Lost And Insecure!

Lost And Insecure!

There was something about watching Lexa sleep that had Clarke's stomach going wild while unable to control her forever growing smile, it wasn't like it was the first time she felt it but it was rare due to Lexa always waking before her despite her best efforts, green eyes just always seemed to be watching her lovingly already and she hated that she loved it even more. Waking up to Lexa today though was rather different and Clarke could only supress her growing smile by biting her bottom lip as she hovers quietly over her heavy sleeping girlfriend. Lexa lay their with her hair more dishevelled than ever before around her pillow and slightly across her face causing every exhale of breath to blow pieces of her hair, her left in mascara slightly printed above her eye lids while making the cutest of noises threw her nose, but Clarke's favourite bit, the bit that was drawing her in more and more was Lexa's lips that looked like she was constantly pouting as they puckered out in the most appealing yet silliest of ways. It was suddenly like mission impossible to not kiss Lexa, her lips were practically calling for her own after all with that sleepy pout that was just to adorable for words. She hated herself even more as she really didn't want to wake Lexa but the argument in her own head lost in the matter of 5 seconds while she leant down and kissed Lexa's full lips in the gentlest of ways.

She never moved in the slightest.

"Lazy bum" Clarke smirked her eyes unable to stop watching her girlfriend in awe as she placed a gentle peck on her lips again while nuzzling her nose barely against Lexa's while pressing her hand to Lexa's half open palm. She was forever being surprised everyday with how overwhelmed Lexa could make her feel from a simple look, or just a few words but she welcomed it all and secretly hoped it would never stop because for the first time in her life she was in love, truly deeply and madly and she would happily drown in it and never come up for air because being with Lexa consumed her to a new level. "My baby had to much alcohol last night" Clarke smirked as Lexa continued to pout her lip and make that cute little sound threw her nose. She couldn't help herself as she captured Lexa's pouting lips once more resisting the urge to bite her bottom lip and wake her up instantly, instead smirking as she set herself a challenge on waking the brunette. "Lets see if I can get you to open those beautiful green eyes" Clarke smirked teasingly, not that Lexa could see her or anything who still appeared dead to the world.

She placed a tender kiss to her lips before pulling away to see if it caused any sign of movement, when satisfied it didn't she moved her assault down to Lexa's neck placing a single kiss to her collar bone while releasing her hand for it to disappear beneath the quilt till it rest on Lexa's naked hip. When Lexa still didn't move Clarke suppressed her laugh and settled for a very amused smile before kissing down the line of her breast slowly but equally as gentle as all the others only to smirk when Lexa stirs in the slightest with a gentle 'hmm' that leave her lips before remaining still once again. Blue eyes rolled amused as she pulled the quilt back further lowering her lips down across Lexa's toned stomach seeing the small bruises Clarke couldn't help but leave the night before as Lexa came hard while her fingers were buried deep within before assaulting her with her tongue. "You have the worlds sexiest body" Clarke confesses her eyes admiring Lexa's chest bashfully before placing kisses lower and lower across her stomach feeling Lexa's body react beneath her while humming in delight yet green eyes still refused to open. Not satisfied until Lexa is fully awake and see's those green eyes flicker open Clarke lowers herself once more her eyes now trained on Lexa fully as her hand trails down Lexa's inner thigh teasingly.

"Hmm" Lexa moans her head turning to the side as her lips part from the pout that Clarke instantly missed. With a wide satisfied smirk Clarke gently places a gentle kiss to Lexa's pelvis bone looking up threw hooded eyes as Lexa's leg opens and bends at the knee invitingly as green eyes finally open. "Clarke" She Croaks out looking down to where Clarke's smirking.

"Hmm" Clarke hums to far in the game for it to be even possible to stop her assault on Lexa after being this close. "So eager for me" Clarke teases her hand teasingly gliding up Lexa's bent thigh until she brushes her fingers against Lexa's hot centre, making Lexa's body react as her centre pushes up in the slightest for more. "Have I ever told you how sexy you are when you're sleeping?" Clarke questioned raising her body till she was level with Lexa's body once more while her hand continued her teasing between Lexa's thighs.

"No" Lexa whimpered her green eyes closing in delight as her hand disappearing almost instantly in Clarke's hair while trying to capture Clarke's lips who had other plans and resisted teasingly. "Clarke" she practically whined pleadingly wanting to kiss her girlfriend after being woke up with her body burning.

"You do" Clarke continued ignoring Lexa's pleas "So sexy" She confessed pushing her forehead against Lexa's until they were sharing oxygen, their lips so close Clarke could almost taste her on her tongue, while her hand slipped between Lexa's folds in to her wetness. "You had this pout thing going on. God, you should have seen it Lexa" Clarke breathed her eye's slipping to the now parted plumb lips as green eyes close in pleasure her lower half pushing more in to Clarke's hand eagerly. "I wanted to bite your lip so hard and at the same time never stop kissing them" Clarke whispered brushing her bottom lip teasingly against Lexa's only to pull away when Lexa's lips try to catch hers fully.

"Kiss me then" Lexa pleaded her eyes heavier than when she first woke but with something different. Her green eyes flickered down to Clarke's lips once more before shooting her head up quickly to try and capture them once again while Clarke pulled back further teasingly her fingers sliding up and down around Lexa's entrance making her eyes fall shut and her head quickly tilt back against the pillow while Clarke slowly pushed two fingers inside Lexa's soaking wet core, right where Lexa wanted her.

"You're beautiful" Clarke continued as she slowly withdrew her fingers to push them back inside once again thriving on Lexa's cloudy desperate moans. "Especially when you're jealous" Clarke smirked finally leaning down to bite on Lexa's bottom lip like she had been naughty and deserved the punishment. "The way you squeezed my hand so tight in reassurance and fear but couldn't stand to see me with someone else" Clarke husked trailing kisses down Lexa's neck while continuing her steady teasing pace, enough for pleasure but not enough to tip anyone over the edge.

"Clarke" Lexa panted her hand gripping in blonde locks tighter keeping her against her neck wanting every inch of affection from her lover. "Hmm. That feels.." she was cut of as her breath hitches as Clarke thrust in harder and deeper in a single thrust silencing her instantly threw pleasure while her eyes slammed closed once more.

"You turned me on when you told me I was yours" Clarke confessed biting on Lexa's earlobe a little breathless herself from how aroused she was herself at the sight now and the memory of last night. "When you fucked me in the bathroom and claimed me to be yours"

"Ohh fuck" Lexa whimpered as Clarke's thrust picked up before wrapping her lips around Lexa's nipple and sucking harder than usual while grinding her own body down in to Lexa's.

"I am yours" Clarke breathed honestly bringing her lips to hover above Lexa's once more. "and you're mine" Clarke stated before resting her forehead against her panting girlfriends watching her fall to pieces as her high builds and builds. "Forever"

"For- ever" Lexa pants her eyes struggling to open as Clarke's thumb circles Lexa's clit while thrusting deeper and harder "Kiss..Me" she pleads but Clarke resists not wanting to kiss her just yet as her fingers thrust faster and faster feeling Lexa's slick wetness seep all down her fingers until some rest in her palm and her walls are tightening around her.

"Clarke" Lexa moans her eyes opening wide her lips beginning to part as her high is just over the edge and Clarke quickly happily pushed her over, thrusting her fingers in once more harder and faster than before while her lips clash messily and desperately against Lexa's. It's all tongue, vibrating moans, clashing teeth, heavy breaths and desperation for more as the kiss becomes lazy while Lexa's body jolts and shivers beneath Clarke's as the pleasure ripples threw her body till there's no oxygen left in her lungs causing her to pull their lips apart. The smirk that appeared on Clarke's lips was undeniable while unable to move her gaze anywhere from her breathless girlfriend. She was proud that she could get Lexa like that, and god did she fucking love watching her unfold and slowly recover.


"Morning Green eyes" Clarke said lovingly her naked body pressing firmly against Lexa's as she nuzzles her nose against Lexa's chin.

"Morning" Lexa smiles lazily snaking her arms heavily around Clarke's neck as she stares intensely in to blue. "Green eyes?" She questioned 

"Hmm" the blonde hums biting on her bottom lip "I'm trying it out"

"I like it" Lexa whispers while her eyes flicker to the blondes distracting lips. 

"Me to" Clarke says just as quietly smirking at Lexa's loss of concentration as she leans down and captures Lexa's lips between her own with a hum of delight. "How are you feeling?" she questions. It was Lexa's time to smirk with adoring eyes

"Really good" Lexa laughs.

"You no what I mean" Clarke whines while rolling her eyes "Hangover wise?"

"My head hurts a little" Lexa confesses the smirk still on her face as she plays with blonde locks between her fingers. "but I could get use to waking up like that" Lexa smiles shyly.

"Hmm.. So could I, however I seem to have a girlfriend that can't seem to sleep in" Clarke admitted kissing along Lexa's jaw line feeling Lexa laugh.

"More like you're lazy"

"I have no trouble waking up" Clarke defends.

"Tell that to your first alarm"

"Hmm Shush" Clarke smiles widely pressing her teeth against Lexa's jaw.

"Does that mean I won?" Lexa questioned.

"Do you want to win babe?" Clarke questioned teasingly raising her gaze to green eyes as her fingers run down Lexa's inner thigh with a smirk.

"Urh" Lexa stutters her eyes lids faltering slightly "Yes. No" Lexa says quickly one after the other not entirely sure what the right answer is right now causing Clarke to laugh out loud.

"You're adorable" Clarke whispers capturing Lexa's lips.

"You're a tease" Lexa admits her smile already aching her jaw and she had only been awake barely longer than half hour.

"That I am" Clarke smiles proudly kissing Lexa's lips once more before climbing out of bed. "You need food my little hungover jealous woman" Clarke laughs before searching for her pyjamas and handing Lexa hers.

"Clarke.." Lexa says more seriously sitting up in bed while fiddling with the bed quilt nervously. "I'm sorry about last night, being like that" Lexa says honestly feeling embarrassed at her territory state.

"Are you kidding?" Clarke questioned softening as she notices the shift in mood. "Come here" Clarke orders holding her hand out for Lexa to take.

"Trust me, you have nothing to apologise for" Clarke confesses when she pulls Lexa against her. "I will make it my life goal to see you like that again" Clarke smiles gently wrapping her arms around Lexa's hips. "I like that you felt that way, like you wanted me just for you. It made me feel less crazy because I get so crazy when someone so much as looks at you" she admits.

"You do?" Lexa questions.

"You know you're cute when you're oblivious" Clarke chuckles. "What do you think I was going to do to Roan shake his hand when he wouldn't leave you alone?" Clarke questioned with a laugh. "I was ready to drop kick him" Clarke jokes well kind of but she it was enough to get a giggle from Lexa and Clarke felt light all over again. "Now come on you, lets get some food."

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"Stop" Lexa wines looking over her shoulder at a grinning Clarke who seemed to keep grabbing her bum.

"Make me" Clarke dares squeezing Lexa's arse from behind once more while they continued down the hall to see if any of their friends were awake yet. She didn't think she would ever get use to being this carefree and playful with Lexa knowing the brunette didn't scare as easy as she originally thought, yet the way her eyes twinkled with such innocents and shyness, like she was embarrassed by such attention yet no one was around had Clarke smiling from ear to ear. Lexa baffled her in more ways than one that's for sure, but the pure blindness she held for herself was astonishing, no matter how many times Clarke repeated how beautiful Lexa was or even how her body was always so quick and eager to reacted to Lexa she knew that Lexa still didn't see it herself but had simply accepted that what Clarke was telling her was what she believed. How could someone be so sexy, so captivating and still refuse to see it despite catching attention no matter where she went.

"Come here" Clarke hummed sweetly pulling at Lexa's forearm till her body was flush against hers with their lips inches apart. "You're beautiful you know that" Clarke whispered lovingly while pushing Lexa's brown lock's behind her shoulder making her jawline more visible. Green eyes sparkled with softness and adoration as they gazed in to blue and Clarke loved these moments, the moments they were silent and took one another in with the question that constantly hung over both their heads as they still struggle to accept that this was real and was infact actually happening. "I want to take you somewhere tonight" Clarke explained her finger tips now following the shape of Lexa's irresistible jaw line.

"Where?" Lexa questioned her voice more huskier than she was even aware herself.

"It's a surprise" Clarke smiled placing a tender lingering kiss on the brunettes lips. "Do you trust me?" Clarke questioned and it was funny really for Clarke anyway as she remembered the first time she asked Lexa that question.

"I do" Lexa said and Clarke beamed at how confident she said it compared to the first time.

"Good" Clarke whispered pulling at Lexa's hip to bring their bodies even tighter together till their lips were a mingling heat of mess. Fighting the urge to drag Lexa back upstairs to bed and take her one more time in this earlier morning Clarke reluctantly pulled their lips away "Urgh come on" Clarke whined curing her plan for the third time in less than twenty four hours for suggesting their friends could sleep the night. She tapped Lexa's bum playfully once more before pushing open the living room door.

"Oh Fuck" Raven screeched shooting up to pull the quilt over her naked body while Anya looked on confused at the Latina.

"Oh my fucking god!" Clarke screeched spinning around on the spot as Lexa quickly did the same. "What the fuck are you doing!" Clarke snapped starring at the wall infront of her with disgust. her hands dropping beside her in a huff. "please tell me their is a way to un-see something" Clarke pleaded her eyes clamping shut hoping to never ever see anything like that ever again.

"Oh please" Anya smirked sitting back against the couch like she hadn't a care in the world, infact she found the whole situation extremely amusing with Raven burred under the blanket like a scared pussy cat with beady eyes, Clarke having a tantrum in disgust while Lexa just seemed to be staring awkwardly at her feet as she moved them inch by inch. "Like you wasn't visiting Lexa's chamber of secrets" Anya laughed. "FYI if you want something a secret the trick it to be quiet" Anya laughed standing from the couch to reach for her clothes while the two girls faced the opposite way.

"oh my god" Lexa said quietly her face going bright red as she raised a hand to her face.

"Anya you had sex on my couch!" Clarke cringed mentally trying to swipe the image from her memory while adamant she would never sit their again.

"Pfft..you practically had sex on my toast the other day and you watched me eat it" Anya quipped back throwing her top over her head.

"You deserved it" Clarke snapped "You keep cock blocking me!!"

"First of you don't have a cock" Anya said smugly. "Secondly, what are you moaning about you had sex"

"This is my house!"

"Correction. It's Abby's and Jake's"

"I Swear I won't hesitate in hitting you" Clarke growled her body tensing knowing her cousin always got the better of her at annoying the absolute shit out of her.

"I'm naked" Anya smirked. "I can rub my naked arse more on the couch if you want"

"You wouldn't dare!"

"Tempt me"

"You're disgusting" Clarke huffs out not stupid enough to dare Anya crossing her arms in defeat.

"It's natural" Anya states simply "I heard you having sex and well I thought why not"

"Wait what?" Raven questioned furrowing her brows.

"OH MY GOD THATS EVEN SICKER" Clarke screeched. "You had sex because you heard us having sex"

"Hey" Anya shrugged like it was nothing "Happens to everyone"

"No it dosent" Clarke shook her head.

"Hold up" Raven barked holding her hands up for everyone to shut up "You had sex with me because you heard Lexa moaning?"  Raven questioned her brows furrowing even more.

"Oh my god" Lexa repeated her face officially looking like a tomato at the thought of everyone hearing her.

"Well yeah- "Anya was cut of from her confession.

"I will seriously punch you in the face" Clarke snapped.

"You are disgusting" Raven added.

"If you let me finish" Anya rolled her eyes. "It wasn't at Lexa's moaning, well officially it got me in the mood for sex but only because I was thinking of having sex with you and making you moan, and listening to moan was so much more appealing to me than listening to Lexa, no offence Legs"

"Urh- that's ok" Lexa stuttered her fingers already fiddling with her pyjama shorts feeling extremely awkward never being in this situation before or ever wanting to again. "I'm going to urh- Yeah" She stuttered quickly exiting the room and heading to the kitchen.

"Are you dressed?" Clarke questioned watching her girlfriend leave.

"Oh yeah, I just finished up pressing my naked body to your cou- ouff" Anya didn't get to finish as Clarke dived on her smacking her with a pillow roughly while throwing every curse she could think of at the brunette.

"You Are such a arse hole" She snapped hitting her cousin once more for good measure.

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"Hi" Lexa was greeted by Costia looking rough at the kitchen table.

"morning" Lexa smiled walking over to the coffee machine. "I thought you would still be asleep" Lexa teased remembering how drunk her best friend was last night when they got home remembering Costia jump in the swimming pool fully clothed screaming 'I am the ruler of this kingdom'  Before appearing once more chocking on the water that had seeped at her nose and down her throat.

"Please" Costia begged her hand on her throbbing head "Whisper" She pleads making Lexa laugh.

"Do you want some water?" Lexa questioned more quietly.

"Please" she pleads circling her temple with her fingertips. "I'm not sure if I'm hung over or dying" she whined.

"I told you to drink sensible"

"And I didn't spill any did I?" Costia smirked back before whining in agony. "I feel sick"

"Dark and difficult time lay ahead of you my friend" Raven laughed as she walked in placing her hand over Costia's shoulder.

"Urgh Get you're sex hand of me" Costia shrugged not having the energy to properly shake Raven of her.

"Actually i'm the one who got fucked" Raven grinned proudly plopping on the seat next to Costia.

"How can you guys have sex in the morning this early after drinking all night?" Costia questioned making Lexa choke on her coffee knowing Costia heard her too.

"I guess we are the true rulers of the kingdom huh Lex?" Raven questioned before laughing at Lexa's deeply reddened cheeks.

"huh" Lexa settled with no having any other word floating around in her head. She wasn't loud, how could everyone hear her? She was quiet in bed, she was sure of it especially this morning when Clarke's finger's slid threw her folds, when Clarke's heavy pants warmed her neck as she kept up her steady thrust, gentle but incredible, the way she stared in to blue while they stared back, lips mere inches apart almost like Clarke's taste was floating between them, waiting and ready...

"Lex? Lexa? Hello?" Clarke questioned standing infront of her with a furrowed brow. "You ok babe?" she questioned studding the brunette carefully.

"Urh- yeah" She squeaked out clearing her throat as she tried wiping her memory clear of Clarke dancing, Fucking Clarke against the toilet door and having Clarke worship her in more ways than one when they arrived home to rush to the bedroom and especially this morning waking to Clarke's already dark teasing eyes. "Just zoned out" she admitted looking around nervously at Raven Costia and Anya looking at her.

"You were totally thinking about fucking Clarke" Anya announced laughing after a moment of silence.

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"I'm so tired" Lexa admitted her head snuggly buried in the pillow.

"I Can see that" Clarke hummed tracing her fingers up and down Lexa's bare forearm. "I can take you somewhere another day" Clarke whispered to her already half asleep girlfriend.

"no, I want to go" Lexa hummed back snuggling closer to her girlfriend.

"I can take you another day, it makes no difference" Clarke grinned biting on her bottom lip at her girlfriends cuteness. "You have a delayed hangover" Clarke confessed noticing the effect of the alcohol from the night before slowly taking over Lexa within the last few hours to the point she was struggling to keep her head up.

"Alcohol. Bad" Lexa muttered snaking her arm around Clarke's neck as she breaths her in.

"So, so bad" Clarke laughs kissing her girlfriends forehead. "Lex"

"hmm"

"You nervous for you're up coming exams?"

"Not really" Lexa says honestly. "I can only do what I can" she whispers her body already going limp from how tired she is. "Are you?"

"No" Clarke says confidently "Griffins don't do nervous" She says proudly.

"Umm Am I loud?" Lexa asks after a moment of silence "In bed?" Clarke couldn't supress her giggle as she pulled away from Lexa slightly to look at the brunette to see if she was being serious.

"What do you think?"

"I didn't think I was" She says shyly and confused playing with Clarke's hair between her fingers as her gaze cutely looked back and forth between blue eyes and blonde locks.

"Well" Clarke grins. "You are a little loud" Clarke confesses "i think my dad heard you once"




I'm aware the chapter is short and I have taken so long to update but please bare with me I am in the middle of sorting out a new story but will not post any until this one is complete as I do want It written correctly. Yet I felt guilty for holding out for so long with this so for now you get a short chapter until I update properly, the next chapter will be longer I promise and as a apology I will put a few idea's in you would love to read as long as it's realistic and could go with the story. Next chapter should be about the talk they need and Exams While Jake and Abby have a surprise for the girls. :) Like I said extremely sorry this isn't longer I will make up for it!
Just want to confirm once this story is complete I will write a few one shots in their future of what happens and how things change as there is a few things I want to come across but its a few years down the line. So if you're interested, bookmark, subscribe as this story only has two chapters left!!