Should I break up?

Dear Diary,
you already know about my girlfriend. Quinn. Now we´re already 11 months together. And our one year anniversary is in three weeks. At this day I want to do something really special with her at this day because I´m totally in love with her. But when I´m asking her what she wants to do she´s just saying “I don´t know”. Then I asked “Maybe see a movie in the cinema”.
Her answer: “Whatever”.

It feels like she´s not really loving me. And I´m thinking about breaking up…
But I don´t want to. Because I love her. Really. Maybe it helps to write just the whole story down…

Well it started in February of last year. I were at Mercedes´ house. Because Tina, Mercedes and me was working on a shool project. It was Wednesday the 10th of February. And we had to present our project at the next day. Thursday the 11th. It was late in the evening almost 6 pm. Since one or two hours we just had fun and were laughing.
Then I had the idea to check my phone. Maybe there were any calls or messages. And actually there was one message from Quinn.
“I have to talk to you… please don´t be angry or disappointed”.
I was worried. It sounded serious. So I asked her what´s wrong.
Two minutes later the answer: “In the last few months we spend a lot time together. And I think that I´m falling in love with you. Please don´t be angry at me. I´m scared that you´re ending our friendship now.”
I was getting nervous. I was wishing for this to happen for so long. And I couldn´t believe it.
So I asked: “Are you playing ´Truth or Dare´?”
Quinn: “No. It´s true. Please believe me.”
Me: “It sounds pretty much like Truth or Dare for me.”
Quinn: “That´s not true. I love you.”
This sentence drove me crazy. I wanted to text back that I love her too. But I didn´t knew if she was honest.
Me: “I can´t know if it´s true because we´re just chatting on WhatsApp.”
Quinn: “I can proof it if you want to.”
Me: “Okay.”
Quinn: “Would you let me kiss you?”
Me: “You are not here.”
Quinn: “But would you let me kiss you?”
Me: “Maybe.”
Quinn: “Yes or no?”
Me: “I don´t know...”
Quinn: “I love you.”
Me: “Like I said. I can´t know.”
Quinn: “Can we talk on the phone?”
Me: “Sure. I call you when I´m home.”
At home I called her and we met next day at school to talk about it.
She told me that she was really in love with me. And I told her that I love her too.

Since that day we´re a couple.
But her family is really religious. So we kept our relationship as a secret. Also we´re really shy. And you might laugh but we never kissed. We´re 11 months together but we never kissed.
Also Quinn had a few boyfriends so that no one could even think about she could bi. There was Puck. And Finn. And a few other guys I didn´t know the name of. It always made me jealous. One day we had a fight about it. But wasn´t it understandable that it made me jealous?
Now since a few months I have the feeling that she doesn´t love me. Maybe she´s loving me as her best friend or even some friend. But not as her girlfriend.
I told her one month ago. That I think she doesn´t love me the way I do love her.
Than we broke up for a few weeks. But now we´re back together and I´m scared to lose her.
I love her. And I want to be with her. I´m happy to be in a relationship with this beautiful, smart, cute, cool, hot girl. But I´m not really happy. It makes me sad that she doesn´t answer if I text her a “I love you”.
It hurts.
But I love her.

Should I break up?

-Rachel