Lost And Insecure!

Lost and Insecure!

She knew she should move, she knew she should do something, anything other than stare at her house while she sat nervously tapping on the steering wheel with her index finger. The blonde couldn't understand it, why was she so nervous? It was just a first date right? A over delayed first date. Lexa and Clarke had already kissed, they already laid against one another as they slept through the night, they had already confirmed their feelings were mutual. This first date was just something they had skipped and jumped to the rest first right? Yet Clarke's heart was beating ten to the dozen as her bedroom window quickly darkened which was full of light moments ago. She knew Lexa must be ready and waiting for Clarke to pick her up. "Breathe" Clarke hummed to herself while staring at her own reflection.
She couldn't remember dates being this stressful, admittedly she had never had to plan one before, but she had never wanted one to go as perfect as she hoped this one would. Every single detail was planned thoroughly, not wanting to miss a single thing. She had gone through it in her head, she would pick Lexa up with a smile on her face, opening the door for the brunette as she stepped in the car, then they would have pointless chit chat in the small car journey to the beach. Then Lexa would realise where they were and beam excitedly, as Clarke unloaded the boots with little surprises and romantic gestures as the strolled down the beach hearing nothing but the waves bashing against one another as they walked across the sand. Then as Clarke returned Lexa home they would share their suppose to be first kiss if Lexa was happy with the date. Yet struggling to get out the car hadn't crossed Clarke's mind as a issues, but it was proving itself to be rather stubborn, as her heart pounded against her rips.

"Come on" Clarke whined giving herself the pep talk of encouragement "You can do this" She tried "You can do this. You're a Griffin" Her eyes boring in to her reflection while trying to calm her nerves. "Please, just move" She begged herself, clutching the steering wheel making her knuckles turn white. "Ok, ok" She whispered placing her forehead on the top of her steering wheel with closed eyes. "1" she whispered taking a breath to steady her nerves. "2" she hummed taking in another deep breath letting her eyes slowly flicker open while lifting her head from the steering wheel. "3" She whispered finally looking at her reflection in the mirror once more. "Now go and get her" she ordered herself as she opened the car door and stepped out.

With each step Clarke took towards her own home, her heart beat raced that little bit faster. She hadn't seen Lexa in 24 hours wanting to give the date the extra special effect of excitement at seeing the brunette and hopefully the same for Lexa seeing Clarke. Not only was the blonde excited to see Lexa for the first time in far to long, she wanted, needed everything to be perfect. It scared her to death that the date would be a failure, knowing It will be different from a normal beach experience that Lexa had no doubt pictured when telling the blonde where she would go with Clarke for the day. Clarke just hoped this would be better, as she knocked her own front door with shaking clenched fist. Clarke mentally smiled at herself at how much she must look like Lexa right now, with they shyness and nerves taking over.

"Hi" Lexa smiled softly nervously biting on her side lip as her eyes dropped between them nervously bending her left ankle to the side. She waited for Clarke to say anything, do anything but that never came. As her gaze raised from her boot, it seemed Clarke was in a daydream "Clarke" She tried again.

"Sorry" Clarke quickly beamed shaking her head as her eyes returned to green "Hi" She said more shyly than she would have liked allowing her eyes to again down the length of Lexa's body. "You look really nice"

"Its just vest and jeans" Lexa pointed out with a smile on her lips placing her swirling ankle firmly on the ground as she took in the blonde in front of her.

"I can see that" Clarke chuckles "Do you always make it a habit to point out what exactly you are wearing?" She teases.

"Only when you think I look nice in everything I wear"

"Not my fault you make everything look good" Clarke admits reaching out and tangling her fingers with the brunette in front of her.

"You complimented me in pyjamas" Lexa teases remembering the moment she walked back in to the bedroom freshly clean from a bath and Clarke had just stood there with the same dorky compliment. The blonde shrugged her shoulders with a small giggle.

"I might not look it right now, but I'm really nervous" the blonde admits swaying slightly side to side on her heel focusing on Lexa's long slender fingers and the rope bracelets resting at the edge of her leather jacket.

"Me too" Lexa confessed in her sexy shy voice, that always made Clarke smile like she never had before. "Where are we going?"

"Hogwarts of course" Clarke grins "Now if you would let me escort you to my beautiful flying car" She teases gripping Lexa's hand as she leads the way.

"You're a wizard now?" Lexa grins looking to the blonde as they walk down the path like nervous teenagers.

"Of course"

"Prove it" Lexa teased

"I can't. No magic outside Hogwarts" Clarke said smugly opening the car door as the brunette stepped inside.

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Things were not exactly awkward between the two girls, but the nerves were evidently in the air as they drove in silence listening to the radio, while both taking every opportunity to study the other when they didn't notice. Lexa couldn't help but become more curious as the time passed by still not arriving at their destination, she looked out the window trying to notice anything that would give her a hint, but all she could see was trees and other car's with bright lights ahead. Clarke was cursing herself the whole time while driving for being so lame, for sucking at being able to make a normal human being conversation, one that she normally never struggled with. The Griffster was gone, the Griffster was dead, and all that was left was a sweaty palmed mess driving a beautiful girl to the beach, a pitch black dark beach. What the fuck was I thinking? Clarke had cursed once more now feeling like a idiot, of course Lexa would hate going to the beach at night. Stupid, stupid.
When the blonde finally pulls up the nerves finally get the better of her knowing its the moment of truth, to late to turn back around now, and to stupid to not have a back up plan.
"I have never planned a date before" Clarke breathed turning to the blonde. "I really wanted it to be perfect" Clarke admitted hating herself more for having no game at all.

"I'm sure it will be perfect" Lexa tried to reassure still not knowing her true destination as it was to dark.

"Could you wait here for just a minute?" Clarke questioned. "I just need to set something up" Lexa nodded nervously her eyes still scanning threw the car windows discreetly trying to get a hold of where they were with no luck.
The blonde exited the car, removing a few things from the boot before she disappeared across the parking area and around a corner until she was no longer in view.

Lexa was nervous, her anxiety getting the better of her the second Clarke was nowhere insight, she couldn't help but wonder where they were, and why Clarke had brought her some where with no light? She tried to stay relaxed, she tried to stay as calm as she could, but the fear of not truly knowing where she was scared her. Lexa had never trusted anyone like this before. She had never allowed someone to take her to a destination where she had no clue. She had never been on a date, therefore didn't really know what to expect. Of course she had seen them in movies, where they would go to the cinema, a romantic meal or something like ice skating, yet sitting in a car in pitch black was nerving.

The second Clarke disappeared out of view Lexa's anxiety was beginning to get the better of her. She had never trusted anyone enough before to allow them to take her to a place unknown to her. The last time she placed her trust in someone, he was aggressive and violent, holding nothing back as herself and Aden would sit in a darkened room on the mattress on the floor. All they could do was wait and hope that he would leave them alone for the night, that he would be in a good mood rather than irritated. As her fingers began to twiddle with themselves her nerves seeping threw the cracks as there was barely any light surrounding the area, she just hoped the blonde would return quickly. Her head snapped up at the sound of laughter seeing two boys stroll along the path laughing, joking and pointing to something in the distance that Lexa didn't care to look for, her fingers twiddling more anxiety the longer she waited, the longer she hoped Clarke would hurry up. Her thoughts moving at a rapid pace as fear took over, she was sitting in a darkened parking lot with no one around to see, with no one around to witness anything as the boys carried on laughing down the path, they were free to do anything they wanted with no one to stop them, just like he did. She hoped, she prayed they wouldn't see her. The sound of the car door opening startled her nearly making her jump out her own seat as her head snapped up to see the intruder.

"Hey" Clarke said softly noticing the fear in the brunettes green eyes. "Are you ok?" She questioned more softer than before furrowing her own brows as she reached her hand to the girls cheek. "You're trembling" she whispered feeling the fear vibrate to her hand. Lexa kept her gaze down looking to Clarkes reached out arm as she tried to calm herself from her fears. Paranoia that's all it is. She tried telling herself repeatedly as Clarke held her close, trying to work out what had happened with out asking. Her eyes scanning around quickly seeing the laughing boys, they were harmless as they kept strolling down the path before disappearing. "I want let anything happen to you" Clarke tried to reassure taking a guess at her fears. Clarke and Lexa remained in the car for a short while, Clarke patiently waiting on Lexa to calm down, not wanting to push her as she was clearly on the verge of a panic attack.

"Sorry" Lexa eventually muttered pushing herself further in to Clarkes palm before removing it altogether.

"Never apologise" Clarke orders softly. "You ok now?" She questions not wanting to question the brunette about what just happened just yet. She would speak in her own time. She watches Lexa nod placing a soft smile on her lips.

"Good" Clarke smiles staring up her engine again once more.

"Why are we leaving?" Lexa quickly asked  confused her eyes scanning from windows to Clarke.

"Were not." Clarke smiles "I'm just parking closer, I just didn't want you to see it till it was done"

"Oh" was all Lexa could say as Clarke put her car in drive and rounded the corner where the boys had originally came from, immediately catching site on where they were, as Clarke came to a holt, and unbuckling her seat belt.

The blonde took a quick look to the brunette with a grin on her face, trying to bite her lip but finding it impossible as her lips would pull her teeth away. She quickly exited the car making her way around to Lexa's side holding the door open as she stepped out. Green eyes were unable to remove from looking straight ahead at the clashing sounds of the waves, as they pulled in and out across the sand. She was speechless.

"Come" Clarke almost giggled tangling their hands in to one as Lexa appeared to be on auto pilot to lost in the ocean to do anything else. Lexa let herself be led by the blonde who couldn't take her eyes of Lexa's reaction. She was in a world of her own, a genuine smile on her face as she took in the beach with the moon and stars reflecting from the mystic ocean. The blonde took a few step's until she was stepping on the sand, her eyes unable to tear from Lexa, where as Lexa was unable to tear them from the sight in front of her. Her lips parted as her eyes scanned around the beach and out to the depts of the ocean.

"The beach" Lexa finally breathes after many steps across the sand. "Clarke" she says pausing as she looks from the blonde back out to the sea once more.

It was like time had frozen, like everything slowed down making it possible to see the spark that shone threw green eyes. It was like she could hear the sound of her steady heart beat beginning to pulse more aggressively against her rips as she could see the softest smallest smile spread across Lexa's red tender seductive lips. In that moment she knew, she knew she hadn't fucked things up.

"There's more" Clarke admitted squeezing the brunettes hand before guiding Lexa to turn around. "You didn't think we would just walk down the beach and go home did you?" she questioned as she watched Lexa's eyes focus in the distance to their final destination. There lay a small fire lit with blankets spread out and a bag of the remaining of Clarkes essentials. The more Clarke watched Lexa's face light up with surprise yet excitement made Clarke's smile grow more cockily. The Griffster was back.

"It's beautiful" Lexa breathed taking small steps towards the small fire hand in hand with the blonde.

"You told me that, if you could spend a day with me you would come to the beach" Clarke stated turning to face the brunette as they reached the small burning fire. "You also said you had never been to a beach before. I couldn't think of a better place to come" She admitted pulling Lexa closer with their hands still entangled.

"You remembered that." It wasn't a question, more of a statement. A statement that Lexa was still coming to terms with, Clarke actually listened to every word she spoke, if not hanging on to every last one. It was new, very new, yet Lexa seemed to keep forgetting that this is what her life had started to become, she was no longer a shadow that blended in with the darkness, she had become a torch that stood out in a room that held nothing but black.
"Of course I did" Clarke smiled "I told you. I want to no everything about you Lexa woods. Now come, sit" Clarke ordered playfully pushing of the brunettes Leather coat.

Clarke had made sure their were enough blankets to be wrapped in, and defiantly enough blankets space to sit on so Lexa didn't have to be cramped so close to the blonde, so when Lexa finally sat down resting shoulder to shoulder against Clarke, the blonde was more than thrilled, excited, happy, what ever insane words you want to use to explain how she thrived from it, giving her the extra boost of confidence she certainly needed.

"It was Anya's fault" Clarke protested Laughing along with Lexa as she nudged in to her shoulder. "She told me it would be safe and easy. Never trusted her after that" Clarke shook her head enjoying the soothing sound of Lexa's small giggle surrounded by the sound of the crackling flames of the fire and the waves of the ocean. "I admit though going down the stairs in a washing basket was fun, despite breaking my arm"

"I can imagen" Lexa grinned "So that's why your dad calls Anya trouble?"

"That and many more reason" Clarke admits. "The worst part was, while I was laughing slash crying, she just stood there laughing, to the point she couldn't breath. Even in the ER it would just be dead silent while we patiently waited to be seen, then she would just burst out laughing remembering my face as the bucket finally tipped half way up the stairs sending me flying. Hey don't laugh" Clarke nudged once more watching the brunette trying to stifle her giggles.

"Sorry" Lexa mumbled not even attempting at hiding the biggest smile she ever held.

"What about you?" Clarke questioned more softly. "Did you have any memories like that?"

"Not really." the brunette said after a moment of scanning threw her past. "I remember being five years old. My mum had told me I needed to write a letter to Santa"

"You did?" Clarke questioned with a sad smile on her lips "What did you write?"

"well I was playing with my toys while I wrote the letter" Lexa was becoming a little more embarrassed.

"What did you write?" Clarke questioned curiously now beginning to get the better of her.

"Well.. I told Santa that I had been good for about five years now, and something was bothering me. So I asked him why all my toys said made in China, if the elf's made them?" Lexa ducks her head with a smirk on her face. "When I took it to my mum to make sure it was written ok, she laughed. I took that as it was ok"

"No you didn't!" Clarke laughed leaning more in to Lexa as her cute little self. A mini Lexa just looked adorable. "So even then you were a little nerd"

"Unfortunately" Lexa admitted.

"I think its cute" Clarke admitted finding the brunettes hand with her own as the silence lingered for a moment eyes connecting with one another. "Shall we take a walk?" Clarke questions already beginning to stand up, dusting the sand of her clothes before reaching out and pulling Lexa up with her.

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As they took small steps across the beach, Lexa watching her toes disappear in to the sand while Clarke watched on with a smile. Everything so far had been perfect, the way Lexa sat so close, they way Clarkes hand always found Lexa's, the way Clarke wanted to frame every moment, and every expression Lexa gave when she looked across the beach, out to the sea, even how her eyes sparked a little bit more with the flames of the fire reflecting from them. Clarke didn't want to leave, she didn't want their first date to ever come to a end.

"Will our things be ok? Leaving them over there?" Lexa finally questioned against the sound of the waves pushing across the sand.

"I have a confession" Clarke admits. "We’re not actually suppose to be on the beach. At night its closed of. So if we get caught I'm deaf, and you don't understand English" Clarke laughs.

"Why didn't we come during the day?"

"I wanted you to feel comfortable" Clarke admitted. "I love your shy dorkiness, but I wanted you to feel comfortable, plus I know how much you love the sky" Clarke admits allowing her eyes to trail up to the brightly lit stars. "I wanted you to be able to see it at its best" Clarke confesses stopping mid walk. "I wasn’t lying when I said I was nervous. This petrified me" she admits looking deep in to green before feeling Lexa's fingers gliding back and forth against her own, knowing Lexa really wanted to toy with something with her fingers meaning she was nervous.

"Wh..I don't understand" Lexa confessed shyer than she had appeared to be all night.

"Understand what?"

"why are you so bothered about me?" Lexa questioned looking down to her buried feet.

There it was. The question that had been bothering Lexa, the questioned that the brunette would questioned every time she closed her eyes and tried to sleep, the question she wanted to ask every time Clarke would look at her with soft eyes and wide smiles, the question that pecked at her brain when she would feel Clarke's lips on hers. Why was this all happening now? Why had Clarke shown an interest? Why was Clarke actually listening to things Lexa would say. No one had before so why now? With Clarke it had been confusing, they went from kissing, to more kissing, to looks and glances, to Clarke daring her to push her away, to confessing she couldn't stop thinking of her and then a lot more kissing. Clarke would hold her through the nights, kiss her when they woke, sooth her through nightmares and confess how beautiful Lexa looked all the time, no matter what she was wearing. The last month had been one of the most confusing for Lexa ever since Halloween, Clarke and her had some what grew Closer, relaxing more around the blonde as they days passed, she wasn't sure why or how that happened but it did, maybe it was Clarke’s constant start of conversation, maybe it was Clarke's kisses and whispered confessions on how she had missed her throughout the day, or how she asked repeatedly what Lexa was doing to her, that she wasn't sure of, but she wasn't entirely sure what Clarke was doing to her either? Was it even the same as what Lexa was doing to her. The only thing Lexa was completely sure about was, when Clarke had stayed out at Ravens on the odd occasion after being drunk, or last night because Clarke wanted the date to be done properly, she had missed Clarke, she had thought of her more than usual, she had fiddled with her clothes a whole lot more and when she woke through the night with a nightmare, she had scanned through her phone to call Clarke in a panic, only to stop herself last minute. The brunette had never been so dependant on anyone other than her mum, and she had been ripped from the world so cruelly, ever since she was 6 years old she had only herself, and then for a few years Aden, but he had been taken too.

Clarke didn't rush to say anything as she stood trailing the brunettes features chewing on her inner lip. She just stood there trying to understand, trying to unravel the mysterious brunette in front of her. Her features so soft and scared, with the slightest of movements she looked like she would flinch away, sometimes it was easy to forget how insecure Lexa truly was, sometimes it was easier to believe and see Lexa more confident when she spoke, yet standing in front of her right now, was Lexa stripped to her raw core, asking the question that baffled her, and all Clarke could think was how oblivious Lexa must be to reality.

"Why wouldn't I be?" Clarke finally questioned. The question fell with silence as Lexa could only shrug her shoulders her gaze becoming more unsteady the more nervous she became. "Can I tell you something?" She questioned beginning to turn and guide Lexa to begin walking again this time Closer to the waves pushing over the sand. "You remind me of the sea" Clarke confesses as she finally feels the water push against her feet.

"it's cold" Lexa says softly her grip tightening on Clarke's hand.

"It is" Clarke admits letting her foot glide through the water pulling the sand away. "It can be calm and still at times and rough or rigid but in the end" Clarke breaths turning to face the brunette once more "It's always beautiful" Clarke admits hoping her words spoke volumes. "You have had your storm Lex. You're still here fighting every day. So when I ask you why wouldn't I be interested? I Don't see how I couldn't be." She admits watching the water cover Lexa's toes as the smallest of smiles forms on her lips, whether its Clarke's words or the ocean Clarke doesn’t know but she continues anyway. "You're beautiful. You're also the strongest person I know" Clarke admits enjoying the tight hold Lexa held fiercely on her hand. "and I'm really struggling to hold of on kissing you till the end of the night." Green eyes raised catching blue as they came to a holt. The blonde pushed the water against her feet as she stood closer to the brunette sliding her other hand across Lexa's cheek. "I don't think I can" Clarke whispered inching slowly towards the brunettes lips.

"I think you’re beautiful too” Lexa whispered, bringing a smile to Clarke's lips before pressing them together. The waves curled in and out to shore pushing against there feet and ankles wetting the end of their jeans. The moonlight shone brighter than before and the stars glistened in the darkened sky, but even with such beauty surrounding them, the stars, the moon, the deep blue ocean and the salty smell in the air, Clarke and Lexa was only lost in one another their lips pushing and biting against the other. Hands pulling the other closer if that were even possible, as they become lost in blonde and brown curls, tracing features with the tip of their fingers while their tongue's pushing against one another's becomes slow and sensual, only allowing their vibrating moans to leave their lips. After many slow incredible minutes their lips part with Clarke's hands resting either side of Lexa's hips holding her close.

"Do you trust me?" Clarke questioned resting her forehead against the brunettes. The confident nod Lexa does, gives Clarke the confidence to place her hand around Lexa thighs just below her bum as she lifts her quickly while running deeper in the sea.

"Clarke" the brunette yelped tightening her grip around the blonde's neck along with her legs trying to stay out the sea as much as possible. Only when Sea level reaches Clarke's chest did she stop, the giggles slipping past her lips as she holds Lexa tighter for security. "It- Freezing" The brunette shook having her breath taken away.

"Only for a second" Clarke says softly raising her hand from out the water to push against the brunettes cheek. "Are you ready?" Clarke questioned smirk firmly in place.

"Ready?" Ready for what?" The brunette questioned nervously her grip tightening as fear spread through her. Clarke's grip tightened as she bent her legs letting herself disappear under the water with Lexa attached to her. Reappearing again after seconds Lexa gasped for air quickly wiping her face, as Clarke did the same only with a smile on her lips. Before Lexa could moan, before she could complain or give any displeasing look Clarke had attached her wet lips on Lexa's now salty ones. Clarke’s smilequickly formed as Lexa didn't push the kiss away in the slightest by the way she opened up her mouth welcoming Clarke's tounge against hers. "stand" Clarke mumbled between kisses feeling Lexa's tight thighs grip fiercely around her, the fear of the unknown now becoming more evident as their lips parted.

"I won't let anything happen to you. I promise" Clarke tried to reassure not wanting to push Lexa to do something she didn't want to. Slowly, but nervously she untangled her legs and allowed them to find the ground but keeping her hands gripped around the blonde's neck.

"Hi" Clarke beamed after a moment of silence of just looking at one another.

"Hi" Lexa whispered back feeling small waves moving their body up before back down again. "This is beautiful" Lexa admits. "Thank you"

"You're beautiful" Clarke breaths pushing Lexa's now wet matted hair out her face as the brunette smiles. "I love that feeling I get when I see you smile" Clarke admits allowing her hands to slide down under the water gripping Lexa's side tugging her closer. "You make me crazy" Clarke whispers pushing her lips to Lexa's strong jaw bone trailing small kisses to Lexa's collar bone only stopping when her vest strap becomes a obstacle. For a moment the blonde looks at Lexa in all her soaking wet glory, when Clarke thought she couldn't get more beautiful she would always prove her wrong. The more time that passes, the finer she became, like a wine that improved with age. Lexa was like that, already beautiful and perfect but some how managed to become even better than that.

When Clarke pulled away out of Lexa's reach she could see the confusion in green eyes. She was going to do this, she wanted to do this. Without thinking or allowing the doubt to quickly consume her mind she reached for the edge of her own top pulling the wet material off and over her head letting it float in the water as her eyes connected with green once more. They held fear, confusion but her eyes trailed down freely before Lexa could drag them back up. Clarke moved the few steps closer to Lexa more slowly than before giving her every opportunity to stop her, to tell her this was not ok and Clarke would put her t-shirt back on immediately, but she wanted, needed to see a little of Lexa and Lexa a little of her.

"Hi" Clarke whispered once more as she replaced her hand on the brunette's hips.

"Hi" Lexa repeated. It was quieter than the first time, barely a whisper as she swallowed hard with parted lips. She was nervous, she didn't no where to place her hands or if to place them on Clarke at all as she let them hang around herself. Clarke wouldn't push, she wouldn't even ask. If Lexa wanted to do anything she would in her own time at her own pace and Clarke would wait.

"Are you ready?" Clarke questioned with the same smirk she had moments ago while gripping Lexa tightly till it was impossible for her to get away.

"Clark-" Lexa went to say stopping as she realised what the blonde meant. "No. Cla-" 
Lexa was cut off when Clarke dragged her back under.

"Clarke" Lexa whined as Clarke laughed almost instantly when air hit her lungs. The tight hold Clarke had over the brunette pushed them flushed together, so together that Lexa now had noticed Clarke's bare stomach was pushed tightly to her body. Her eyes trailed down seeing the curve of Clarke's breast held perfectly in her black bra. Clarke's laugh came to an abrupt end as she watched Lexa's eyes trail shamelessly, she watched how her green eyes grew bigger under the moonlight if even possible, but when Lexa's nervous shaky hand toughed her bare side from under the water Clarke's eyes closed naturally instantly relaxing at their new contact of intimacy.

"sorry" Lexa quickly said removing her hand from Clarke's body, nerves getting the better of her. Her eyes dropping between them, before realising Clarke's boobs were on clear display above the water between them, making her advert her eyes else where as quickly as possible. Clarke could almost laugh at her cuteness, at the feel of her shaky hand she wanted placed back on her body.

"Don't apologise" Clarke whispered taking Lexa's hand in her own raising it to her lips and placing a small kiss to her palm, before guiding it back in the water to her side. The tremble was vibrating from her skin, but her eyes were bright matching the smile forming her lips. What could look like a awkward moment from the distance, wasn't at all. In fact if Clarke didn't want to get out the water before, she certainly didn't now as she felt Lexa's hand grip more confidently after a moment, her other hand slowly coming to meet the other side of the blonde mirroring her other hands action. Clarke tried not to let her eyes flicker closed and enjoy the feel to much, she tried to focus on other things other than Lexa’s hands doing wonders to her body, she tried and failed at stopping herself becoming wetter than the ocean was actually making her. She really did try all of them, she really did but the way Lexa's fingers curled around her sides touching her back had her mind in the gutter. She wanted nothing more than to strip bare of her clothes and reveal all to the brunette, and to see Lexa do the same, but she couldn't, and wouldn't. Instead she bit her lip supressing the moan that was desperate to push past her lips when a small wave raised their body's making Lexa move her grip down her body to her hip to hold one another still. She watched green eyes fixate on her body and trail the curves she could see, before following the trail of her collar bone up to her neck, then to lips.

"Where did you go?" Clarke whispered softly pulling Lexa closer as she slid her hand across the brunettes cheek. "What are you thinking?" she questioned.

"You're- Clarke" Lexa stuttered her gaze shifting from eye to eye "hot" Lexa gulped as if her breath had been removed from her lungs. Clarke smiled at her quick stuttered statement "I mean" Lexa tried once more to catch her words. "Beautiful. You're beautiful" she breathed slowly. For a moment Lexa looked lost, deep in thought as if trying to unravel something in her own brain. Clarke didn't question it she just watched Lexa tenderly before placing a small kiss on her lips while trailing little patterns on Lexa's bicep. When Lexa removed her hands from Clarke's body rather quickly, the blonde was confused, did she do something wrong? did she cross a line? Her train of thought came to a sudden crashing and burning when Lexa raised her hands out the water bringing her own top off and over her head. Clarke's brain had officially fried. She wasn't discreet in the slightest as her eyes immediately fixed on Lexa's bare skin now on show. Wearing a white bra, her skin darker than Clarke's, the blonde couldn't swallow, she couldn't speak nor move she was frozen. As much as she wanted Lexa to do this, she didn't really truly believe it would happen. If Clarke could move, or even look up to see Lexa, she would see the nerves racking her brain, she would see how she gripped her top tightly in her hand not allowing it to float like Clarke's, she would see Lexa's other hand has disappeared beneath the water to fiddle with her jeans as Clarke's eyes trail her body. Nothing was said, not because Clarke had nothing to say, it was because she was hypnotised by such beauty. It was only when the nerves got the better of Lexa that she tried to cover her body up with her hands and her vest she gripped so tight that forced Clarke to find her voice.

"Don't" Clarke pleaded removing the girls arms from covering up. "Don't" she pleaded once more finally taking a deep breath as she moved forward. "Just give me a sec" Clarke pleaded allowing her eyes to trail down the brunettes body before quickly resting her forhead on Lexa's closing her eyes while she inhaled sharply. She had become nervous to, with the struggle of forming normal human being words together right now. Talk about bad timing.
"God" Clarke sighed "Can I touch you?" she questioned nervously finally flickering her eyes open. Her eyes trained on nervous green as she nodded the smallest of nods. Clarke was the exact opposite to Lexa she didn't hesitate in her touch, as she trailed her index and middle finger across Lexa's collar bone and down her shoulder eyes following the steps closely at Lexa's body revealed small goose bumps in her tracks. Her mouth was dry, her eyes boring in to the brunette's silky wet skin, not wanting to miss a thing from the slightest blink. Her hands continued to trail across her chest between her breast down to her stomach, surprisingly feeling the muscles against the skin but not to evident to see clearly. She was perfect.
It was almost impossible to make the blonde speechless, finding something to say about anything, yet standing here, Even more wetter than the water could possibly make her, her fingers trailing down the length of the brunettes body feeling every curve and every muscle, she was left speechless. Words falling from her mouth like she couldn't properly phrase one with the odd heavy breath released, instead her eyes trailed from the brunettes body to Lexa's lip, watching the small water drop trail her lips ready to drop of. She leaned forward pressing her lips to the brunettes in a soft tender kiss. It was everything it should be. Everything Clarke needed it to be.
The soft arms that reached around her neck holding her closer, wet bare chest pushed against one another feeling every detail against one another, instantly taking Clarke's breath away causing her to part the kiss biting gently in to Lexa's lower lip.

"You’re breathtaking" Clarke sighed. Burying her face in the crock of Lexa's neck before slowly placing kisses along Lexa's shoulder. The smallest of whimpers left  Lexa's lips  had echoed so much louder to the blonde, wanting to hear it again she pushed her body flush against Lexa's wet body holding her close biting sucking and nibbling while her hand trailed the length of Lexa's body once more feeling her perfect abs, yet her hand trailed further to a place they had never been before, a place where they had itched and scratched to reach out to. When her hand came over Lexa breast her hand stretched out perfectly to grip squeezing it gently earning another Soft nervous moan.

They stood together ignoring the waves, ignoring the bright stars that usually caught thousands of peoples attention as they buried their self with one another, to lost in each others bodies, eachothers looks and gentle touches. Nothing mattered, not in this moment anyway, they were just teenagers being teenagers forgetting exams, forgetting the worry of being caught, forgetting Costia, forgetting Fin. Gentle grazes and quiet moans exploring each other a little more for the first time, kept them lost in the darkness of the night.

--

When toes became numb, lips became purple and goose bumps were unable to hide any longer both girls hand in hand left the sea, shaking and laughing as they ran toward their fire still burning brightly. The sound of clattered teeth and Wet trousers now filling their ears as Clarke quickly grabbed for the blankets throwing the first one over Lexa then one over herself.

"I have spare clothes" Clarke quickly stuttered between shaking teeth. Lexa watched her unzip the bag pulling out two jumpers and jeans before handing them to the brunette who was wrapped tightly next to the burning fire. "Put these on" She mumbled quickly pulling her own clothes off from behind the blanket. The blonde had never through clothes on as quickly as she just did, she was freezing, hell her toes felt numb long before she got out the sea, she just didn't want to stop what ever it was her and Lexa had been doing, to lost, to happy and to high to care what her body needed. Only now she was paying the price as her teeth continued to shatter leaving a clanking sound to be heard, rubbing her hands viciously together in hope to get some kind of blood flow pumping through her body. Only when she turned around to face the brunette, her breath caught, her body froze watching the over sized jumper flow gently down tanned stomach, the jumper hanging teasingly over Lexa's shoulder.

God I'm lucky.

She took a few steps towards the brunette finally able to swallow again before taking her hand in her own and guiding them to sit once more in front of the fire. With the water gone, and their bodies now covered the nerves had no where to hide as they both sat shoulder to shoulder hands playing with one another as the crackle of the fire was to be heard once more.

"I got one more thing for you" Clarke announced like a light bulb went of In her head. "Wait here just a sec. I left it in the car" Clarke quickly scrambled to her feet before Lexa had time to object, thankfully this time Lexa would be able to see Clarke the whole time as she ran across the sand finally reaching the path and to where her car was parked. She took seconds if that as she clicked her car shut scrabbling back to where she originally was sitting.

"Here" She grinned handing Lexa the guitar. "This part is more for me" Clarke confessed with a cheeky smile. "Theirs nothing like a little camp fire song."

"Clarke" Lexa said already placing the guitar under her arm.

"Before you decline. I'm going to say please and you’re going to sing anyway" Clarke teased knowing this was a routine they had grew use to. 

"I was going to ask what song actually" Lexa laughed.

"Oh" Clarke froze before a smile quickly took over. "Surprise me. Something different" Clarke said softly, leaning forward slowly before giving the smallest smirk placing her purple lips one Lexa's capturing the delicate plump things, and again, then once more before pulling away to lay face up on the blanket as she stared at the stars, with the though of her never getting bored of being able to do that.

"Ok" Lexa finally says after following Clarke's movement. She tested the strings of the guitar before finally settling on a tune.

"Well you've done, done me and you bet I felt it. I try to be true but your so hot that I melted. I Felt right through the cracks, and now I'm trying to get back. Before the cool run out and ill be giving it my bestest, and nothing going to stop me but divine intervention. I recon it's against my turn to win some of lose some."

As the blondes eyes trailed from Lexa's green and the soft smile on her lips while her fingers pulled at the stings, her heart fluttered. The date had been a success after much stress and much swearing and cursing at herself for being stupid and lame, yet sitting here with the brunettes angelic voice play through the push of the waves, the crackle of the flames. This moment was the most content she had been in her life. She had never remembered a moment in her life where her jaw ached from kissing, smiling and laughing so much in one night, she could never remember a time where she took one look at someone and needed to lean on them for support so her legs didn't turn to Jelly. She could never remember dreading going home after a date was coming to a end, in face she use to look forward to it. Yet Laying here with the voice, the beautiful green eyes and the soothing atmosphere was a moment she would treasure.

"But I wont hesitate no more. No more. It can not wait, I'm Yours. Well open up your mind and see like me, open up your plans and dam your free. Look in your heart and you'll find love. love. love. love"

The longer she listened to the voice, the harder it was holding in her emotions the beat was playful and light, more bubbly than anything. Yet Clarke found herself sitting up moving closer to the brunette her face level with Lexa's as she watched her lips sing the lyrics eye's trailing the curve that formed on them as she tried to supress the smile growing and distracting her from the song, Yet Clarke was mesmerised. She was taken aback by the pure beauty that was Lexa, she could sing, no doubt about it, her hands played the guitar like she was a natural, and then she was just beautifully breathtaking. Her shoulder was still on display where the jumped had rested hanging off it, and god Clarke wanted to kiss it, sooth it, bite it. God she wanted Lexa.

"Listento the moment of the people who dance and sing Were just one big family. It's our God For-saken sighttobe loved, love, loved"

"I'm falling for you" Clarke confessed bringing the song to an abrupt end. "You asked me why I care, why I want you." Clarke continues flickering her eyes to Lexa's lips as she furrowed her brows like Lexa would speak the words herself. "Why wouldn't I Lex?" She questioned returning her gaze to green eyes. "You’re beautiful" She confessed pushing her hand across Lexa's cheek and in to the baby hairs on the back of her neck. "You are one of the most interesting, strong people ive ever met" She continued "I love It when we fall asleep together, and hate it when we separate for school" Her lips find Lexa in a soft quick kiss. "I love how you always have cold feet, and press them to mine in hope to warm them up" Clarke grins missing just that last night. "I love how nervous and shy you get, yet your confidence slowly pushes through in the moment. I Love how incredible your body is yet you’re completely oblivious to it all, the looks people give, the attempts at flirting that you take as friendly" The blonde laughs as a small innocent smile appears on Lexa's lips ducking her head in embarrassment before connecting their eyes once more with a small kiss. "You scare me Lex. You scare me more than I can even begin to explain, yet I thrive on it. It excites me, you excite me" She confesses beginning to stand gripping Lexa's hand and pulling her up with her. "I don't want anyone else, And I'm hoping you don't either" She confesses showing the smallest amount of vulnerability. "i know its new to you, dating, friends, everything" Clarke admit "But ill wait. As long as it takes." Clarke confesses. "That is if you want me to" Clarke tried to make her eyes not pleading, she tried not to show Lexa how she had become dependant on her like oxygen. She didn't want her to see the vulnerability, just in case Lexa didn't truly want her back.

"I do" Lexa whispered close to Clarke's lips. It was quiet, extremely quiet and if you wasn't listening you would have missed it, but of course Clarke was listening, she heard it, she head the two words that made her insecurities melt away. The two words she acted like she  had never heard.

"What?" She questioned unable to hide the evidence of hiding it, smile placed firmly on her lips already leaning in ready to capture Lexa's luscious  lips.

"I want you two" Lexa confirmed smile forming her lips now too as Clarke nodded with a quick "Yeah?" to which Lexa repeated before Clarke captured the brunettes lips for the hundredth time that night.

"You two!" A man shouted shining a torch their way as he approached them in a blue uniform. "What are you doing?" he questioned. "This beach is off limits" He said firmly looking from girl to girl waiting on a explanation.

like a deer caught in headlights Clarke had no idea what to say or do, neither did Lexa judging by the way she turned to Clarke. Then all Clarke could do was smirk before she released a huff and a few whines with many hand movements flapping around.

The man looked at Clarke just as confused as Lexa did, wondering what the hell she was doing, Lexa stealing a quick glance to the man looked at her in confusion and Lexa just returned the look as if saying if you don't know what the hell she is doing I don't. She looked back to the blonde once more before it clicked in her brain. 'I'm deaf and you don't speak English' The words Clarke had spoke earlier in case they got caught. So as Lexa continued to watch the blondes frustrated hand movements ,move around in some kind of sign language which she’s sure isn’t sign language at all. Her brow raised as Clarke smirked at her discreetly causing her stomach to drop. She wasn't being serious was she? She thought she was joking.

"Well?" The man questioned growing impatient placing his hand on his hips facing Lexa fully knowing full well he can't understand anything Clarke was trying to say, nor anyone in the world for that matter. "What's going on here?" He questioned more firmly his stare becoming hard and Lexa's cheek flushed pink under his watch.

"Urhh..No ..Eng-a-lish" She stuttered out raising her hands as her shoulders shook up and down, trying to mask her face with confusion other than embarrassment and fear. The man just looked between both girls not sure whether to press for more as one spoke no English and the other signing. Lexa daren't look at Clarke, if she looked at Clarke she would either laugh or panic so she just looked at the confused man in uniform as he looked just as confused as Lexa.

"Well...Move on" He said slowly using hand movements much like Clarke "Leave." He ordered. "Here. stay. No" He tried in the smallest words.

"Ahh."Lexa said in a weird kind of husk she wasn't even sure of. "O-K"She said with a bit of enthusiasm. Not thinking twice she turned grabbing somethings from the ground along with Clarke before making a run to the car.

The second they dived in the car Clarke collapsed in to fits of giggles holding her stomach, as she looked on at a very serious worried Lexa.

"No Eng-alish" Clarke mimicked Between giggles. "I didn't think you would actually do it" Clarke laughed.

"You told me to” She finally said breaking in to a smile as the situation came crashing down on her. "Well you were just waving your hands around" She tried to protest "I panicked" she tried to explain breaking in to her own laughter as she covered her face in embarrassment. 

"That was so cute" Clarke giggled placing her hand on Lexa's thigh as if it was the most natural thing in the world, her face red from laughing and her smile never wider. 

"Shut up" She mumbled in the palm of her hands.

"Just a little heads up" Clarke grinned "If im ever the voice of reason. We’re screwed" She giggled. 

As the engine started and they began their drive back home, When ever Clarke didn't need to change gear her hand would slip right back to Lexa's thigh, as if it was her new home, and slowly but eventually Lexa placed her hand over it, squeezing it gently while staring out the windows watching the street lights pass, it may be the first date she had ever been on, but she had no doubt it would be the best, with a new story to tell of her embarassement of which Clarke had made her do. For the first time When Clarke had told her a funny story from the past, Lexa felt like she gained her first one as a adult, a teenage memory.

--

Turning with a huff and a whine wishing that noise would just shut the hell up, with a swipe of the arm hitting the alarm silent, getting no luck what so ever as the noise continued
"It's your phone" Lexa laughed snuggled up tightly gripping Clarkes top.

"Nu uh" She whined "Not today" she pouted "Sleepy time" she mumbled burying her face back in the pillow before feeling Lexa shift "Nu uh. Stay" she whined.

"It's raven" Lexa laughed handing the phone to the blonde who continued to bury a hole in her bed, anything to get that noise to stop.

"You answer it" She pleaded with a long whine. "No. Leave it, she don't shut up when she starts"

"What if its important"

"Never is" She smiles quickly grabbing the phone hitting decline before throwing the phone down the bed. "Snuggle" She ordered burying herself in to Lexa more. Just as her eyes were beginning to catch some bloody rest the phone rings again. "Urgh!" she moans causing Lexa to laugh.

"maybe you should answear it" Lexa tries again reaching for the phone before hitting accept and placing it to Clarke's ear before she had time to object. As blue eyes flew open glaring at the evil brunette infront of her, Lexa couldn't help but smile brightly.

"What do you want" She gritted through the phone.

"Bitches we’re going camping!!" Raven shouts down the phone along with Octavia, well she thinks its Octavia. God she is to tired to care.

"Go away" she huffs pushing the phone away from her ear, only making Lexa laugh more as she pushed it back.

"Pack. Shit out. 1 hour!" Raven declared Before hanging up.

"What was that?" Lexa questioned after the call ended.

"Were going camping" she whined. "I hate camping" She grumbled. Closing her eyes once more to try rest, only to reopen them not long after closing them seeing a smiling green eyed brunette.

"Hi"

"Hi" Lexa smiled.

"Every day would be a great day, if I woke up to you" Clarke admits sleepily climbing over the brunette.

"You just woke up to me and you don't seem to great" Lexa teases.

"I Woke to Raven actually." Clarke smirked "I much prefer your voice in the morning"

"RISE AND SHINE PORKY, LEGS!" Anya announced barging in the room making Clarke spring away from Lexa with a thump to the floor.

"Holy fuck" She groaned

"Chop chop!" she grinned pulling the curtains wide open. "Morning Lex" Anya added before turning to the blonde laying on the floor. "Clarke what are you doing on the floor?" She questioned "It's only Friday" She questioned shaking her head with a laugh before disappearing.

"I hate my life" Clarke huffs getting to her feet. "Hold on. How does Anya already know we're going camping?"