Chapter twenty-one
I sent a group chat to the people I needed to talk to. Carli, Abby, Christie, Alyssa, and Jill.
Ashlyn ~ can we meet in Jill's room when we get back. I need to talk.
As I sent that I prepared what was I going to say to them.
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As we got back to the hotel I stayed backed and let everyone go first. Kelley walked over to me and put her hand on my chest.
"You coming up to the room babe?"
"yeah I am in a little bit. Jill, and Carli want me to go up and talk to them for a little bit." I told her as I wrapped my arms around her waist.
"Okay babe. I just want to make sure your okay from what all has happened night."
"I'm fine baby I promise. I'll be up there in a little bit. Can you just please take Cujo to the room?" I said as I kissed her cheek.
"yes." she said as she grabbed Cujo and started walking to the room.
I waited for the next elevator and made my way to the 4th floor. As I got to the room before I could knock Abby had the door open, and I was walking in.
I sat on the bed closet to the window and the farthest from Alyssa. She and Jill are the only two people in the room that doesn't know what happened.
Abby started it out. "What happened tonight after I grabbed you?"
I couldn't stand looking at Alyssa she deserved to know the whole story, but I was scared to tell her.
"It was a flash back.. When you grabbed me like that it reminded me of how the man held me as the other man punched me."
"wait what men?" Alyssa asked confused.
I looked over at Christie who gave me a reassuring nod. "You and Jill are the only people in this room who don't know what happened to me over there."
Alyssa looked like as though she had been punched, and for some reason Jill looked over at me like she understood.
"What happened over there, and why am I one of the only people who don't know?" Alyssa asked in the quietest voice.
I walked over to her and sat down next to her, and slowly started to speak. "because I was scared to tell you. You were already going through so much, and I didn't want to add to it."
I breathed and started to tell the story. "I was captured for 6 months over there. I was captured because I has been looking for these men's bombs. While I was captured, they would beat me, and torture me, and even rape me, and when I was finally found I got sent to medical and thats How I was sent back 3 months early.."
I saw her face of pure shock. I got her to lay down so I could slowly smooth out her hair. "What happened tonight scared me."
Jill looked at wanting to here my side. "What exactly happened tonight Ashlyn?"
I took a breath. "I Honeslty don't know. I saw this guy. I mean i would say man, but he is far from one. Besides the point he was stroking Kelley's face and she looked uncomfortable, and well I am bad at social movements so I asked Cap for a second opinion. She told me she did look uncomfortable, and so I went to go help her. I asked how she was doing, the guy answered, and then he stroked her face again. I told him I was coming to ask if she wanted to dance. He ended up calling me a Dyke and her a whore, and I told him there was no need for that. I took Kelley's hand and started walking towards the table. He then screamed she probably just haven't had enough dick in her Mouth. I pushed Kelley towards the table and turned around and yelled there was no need for that, and as I went to go walk away he turned me around and punched me in the face, and said I'm going to have a girl yell at me. I ended up telling him he wasn't going to like it either when a girl beats his ass. That's when he got caught off guard I got a good right hook on him. He fell and then all I saw was red, until Abby pulled me off. When she pulled me off that is when I had the flashback.."
Jill looked at me with wonder in her eyes, but it was Carli that spoke up. "You need to talk to someone Ashlyn. You need to talk to a professional."
All I could do was laugh. "I'm fine, all it is, is some flashbacks."
She looked at me serious. "You have them in your sleep. I saw how terrified you looked. That first night. I almost broke down. Seeing you so hurt, and me not being able to do anything was heart wrenching."
Next it was Christie who spoke up. "How many times do you have these nightmares and wake up a night?"
"mostly if I have one I won't go back to sleep the rest of the night. If I'm at Kelley's house I will walk down to the beach and just sit there and watch the sun go up."
"You know that isn't healthly right?" she said looking at me.
I looked down defeated. "Maybe I do need to talk to someone..."
Jill came up to me and squated to meet me eye to eye. "I can call one of my friends who is a therapist for things like this. She can talk to you and help you."
I didn't realize I was crying until Alyssa whipped a tear from my face. "Thank you, all of you."
"Anytime shark girl," Abby said. "No why don't you go to your room, talk to Kelley and get to sleep. We still got practice in the morning."
All I could do was roll my eyes. "Okay."
I got up and made my way to the door, to tell Kelley what I was planning on doing.