An emotional rollercoaster
Chapter 4
Clarke was having a great time- She was standing in the living room talking to Wells while they watched the very intense game of beer pong going on in front of them.
The two teams had been going at it for at least 20 minutes. At first, the cousins had powered through their turns, sinking the balls right into raven and Bellamy’s cups effortlessly- leaving them now with only one to go. On the other side Bellamy and raven had held their own and were left with the last 2 cups.
Clarke had watched as Lexa’s perfect aim wandered more and more with each beer she’s had to chug, to the point where her throws were now ending up in people’s faces. Talk about a lightweight.
Anya on the other hand, having drank the same amount as Lexa, seemed unaffected and was as determined as she’d been at the start of the game. Her shots were landing centimeters away from the cup each time, to the point where every turn she got, all the people surrounding them would shut up and watch in anticipation of her victory only to be disappointed seconds later. It was frustrating the older girl and the fact that Raven was taunting her every chance she got wasn’t helping.
“It’d be better if you just gave up right now. It would save you the embarrassment” the dark haired girl teased.
“Raven… you do realize we still have more cups than you do right?” Anya threw back at her, annoyed.
“THAT only means you still have more to drink” the girl replied proudly.
“That doesn’t really make sense ray” Bellamy laughed from beside her.
“Whatever, give me that ball- bblake” the girl slurred on her words- it seemed that the alcohol was starting to take its toll. She reached for the small ball from his hand and mindlessly threw it in the direction of the 2 cups- to everyone’s surprise, including Raven’s, the ball landed swiftly into the right cup and everyone cheered.
Anya looked even more annoyed than she’d been which Clarke didn’t think was possible. However looking at Lexa the blonde couldn’t help the smile that came to her face as she saw the brunette comically shaking her head in despair while everyone around her chanted “chug chug chug”
“Ugh just do it it’s not that bad” Anya glared at her.
“I hate you so much” Lexa replied dramatically as she took the beer and downed it. “Oh god I’m gonna throw up”
“It’s almost over just focus Lex- come on, I’ll owe you forever” her cousin pleaded.
Lexa just glared at her and took the ball. She knew she had to sink it in before raven got lucky again but those beers were really affecting her to the point where her vision was getting blurry. Suddenly she remembered a rule they’d once created- it was a night very similar to this one when jasper got too drunk and Monty had suggested the idea. Every team got one chance to have someone from the outside replace them for a throw. Lexa was never one to back down from a challenge but she knew this was not gonna end well unless she did this but it had to be someone good enough.
She looked around and soon realized that all the people she’d normally consider were even more drunk than she was. Fuck. All of a sudden she remembered a certain blonde she’d spent the better part of the night with, she and her friend were the only ones who hadn’t had anything to drink… Well here goes nothing.
“I’m giving up my turn” Lexa declared.
“What you caa- can’tt doo tthat” raven protested, mixing up her words.
“She can actually” Monty’s voice sounded off from the kitchen.
“What the hell Lex. None of those drunken idiots can do this” Anya snickered.
Lexa ignored her and looked at the blonde who was also staring at her, a confused look on her face. As soon as their eyes met Lexa gave her what looked to be an attempt at a puppy dog face and Clarke knew what the brunette wanted. Shit.
She started shaking her head but apparently her feet had a mind of their own and she made her way to Lexa’s side.
“Lexa… I’ve literally never played this before” she pleaded. She really wanted to help her out but the chances of her actually being able to do this were, well she didn’t really know CONSIDERING SHE’D NEVER TRIED THIS BEFORE.
“Clarke it’s easy I swear just focus and do it” she said eagerly and turned to everyone, “everyone, this is Clarke she’s gonna take my turn” she declared proudly.
Clarke looked around- Anya was shaking her head, raven was looking at her menacingly and Bellamy had a huge sloppy grin on his face. Well here goes nothing.
She took the ball, aimed it at the last cup and looked at Lexa’s encouraging face one last time before throwing it.
Next thing she knew, her feet where no longer on the ground as a very happy and drunk Lexa wrapped her up in a tight hug and twirled her around . Everyone was cheering, including Bellamy who was moving his arms up and down in a praising manner. Raven on the other hand looked like she was ready to kill a bitch. Clarke also thinks she heard Anya say “blondie’s a keeper” as she patted Lexa on the back, which she ignored for the time being.
In retrospect, a simple game of beer pong should not elicit such reaction especially after their big achievement that afternoon; however Clarke knew that everyone here was drunk so she just went along with it. She honestly didn’t know how she’d gotten that ball in but she was happy she did-- Being enveloped in the arms of a very cheery Lexa woods was only adding to that happiness Clarke noted, surprising herself.
“Lap dance time” Octavia announced eagerly setting two chairs near them- honestly it was kind of weird how excited the girl was, considering one of the participants is her brother.
And just like that Lexa was setting Clarke down and the look on her face would have worried Clarke had she not known the reason behind it.
Sure Lexa won, that meant she wouldn’t have to embarrass herself in front of everyone with her ‘dancing skills’, however she hadn’t realized that it also meant that Bellamy’s ass was probably going to be positioned somewhere really close to her face in a couple of minutes- and that thought alone made her want to puke- also, the alcohol wasn’t helping.
“I’m sorry you have to see this” Lexa addressed Clarke looking at her apologetically.
The blonde couldn’t help but smile at her adorable face “I’m not” she winked and urged her on to one of the chairs laughing. The other was already occupied by Anya who was smirking up at a very annoyed raven.
“Dazzle me Reyes” the older girl smirked at her.
“I’m not sure you’re ready for this woods.” Raven gestured to her body.
“Guys I think Lexa is having a seizure” Bellamy approached them looking at Lexa a bit worriedly.
Both girls turned to look at the brunette, “god you are so fucking dramatic, just relax Bellamy won’t bite”
“Oh come on Lex, you know you want this” the boy said sarcastically.
Lexa made a gagging sound “I would literally rather eat my own hand”
“You’re breaking my heart” the charming boy clutched his chest dramatically. She glared.
Bellamy and Lexa had always had a really interesting relationship, growing up together, everyone always commented on how they would end up together because they ‘get along so well’ and look ‘cute’ together, and at first it would annoy both of them because, well, for Lexa the idea of Bellamy and her in any sort of romantic way always repulsed her and for Bellamy, he always thought of Lexa as another sister to him. Now every time someone asked if they were dating Lexa would have a look of disgust on her face and Bellamy would just laugh and tell them “nope”, and eventually everyone stopped asking. But Bellamy always loved to tease her about it from time to time when she was being extra dramatic. He even called her ‘Lextra’ sometimes if he really wanted to get a reaction out of her.
“Yo Jason play them something good” Octavia shouted to their friend who’d taken the position of DJ for the night.
And so it started, Bellamy and raven began approaching the cousins and Lexa grew more horrified with each step; Bellamy squatted over her lap, removed his shirt and started moving his hips to everyone’s cheers and laughs. Lexa decided to close her eyes- it was either that or fainting- so she closed her eyes and counted down the seconds till the song ended so she could get up and start punching people.
Clarke was one of the people cheering Raven and Bellamy on, she found Lexa’s attitude hilarious, every time the tall boy would jerk his hips closer to Lexa the girl would press her eyes even closer together, and Clarke couldn’t get enough- it was just so damn adorable. A couple of minutes later, to everyone’s disappointment except Lexa’s, the song ended and Lexa was instantly pushing Bellamy of off her and getting up.
“See that wasn’t so bad” Bellamy said while clutching his chest from laughter.
“I hate you all” she turned to address Raven and Anya but quickly regretted it when she found Raven still sitting on her cousin’s lap their mouths inches away from each other. “Oh god I need to forget this night” she rolled her eyes and started making her way towards the kitchen.
Clarke was about to follow when she felt a tap on her shoulder, turning around, a long haired boy with dark eyes was smiling at her she felt like she’d seen him before but couldn’t remember how “that was an impressive shot you made there” he started.
“Um, thanks… I guess” Clarke smiled at him shyly.
“I’m Finn btw, and you’re Clarke if I heard correctly”
“um… yeah Clarke” she was unsure why this guy was talking to her, she didn’t really mind, but even though she’d been making new friends these last couple of months- talking to strangers was definitely not something she enjoyed much.
“Well Clarke, it’s nice to meet you” he smiled warmly at her and continued “I was just about to get another drink, you wanna join me”
Clarke wasn’t sure what to say, she was still getting used to people having an interest and wanting to talk to her, and she hadn’t planned on drinking tonight- but one drink couldn’t hurt right? She looked around for wells, she didn’t want to leave him alone again but she saw him laughing with Bellamy and some guy’s from the football team, she smiled at the thought that he was also making new friends. Nothing was stopping her from saying yes, plus Finn seemed like a decent enough guy from their mild interaction.
“Yeah sure why not” she smiled at him.
Finn extended his hand for her and she hesitantly took it after looking at him and seeing an encouraging look on his face. They made their way to Jasper and Monty who were still eagerly serving the partygoers. Clarke and the boys were fairly friendly because of their shared English class.
“Hey guys, what’s up” she waved as she approached them.
“CLARKE, you’re here just in time to try our new secret recipe” jasper said talking about the drink in his hand like it was a 5 star gourmet dish.
“Um I probably shouldn’t” whatever that was, Clarke sensed that it wouldn’t be a good idea to have it as her first drink.
“Aw come on Clarke, we’ll try it together” Finn encouraged her.
“Wait you’re here with him” Monty asked skeptically. A weird look on his face Clarke couldn’t figure out- he looked like he was annoyed but trying to hide it.
“No- we just met”
“Yeah that a problem green?”
They said simultaneously, Finn a bit more dominant.
She saw jasper elbow his friend and give him a look before saying “nope not at all- enjoy the drinks guys” he smiled tightly and handed them the cups but not before shooting Clarke a worried look. Weird.
She didn’t have time to think about it as Finn put his arm around her back and guided her towards a more secluded part of the house.
“Cheers” he said and they took their first sip.
“Oh god what is in this” Clarke almost spit it out. Finn laughed equally horrified by what they’d just tasted.
“I think they’re trying to kill us” he joked. The blonde laughed.
“So, you go to school with us? I haven’t seen you around…” the boy asked.
“Yeah I just started freshman year” she replied as she took another sip trying to get used to the taste… it wasn’t that bad once you got past the initial burn.
“Oh cool, I’m actually a senior- how do you like it so far”
The two continued exchanging small talk for a while and Clarke had absentmindedly drank half of her cup and boy was she feeling the effects of whatever was in there. She was leaning on the wall a big smile on her face nodding along to whatever Finn was telling her, she wasn’t really paying attention at that point- the boy had started talking about sports, something about how soccer was a stupid game for losers- for some reason that didn’t really sit well with Clarke but in her drunken state she wasn’t about to protest- she didn’t really know much about the sport anyway- other than it was one of Lexa’s favorite things in the world and she looked really good playing it…
“Enough about me, what sort of thing do you do in your free time” the boy asked snapping her out of her trance, a smirk planting itself on his face coming from nowhere and wait when had he become so close.
The boy was now leaning on the same wall his arm propped up over Clarke’s head and his face uncomfortably close to hers. The blonde tried to scoot back but he just followed her.
“Um- I like to- paint…” the girl tried hoping to return to a safer topic.
“Paint… hmm… ever had a nude model to paint” he winked inching closer to her.
“No” she quickly answered trying to get some distance between them.
“Well I’d happily offer my services to you”
“Yeah no I’ll pass on your kind offer” Clarke replied sarcastically and moved his arm out of the way trying to get away.
Apparently that didn’t really sit well with him and he grabbed her arm trying to keep her there, “come on blondie, why don’t we go upstairs- I can show you a good time” he smirked at her, he was obviously drunk and Clarke was starting to get really annoyed.
“No Finn and I suggest you back off before you do something really stupid” she glared at him.
“Who you calling stupid blondie- relax I’m just trying to have some fun, and you obviously look like the type of girl who… enjoys having fun” he said the last part looking at her chest.
Okay Clarke was enraged, the guy had just slut shamed her because of the size of her chest- not only that, he was still actually confident that something could transpire between the two of them if he persisted enough. The guy just didn’t take no for an answer. If he said one more thing Clarke wasn’t sure if she could be held back from slapping the shit out of him.
“You must be really experienced from the looks of it” he winked.
Yep that was it this bitch is getting slapped. No Clarke, violence is never the answer. However whatever was left in her half drunken cup would do. She made a motion to throw the remains in his face, but the guy surprisingly caught on and grabbed her arm mid swing, managing to make the liquid content land in the small space between them.
“You bitch how dare you, this jacket costs more than your entire worth” he was furious and Clarke, for the first time in this altercation was actually scared. His grip on her hand was too tight and painful- he grabbed her other hand pulled them up over her head and got closer.
“Let me go” she demanded but it was left ignored.
“I see you like to play hard to get” he leaned closer.
“Come on it was funny Lex; you have to admit at least that”
“I’m not sure what you enjoyed exactly about watching your brother grind on me Octavia, but no- it really wasn’t funny” Lexa rolled her eyes.
The two girls were coming into the kitchen from the backyard after Lexa had darted there, after the game, needing some alone time. Octavia had eventually come to drag her out, declaring that they should enjoy the rest of the night with all their friends. Lexa had finally relented not wanting to listen to Octavia begging.
“Whatever, I’m starting to sober up let’s grab another drink” the girl said excitedly.
“Dude I just had like 5 beers- it’s like you want me to throw up” Lexa replied as they made their way to Jasper and Monty.
Octavia ignored her and hopped on to the counter where jasper and Monty were still going at it with the bartending. “Get me drunk boys”
“Your wish is our command” they replied simultaneously sporting a devilish look and started whipping up some concoction.
“What about you Lexa” Monty asked the brunette, who shot him a glare as if saying ‘are you kidding me’. The boy got the hint and filled up a glass of water and handed it to her. She silently thanked him.
“One moonshine for you, O” jasper handed the drink to the eager girl.
“Ohh what’s that” she asked excited.
“Something we just whipped up- I’m sure it won’t kill you but it will definitely get you drunk” Monty assured her.
“You know we probably shouldn’t have given that to Clarke” the boy whispered to his friend cringing slightly.
“YOU WHAT”
Oh shit. She heard that.
“Well Lexa, in our defense, she and Finn asked for a drink just as we had finished creating it- we were too excited to think it through” the two boys were now fully scared trying to come up with excuses.
“FINN?? WHAT THE HELL WAS SHE DOING WITH FINN?”
“I mean we were surprised to see them together- I mean considering your history with the guy and well- we tried to warn her- I guess but lik- well” Monty tried to explain, but the way Lexa was looking at him plus all the alcohol in his system was making him unable to form a complete sentence.
“WHERE DID THEY GO”
“I don’t know” jasper blurted out “towards the hallway maybe” he continued when she looked at him menacingly.
Without another word Lexa was marching towards the hallway an unmistakable look of anger on her face, Octavia trailing behind her.
“What’s going on” Bellamy suddenly appeared next to his sister.
“Don’t freak out, but apparently Lexa found out Clarke is hanging with Finn and well she’s probably on her way to kill him”
As soon as she said that her brother’s whole attitude changed and he caught up to Lexa just as she turned the corner to where they were headed.
They both saw red, Clarke had her hands pinned up over her head by one of Finn’s hands his other hand on her cheek caressing her. In an instant the best friends reacted simultaneously charging at him. Lexa landing a solid punch to his cheek followed by Bellamy grabbing him by the neck and pinning him to the wall. Clarke immediately crumpled to the ground Lexa following her and wrapping her in her arms. “You’re okay, you’re okay” she whispered.
“You piece of shit, HOW DARE YOU LAY A HAND ON HER” Bellamy was furious. He would’ve probably choked him to death had Octavia not spoken up.
“BELL STOP PLEASE, YOU’RE KILLING HIM”
“HE DESERVES IT, FUCKING SCUM”
Finn’s face was starting to get blue someone had to intervene.
“BELLAMY, LET HIM GO, I’M OKAY” Clarke pleaded from the floor.
The tall boy finally looked at her and let go after making sure she wasn’t physically hurt.
Finn fell to the floor clutching his chest and coughing trying to regain his breath. “Get the fuck out of my house before I change my mind and kill you” Bellamy seethed at him.
The long haired boy didn’t waste any time, getting up and running out of the house while still trying to regain his breath.
The commotion had stirred up a crowd and they turned to find most of the guests staring at them in shock.
“Party’s over everyone go home” Octavia shouted immediately wanting to have control over the situation.
No one seemed to protest, understanding the seriousness of what had just happened, and making their way out- some thanking her for the invitation others offering their help in whatever way, which she gratefully refused.
“Clarke what did he do to you” Wells came rushing in, crouching down to where Lexa had Clarke cradled in her arms.
“I’m fine, guys I swear- the asshole was too drunk to be able to do anything anyways” addressed all her friends at once.
“Clarke we’re sorry, we knew Finn was a complete asshole but we had no idea he’d be capable of doing that-” Jasper apologized,
“Yeah, we would’ve never left you alone with him if we knew…” Monty continued looking at his feet.
Everyone had sobered up because of what had just happened and was looking at her apologetically.
“Guys, please this is not your fault, none of you did this” she looked around, “the only person responsible is Finn” she finished as she heard footsteps coming down the stairs. Raven and Anya looked around confused as to why the house was suddenly empty.
“Finn? What happened? What did that son of a bitch do?” raven asked as she looked at Clarke. No one answered.
“Everyone please, let’s leave Clarke alone- I could really use some help cleaning up… now” Octavia demanded.
Everyone followed her to the kitchen except Bellamy and Lexa. The brunette still hadn’t said a word since her arrival, Clarke looked at her and was surprised to see the many different emotions taking place on the girl’s face. She turned to Bellamy who was crouching down in front of them.
“I’m sorry you had to do that for me” she said sincerely.
“Clarke that was nothing… I just wish I could’ve done more”
“Well thank you anyways” she smiled at him.
“Don’t even mention it” he smiled back, patted her shoulder gently, stood up and left leaving her alone with Lexa.
“I’m sorry” the brunette finally spoke up not looking at her.
“Lexa, I already told you this is not anyone’s fault” she reassured her.
“I should’ve made sure he wouldn’t be here… I never should have given him a chance- people like him never change, they only get worse…” lexa trailed of looking pensive.
“He’s done this before?” the blonde asked.
Lexa finally looked at her, “no, not this exactly… but he has a long history of being a horrible person… Raven, Anya and I… we were few of the many people he hurt… but we always forgave him in the end”
“We can talk about it if you want to” Clarke looked at her warmly.
Lexa looked hesitant at first but she knew she could trust this girl “well it all started when I was 5”…