Chapter twenty-seven
I walked to the room and saw Kelley sitting on the bed just lightly scrolling through her phone. the way she just looks makes me amazed everyday. she doesn't even have to try to be as beautiful as she is, and sometimes I just wish she would believe me.
I walked towards the bed and lightly knocked on the wall to grab her attention. she looked up from the phone and smiled when she saw it was me.
"Hey Kel," I said.
"Hey Ashlyn," she said putting down her phone.
I slowly walked towards her still trying to figure out what exactly what, and how I was going to approach this situation.
I found a chair right by the bed and decided to sit. we both sat there for a minute before I decided that it was now or never.
"Hey Kelley can I ask you something?" I asked a little nervous
"Sure." She said knowing something what was going on.
"Do you know how I went to therapy?" I started.
"yeah?.."
"Well she got me thinking about somethings..." I took a deep breath before I decided to go in head first. " I came back from my session and ran into Becky and me and her talked a little bit, and she thought maybe you could maybe actually benefit if you went to therapy."
I knew she was fixing to say something, so I put my hand up really quick. "Let me finish please"
she nodded her head and I decided to continue. " It had me thinking. Would you actually benefit from going? Would you even go? Would I have to drag you there? I had all these things in my mind so I went to a second and third opinion named Carli and Christie. Even though Carli really didn't give a opinion Christie thought maybe you could use it. You have been through so much the last couple of months, and I just want to make sure that you are okay."
The look Kelley had on her face was pissed. She didn't look happy at all.
"YOU TALKED TO OUR FRIENDS ABOUT MY PROBLEMS?!" She yelled at me.
"That's low Ashlyn. I thought you were better than that. You have no right to go friend to friend and talk to them about what could or could not be beneficial for me."
I looked at her in the eyes. " I wasn't the one that brought it up in the first place Kelley that was Becky. So if you want to be mad at someone for talking about your mental health be mad at Becky. I went to Carli and Christie because they have been helping me and you since I got back, and they know things about us that I didn't think they would know.
All she did was huff in annoyance.
"Okay fine Kelley just sit there and huff. I just want you to be okay and be happy. Sometimes I just think you act happy because you want me to be happy." I said looking at her.
"You are right," she said. "I do act fucking happy sometimes FOR YOU. Sometimes I want to go back to eating nothing and drinking my way through life, but I don't! I don't do it because I know how bad I hurt you in the first place! I saw how fucking miserable you were those first couple of months home because I was a fucking wreck."
She looked at me with tears and anger in her eyes. "But I do not want to go to the fucking therapist to talk about everything in my damn life. It may help you, but there is no way in hell I'm gonna do it."
With that she was out of the door, and I was left thinking about what I just did...