Lost And Insecure!

Lost and Insecure!

She watched as the dark clouds replace the sunny sky until rain started repeatedly tapped against Costia's bedroom window. Somehow amongst the heavy rain, and strong winds the ouside world looked a different kind of beautiful, how the leaves all shook together, the way the water quickly became a puddle, the way the rain drops created unknown patterns against the glass only to follow the same path as a previous rain drop before. If you would have asked Lexa a year ago what she thought about the rain she would have said it was dreadful, cold and she hated it. She was a warm kind of girl, a girl that would wear cosy pyjamas and bury herself under a blanket until you could just about see her eyes poking over the edge but then Clarke changed that to she changed everything. It happened one night when a thunderstorm broke out waking both girls as the branches rattled against their bedroom window. She remembered the exact smile that grew on the blondes lips, the way she climbed out of bed to look out the window before tracing her index finger along the glass following the water drops path. Lexa's smile grew as she gazed out of Costia's window knowing exactly what her girlfriend would be doing at home, she unconsciously copied Clarke's actions and followed the path of the dripping rain drop while remembering Clarke's conversation that night. She remembered blue eyes light up as the thunder lit the skies. Lexa wrapped her arms tightly around herself to keep herself warm until she was by the blondes side looking at the horrendous weather. Her simple soft words were enough to make Lexa look twice at the rain in search of what Clarke could see. 'It's beautiful' she had whispered. 'When life gives you rainy days people should put their boots on and jump in the puddles' Clarke grinned still tracing her fingers down the glass infront of her. 'because without rain, nothing grows people just need to learn to embrace the storm' She breathes before snaking her arms around Lexa's waist to keep the brunette warm. 'it's like life really'
She loved how Clarke could make everything so beautiful and so meaningful even when all that was infront of you was nothing but horrendous weather and heavy winds.

"Here you go" Costia said handing over a hot cup of cocoa before placing herself opposite Lexa on the overly large window ledge that Costia had made cosy with all pillows and blankets.

"Thank you" Lexa hummed wrapping her cold fingers around the warm mug as she blew over her mug.

"So back to Clarke" Costia said now also looking out the window before back to the brunette. "Have you said anything to her?" Costia questioned curiously after hearing Lexa reveal her growing fears. It had took quite a while and lots and lots of questions thanks to Lexa's awkward one word answers she was giving. Yet Costia never pushed she just knew her best friend sometimes needed a nudge and lots of questions needed to be asked to get to the main course.

"No" Lexa said simply before taking a sip of her hot cocoa. "I don't think she wants to talk about college" Lexa admitted shrugging her shoulders remembering Clarke brushing it of as if it was nothing but to Lexa it was everything. "She just wants me to pick the best place for me"

"and you don't?" Costia questioned pushing her toe's under Lexa's blanket before taking a sip of her drink.

"I do" Lexa said after a moment turning her gaze to her lap. "Maybe I ju-" She muttered feeling silly as she tapped her fingers against her cup. Maybe she was just being stupid. Maybe this was just her being over dramatic and this was all just nothing.

"Maybe what?" Costia pushed nudging her knee leg against Lexa's for encouragement. "Maybe what?" she questioned more softly when green eyes lifted.

"Maybe it's just a school thing" Lexa spoke dropping her gaze once more her stomach dropping at the possibility.

"Lexa" Costia said after a moment, which Lexa could only assume was her thinking of what to say. "How does Clarke make you feel?" She questioned curiously.

She didn't really need to think about the answer to the question, but she wasn't exactly sure how to say it, or if it was possible to even express with words alone. That was one of Lexa's biggest problems lately thanks to Clarke. Words were beginning to prove a failure with each day that passed because her feeling continued to grow and the worlds vocabulary stayed the same. There was no simple words to express how Clarke made her feel like she was the most important person she had ever laid eyes on, how Clarke looked at her as if she had been sent from somewhere unknown because no one like Lexa could possibly exist. Clarke Griffin looked at her like she was besotted, she though this because Lexa was sure she was looking at Clarke in the exact same way. Yet expressing her feelings to someone other than Clarke she felt almost nervous and silly all at once if she blurted out that her heart felt like it never stopped racing with happiness and excitement from just a glimpse of the blonde.

"Like being happy is effortless" Lexa breathed honestly as she fiddles with the blanket between her fingers to embarrassed to look up, to embarrassed because despite how cringe it may sound it's exactly what Clarke made her feel.

"Then why would you think this is just a school thing?" Costia questioned reaching out to stop Lexa's nervous fingers playing with the blanket until she looked up finding a genuine smile on Costia's lips. There was no teasing, or pretending to reach for a sick bag, there was no comment to make Lexa more uncomfortable. There was only gentle eyes and a genuine smile waiting for her and Lexa knew that this was why Costia was her best friend, because she understood her almost as much as Clarke. "Do you Love her?" Costia continued with a gentle squeeze to her hand. 

"I do" Lexa said quietly before gazing out the wet window once more. She thought about Clarke, she thought about her smile, her lips, her beautiful blue eyes as they changed from one mood to the next, she thought about how the blonde would wake every morning even more annoyed with her louder new Alarm before bashing it over the top in hope to turn it off without remotely opening her eyes. She thought of the fear in Clarke's eyes when they went on the Ferris wheel, she thought of their first kiss they shared in the bathroom to the Blake's house. She thought about how Clarke spoke to herself about her work like she was waiting for herself to magically find the answer. 

"It look's to me like you have nothing to worry about" Costia said smirking at the smiling brunette gazing out the window knocked her from her thoughts. "Can I be straight with you?" Costia questioned placing her mug down on the ground before burying herself back in the blanket as a flash of lightning lit up the skies.

"Yeah" Lexa said nervously before copying Costia's actions.

"Going to different colleges doesn't mean it's the end. It just means you have to try harder but if you love her and she loves you it's worth it, no matter how far apart you are" Costia admits leaning forward looking a little more serious. "I know you're scared, and I get it, I really do because Clarke's made you believe again and after so many years of giving up and accepting your shitty history" Costia says gently while reaches for Lexa's fiddling fingers once more "You're scared that if Clarke leaves you, your happiness will too" Costia finally says. "Yet you're smiling at a window and Clarke's not here" Costia points out with a smile "You’re smiling at memories I'm sure you're replaying in your head" Costia teases causing Lexa to look up once more.

"How did you-"

"Please" Costia scoffed playfully "Your face says it all plus you keep disappearing else where" She smirks. "Yet Clarke's still making you smile from afar." Costia points out smugly knowing her message is loud and clear causing Lexa to smile at the realisation. "and I'm willing to bet you five bucks that if you looked at your phone, you will have more than one message from her" Lexa bites her lip raising her eye brow as she scoots her bum up unable to resist pulling her phone out from her back pocket to check her message.

"3 unread messages" Lexa reads her smile growing even quicker as Costia laughs knowingly

"Told you!" She smirks.

Clarke : I can't focus properly when you're not here. Strange right? I miss you already yet you were only listening to music while I studied x

Clarke : Have you looked outside? It's beautiful x

Clarke : I love you, so much. Please tell Costia to drive you safely back to me x

She didn't read the messages aloud but she couldn't hide her continuous smile that had began hurting her jaw the more she thought about her girlfriend at home unable to study while gazing out at the beautiful messy weather in her fluffy socks, lazy cotton bottoms and Lexa's jumper that she seemed to have took possession of.

"Oh and look I have one from her two!" Costia laughs wiggling her eye brows. "Oh it's a naughty picture!" Costia teases dropping her mouth open as she clutches her phone to her chest. "Ouch" Costia flinches rubbing at her leg that Lexa kicked beneath the blanket while trying not to laugh.

"What's it say?" Lexa questions eagerly wanting to know what her girlfriend would text her best friend.

"It says" Costia drooled out as she clicked on the message once more "Please be careful while driving Lexa home she's still abit nervous in a car" Costia read looking up to face Lexa. "I cant believe you're worried about her" Costia admits.

"I'm not." Lexa admits "Well I am" She stutters "I just over think" Lexa mutters shaking her head struggling with her feelings still.

"I'm going to give you some advice" Costia says sitting up "There are three kinds of people in this world. One who knows exactly what to say, how to say it and when. One who can't find the right words so end up saying anything and everything wrong, And one who can never find the right words and after trying and trying in their head they just give up and end up saying nothing which sometimes is so much worse" Costia says honestly. "You are the last. You think and think and then just say nothing, but you have a girl at home, a girl that loves you, a girl you happen to love right back. Yet you're scared of the future possibilities and scared to talk to her about it. So I guess the question is what sort of person do you want to be? Someone who just lets everything go by maybe even the girl you love because you're to scared to talk? Or someone who at least tries to express things, it might not come out right but Clarke will understand that" Costia shrugs handing the ball over to Lexa's court.


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She was lost in thought all the way home thinking about Costia's words of advice. She was right, with everything. She was so deeply in love with Clarke that she had become so blind, so scared while her fears had got the better of her. Clarke had proven she was in Love with Lexa repeatedly and Lexa kicks herself for doubting it even for a second as her insecurity's got the better of her. How could she doubt that? How could she doubt the way Clarke looked at her? How when she made Love to Lexa until she could see blue pupils blown wide with want, hunger, love and adoration. She would always watch as Lexa reached her high like she was hypnotised by such beauty and she couldn't do anything but watch before crashing her own desperate lips on Lexa's while whimpering without even needing to be touched. It was exhilarating to have Clarke whimpering above her by doing nothing but enjoy the pleasure that Clarke had rippled through every muscle Lexa had.

Thinking about Sex with Clarke in the car was a very bad idea. 

Lexa crosses her legs subconsciously unable to stop her mind from continuing to wonder. She kept her gaze out the window ignoring the howling wind as she traces every memory of Clarke's kissed swollen lips. She bites down on her bottom lip as she pictures the look in Clarke's eyes when ever Lexa parts the kiss, the look that says 'where do you think you're going?' before chasing Lexa's lips more hungrier than before. Pale skin is all that Lexa can all of a sudden think about with the way Clarke always bends one leg at the knee for better access as Lexa's finger tips tease her inner thigh, the way Clarke's fingers bury themselves in Lexa's mane, gripping and pulling with every jolt of pleasure that ripples through her, the way her walls clench tightly around Lexa in away that doesn't need words to Let Lexa know she's Cumming. Then there is that moan. God that moan. 
It's captivating really, the way her neck stretches back against the pillow as her mouth opens, only no sound leave's it, her breath is hitched and her cheeks are pink and just when you think her throat won't allow any sound to come out you hear it, the husky yet desperate moan while her body shakes in pleasure.

"Hmm"

"What's that?" Costia questioned turning to face the brunette curiously.

"Oh nothing" Lexa quickly says not daring to chance a glance at her best friend with her now pink cheeks flushed with embarrassment.

"Thought you said something" Costia says confused as she pulls up to the Griffins house. 

"Nope" Lexa says quickly opening the door. "Thank you for today" 

"You're welcome" Costia smiles "I missed you ya know" She admits

"I missed you two" Lexa says honestly before shutting the door and moving as quickly as possible to the front door before she gets soaked by the rain.

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The moment she pushed past the front door in the warmth of her home her smile instantly appeared. It wasn't that she was welcomed at the door, or Clarke was standing their waiting for her. It was the familiar warmth that hit her again, the familiar smell that filled her nose and the way some of her shoes were already by the door. God she never realised how much she loved coming home until she left the hospital. Just as she placed her foot on the first step of the stairs she paused noticing the kitchen light on slightly lighting the hallway. She smiled to herself for what felt like the thousandth time as she pushed the kitchen door open to reveal her favourite blonde standing their in nothing but a long shirt which Lexa was sure was Jake's and her hair was slightly wet to one side. She knew she shouldn't but she couldn't help herself she leaned against the doorframe not wanting to disturb Clarke's peaceful moment while she stirred something infront of  as she spoke to herself.

"Absolutely starving" the blonde muttered to herself as she continued to stir the pot while Lexa held back her giggle as she continued to watch the blonde move around the kitchen to reach for a bowl and fork before reaching for the pan stirring it one last time and tearing some in her bowl.  Lexa was amused as her girlfriend leaned against the kitchen counter blowing on her hot food before taking a bite, Lexa's eyes quickly trailed the length of milky skin revealing her legs where the shirt stops only stopping her mind from racing when she hears Clarke speak once more.

"Who say's I can't cook!?" She questions talking to non other than her food as she takes a mouthful once more.

"Everyone Apparently" Lexa says gently her smile growing even wider as Clarke spins around slightly stunned her confused face quickly turning in to a gentle smile.

"Yeah well what do they know?" Clarke questioned watching her girlfriend stepping towards her until her arms wrapped around Lexa's neck. "When did you get here?" Clarke whispers nuzzling her nose against Lexa's.

"About five minutes ago" Lexa confesses her smile even wider as blue eyes twinkle with a knowing look.

"You have been watching me" Clarke hums placing a gentle kiss on Lexa's lips. "Creep" She whispers with a smirk nuzzling her nose against Lexa's once more.

"I was worried" Lexa breathes her mind already cloudy with the intoxicating fumes Clarke seemed to constantly have around her as she places her hand on Clarke's hips unable to stop them from slowly crawling lower and lower.

"Worried?" Clarke husks. Lexa knows her focus is on her trailing hand, the hand that edge's over the shirt and on to Clarke's cold pale thigh.

"Hmm" Lexa hums watching Clarke swallow hard while her eyes close in the slightest at such a gentle touch before quickly opening them again trying to focus, but the hard swallow proves she's struggling. "You were talking to your food" Lexa admits already beginning to move her other hand in the same direction as the other. When finger tips touch Clarke's other thigh Lexa was sure Clarke already loses herself in to desire with only gentle finger tips touching her legs.

"Hmm" Clarke hums pressing her forehead to Lexa's her eyes willingly closing as Lexa's finger's push up from her thigh back to her hip raising the shirt as she goes. "Lex" Clarke whispers a plea yet a question, but Lexa ignores it. She's not sure what's came over her or what's gave her the new found confidence to do this as she had never initiated sex once with Clarke as she was always to nervous but thankfully Clarke always took control anyway and thankfully wanted it just as much as Lexa. Only since the accident their had been no sex life, the most was kissing and gentle touches as Clarke kept saying she needed to heal. As Lexa's fingers continued to move across her hip, back down her thigh until Clarke was whimpering against her lips. That was when Lexa felt Clarke's fingers slip in her mane gripping it gently as she released a unsteady breath, their lips were mere inches apart and Clarke was completely intoxicating. When Lexa hooked her fingers under Clarke's underwear blue eyes opened with a questioning look but that question was silently answered as Lexa pulled the underwear down Clarke's thighs teasingly slow until they were lose enough to drop the rest of the way. Blue eyes remained fixated on Lexa's movement but it didn't help Clarke's breathing almost panting for more despite not actually doing anything yet.

"You are so beautiful" Lexa confesses before roughly pushing Clarke's hips against the kitchen side while pushing her body roughly against Clarke's. 

"Fuck" Clarke muttered not expecting the sudden movement but her chest was quickly panting for breath as she gripped Lexa's hair even tighter. "Lex" She husked once more blue eyes suddenly unable to look away from Lexa's delicate plump lips as she swallows hard once more. If Lexa wasn't already turned on by just the thought of Clarke, then how Clarke looked right now would have done it, the way her body leaned more in to Lexa's, aching for a touch yet not quite begging, the way her eyes darkened and became hypnotised on Lexa's lips like she was ready to ravish them with everything she had, while her breathing struggled to calm. She only made Lexa want her more. So she kissed her, she kissed her so suddenly Clarke didn't expect it causing her to growl out a moan before gripping Lexa's mane even tighter. She could feel Clarke's eager lips hungry against her own as she didn't wait for the kiss to build, instead pushing her tongue in Lexa's mouth needing to taste her already, needing to feel her completely. When Lexa reached up and quickly started undoing the top three buttons of Clarke's shirt she could feel Clarke getting ready to take control so Lexa bit Clarke's bottom lip hard for punishment pushing her body tighter against Clarke to keep her trapped. 

"I want you" Lexa confessed her voice dropping to a husky whisper as she pushed Clarke's half done up shirt to hang perfectly off her shoulders yet still protecting her modesty. "You have no idea" she breathes lost in pale skin, blue eyes and heavy breaths while trailing her finger tips along Clarke's collar bone causing her neck to tilt to the side for better access. Unable to resist any longer she attaches her lips to pulsing skin sucking and nipping until Clarke is a withering mess with grip's of hair and husky moans making her body rock in to Lexa always wanting to fight for more because her body cant quite take it. In one sudden swift movement Lexa places her hand's around Clarke's thighs lifting her up and on to the kitchen counter causing her lips to part From Clarke’s neck.

"Fuck" Clarke pants and when Green eyes connect with blue its a sight she hadn't seen before, Lexa had seen Clarke's pupils blown, but not like this. Clarke's eyes were wide with want and hunger and so fucking turned on that she was practically rocking against the kitchen counter as she attacked Lexa's lips greedily, desperately. She could feel Clarke's ache with every touch every growl and every pull of her hair. Clarke needed her, she wanted her. Lexa lost herself two.
With every pull Clarke gave Lexa pushed even harder wanting to give Clarke the friction she fort for. When Lexa trailed her lips down Clarke's neck it was ridiculous how turned on she was by just watching Clarke grip the kitchen counter to stabilise herself as her moans seemed to come out more erratic and desperate than ever before. "Lexa" Clarke said more clearly the pleading in her tone already there. "God" she moaned gripping Lexa's jacket in a death grip to keep her from moving away, from keeping her losing any contact even in the slightest as she wrapped her legs around Lexa's waist. "I want you. God I always want you" Clarke moaned breathlessly as she nipped and sucked along Lexa's jaw line before ripping Lexa's jacket from her shoulders and roughly pushing it to the ground before quickly attacking Lexa's lips once more. Watching her girlfriend beg, and quiver in all kinds of ways that she hadn't quite seen before had Lexa's heart pounding and her fingers itching to be between cold pale thighs. Without wanting to tease her girlfriend any longer she trailed her fingers slowly against Clarke's inner thigh giving her warning of what's to come and time to stop her if it's not what she wanted. She watched the heavy pants increase while Clarke tried to lean on something one hand in Lexa's hair the other gripping the kitchen counter while resting her forehead against Lexa's trying to calm herself before she losses herself completely.

"You're soaked" Lexa pants against Clarke's parted lips. She almost doesn't believe how wet Clarke is but Clarke's erratic desperate nodding of confirmation in hope she will feel Lexa's fingers even sooner had Lexa smirking at such a state she could make the blonde become. A sexy beautiful state.

"Oh. Fuck" Clarke moans her face scrunching up in the sexiest of ways and Lexa can only watch every flicker of movement as Lexa pushes her finger's slowly but deeply in to Clarke causing her to grip Lexa's hair, silently telling Lexa it feel's so fucking good. Everything about touching Clarke this time has been different from the way Lexa initiated it to the way she kept control down to Clarke's completely different reactions. With the new found confidence and Clarke's desperate moans it give's Lexa the confidence to try something different. With one quick single thrust she pulls her fingers back until their almost out before quickly thrusting it back in again. The reaction is delicious. Clarke's body jolting in surprise with a deathly moan her hand on the counter ungrasping and finding a new home in the other side of Lexa's hair as she pants for oxygen against Lexa's lips.

So fucking delicious.

So she does it again with a single thrust getting the same reaction making Clarke's legs open wider eagerly for more. So she does quick yet single thrust repeatedly feeling Clarke's fingers tighten around her thick mane, breaths mingling together while green eyes never once look away from Clarke's face. Never once miss the way her forehead scrunches up as Lexa forces her fingers deeper until Clarke's moan hitches in her throat and her toes  curl desperately for more. Lexa can't handle it anymore, she can't she slams her lips desperately against Clarke's biting and sucking while feeling the vibrations of each and every moan as she pushes faster and harder in to Clarke until she feels her walls clenching around her fingers knowing any minute now.

"Fuck" Clarke screams her head dropping back as her neck strains till it's a shade of pink while her breath hitches, her body shake's and her walls clench one last thrust has Clarke trembling out her final husky sexy moan that Lexa has grew so addicted to and she swears their is nothing more beautiful than the way the blonde's lips shape like a 'o' as her forehead scrunches with eyes clamped shut while her breathing struggled to compose itself.

"Hi" Lexa whispers after feeling Clarke's grip slack her legs turn to jelly around her while her tight shut eyes become more relaxed. She places gentle kisses around Clarke's neck and along her shoulder until Clarke is smiling lazily yet equally as beautiful.

"Hi" Clarke responds her voice barely audible. "What was that?" Clarke questioned still shocked yet extremely satisfied causing Lexa to shyly smile and Clarke found it even cuter how her shy girlfriend could become so dominant then back to the shy little thing she really was. The sight had Clarke's eyes closing happily as she leaned more in to Lexa snaking her arms around her neck. "I don't know where that came from, but I hope you aren't done" Clarke said teasingly before gently rocking her body back in to Lexa's, already wanting to be dominated again. Lexa couldn't help but laugh pulling back slightly to look her girlfriend in the eyes, she was so overwhelmed, so fucking overwhelmed she knew there was much to talk about, and Costia was right she should speak to her because she loved Clarke, and Clarke loved her but right now she just wanted to get lost in one another.

"We should go upstairs" Lexa said softly nuzzling her nose against Clarke's before placing a lingering kiss on the blonde's lips. She placed her hand's around Clarke's waist helping her get down only when her girlfriends legs touched the floor they gave in for just a second causing the brunette to tighten her grip.

"I love you" Clarke said honestly as her legs started to work. "Like really love you" she said softly studying green eyes and Lexa knew. She knew she really, really did.

"I really love you two" Lexa smiled capturing her girlfriends lips in a slower more passionate kiss that soon had them heading towards their bedroom.

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"Good morning sugar lips" Clarke whispers against Lexa's lazy sleepy body placing small but tender kisses along Lexa's naked body rocking her body teasingly in to Lexa's with a smirk.

"Sugar lips?" Lexa questioned cutely her forehead scrunched up in delight as Clarke's body rocks gently in to hers.

"Umm" Clarke hums smirking against the crock of Lexa's neck. "they taste so good" Clarke admits reaching up to bite Lexa' bottom lip. "You're so cute when you're tired" Clarke laughs her mind wondering back to last night as they worshipped one another's body for hours desperately before passion took over completely making everything feel more heightened.

"Umm" Lexa hummed finally peaking her eyes open with smiling lips and Clarke swears its so adorable. "How are you awake?" Lexa questioned more confused than ever. "You're in love with sleep"

"Well" Clarke smirks teasingly placing gentle kisses to sleepy lips. "There is something I like more than sleep" She breathes placing kiss after kiss unable to detach from the woman she loves as she rocks gently in to Lexa once more.

"Hmm" Lexa moans causing Clarke's mind to instantly go fuzzy but a smirk growing wider on her lips as Lexa's fingers bury in blonde locks.  "Me?" Lexa answers knowingly.

"Umm" Clarke hums in confirmation already nipping at Lexa's earlobe ready for another round.

"Knock, knock bitches" Anya pounces in the room unexpected.

"What the fuck!" Clarke screeches quickly gripping the sheets to Lexa's body before gripping it against her own.

"Err!" Anya cringes "Were you two like, having sex?" Anya smirks realising what she has walked in on as she crosses her arms across her chest casually staring at the girls.

"Get the fuck out my room!" Clarke snaps "Why the hell are you in my house again!"

"Wanted to make sure you were looking after Lexa properly" Anya smirks "I can see you are" She laughs making Lexa go a bright shade of red. "How's the stitches Lex? Not ripped them again by I duno? Sex?" She questioned smugly.

"I really do try to see the best in people but seriously, she makes it impossible" Clarke says directly at Lexa giving up on telling Anya to leave because she just knew she wouldn't, instead she slouches back on her pillow gripping the sheets.

"Hello I'm right here you know?" Anya says rolling her eyes.

"Oh I know! You're always here! Everyone knows You're here Anya!" Clarke snaps from her pillow.

"I knocked"

"No! No you did not! You said Knock Knock as you were already in the flipping room!" Clarke pointed out sitting back up annoyed.

"Shut up moaning would you, its the same thing" Anya brushes of her smirk returning. "Does Mr and Mrs griffin know you're doing the dirty"

"Anya!" Clarke snaps.

"Anya" Lexa says a little embarrassed. "Can.. Um can we meet you down stairs?" Lexa questioned feeling more uncomfortable at the thought of just a sheet covering her body.

"Yeah course see you down there" Anya says waving them of to go downstairs.

"What the hell!" Clarke says more annoyed but left open mouthed as her girlfriend just laughs before shuffling around to get some clothes. "How did you do that?" She questioned not really caring anymore as her eyes stay trained on Lexa’s godly body.

"She just loves to annoy you" Lexa laughs leaning over the bed after throwing a top over her body. "Eyes up" She teases.

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It was pure cruel and she knew it, she ignored Lexa's disapproving stare but Clarke couldn't help it as she bit down a laugh while watching Anya spread toast on the kitchen counter. The exact spot where Clarke was naked from the waist down and being fucked magnificently by her girlfriend. Lexa nudged her shoulder again ordering her to stop and be nice yet she knew Lexa would be way to embarrassed to tell Anya what actually happened on that kitchen side last night so it fell to her, and Clarke choose to smirk and watch instead. It's what she gets for constantly annoying her, and constantly walking in when she could possibly be getting lucky with her girlfriend, I mean have you seen her? God the ache will be there all day now thanks to her awfully timed cousin.

"So are you in?" Anya questioned biting through her toast as she turns around and Clarke holds back her laugh with a jab to the arm from Lexa.

"Hmm" Clarke tries to get in with the conversation. "Isn't that illegal?" She questioned.

"Technically but come on who will know?" Anya questioned "It will be fun and different and your friends can come? I know the door man so it's cool" She nods taking another bite of her toast with a hum of delight causing Clarke to bite down her lip in a giggle. "You're being weird" Anya points out "Why are you being weird?"

"I'm not being weird!" Clarke quickly composes herself.  "When is it?"

"Tomorrow night. At Tony's" She says "It should be fun, its like a bar slash Club it kind of changes as the night goes on to be honest"

"Lex?" Clarke questioned turning to face her girlfriend "Do you want to try it?" She questioned.

"If you want to" Lexa shrugs knowing its not her kind of thing especially drinking but she would go if Clarke did.

"We’re in" Clarke says after a moment. "I'll invite Raven and a few friends" Clarke smirks now finding the perfect time to piss of her cousin "Oh you should invite Costia" Clarke says quickly "Raven would love it" she says widening her eyes at her girlfriend to go along however Lexa didn't get that but say's ok anyway looking at her girlfriend oddly for widening her eyes.

"Why would she love that?" Anya questioned eagerly but trying to play it casual.

"Oh nothing" Clarke waves it off. "Just girly stuff"

"Tell me. I want to know as well"

"Oh just Raven think's she is super hot!" Clarke lies smirking as her cousin. She is just pure evil she know's it, the devil can take her and have its way but god this is so worth it to teach her stupid cousin to stop pissing her off.

"Does she?" Lexa questioned like she was learning something new and Clarke really struggled not to laugh this time.

"Yeah" she lies casually "I mean she is though right?" She says

"Yeah" Lexa says casually earning a playful glare from Clarke.

"If you're blind and stupid" Anya mutters

"Sorry what was that?"

"Oh nothing" Anya says quickly brushing it of and trying to act cool. "Well I'm off i'll see you at Tony's"

"Yeah" Clarke smirks "Oh and Anya" Clarke calls smirk well in play as she watches her cousin turn to face her

"Yeah?"

"Me and Lexa had sex on that kitchen counter last night where you spread your toast"

The toast instantly dropped from Anya's hand with a face of disgust while Lexa elbowed Clarke in the side her face flushing pink but all Clarke could do was laugh.

"You are fucking disgusting!" Anya growls.

"Paybacks a bitch" She smirks. "Don't fuck with me oh cousin of mine"

Thanks for reading hope you all enjoy! So I have a question for all of you as I love when you all get involved. Lexa will become Jealous very Clearly in the next chapter, I would love to hear what you would love to read why she is? What happens? And maybe how you would love for her to react? I would love to read your ideas and happily take them in to consideration. Also I think it would be more challenging to base the next chapter on a song, so any songs guys and ill write how the stories kind of based on the lyrics or what it gives out to me anyway :)