Where's your sniper?" She questioned seriously looking to Clarke's hands "Machete? Anything?" She says still baffled that the girl is actually still standing by Lexa intact.

"She's fine" Costia says before laughing at something Lexa did which Anya clearly missed.

"Have you all gone mad?" Anya questioned taking the drink from Clarke's hand and sniffing the tip of the top. "Have you been spiked?"

"Shut up you idiot" Clarke laughs snapping her drink back. "She isn't doing anything wrong"

"I repeat some HOE is trying to get in Lexa's pants. Your girlfriend. Her over there" 

"trying" Clarke laughs "Look, does it really look like Lexa is interested?" she questioned casually leaning back on the kitchen counter without a care in the word.

Anya takes a moment to actually turn around and look at the girl who continued to try make conversation that looked more strained than fun, while Lexa awkwardly smiles with her arms crossed over her chest like she was closed of from everyone.

"point taken" Anya says holding a finger in the air "but still that bitch be dead talking to my girl"

"She looks so uncomfortable" Octavia laughs having pity on the girl.

"Good" Clarke says smugly.

"Maybe she needs some liquor courage" Anya says like it was a brilliant idea to relax her.

"Yeah. No" Clarke says instantly.

"don't you think you should rescue her?" Costia questioned. "Or maybe I could rescue her for you?" Costia teases "Or Roan?"

"Hands of my woman" Clarke warns playfully witch a glare. "I think she has suffered enough" Clarke smirks placing her beer down before turning on her heel and heading towards her girlfriend.

Clarke almost laughed when Lexa's eyes looked relieved when they found Clarke before she finally released a breath. She would be so smug right now if she wasn't already thinking of Lexa's lips on hers. It took less than seconds before Clarke finally got hold of them not thinking twice about crashing her lips to Lexa's in a searing kiss as she gripped the back of her neck. Clarke swears the moan that left Lexa's mouth made her instantly wet, as she didn't just welcome the kiss, she searched for more causing Clarke to bring her other hand to Lexa's lower back pulling their bodies flush against one another never parting the kiss despite slowly moving their bodies in sync to the music.

"What naughty little things are you getting up to now?" Clarke questioned with a smirk placing another tender kiss on Lexa's calling lips.

"I was looking for you"

"Oh I could see that" Clarke smirks even wider "I was watching you the whole time, plus Anya told me some girl was trying to get in your pants"

"She asked me if I wanted to go upstairs with her" Lexa says sickened by the idea.

"She did?" Clarke furrowing her brows. "Is she still behind me?"

"No. Why?"

"She's lucky, was going to get her with my machete" Clarke grins leaning forward to kiss Lexa once more. "What did you say to her?" she questioned between kisses.

"I Said no thank you" Lexa says awkwardly. "So gave her my number instead to call me"

Clarke abruptly pulled away frowning at Lexa about to speak up but before she could Lexa spoke instead.

"I'm kidding" Lexa smirked "teach you for watching"

"oh look at you" Clarke says proudly wrapping her arms around Lexa to pull her even Closer if even possible. "Learning how to joke, you have come so far" she grins.

"To much of you and Anya"

"You love us"

"I do" She confesses

"Me more though right?"

"Maybe" Lexa jokes once more earning her a slap to the arm.