Chapter twenty-six
Did I regret leaving Kelley?
“I mean in some parts yes and other parts no.”
“What do you mean about part yes and part no?” she asked quizfully.
“I don’t regret leaving her because I was finally doing something that I wanted to do with my life. But at the same time I regret leaving her so much because of what she turned into.”
“What did she turn into?”
I huffed, “you already know what happened.”
She looked at me with a pointed eye. “I know, but tell me again just in case I missed something the first time.”
I looked at her for a moment and just sighed and began talking again. “She turned herself into this destructive person. She practically turned into an alcoholic, and ended up with an eating disorder because of ME. She ended up self-harming herself and now has scars on her body because she couldn’t cope with me being gone. She did all those things because of me.”
I looked up and saw her writing something on her notepad and then she focused her eyes on mine. “One last question. Did anyone know what she was doing to herself before you found out?”
I sighed and nodded my head. “The veterans of the team all noticed that she had cut back on eating and was working herself hundred times harder in practice then she did before. They noticed that she would wear long sleeve shirts a lot and was losing a little weight. It was the captain at the time who finally saw the little red cuts running her along her wrist as fist pumped.”
She nodded her head and continued writing in that damn notepad.
“Thank you for sharing with me today Ashlyn. I think next Wednesday at the same time will be good?”
I nodded my head and gave her a handshake before leaving the office and getting into the car.
I drove back to the hotel and just sat into the parking lot for a few minutes collecting my thoughts. I had just literally spilled my guts to a lady I barely knew and was willing to actually go back?
I walked into the hotel and saw Becky sitting in the lounge like I had saw her a few days prior. “Hey Becky,” I said as I sat across from her.
“Hey,” she said. “How did everything go?”
I half smiled at her question. “It actually kinda went okay. She ended up getting some stuff out of me that I didn’t even know was buried inside of me.”
She looked at me and nodded. “That’s good, and yeah they have like this weird magical power that can get most people to tell them anything.”
“Yeah I am actually going back next week.”
Becky took a sip of her coffee, and then smiled at me. “I am glad you have found someone that you can talk to about everything that is and has gone on. Do you think Kelley could maybe benefit from talking to someone about you being gone, and everything?”
I thought for a minute. “Maybe she would Becky. It would probably take more convincing than just me. But I will talk to her and see.”
I stood up from my spot and smiled at Becky. “ I’ll see you at dinner?”
She nodded her head, and decided that I should go up to Christie’s and Carli’s room before I go and talk to kelley.
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I got up to their door and knocked cautiously not knowing if they were doing something.
A few seconds later Christie opened up the door with a smile. “Hey Ashlyn come on in.”
She opened the door all the way and let me in. I spotted a chair at the end of the room and decided to make myself comfortable in it.
Christie came and gave me a glass of water and then sat down on her bed. “How was everything today?”
I laughed seeing her being all motherly like she always was. “It was actually good to be able to talk to someone who hasn’t known me for years, but yet can be able to get me to say something I thought I would never say.
Carli nodded her head. “That’s good that you are able to talk to someone very honestly, but I know you aren’t just here to gossip about your therapy session. What’s up?”
Damn maybe Carli did know me better than I thought. “Becky and I were talking about me going to therapy and she was like, Do you think Kelley would ever go? And it really had me thinking sooo I came here.
I saw both of them kind of processing it but kind of nodding their heads. It was Carli who spoke up first.”So you want our advice to see if you should talk to Kelley into going to therapy?”
“And Bingo was his name-o”
Christie tried to stiffen her laugh at my childish antics, while Carli had a nice eye roll going.
“I think her seeing someone would probably help her in the long run.” Christie started out. “With everything that she has done to her body and all the emotional stuff that happened. She needs someone that she can vent to that isn’t one of us. There is things that I feel like the refuses to tell us because of fear of judgment.”
“So you guys think I should talk to her and try and convince her that she would benefit from going to a therapist?”
“And Bingo was his name-o” Carli said mocking me.
“Well thanks for the advice,” I said chuckling.
I walked out the door towards mine and Kelley’s just hoping this conversation would go better in real life than it was currently going down in my head.