Lost And Insecure!

Lost And Insecure!

As the blonde looked at her reflection a smile crept upon her lips, the scare factor had slowly vanished through the years and become more sexy. Halloween was by far one of Clarke's favourite times of the year, it was a night you could become who ever you desired and become peoples deepest, darkest nightmares, the air was thick with fear, laughs and screams and Clarke loved everything about the spookiness of the night as the sun would set. Of course this year Clarke was excited for different reasons, the first being she gets to see Lexa in a very sexy outfit revealing her long slender legs and toned stomach. The second being her and Lexa are going together and the brunette had never experienced Halloween in a manner it deserves she hadn't gone through the spooks and the screams and Clarke was more than excited to show her. The blonde also felt like something had changed between them last night. She wasn't entirely sure what or how it had changed, only that it felt good and lighter, as they both woke with smiles on their lips with Clarke even giving her a sneaky kiss that Lexa didn't deny. 

"Wonder woman...Sexy! Not trying to impress anyone are we?" She teased with a knowing smirk as she leaned against the door frame. 

"Wouldn't you like to know" Clarke grinned still eyeing herself in the mirror feeling more confident with Anya's compliment. 

"I would actually porky" She continued to smirk looking at Clarke's reflection in the mirror. 

"Why are you smiling like that?" Clarke questioned finally turning around to see what her cousin was up to. 

"Not smiling like anything" 

"You're being weird" Clarke confessed after eyeing her smirking cousin for a second. 

"You're being weird." Anya mimics still smirking knowing it annoys the blonde to no end. "So who are you looking all sexy for?"

"No one" Clarke admits turning back around to look at herself in the mirror in hope Anya wouldn't read anything "It's Halloween" 

"Hmm" Anya hums still smirking "Where's Lexa?" Anya questioned crossing her arms over her chest. 

"Bathroom, getting changed" 

"So she gets changed in the bathroom. Interesting" 

"Why would that be interesting?" Clarke questioned turning around to face her cousin once more with an annoyed expression. 

"no reason." Anya quirks her eyebrows at the blonde getting agitated in front of her. "Interesting" She smirked once more. 

"Anya!" Clarke snapped "Have you just come to annoy me?..Again?

"Awh you’re cute when you’re mad?" Anya teased with a small giggle

"well keep it up and im about to be real fucking adorable" Clarke bites making Anya only laugh harder.

"Hi" interrupting the two Griffins, Lexa nervously enters with her arm firmly wrapped around her stomach, both Griffin's eyes widen as they take in the site in front of them, of course one griffin become's speechless and the other Griffin needs to learn to shut up. 

"Wow" Anya eyes lexa's entire body with a smile on her face "Fuck me, look at those legs. Where have you been hiding those? Why would you even cover those?"Anya demanded a response, seeing Lexa dressed as Lara Croft was something she certainly wasn't expecting when she woke up this morning.  "You look hot!" She explained "Are they even real?" She questioned reaching out and touching Lexa's leg "i want these legs" Anya admitted eyeing Lexa once more feeling more impressed by the second. Lexa couldn't help but laugh at the dark blonde, as confident and as funny as she was, she was a little dorky. 

"Thanks. I feel silly" Lexa admitted twitching her lip to the side. 

"Anything but.." Clarke finally breathed swallowing hard, finally making her presence known, her eyes trained to the brunette in front of her "You look.." Clarke was still struggling to form any sort of sentence, never mind tell Lexa how she made her body crumble from the second she walked in, taking away her voice and increasing her heart beat to a rapid pace like never before. Green met blue, and there was a glint in both girls eyes with smiles forming on their lips.

"Anyway..I better get changed myself" Anya smirked looking to both girls who seemed completely zoned out. "Interesting" She teased once more having Clarke snap her head to the side glaring at Anya, and with a quick laugh she disappeared down the hall. 

"You look good" Lexa admitted trying to resist the urge to roll her eyes at her terrible compliment, she hated how terrible she was at this. 

"Lexa. You look incredible" Clarke admitted ignoring Lexa's compliment completely, to focused on the beauty in front of her and she took small steps forward.

"Thank you" Lexa smiled while Clarke reached for Lexa's hands, removing them away from her stomach. 

"Lara Croft is so you" Clarke teased but being completely honest, the outfit suited her more than she could begin to explain, she wasn't sure if it was the body, the eyes her lips or even her hair, but everything about the outfit screamed Incredible. The blonde tangled their fingers together keeping Lexa from covering up, well that's what she told herself, when really Clarke just wanted to hold the girl in some way. "Are you nervous?" Clarke questioned. Watching the brunette nod. "Don't be, it will be fun" 

"Anya's coming?" 

"She is..the school open it up to everyone but you still have to buy your tickets" Clarke explained. "Let's hope she wears clothes this time" The blonde shook her head remembering what her cousin wore the year before. "Last year she dressed like someone in bay watch, so you can Imagen the looks we got" 

"Bay watch?" 

"Really?" Clarke questioned eyeing Lexa seriously "Never mind" Clarke laughed "Just be glad you wasn't there to witness a almost naked Anya. Anyway shall we go?" She questioned looking at the time. "It's three o'clock all the games and fair rides will be open, but the mazes won't begin till dark" 

"Ok" Lexa said nervously "Is anya travelling with us?" 

"No she is meeting us there" Clarke smiled "Come on" 

"Clarke" Lexa quickly spoke stopping the blonde in her tracks "You look beautiful" Lexa finally manages to say nervously biting on her inner lip. 
 
"Thank's" Clarke's face lit up, feeling like a nervous wreck. "Right back at you" 

The Second the words left her mouth she cringed, cursing at herself for being so lame, losing any game she ever thought she had. The strong confident proud blonde always seemed to shrink and become just as nervous as the brunette that stood in front of her and it was beginning to get on Clarke's last nerve. 


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The second the girls exited the car Clarke made her way beside Lexa carefully reaching for the brunette's hand, making sure this was still ok to do in such a busy environment, thankfully Lexa took it with a gentle squeeze, and Clarke couldn't help but trail her eyes down the length of Lexa's body once more. She really did look breathtaking, Anya was right her legs are unreal. She watched Lexa's curious eyes scan from one thing to the next eager to take all the new surrounding in with excitement, her smile was radiating as she admired all the young children's outfits wearing goblin masks or with fangs hanging out their mouths. The school had truly pulled every string they had, making the school field look more like a barn with hay scattered here there and everywhere, there were carved pumpkin's everywhere with loads of stalls full of mini games with small rewards if you win. The sound of thunder and lightning echoed throughout the whole field with a howl of a wolf every now and again, as lights flashed for effect. 

"This is incredible" Lexa breathed feeling a hay sack brush past her fingers as she continued to stroll through hearing nothing but laughter, chit chatter and screams. The atmosphere was like no other as everyone was smiling laughing, or playing tricks on one another. 

"It is" Clarke admitted watching Lexa's smile radiate more. "What would you like to do first?" She questioned with a grin eager to begin the little new adventure for Lexa.

"Don't we have to find your friend's first?" She questioned remembering they all agreed to meet up. 

"We should" Clarke bit her lip looking to the ground before looking up "I want to spend a little time just with you" she hesitated. Her palms became sweaty and her heartbeat increased, she wasn't even sure why any more, she had already made it clear to Lexa she couldn't stop thinking about her, so why was she so nervous to admit wanting to spend some time alone. She didn't want to scare Lexa with her desire to explore what ever this feeling she was feeling was, even if deep down she already knew what all these feeling meant. 

"That would be nice" Lexa smiled squeezing the blondes hand in reassurance taking away the doubt and fear Clarke had and she couldn't help but release a nervous giggle at how Lexa was the one secretly reassuring her now. When it came to Lexa, Clarke was just as nervous and fidgety at Lexa was on a day to day basis.

"Come" Clarke smirked pulling her to a small stand "will have three please" Clarke spoke to the man handing him some money as he handed her three balls. "You have to get one ball in the bucket to win a prize" she instructs handing over the small ball to a confused looking Lara Croft as she looked at the massive bucket not to far away. 

"That's easy" Lexa admitted looking a little confused as Clarke's smirk only grew. 

"Prove it" Clarke winked placing her hand on her hip as she turned to look at the bucket in front of them.

"Ok" Lexa smiled turning to the bucket herself with a 'watch and see' look written all over her face only making the blonde laugh more. She tossed the ball gently in to the bucket only for it to hit the bucket and bounce out on to the ground, making Lexa  furrow her brows. "That's cheating" Lexa blurts out to see a smug looking blonde compressing her laughter. 

"Or your throw is lame" Clarke teased with a serious look and tone. "Not much of a stud now huh?" She grinned handing the brunette another ball. "Let's see if you can get it this time" Lexa took the ball unable to remove the smile from her lips. She had never done anything like this before, nor had Clarke teased her in such a way, but she was loving every moment of it, with everyone buzzing around them playing many other games something just sparked in Lexa, she was having fun. Real fun. 
"I'll get this one" Lexa says confidently, this time taking her time to aim, gently pushing the ball in the bucket. A big grin crept on her face and quickly disappeared as the ball bounced out the edge once more. 

"So close" Clarke mocks with a giggle "Yet so far" 

"Your turn Clarke" Lexa plays back "See if you really are wonder woman" 

"Oh i am" Clarke smiled taking her place from Lexa as she held the last ball in the palm of her hands "Let's make this more interesting. If i get it in i get to ask you any question i wish that you have to answer? Deal?"

"Deal" Lexa agreed turning to face the bucket as Clarke aimed. The ball left the tip of Clarke's fingers hitting the top inner bucket bouncing down in to the bucket where it rolled back. The blonde laughed jumping up roaring her cheers as she giggled at Lexa's expression. 

"How did you do that?" Lexa questioned looking to the blonde and bucket once more. 

"Wonder woman" Clarke simply giggled stated matter of factly placing her hands on her hips. 

"Choose your prize" The man grinned looking to all the teddies hanging around the booth. 

"I'll have that one" Clarke pointed to the lion. 

As the teddy bear was handed to Clarke she quickly handed it to Lexa with a smug grin on her face. 

"Here. You can have him" She smiled "i already won a question" She grinned taking Lexa's hand with her own once more, a feeling that felt so natural and comforting at the same time. 

"what's your question?" Lexa questioned while strolling through the crowds gripping tighter at the blondes hand as they pushed past crowds, Clarke stopping them at another mini game with a ladder and a bell. 

"Umm" Clarke thinks eyeing the brunette curiously "am i a good kisser?" Clarke questioned unable to resist. 

The atmosphere for the girls had changed since arriving at the festival, they were smiling, laughing and joking and Lexa was actually having fun while allowing the new surrounding to sink in, something she had never experienced in the seventeen years she could remember. So Clarke asked the question with no nerves, not contemplating weather she should of shouldn't she just asked. Hoping she secretly knew the answer already Lexa had kissed her on more than one occasion and Lexa had even leaned up to catch her lips once they had parted. Clarke just wanted some straight answers for a change with out feeling the tension build between them, and this was the way that popped in her head.

"You are" Lexa admitted nervously biting on her lip with a smile, and Clarke's smile widened. 

"I knew it." Clarke hummed looking to Lexa then to the two ladders leading to a bell. "Play for a question again?" Clarke smirked. 

"What do you have to do?" 

"Climb the ladder and ring the bell, simple" 

"That's it?" her brows furrowing once more. 

"That's it." Clarke admitted "of course the ladder isn't exactly steady. You have to balance. Look" Clarke gestured to the girl currently climbing the ladder struggling to keep it steady as it began swaying side to side before the girl fell of on to the cushion beneath. 

"That look's hard" Lexa admitted already trying to work out the best way to climb the ladder without it swinging side to side. 

"Us Griffin's are competitive. You better get your game on" Anya interrupted coming from behind them who had already found Octavia, Raven, Costia and Fin.

Lexa and Clarke quickly turned around to face their friends in their different costumes. Costia as Superwoman, Octavia as a angel, Raven as a dark angel, and Fin as Captain Jack sparrow. 

"Look at you" Costia interrupted eyes glowing from the sight of Lexa "You are.. wow." Costia smiled trailing her eyes down Lexa’s body as the brunette smiled back.

"Thank you. I love your make up" Lexa admitted as the group looked to the side of Costia's face where it was perfectly painted to give the effect of a burnt face.

"Thank's. Superwoman wasn't quite scary enough, i gave it a extra touch" Costia admitted with a beaming smile.  

Clarke just stood there uneasy with their encounter, they were always so relaxed and so chilled with one another, they bounced of one another with confidence, as nice as it was to see Lexa with confidence, Clarke secretly hated Costia was the one to help her with that. She just wanted Lexa to feel that comfortable with her.

"So what were you guys doing?" Raven questioned. 

"Me and Lexa were just going to race to the top" Clarke quickly turned to face the rest of her friend's removing her focus from Lexa and Costia's smiles and touches. 

"Legs! Porky!" Anya announced pointing to Clarke and Lexa to get there ass's up there "Game time. May the better Griffin win" She teased before pushing them towards the ladders, as the girl's approached Anya took one more look to the side to the girl dressed as superwoman who seemed to be unable to take her eyes of Lexa. 

"legs?" Octavia questioned standing by Anya's side. 

"Her new nickname" Anya admitted "Look at them" She nudged her head in Lexa's direction. 

"Jasper calls her that when she's not around" Octavia laughed "She wore leather pants at Costia's party, apparently it's imprinted his brain" 

"Costia?" Anya say's her name looking to the girl beside her once more. "She seems to like Lexa" Anya stated turning back to her cousin readying herself on the ladder as was Lexa. 

"You know don't you" Octavia breathed looking to the two girls exchanging words in front of them.

"Of course i know" Anya admitted "When you share a room with them for a week, it's kinda hard not to hear them moaning while kissing in the bed beside you" Anya rolled her eyes at how useless her cousin was at keeping this quiet. "Besides us Griffin's have a look. When it's given we’re in deep."

"They make out in bed?" Octavia smirked. "I just knew Clarke had a think for Lexa but was confused" 

"Be thankful you wasn't there i had to literally cover my ears from stopping myself turning around and demanding them to stop" Anya pulled a sick face, trying to hide the fact she was happy for her cousin, she had heard their silent whispers that had exchanged through the night when they assumed Anya was asleep, and she had felt them sneak back in bed before she would wake to catch them together. If Clarke wasn't ready then she would wait, but she two felt her guard go up where Costia was concerned.

"What are we talking about?" Raven interrupted dressed as a extremely sexy dark angel, matching perfectly with her make up, Anya didn't fail to notice.

"Octavia here was just giving me some tips" Anya lied

"On?"She questioned looking to her best friend before looking back to Anya "Im sure i could help" 

"Im sure you could" Anya teased "Have a drink with me tomorrow" Anya asked allowing her confidence to show, she didn't care if it came across cocky or arrogant she knew she was hot, and she used it. "Show me what kind of dark angel you really are!" 

"Sorry i have a head ache this weekend" Raven grinned turning to face the girls on the ladders. 

"i see... playing hard to get" 

"No.. not hard to get just not interested"

"Come see a movie with me and you soon will be" Anya raised her brows stepping closer to the girl. 

"Ive seen that movie" Raven simply smile's showing her annoyance. 

"I haven't chose one yet"

"Well which ever one you’re on about, ive seen it" Raven laughed looking to Octavia and back. "Look the girls are getting ready" Raven brushes of trying to focus elsewhere.

"Clever like the devil, only twice as pretty. This isn't over Reyres" Anya grinned turning back to the girls in position with a smirk on her face.

"What was that?" Octavia whispered 

"I Dont know" Raven replied looking to the girls before scanning her eyes over Anya's outfit. 

--

"You ready woods?" Clarke teased gripping tightly to the rope while looking over to a bent over Lexa in the same position. 

"i'll beat you this time" Lexa spoke with determination showing her competitive side, maybe she was a true Griffin after all. 

"Lexa" Clarke said a little softer after a moment, waiting on the brunette to look up "you really do look incredible" Clarke admitted feeling her body weaken at the sight not only was Lexa smiling but the smile met her eyes completely. 

"Ready?" The man questioned standing between both ladders waiting on both girls to nod. 

"Good luck" Clarke finally speaks one final time. 

"Go" The man shouts as both girls begin slowly taking step by step. 

Lexa decided to put a foot one side of the rope and the other foot on the opposite side as soon as she did this however she realised it was a mistake as the ladder would rock aggressively to both side's when she struggled to take the next step. She managed three step's before the ladder tossed around throwing her off. While Clarke kept her feet in the centre of the ladder taking each step slowly. She knew she would win this, dance was a passion and that included alot of balance, the only time she faltered was when she struggled to contain the laughter in when she watched Lexa tumble down. A few seconds later she rang the bell with cheers from her friends and a shake of the head from Lexa.

"That was harder than the first one" Lexa laughed stepping down with Clarke as Clarke claimed another prize picking a lion once more. 

"I believe i won another question" Clarke teased handing over another lion to Lexa. 

"are you conning me?" She questioned brows raised 

"Maybe" Clarke laughed approaching her friends once more, the question could wait for a moment. 

"unlucky Lex!" Costia said almost immediately. "Clarke you did that rather quick" She said impressed. 

"Thank's. Who's next?" She questioned wanting to get the attention of herself. 

"Reyres" Anya grinned piping up "Care to challenge me?" She questioned with her arms crossed and back straight

"If you think you can take me?" Raven's smug grin appeared on her face quicker than you could switch a light switch. 

"Oh i know so" Anya added. "Let's make this interesting.." 

"Anya Rav-" Clarke started but was cut of with a raise of Anya's hand. 

"Name it" Raven said rather confidently. 

"If i win, you. me. date" 

"Ok" Raven laughed "And if i win?"

"You won't, But ill allow you to let your terms be known" 

"Anya" Clarke tried once more only to be cut of this time by raven with the look and a smile. 

"ok. If i win you strip to your bra and underwear at the after party for the entire night, no complaints. And we get to put you on that stand over there" Raven pointed "And all have a go at throwing cake in your face, one shot each" 

"Deal" Anya laughed holding her hand out "Like taking candy from a baby" She grinned only for Clarke to place her face in her palm with a shake of the head. 

"What just happened?" Lexa questioned watching the two girls approach the ladder handing their money over. 

"Well... Anya just made a deal she is guaranteed to lose"

"Why will she lose?" She questioned looking at a smug Anya winking at Raven for her to roll her eyes. 

"Raven done gymnastics her balance is incredible. She has done these many time's and none of us can beat her" Fin pointed out stepping beside the two girls "Hi Clarke" He smiled before turning back to the two competitive girls 

"And what's Anya like?" 

"She's like me."Clarke smiled "Raven beat's me every time" 

"Oh" Lexa nodded looking to Clarke before turning her attention to the girls getting ready. 


"You can look at my butt if you want" Anya smirked turning to face the Latina "It's a good bum i promise" 

"Vain much" 

"Called confidence" Anya pointed wiggling her eyebrows 

"Your confidence is about to be knocked down a peg" Raven grinned never wanting to beat someone so much. 

"You’re sexy and funny" Anya laughed "I like it" 

"Ready?" The man questioned looking to both girls 

"Good question. Are you ready over there Reyres?" Anya teased. 

"Ready when you are!"

"Go" The man shouted stepping back, as both girls began climbing the ladder, one foot in front of the other, both girls chose to place there feet in the middle of the ladder much like Clarke did only before Anya could make it to her fourth step Raven had already rang the bell, quickly jumping of the ladder with hands on her hips with a shit eating smug grin. Anya's mouth was left wide open as her head snapped up realising her defeat, before closing it again with a smile.

"You getter hotter by the second" Anya admitted ignoring her defeat and continuing to flirt. 

"You’re ridiculous" Raven announced stepping down back in to the small group. 

"Where have you been all my life?" Anya questioned following behind. 

"Hiding from you" Raven snarled rolling her eye's as she approached her friends. Anya only laughed at the girls witty tongue not only was she sexy she was witty, flexible and could move quicker than lighting, with every shut down Raven gave, Anya only became more intrigued. 

"Feisty one you got there porky" Anya grinned stopping by Clarke's side. 

"Anya what the hell are you wearing" Clarke finally acknowledging her cousin's outfit.

"Oh this?" Anya questioned looking down at herself "Hot right?" she grinned at her witch costume. 

"Not exactly the word i would use. slutty would be more accurate"

"Exactly. Hot" Anya laughed. "Now come on, you guys have some cake to throw at this sexy face" She laughed walking off to the small stall. “If you play your cards right reyres, ill even let you lick it off”

"She is nuts" Costia finally laughed watching there encounter "I love it" She laughed while all the group followed Anya. 

--

"Give it your best shot legs" Anya grinned wiggling her eye brows before looking down to the splattered cake's dripping down the board covering her body.

"Scared Griffin?" Raven questioned standing to the side waiting on her shot. 

"Please. You lot are terrible, there's only you Porky and Legs here left." Anya laughed 

"Come on Lex. You can do this" Raven encouraged as Lexa stood at the ready.

Like the rest of them she through the cake and missed not even hitting the board as it flew beside the stand completely. 

"Ooook That was awkward" Anya chocked up a laugh as Lexa stood awkwardly looking around hoping nobody seen, but of course the whole group seen that terrible shot and burst out laughing. She quickly turned around to rejoin the rest of the group who stood there watching as Clarke took a step forward. "Ahh my fellow Griffin" Anya smirked "Good luck to you" she mocked. 

As the blonde reached over to take a cake from Raven  they both smirked at one another exchanging a look of which only best friend's would understand, they gave each other a small nod before turning back to focus on the dark blonde with her head pushed through a hole looking way to smug. Clarke knew she wouldn't miss, not because she had a incredible shot, but because this was way to good of a opportunity to miss, never again would she get this opportunity and she was going to thoroughly enjoy it.

"When you’re ready porky" Anya Grinned as Clarke stood in position ready to fire. She pulled her hand back with a quick glimpse to Raven who was making her way closer while Clarke had her distracted, she threw the cake forward hitting Anya half in the face with a squishing noise. 

"Ohh" The small group all shouted in union immediately beginning to laugh with a half cake covered Anya. Anya laughed after a second of shock beginning to wipe at her eyes in ready to see the group all giggling, but when her eye's opened she was met with a very beautiful Latina standing directly in front of her, her smile twitching instantly. 

"Come to lick it of?" Anya teased

"Not exactly" Raven grinned quickly shoving the cake in her face with a twist and turn to make sure it was rubbed in good and proper finally allowing the cake to drop from Anya's face to the ground covered in cream. "At least now you’re a little sweet" Raven laughed turning on her heel back to her giggling friends. 

--

Clarke was finding it difficult to have a moment alone with Lexa with the entire group now formed, the blonde would mainly be standing side by side with Octavia and Bellamy as they chit chatted amongst one another, of course people would shift moving to a different part of friend's as they were either behind each other or in front unable to all stand in a complete circle from how crowded the festival had become. She had looked at Lexa a dozen times that night but Costia seemed to always be by her side, admittedly when Clarke looked up once to look at Lexa she was already looking at Clarke, her smile had grew instantly.

"Hi" Fin grinned stepping forward his skin looking slightly dirtier than normal as he try's to pull of Captain Jack Sparrow.

"Well hello Jack" Clarke smirked turning to face him. "Haven't got any Rum in that drink have you?" She teased knowing the film far to well.

"I wish" Fin admitted "Can we talk for a sec?"

"Of course" Clarke smiled stepping beside him as he moved aside. The two stepped away from the group out of ear-shot but still in clear view as they stood not to far away,

"You look amazing tonight Clarke" Fin admitted finally acknowledging her outfit.

"Thank's. So do you" She smiled admiring the way he did his eye liner to pull of the Jack effect.

"I suppose i just wanted to say a few things" Fin finally admitted getting to the point looking a little nervous than a few seconds ago. "We been spending more time together lately.." He trailed looking to his feet then back to Clarke once more. "it's been nice.."

"I think so too" Clarke admitted. The many nights she had spend at Fin's had been a perfect distraction from the brunette she had at home, the English project couldn't have came at a better time.

"I was hoping...well.." Fin nervously shifted foot to foot itching the back of his head "That maybe..you had space, and maybe you wanted to retry..with us i mean" Fin finally spoke releasing a breath the second he finished.

"Fin.." Clarke said more softly giving him a sympathetic look that he already picked up on when his gaze dropped quickly. "im really sorry.." She tried knowing he already understood her response. "I love you. I do. Just not like that" She tried reaching out and taking his hand with her's giving it a gentle squeeze. "I don't want to hurt you, is why im telling you" 

"It's fine Clarke" He smiled but it didn’t reach his eyes "You don't have to explain" He assured squeezing her hand back. 

"I don't...but please believe me we when i say it really isn't you" She breathed looking to Fin before turning to face the small group in search for Green. She found them instantly staring back, watching the encounter the blonde was having with her ex boyfriend before realising she had been caught and snapped her head back to Costia. 

"For what it's worth, i do want you to be happy" Fin admitted. 

--

Lexa tried listening to Roan and Costia, the main word being tried, failing massively as her eyes kept shifting to the blonde walk away from the group with her ex boyfriend. She played her role and smiled or nodded when Roan or Costia would look at her, hoping that response was good enough to let them think she was listening, as her eyes trailed repeatedly back and forth to Clarke and Roan who was talking about his outfit as Batman, Only when her eye's trailed back to Clarke once more her eyes focused there instead of shifting back to Roan again because Clarke and Fin's hands had found one another. The hand Lexa had been holding not to long ago, the more her mind ran away with itself, the more her eyes were transfixed on the pair, with Clarke and Fin smiling at one another. She wondered what they were saying, she wondered why they were holding hands and why they needed to walk away from the small group. When Clarke turned around and caught her watching she snapped her gaze back to Costia biting the inner of her cheek keeping her back completely to Clarke not daring to look back again. Yet for some reason her eyes trailed to the ground unable to pretend to be listening any more as her mind quickly became consumed by Clarke. Was she getting back with Fin? She knew that didn't settle easy with her as her stomach turned at the thought while biting her inner cheek harder. Lexa could deny  it as much as she liked, but she had to admit Clarke had made her feel more thing's she had ever felt in her life, with a new kind of happiness, a new kind of living.
I mean look around, Lexa was standing here with the populars blending in as if this was where she always belonged, throwing cake at Anya's face while having friendly competition. Clarke had changed her life, she was no longer the girl left in the corner with no one interested to even ask her name, she was now Lexa with a nickname 'legs' She was Lexa who sat on her breaks in a circle of friends who would talk about anything and everything introducing each other as their second family. Lexa looked up to the small group talking nonsense to one another, teasing one another as one hit the other on their arms playfully, and she smiled. This small group had grew on her every time they sat down on the field with her she would notice when one was missing. Clarke had protected her with a family, a family at home and a family at school, yet the family wasn't the same for Lexa when Clarke wasn't around. The blonde shaped it, created it and kept them together she was the main source that kept them in check with her witty humour and soft heart.

 "What you thinking kid?" Anya questioned quietly standing beside Lexa. Nodding for Lexa to follow as she pulled her forward leaving the small group as they walked side by side around the festival. 

"Family" Lexa admitted as she watched two small boys chase each other with their growls. 

"Overwhelmed?" Anya questioned with a smile to her lips.

"Something like that" 

"Yeh" Anya breathed. "Welcome to the Griffin's" She smiled "Clarke Love's these guys" She admitted "I never really had the opportunity to meet all of them as i live far away, but she love's them as if they were a Griffin, and you’re one of them now Legs so get use to it because you’re not going anywhere" Anya grinned linking her arm through Lexa's as they continued to stroll. 

"For the first time, i don't want to leave" 

"Good, because you’re not. No matter what you do, or how far you go you’re stuck with us all. Even Clarke's little family of friends it seems you have fitted right in." Anya chimed "Anyway i have to ask, Costia, what's happening there?" She questioned. 

"How do you mean?" 

"Well she might aswell dribble on you, with how much she eye fucks you" Anya announced like it was nothing new. 

"What?" Lexa frowns nervously as she take's a quick glance back over to her friend. 

"You don't notice?" Anya questioned. 

"Um. No?" The shyness radiating from Lexa once more. "We’re just friends. She was my first friend here." 

"Well i think she is crushing on you" Anya furrowed "Any crushing back?" Anya questioned more quietly and softer at the fragile brunette, sometime's it was easy to forget the real state Lexa was, a nervous wreck, shy and timid. Lexa always seemed so confident with Anya maybe because she had spend every hour after school with her for the week but Anya could easily forget she was a foster child who looked like they were walking on ice majority of the time.

"No" Lexa confirmed "She’s just a real good friend. I don't see her like that"

"Good" Anya grinned "She's sketchy" Lexa laughed at the dark blondes assumption thinking she was completely wrong 

"She's actually really nice" Lexa admitted remembering the first day of school when she stood up to Murphy and helped her to her feet, even sat with her throughout lunchtime making light conversation. 

"Will see" Anya said unconvinced, not sure if it was more worried for her cousin with Lexa or just a real feeling she got. "Come on let's see if we can get Clarke on the Ferris wheel"

"Why wouldn't she?" Lexa questioned walking back to the group where Clarke had now joined. 

"She is shit scared of heights" Anya laughed "Such a baby!" she grinned approaching the small group. "Who's up for the Ferris wheel" Anya shouted turning to wink at Lexa before separating to a different part of the group as Clarke approached the brunette. 

"Hi" Clarke beamed "I must admit, i don't think it will get old seeing you in that outfit" Clarke said rather confidently. Lexa's nerves rushing back as she stood there with a smile not sure what to say to that. As much as she loved Clarke in her wonder woman outfit, Lexa thought the beauty laid within when Clarke was natural with no black wig or fancy outfit, she loved the blonde locks that flowed effortlessly down her shoulder which matched perfectly with her rare shade of blue. Lexa wasn't about to admit all that. 

"Im never been on a Ferris wheel" Lexa finally spoke finding Clarke's hand with her own naturally keeping it swaying between them as she fiddled with Clarke's fingers nervously. For a moment they remain silent, Clarke debating whether to pull Lexa closer by her hands at how cute she could be, how adorable her shyness was, as much as she wanted Lexa to feel confident with her, she also never wanted it to go. 

"it's beautiful." Clarke breathed "You get to see the city lights from the top" Clarke smiled "I'm scared of heights though" Clarke admitted finally looking to the large ride she had hoped to avoid. 

"Oh" Lexa said softly "That's ok. We can wait here" Lexa finally smiled

"You don't have to miss it because of me, you can go on with someone else" 

"it's ok. I’ve never been on one anyway" Lexa squeezed Clarke's hand in reassurance, she had came here with Clarke nobody else, therefore she wouldn't do what Clarke didn't want to.

"Come on" Clarke smiled pulling the brunette forward. 

"Where are we going?"

"To the Ferris wheel. You are getting on" Clarke smiled nervously standing behind her friends in a line. 

"we don't have to" Lexa tried to reassure. 

"I Want to" Clarke lied. She didn't want to, she didn't want to one bit, she hated heights with a passion, the thought of going that high in such a small chair barely secured in place made her feel sick, yet she couldn't and wouldn't let Lexa miss out on something she had never done, she wanted to see the smile radiate from her lips once more, even if that meant she could slowly feel every nerve twitch in her body as the line moved down closing in on her. Her palms were sweaty as they locked her in place, her heart pounding as the nerves rocketed through her bones gripping on to the metal pole in front of her as the ride started to move upwards, turning her knuckle's white. 

"Clarke" Lexa tried seeing the blonde in the seat beside her, she had never seen her with such fear.

"Im fine Lexa" Clarke tried convincing Lexa even though her eye's were clamped shut holding on tightly as the Ferris wheel slowly raised higher and higher in a slow motion speed. Lexa shifted closer in her seat to Clarke feeling amused yet sorry for the blonde at the same time "No don't move"Clarke ordered a little to late as she felt her chair shake from the movement. 

"Sorry" Lexa apologised looking to Clarke's tight grip on the rail, she edged her hand under Clarke's feeling the fierce grip from Clarke instead. "What scared you from heights?" Lexa questioned not understanding the fear at all, you go up you go down, simple.

"the drop" Clarke spoke behind gritted teeth as if all her face was clamped closed. "The fear of falling, it's not as bad if im strapped in i feel more secure" Clarke admitted "But this is just a railing, and it shake's if you move. So don't move" Clarke pleaded. 

"i Won't" Lexa promised looking around at the view that was slowly beginning to appear before her of the city she lived in. "Wow" Lexa smiled taking in all the light's lit up across the town, the festival beneath looked beautiful and busy. 

"amazing right" Clarke confirmed still with her eye's clamped close her hand gripping Lexa's tighter than ever. Lexa has to stop herself from saying 'Ouch' out loud. 

"It is" Lexa breath's turning back to Clarke once more. "Open your eyes" 

"I Can't"  Clarke whines wishing she could, but the fear would only get worse. 

The Ferris wheel peaks to the top and the view is incredible Lexa can't help but admire Clarke more, with her eyes closed Lexa could do as she pleased freely. She had so many things she wanted to say to Clarke, so many things she wanted to reveal yet every time she made eye contact with the blonde, she would forget, her words would crumple to something pathetic and her nerves would kick in making her feelings and emotions take a step down to scared to confirm or admit anything, but with Clarke's eyes closed her feelings were on the tip of her tongue ready to be revealed.

"Do you trust me Clarke" Lexa questioned squeezing Clarke's hand gently. 

"More than anything" Clarke breathed after a moment. 

"I won't let you fall" Lexa assured "I promise" Lexa tried watching Clarke's every movement "Open your eye's" She asked once more "Just look at me" 

"Lex" Clarke said nervously holding on to Lexa alot tighter than before as Lexa turned in her seat to face the blonde completely, slowly but gradually Clarke's eyes flickered open immediately starring in to green  

"I won't let you fall" Lexa assured again smiling as she stared in to blue. "Hi" Lexa breathed inches apart, noticing how Clarke wont look anywhere but her.

"I trust you" Clarke finally whispered. Pushing as much fear as she could down, but never letting up on the tight hold on Lexa. 

"Thank you for coming on with me" 

"You’re welcome" Clarke smiled taking in every speck of Green Lexa's eyes held like never before, the moonlight reflecting perfectly from them. "Your eyes are incredible" Clarke breathed not the first time. When she got lost in them it was hard not to  confess how deep and incredible they were. Only Lexa was doing the same thing, admiring the bright blue eyes that held fear. It was fascinating how they would change shade with her mood, they were indescribable, and some how made Lexa weaken every time. She had no idea what was happening but without a single fear or worry Lexa closed the gap between them. The second her lips touched Clarke her eyes clamped closed so tight she could physically feel every rush of emotion reacting with her  body, it took her breath away. She was floating.

"Im sorry" Lexa mumbled slowly pulling her lips apart barely separating at all. She felt Clarke release her tight grip letting go of her hand, not daring to open her eyes. 
Clarke pushed her cold hand across Lexa's cheek holding her jaw line with her fingers playing with the baby hairs on Lexa's neck 

"Dont apologise" Clarke husked pushing her lips back on Lexa's. "Never apologise" She mumbled between kisses. 

To lost to care how high she was, to lost to care how far she could fall. To caught up in feeling happy to feel any fear at all. As Lexa's tongue came in to contact with her's she whimpered pushing her own against Lexa's. This kiss was more than anything she had felt, not only did Lexa kiss her proving she wanted Clarke just as much as Clarke wanted her. The kiss was just mind blowing, it wasn't a kiss she had shared with any other not like Fin, nothing like Fin. 
This was a Lexa kiss, more exciting, more sensual, more... everything. Clarke Never wanted to stop whenever her lips found Lexa's. 

"You taste so good" Clarke whispered resting her forehead on Lexa's as she opened her eyes "Are your fingers tingling?" She questioned with a smile. The smile only growing as Lexa nodded nervously. As the ride came to a end the girls separated jumping of the ride with big smiles on their faces Lexa's a little more nervous than Clarke's. 

The Field fell pitch black, with some shrieks and laughter to be heard across the field, the sounds mutes and the effects stopped for a few seconds as Clarke turned to face Lexa with a big grin on her face. 

"Ready to be scared to death?" Clarke teased as the effects restarted. 

The lighting effects became more louder above them as the sky flashed with bright lights a evil laugher filling the speakers as a man crackled with the most evil tone Lexa had ever heard. Clarke giggled beside her watching Lexa becoming more confused. 

"Tis now the very witching time of night, when churchyard's yawn and hell itself break's out!" 

The sound of a deep voice echo's through the speakers before clashing the thunder louder together once more. Before the evil laugh fades from the speakers once more. Bringing the lights back to life at the festival. 

"It's maze time!" Raven grins jumping over to the two girls with their friends in tow "Who's ready to see some skidders"

"You’re disgusting" Octavia laughed Pulling Raven along. 

"Ready?" Clarke questioned turning to the nervous looking brunette "Ill protect you i promise" She winked pulling the brunette towards the entrance of the maze. 


'Come little children don't take me away. In to the land of enchantment. Come little children the time's come to play, here in the garden of shadow's"

As they stood waiting in the entrance area next to enter, hearing the screams beyond the doors Clarke couldn't help but laugh at the music that was playing in the waiting area. 

"Scared?" Clarke questioned Lexa as the group stood one behind the other hands gripping eachother's hips. 

"Not at all" Lexa assured beginning to sing the song quietly "Follow sweet children, ill follow the way, through all the pain and the sorrows" She hummed feeling Clarke squeeze her hip gently. 

"Fuck of can you sing, and have leg's like that!" Anya snapped standing straight releasing Octavia's hips 

"She can play guitar two" Clarke added with a small giggle

"Shut the front door!" Anya "Full of surprises woods. Nice voice by the way" She smiled placing her hands back on Raven's hips. "And you my lovely have incredible hips”

"Why have i got her behind me" Raven snapped standing up 

"So i can protect you.. duh" Anya grinned forcing Raven to turn back around before gripping her hips once more as the group of friends laughed. 

"Oh we’re going in!" Raven said excitedly but nervously as she stood at the front. 

The inside was nothing like the entrance, the music was crackling laughter, sounds of scream's thunder, and moans no doubt from monsters. As they took small steps forward the group all on extra caution as they press forward expecting something to jump out at them at any point, well all accept Lexa who had no idea what to expect, until someone grabs her leg from  a secret slot hole making her scream and jump like she never had before. The group all turning and laughing suddenly becoming more nervous as the nightmare begins. 

"Rahh!! A man in a zombie mask pops out from the side of the wall shouting and screaming in Raven's face as she laughs and buries her face trying not to look at him to much with a edge of fear despite knowing it's not real. Clarke becoming a giggling wreck as everything that poped out making her jump then giggle, while Lexa became a nervous wreck. 

"Fuck off" Anya snapped having a dead girl jump out at her with a knife. mimicking her word's after in a husky deep tone. 

As they followed around the maze with countless thing's jumping and out at them they came to the last room, the whole group knowing this was always the worst that gave you the buzz to fucking run for your life. All accept Lexa of course. The room was almost pitch black, spider webs hanging everywhere causing Costia to screech when she walked face first in to one turning in to a karate master while removing it. 

"Drag her to hell!!" a strong voice echoed seeing a man charge for the nervous group who all screamed mixed with laugher as Lexa' went wide eye'd as he tore her away from the group. She screamed naturally unsure of what was going on as she pushed back and ran towards the group becoming a nervous state in to Clarke, who was laughing uncontrollably. 

"It's ok" Clarke assured through giggles "It's not real" She assured holding Lexa tightly still unable to hide the amusement, she should properly have warned the brunette of what to expect. The lighting flashed once more showing another man in a gas mask and a chainsaw in the far corner, as the lights flashed once more the man started the chainsaw rattling it in the air as he began charging towards the group. 

"Run!" Clarke shouted with a smirk on her face at a frightened looking Lexa. The whole group turned running toward's the exit as the man charged for them all, as they broke through the door's the laughter started, except for Lexa never experiencing anything like that before in her life. 

"I Think it's safe to say Lexa was the one with the Skid's this time" Anya laughed as Clarke made her way over to the worried looking brunette 

"Are you ok?" Clarke questioned. 

"i didn't like that" Lexa explained shaking her head, looking back to the door as if it was hell itself. 

"I thought you were fine" Clarke teased gripping Lexa's hand with her own. 

"Bloody web" Costia spat as she interrupted the girls interaction "you ok?" Costia questioned more concerned than Clarke came across. 

"Yeh..i think ill miss the next one" Lexa admitted feeling Clarke's thumb sooth her hand, making her gaze shift to clarke for a second who had a soft smile on her lips. 

"Me too ill wait with you" 

"Pussy's!" Anya announced "Come on Porky!" Anya grinned dragging her cousin to the next maze backwards as Clarke was like a love sick puppy keeping her gaze on Lexa with a bite of the lip having a thought no other than 'Lexa was sexy when scared' 

"After party next bitches!!" Octavia shouted as they all headed in the next maze. 

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Costia's house was packed some costumes half removed some kept the same, the smell of alcohol was consuming the entire house as the music blasted through the house. Lexa had decided she didn't want to drink tonight as much as she had fun last time it wasn't her thing. Clarke however was already halfway looking over her cup at lexa from across the room with a flirty smile while engaged in conversation with Octavia and Raven. Her smile remained fixed on her lips while staring at the brunette not even attempting at hiding it, if anyone was to look at Clarke she looked love sick, as her eye lashes flickered over her cup, hiding the big smile that just would not stop. She didn't care Lexa shared a car with Costia, Lexa had kissed her only moments ago with her own freewill, Costia got a kiss in a cupboard that was forced. 

"You know you’re not exactly discreat right?" Octavia spoke once Raven left to get another drink. 

"What?" 

"You’re eye fucking Lara Croft over there" Octavia pointed taking a swig of her drink. "What's happening with you two?" 

"I don't know" Clarke shook her head with her love sick smile "She kissed me on the Ferris wheel"

"I know" Octavia nodded sucking her lips in her mouth 

"What do you mean you know?" Clarke snapped her head to Octavia. 

"Well.. we were all on the Ferris wheel aswel you know..i was stuck behind you" 

"What?" She questioned a little quickly not ready for people to know about her sexuality, if it had changed at all. Hell  of course it's changed! "Who were you sitting with?" 

"Bellamy"

"He.."

"Yes he saw. He won't say anything, although he was enjoying it a little to much" 

"Gross" both girls say in union. 

"So she a good kisser?" Octavia questioned. 

"Octavia, she is…amazing" Clarke blushed looking to the brunette from across the room once more who was deep in conversation with Roan, who happened to be leaning way to close to her than necessary with his arm against the wall Lexa is currently leaning on, making her smile drop slightly.

"Well look's like you have a bit of competition on your hands if you ask me" Octavia laughed. Roan was the typical gentleman, the womaniser of the group, what he wanted he normally got. "Go get her Griffin!" Octavia laughed hitting her on the back as her friend drove daggers in to Roan "Batman vs Wonder woman" Octavia smirked with a final push. 

"Where's she going?" Anya questioned approaching Octavia. 

"Fight to the death" Octavia laughed "Roan's hitting on Lexa by the looks of things" 

"Arh interesting" Anya smirked watching her baby cousin interupt Lexa and Roan "A jealous Griffin can not be tamed" Anya winked "Should be interesting" 

"What the hell is up with you and Raven?" Octavia questioned still watching Clarke and Lexa. 

"What? She's hot?" 

"You like her" 

"She's interesting" Anya admits. 

"Shouldnt you be in your underwear" Octavia questioned eyeing the girl still in her witch costume. 

"She will have to find me first" Anya grins "Now shush.. watch!"