Lost And Insecure!

Lost And Insecure!

Lexa was six years old when she started shielding herself from the world around her. The young brunette never expected all the pain and heart ache, her mother had passed away and she felt it deeply. Every heart string she owned was pulled at, every tear she had she shed, she tried clutching on to anything at such a young age, anything that would make her smile, anything that could make her feel warm and fuzzy like her mother always did when she would kiss her and tell her she loved her no matter what. Only when Lexa expected to see her father and give her a cuddle and a kiss she wasn't allowed, a older woman had told her that daddy had done a bad thing, what that was she didn't know at the time. So Lexa ended up in the system with many other children. She didn't stand out any more than the rest, they were all lost causes, some would describe them as troubled, some the unfortunate and some would treat them as if they were so much less of a person. A lot more pain and heart ache followed for many years so  her walls never faltered, they saved her humanity time and time again, they saved her from ending it all and throwing in the towel. 
Only now Lexa was vulnerable, more vulnerable than normal as her walls crumbled beneath her. She wasn't sure how long it had took them to fall and despite her fighting against it they fell quickly and willingly when Clarke Griffin entered her life. Her walls had finally failed her for a blonde, blue eyed girl. She would be lieing if she said she didn't feel it slowly happening the more time she spent with Clarke, and the more her mind seemed to consume of nothing more than them blue eyes. 
She had kissed Clarke and now she was running, trying desperately to shut her emotions off, as she watched the street lights pass her through the window. 

"Want to talk about it?" Costia questioned after a long silence. That's what Lexa loved about Costia, other than she was clearly her only friend, Costia accepted her anyway she chose to be. If she wanted silence then Costia would understand, she never pushed, she never judged she was just there always with a smile and gentle touch. 

"No" The brunette muttered still keeping her eyes transfixed on the passing street light.

"ok" Costia smiled turning the steering wheel.

"Thank you for picking me up" Lexa finally spoke sincerely. 

"You’re welcome." Costia smiled softly eyeing the brunette before turning back to watch the road. "You can call me any time" Costia reached over and gripped Lexa's hand in her own squeezing it gently. "Although, im a little worried" She admitted twitching her lip to the side "Did they upset you?" 

"No" Lexa admitted "They were actually really nice" Lexa fiddled with her Jean pocket watching her own actions as the nights events replayed in her head. "I like raven" Costia giggled a little. 

"Out of all the people you like, you choose the one person who is the loudest, most hyper and never shut's up" Costia giggled "You never fail to shock me" 

"Dont you like her?" 

"No. No i do, Raven is what you could call a legend, im Just surprised is all. You’re just the exact opposite, shy quiet and calm." Costia smirked. The silence fell amongst the girls once more and as always it was comfortable. Lexa always loved that it never felt awkward with Costia, after spending every single lunch break together for the past three weeks, along with sharing most classes together they had grew Closer together, well as close as Lexa's walls allowed her to.

"Here we are" Costia pulled the car to a stop looking at the griffin house hold before back to Lexa. "If you need anything just call ok?" She questioned squeezing Lexa hand once more. Lexa only nodded before Costia leaned forward and placed a kiss on the brunette's cheek. 

"See you on Monday?" Costia questioned as Lexa exited the car. 

"Monday" Lexa confirmed with a smile before waving her off. 

///


Clarke. Clarke. Clarke. 

Her mind was consumed and intoxicated by the blonde and the kiss they had briefly shared. She tossed and she turned beneath the bed sheets desperate to rid the memory but failing massively, as all she could feel on her lips were Clarke's. Lexa never opened up to anyone and she never planned on letting Clarke see even the glimmer of vulnerability in herself, but when Clarke had marched in to the toilets at school while Lexa was having a panic attack Lexa clung on to Clarke's every word as she guided her back to normal. Ever since then Clarke continued to knock Lexa's wall down brick by brick. 
Lexa let out a frustrated huff pushing her quilt back as she sat up straight staring at Clarke's bed, the bed she grew familiar with every night as she would lay beside Clarke clutching the blonde's top tightly in her fist as she slept peacefully beside her. 
Lexa decided to moved herself in to Clarke's bed instantly smelling the blonde's scent on the pillow. She flickered her eyes closed in a final bid to rid the thought of there earlier kiss but with no luck. Instead she felt like she was reliving the moment with Clarke's scent filling her nostrils, remembering the moment Clarke's lips touched her own and in that moment, she felt alive.
The walls vanished around her, and all she felt she needed was Clarke, but then Clarke's hand raised against her chest pushing there lips apart gently.
It was over.
Yet Lexa didn't want it to be over.
Not only was Clarke not here, but her wall was gone. 
Finally accepting that Sleep was not her friend right now, she grabbed her book from beneath her own pillow climbed back in to Clarke's bed and Started writing in her book, the book that held all her secrets, desires, dreams and nightmares. 

//

It had took Clarke over a hour and half to get home, Raven had refused her to be allowed to just walk home and demanded she Called a Taxi or stay the night as everyone was to drunk to drive. Clarke couldn't stay though, she just couldn't, her mind was racing a 100mph with everything she needed to do, everything she needed to say to Lexa so instead she waited it out for a taxi, and of course the taxi company would be busy when the blonde was in a rush.
All that time Clarke had time to think while waiting didn't really matter, because from the second she entered her home pushed the front door closed her mind went blank. For the third time tonight she had no idea what she was going to say or do. The longer the blonde stood outside the bedroom the more she got nervous, what did she really want to happen? What would it mean if she did what she desired to do. 

When Clarke finally pushed the bedroom door open she stood froze. Lexa was standing in her Pyjamas, she seemed to be pushing something back under her own pillow in the darkened room, completely oblivious to the blonde's presence. 

"I tried to find you" Clarke spoke softly careful not to startle the girl but failed as Lexa spun around instantly. Clarke smiled awkwardly but it quickly faded as she took nervous step's closer to Lexa. "Why did you leave?" Clarke questioned taking the final step leaving little space between them. 

"I was dizzy" Lexa lied. Everything about her screamed nervous, her eyes her smile the way she stood not so straight, the way her hand's clasped behind her back quickly to fiddle with the other hand's fingers. All she wanted to do was go to sleep, bury herself under the quilt cover and never discuss what happened again. 

"I would have come with you" Clarke admitted taking one more step closer leaving little if any space between them, Lexa stepped back almost at the same time, hitting her bedside cabinet behind her, her eye's now filling with fear with nowhere to move or escape there close proximity. 

"Clarke" Lexa breathed in warning now gripping at the cabinet behind her. Clarke was to close as she ignored Lexa's step back and moved that little bit closer. "Please" Lexa pleaded the blonde to hear her warning. Wanting, needing her to step back. Of course the blonde ignored searching Lexa's eyes while reaching her hand to Lexa's Gripping at it tightly. 

"We kissed"  Clarke's eye's continued to search Lexa's. She could see her nerves clearer than she ever had before but Clarke couldn't just leave it as it was, she left there almost kiss and nothing had come from it, all she had was the ache for Lexa's lips more than ever, and the continued questions that seemed to multiply after. 

"That wasn't suppose to happen" Lexa barely whispered as she ducked her head in embarrassment.

Lexa was grateful for the silence that followed, her finger's were tingling and her heartbeat felt like it was ready to jump out of her chest. She was more confused then she had ever been in her life, but she didn't dare ask the questions she had, she couldn't even look up and see Clarke, the girl who was holding her hand and still remained standing to close. She wanted to ask why she looked for her? Why she had came home? Why was she talking about something that could just be forgotten? She had apologised what more could she want? The biggest question of all that floated in Lexa's head was Why did she feel like it was so right but wrong at the same time? 

"Lexa" 

Lexa wished more than anything her wall's would just rebuild. The sound of Clarke's voice so soft and sweet, but the nerve's cut threw it like a knife so Lexa finally dared herself to look up, unable to deny the blonde comfort if needed. She had seen Clarke nervous around her a few time's but she was always normally so confident and happy so when Her name left Clarke's mouth with a sharp shaky edge she felt the pull at her chest.

"Why didn't you push me away?" Clarke questioned with shaky word's her eye's looking deep in to green. Lexa was caught of guard not sure how to answer a question that would not stand in her corner. Clarke had given her every opportunity to stop leaning in and capturing her lip's Lexa knew this, yet she didn't stop her, she didn't want to stop her. The closer Clarke got to her lip's the more her mind started going blank and all she could see Was Clarke's lips. 
Lexa remained quiet while staring at Clarke, she could see the blonde pleading for her to answer but the longer Lexa left it Clarke's hope faded. The blonde released Lexa's hand and Lexa couldn't help but feel disappointed, she wanted to grab Clarke's hand once more and just stand there in silence looking at one another.  Only when Clarke moved closer placing her hand on Lexa's cheek instead Green searched Blue and Lexa knew Clarke wasn't done yet. 

"Push me away" Clarke dared. The blonde's chest was already breathing rapidly as she Held Lexa's face in her palm "Push me away" She repeated flickering her eye's to Lexa's lips before fixating them back on Green. Lexa's eye's copied as she cursed herself for not being strong enough, for losing the battle with her own body as her eye's slowly trailed the blonde's lip's in front of her. Clarke leaned in much like the time before, slowly and painfully. Her eye's flickering to Lexa's and back to her lip's repeatedly, she could Feel lexa's breath and the warmth radiating from her body. 

"Stop me kissing you" Clarke whispered unable to move her eye's from Lexa's delicate plump lip's. Clarke knew Lexa wasn't a talker, she knew she was nervous and she knew her question's were being left unanswered, so instead she choose to use action, giving Lexa every opportunity to stop her as she slowly approached her lip's, hoping she wouldn't. 

She didn't.  

Clarke pressed her lip's to Lexa's her eyes closing naturally as her stomach flipped over and over again a feeling Clarke thought was incredible. When Lexa's lips began moving against Clarke's, the blonde was unable to suppress the moan that erupted threw her throat, her body was on fire and the ache for more intensified. She needed more. Clarke resisted every urge in her body to fasten the kiss, to turn it more heated and press harder in to Lexa's body not wanting to ruin it. There lips moved in a slow sync against one another with Clarke pressing her body more in to Lexa's wanting to keep the kiss soft and sweet. When Lexa released the cutest soft moan from her lip's Clarke broke the kiss immediately resting her forehead on Lexa's. She wanted nothing more than to kiss the girl again after hearing such noise escape the brunette, but it was the reason she had to part as the sound spoke to her body the second she heard it. Clarke flickered her eyes open catching soft curious green looking back.

"Hi" she whispered allowing the smile to spread across her lips. 

"Hi" Lexa whispered back. The silence fell amongst the girl's none sure what to say or how to say it instead they just gazed at one another for a little while Lexa more nervous, while Clarke was unable to remove the wide smile on her lip's while biting on her. She had her answer even if no word's were spoken between them, Lexa never stopped her kissing her for the second time. 

"We should sleep" Clarke finally spoke after a long time just looking at one another Lexa's back still against the cupboard and Clarke still pressed up against the brunette. "Come on" Clarke pulled over to her bed and Lexa allowed her to, like every other night Lexa slept with Clarke clutching her top tightly as Clarke snaked her arm protectively over her. 

There was so many unspoken word's between them, so much that needed to be spoke about, but for now Clarke didn't care, Lexa was in her bed clutching her top while falling asleep, and they had now shared two kisses in one night, one of which Clarke asked Lexa to stop her, and didn't. 
The blonde fell asleep with a smile on her face that night, she pushed the questions to the back of her head, the if's and the what's and the why's and focused just on what had happened instead. 

///

When morning came Clarke didn't no what made her get out of bed so quick, was it the whiff of bacon she got as she woke, or the fact that Lexa was no longer beside her sleeping peacefully as she normally would be. She got her answer when she made her way downstairs quickly entering the kitchen to see Lexa and Jake cooking bacon Roll's.

"Morning kido" Jake grinned looking over his shoulder as Lexa did the same. Feeling her heart flutter once more when there eye's met. 

"Morning" She smiled finally looking up to her dad before making her way over to the fridge. 

"Im not sure i can do this long distance relationship thing any more" Clarke breathed wrapping her arm around the fridge. "Fridge. Your coming with me to my room" Clarke stated while arm's tightening as if trying to lift the fridge giving up rather quickly. "On Second thought's Dad can make me bacon" She grinned placing her bum on the kitchen stall with pleading eye's.

"Did you just talk to the fridge?" Lexa questioned curiously furrowing her brows. Jake laughed tossing the bacon over. 

"i did" Clarke smiled "we have a long distance relationship" 

"Meaning Clarke is to lazy to walk downstairs to get food!" Jake piped up rolling his eye's at his daughter. "She asked me and abby to put a fridge in her room once as it would be easier" Jake laughed remembering the conversation, ending in a very strict no. Lexa no released a small giggle, and Clarke's heart warmed. Despite the unspoken word's and the not knowing  what's now going on between them, she couldn't help but feel she could get use to waking up to this, with Lexa cooking breakfast and smiling at Clarke's silly story's. 

"Well excuse me for not wanting to catch my parent's eating each other's face off when i decide i'm hungry threw the night" 

"Well someone shouldn't be eating through the night" Jake added smirking at his daughter's comment 

"There is a light in the fridge for a reason my friend" Clarke stated matter of factly, never taking her eye's of Lexa as she sat next to her at the breakfast table. 

"Do you want this bacon or not?" Jake teased turning around trying to suppress his grin. "Or should i put it in the bin?" 

"No. No. No. Food" Clarke ordered instantly shutting up, but knowing she had got the better of her dad with a smug smile. 

She watched her father move around the kitchen Cleaning up, all while keeping a careful eye on Lexa beside her. She wanted to reach out and touch her, to hold her hand or kiss her lip's but she couldn't while her dad was in here. She wasn't entirely sure what this meant for the two girl's or if it would change thing's, but it still didn't change the fact that Clarke desperately wanted to Lean in and place her lips on Lexa's the whole time she was eating. 

"Right im off to Get changed!" Jake announced patting his hand's dry on the back of his Jean's "Oh and Clarke, Your cousin will be staying with us for the week" 

"What?" Clarke questioned snapping her head in her father's direction "She is staying here?!" 

"She is" Jake laughed "Try to keep her out of trouble" He pleaded thinking about his naughty niece. 

"When's she coming?" Clarke questioned more excitedly. 

"Should be here by tonight" Jake replied leaving the kitchen. 

"Your cousin?" Lexa questioned with her soft soothing voice. 

"Anya" Clarke smiled "I am going to apologise for her now" Clarke laughed "She is a little...forward" 

"Forward?" 

"A little like raven, Only older and..well..a big of a bad ass and a crazy flirt!" 

"Oh" Lexa tried not to show the nervousness she was feeling, she had only just gotten use to the griffin's and just about managed to be able to be comfortable around them, and now there was the hole kissing Clarke that had made her more nervous than before, she wasn't sure if she could come with another Griffin in the house, one of which who would be like raven, the exact opposite to Lexa. 

"Hey" Clarke smiled placing her hand on Lexa's and squeezing it gently. "Morning" Clarke whispered turning around in her seat 

"Morning" Lexa repeated her body relaxing a little more. 

"i Was hoping we could spend the day together?" Clarke questioned. "Ii don't know, we could go pick our Halloween costume's? As it's quickly approaching" Clarke questioned more nervously biting on her lip. 

"i Dont really like Halloween" Lexa admitted. 

"Well maybe we can change that? Our school allows us to wear our costumes for the day, and they do a small carnival with mazes and stuff, it will be fun" The blonde eye'd the brunette for a while fiddling with her fingers with her own as if Clarke was catching on to Lexa's little habit herself.

"How about you can pick my costume and i pick yours?" Clarke questioned hoping Lexa would agree. 

"Ok" Lexa said nervously biting her inner lip.


////


Despite the urge to kiss Lexa a number of times that morning, she never did. They didn't speak of the events that had happened the night before, but Clarke certainly wasn't going to let it just be pushed under the rug and forgot about. She understood Lexa was more vulnerable than most and she certainly didn't want to scare her, push her or make her feel uncomfortable, so instead she planned the day filled with nothing but Lexa, giving them the time to get to no one another with there unspoken words hanging over them. 

"So do you get it?" Clarke questioned starting the engine. 

"I think so? guess the name of the singer first and you get  to ask a question?" 

"Exactly it's simple" 

Clarke knew Lexa wouldn't just open up and share everything about herself so instead she had thought of a game, when the radio came on and the song would change song to song you had to guess the name of the Artist before the other to gain a point, with each point you win a question. 

"Ok ready?" Clarke questioned turning the radio on as she set on her journey. Lexa nodded feeling a smile creep across her face, she wasn't sure if it was the fact she knew she would win this game, with her obsession with music and her loving to sing, or that she felt completely comfortable around Clarke even after kissing her, Clarke wasn't horrible she didn't shout at her, she wasn't disgusted and she treated her no different. If anything Clarke's eye's were softer then before.

"Taylor swift" Lexa quickly blurted out beating Clarke by second's, the smirk that grew on Lexa's face was undeniable and Clarke loved it. 

"Just" Clarke grinned "What's your question?" 

"what's your favourite holiday?" Lexa questioned curiously. 

"That's easy, Christmas. I love the feeling, the snow, the cold air, just everything when your sitting around the fire place with your family all in one house, it's just... i don't know..comforting" Clarke admitted smiling as Taylor swift played through the speakers both patiently waiting on the next song.  "What's yours?" 

"You haven't earned a question" Lexa teased Leaning her head against the car window

"ouch" Clarke laughed "Fair play" the silence fell amongst them for a moment until the song changed. 

"Black eyed pea's" Lexa blurted out quickly from just hearing the instruments.

"Really!" Clarke huffed. “They didn’t even say anything”

With a cocky smirk Lexa continued to ask her next question “what do you want to do when you leave school?” 

"i've got my heart set on Polis, medical school" 

"You want to be a doctor like your mum?" 

"I do" Clarke smiled "I go to the hospital sometimes and i see all the cancer patient's. There are so many children, they don't deserve such a thing" Clarke paused for a moment not wanting to let her mind get distracted and allow the pain to seep threw. "I'ts nice just to play with them and make them smile" Clarke admitted.

"That's sweet" Lexa said softly with the most sincere smile "I think that's a incredible thing to do" 

"It is" Clarke admitted. "The script" Clarke quickly added hearing the change of song. 

"That wasn't fair" 

"hey, not my fault you’re to slow" Clarke laughed. "What's your favourite holiday?" 

"I don't really have one" Lexa admitted

"Everyone has one" 

"I don't" 

"Why?" Clarke questioned "Bonfire night? Halloween? Christmas? Birthday? New year?" Clarke spoke as if reminding there was so many, But the brunette just shook her head.

"I've never watched fire works" Lexa admitted shyly. "I’ve never really celebrated any" 

"What?" Clarke questioned confused. "Never?"

"When i was Younger i did" Lexa admitted innocently "but when i.." Lexa began to stutter her words becoming nervous at speaking of her past. She had never spoke about it with any one before, no one other than her therapist that she use to have that is. 
She felt a soft hand cover her own and squeeze it gently. 

"You don't have to tell me" Clarke said softly while gripping Lexa's hand even tighter for reassurance. 

"I use to celebrate them all with my mum, then when she passed away i was in the system, and ever since.. i’ve just been lost" Lexa admitted. 

Clarke wanted to speak, she wanted to tell lexa that she was sorry to hear of her mum, along with wanting to dig deeper and learn everything about Lexa, but she let the silence linger in the car after that. Lexa had struggled with just saying that, so instead she allowed Lexa to reveal all in her own time when ever she would be ready, if she would ever be ready. 

///

Lexa had never experienced something quite like this, the way Clarke  smiled and nudge her side when they were engrossed in a conversation, the way Clarke would grip her hand pulling her from shop to shop as they tried every different outfit on. The brunette never had friends she never had any money either so shopping and eating lunch in a shopping mall was something completely new to her. The way the cashier would smile at you asking how your day is after buying something from their shops, the way shoppers would rush around and rush to the queue before they became to long. Everything about shopping made Lexa smile. A drunk man sitting on a chair trying to get up and move had the girls giggling as they passed along with many others. She heard countless people getting annoyed with people they were with, demanding them just to try it on, Kids throwing tantrums while their parents walk of in-front of them clearly embarrassed by there behaviour in public. This was new territory and Lexa loved every second of it, wanting to experience it all.

"i can't wear this Clarke" Lexa tried covering herself in front of the mirror, even if she was safely  hidden behind the curtain of the changing room. "I Look ridiculous"

"i doubt that" Clarke smiled biting on her lip waiting on Lexa to show her “Let me see"

"I think i'll just get changed" Lexa stated beginning to reach for her normal clothes.

"Don't you dare" Clarke ordered "I’ve let you choose mine so im choosing yours. Let's see" Clarke demanded with a playful tone. They fell silent for a moment as Clarke stood facing the curtain Lexa was behind and like clock work Lexa pulled the curtain back and stepped out.

Clarke's eyes trailed extremely slow down Lexa's body, the smile dropping from her lips and her eyes becoming heavy on the sight infront of her. 

"Wow" Clarke breathed biting on her own lip. She cursed her terrible vocabulary when Lexa was around only able to form terrible words or none at all. 

"I look silly." She stated shyly wrapping her arms around her stomach and chest. 

"Lexa." Clarke breathed stepping closer sliding her fingers between Lexa's, pulling her arms away stopping her from covering up. "You look.. Incredible." Clarke admitted raking her eyes over the brunette once more "I have never seen anyone suit Lara Croft quite like you" Clarke's eyes were unable to stop them self trailing once more to the shorts clinging to Lexa's legs, Straps pulled tightly around Her thighs with gun's slotted in the holder's. Complimented by Lexa's combat boot's and a black vest clinging to her chest. 

"you look incredible" Clarke whispered capturing green with her blue. Releasing a unsteady breath at the sight in front of her. All the urge's Clarke had stopped herself from doing all day, had suddenly felt impossible allowing her eyes to flicker to the lips she desperately wanted to capture right now. 

"I really want to kiss you" Clarke whispered still holding Lexa's hands. Lexa never said a word but from the look in her eyes. She was going to let her. Clarke leaned in ready to capture the brunette's lips with her own. 

"Lexa!" A Voice shouted causing the girls to spring apart "is that you?" The girl said getting closer eyeing Lexa's outfit up. 

"Costia" Lexa smiled at the brunette who was carrying lots of bags.

"I Thought it was you!" She announced placing her bags on the ground "Well look at you" She grinned moving closer to Lexa as Clarke placed her bum on the chair near them feeling her heart drop as Costia gripped Lexa's hand with her own pulling at it while looking at her in amazement. 

"You look amazing" Costia admitted with the most genuine smile on her face.

"Thanks” Lexa smiled. 

Clarke couldn't help but notice how lexa wasn't nervous around Costia, how she took her compliments, held her hand willingly and didn't shrink under Costia's eye. The blonde was unable to stop the burning feeling in her chest as she sat in silence, watching lexa smile and laugh with costia engrossed in a conversation Clarke stopped listening to, her jealousy was raging through her body with every smile, every laugh, every touch. She knew she had no right. 

"i've updated my ipod" Costia laughed "Just for you!" 

"About time" Lexa teased "Your song's were terrible" 

"were not" she objected 

"Um. Anyway. Should we get going?" Clarke questioned her tone cold and distant as she stood up to interrupt the girls feeling as if her day had been ruined by Costia, even thought the brunette hadn't really done anything wrong. 

"Um. Yes. Ok." Lexa replied a little confused at the cold tone "See you at school" Lexa smiled 

//

Clarke couldn't work out why she was jealous, or why she even felt like she had the right to be. Lexa was not her possession nor did she want her to be, but Clarke hated seeing Costia around Lexa, when ever she seen them together they always seemed carefree and relaxed, Lexa seemed like she got Lost with Costia, and she tried to ignore the jealousy she held even more since last night when Lexa had chose to ring costia, she had chose costia to help her escape Clarke.

"Are you ok?" Lexa questioned more nervously entering the house. The drive home had been quiet and Lexa was baffled, she had no idea what had caused Clarke to change her mood or if she had done something wrong. 

"Fine" Clarke plastered a fake smile on her face making her way up the stairs closely followed by Lexa. 

"Have i done something wrong?" Lexa questioned entering their bedroom. 

The second the door shut behind them Clarke spun around pushing her lips to Lexa's until her back softly collided with the back of the door. The kiss caught Lexa by surprise not expecting it in the slightest causing her to push Clarke back Quickly finding Clarke's blue eyes. Clarke stepped forward once more taking Lexa's lips in her own and this time Lexa allowed it feeling the blondes lips move against hers more aggressively to start with, before slowing it down in to a more passionate kiss. Clarke's hand cupped Lexa's cheek in her palm as she released a moan brushing her tongue against Lexa's lips asking for entrance. 
Lexa granted access Pushing her tongue back against Clarke's. Before the kiss could get two heated their lips parted. 

"im jealous" Clarke hummed "im sorry, i have no right to be" Clarke admitted pulling away from Lexa completely. " I need some air" Clarke pulled the door open and quickly disappeared down the stairs leaving Lexa alone.

Lexa was struggling to wrap her head around the events within the last 24hrs one minute her and Clarke were fine, the next they was kissing in a bathroom, then Clarke had come home after her and kissed her again, and then she nearly kissed her in the shop. Lexa expected Clarke to wake up and just erase the event's from her memory and forget all about Little old Lexa. But she hadn't, infact she had tried kissing her again. Lexa felt overwhelmed as she sank in to her bed trying to understand what the hell was going on.
Did this mean Clarke liked her? She was Jealous?

//

Clarke rushed downstairs needing to talk to someone, anyone about this deciding on going to the Blake's she needed to speak to Octavia. She pulled the front door open immedially pausing in her footsteps

"Anya!" She grinned 

"What's up squirt!" She smirked stepping in the house


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