crashing

"I think we should stay a bit longer at least until Bernie has calmed down" Serena suggested

Serena laid Bernie's Head down on the pillow. She laid there fear in her eyes. Serena stroked her head for about five minutes; Bernie hadn't said anything for over 10 minutes now.
Morven left the room

"Is this side room free?" Raf asked

"Nope Ms Wolfe is still in there" Morven replied

"Why I thought she was going home with Serena" said Raf

"Not anymore she's not. She ended up pulling the stitches out of her arm" Morven replied

"Do you want me to go take a look?" asked Raf

"No don't go in there Serena has it covered and Bernie's mind is very fragile at the moment. Anyone else goes in there she could lose it all together" Morven explained

Bernie had finally calmed down after about 20 minutes she realized how stupid she must have looked to Serena and the others. For the first time in over half an hour she looked Serena straight in the eyes. Serena noticed that Bernie was about to cry and was trying very hard to hold it back.

"Serena I’m Sorry" said Bernie in a low husky voice

"What are you saying sorry for? None of this is your fault" Serena replied

"I can't help it, I love you but I’ve ruined it because you don't feel the same" said Bernie

"I wouldn't be here if I didn't" said Serena with a small smile

That made Bernie feel a little better as she laid there looking up at Serena, after what seemed like ages Bernie fell asleep again.
Serena left the room to talk with fletch.

“Don’t you think it’s about time we called someone down from phcy to have a proper look at her see seems to be getting worse, I’m not saying you’re not doing your best, she just needs someone who knows what they are doing to help her” Fletch suggested

Serena was reluctant but realized Fletch was right and gave her permission for Fletch to phone someone to come down and take a look at Bernie. Serena thought it might be the best time now while Bernie was asleep to sneak out and have a fag; she needed one to steady her nerves. She dared leave Bernie when she was awake she was scared what she might do after the last time. She loved Bernie so much that this was getting to her more than she would let on, she couldn’t bare to see Bernie like that. Bernie was always the strong one, her big macho army medic. But now it was Serena who has to be the strong one. She popped downstairs for a few minutes; she dared be any longer she never knew what might happen. She’d only just found Bernie she couldn’t bare losing her.

She’d only been gone like ten minutes when she walked back onto the ward. She could hear fletch panicking a mile off.

“She’s going to kill me if she finds out I let her slip out, she’s not in the right frame of mind” Fletch Panicked

“Let who slip out?” Serena asked

“Oh god” said Fletch as he turned round and saw Serena standing there

“What’s happened now?” Serena demanded to know

“It’s Bernie she must have slipped out while we was busy” explained Fletch

“I thought someone was keeping an eye on her” Serena yelled

“I’ve called security” said Morven as she rushed over

“Well don’t just stand there” Serena yelled “get looking for her” Serena ran off like a headless chicken looking all over AAU before rushing out in a panic

After about 20 minutes Serena decided try the Basement as a last resort, she heard a noise coming from the far end as she walked down the stairs, sort of like a low thud type of noise. Serena ran to find out where it was coming from. There was Bernie sitting there at the bottom of some stairs. Serena noticed Bernie had a large cut on her forehead. Serena looked at Bernie Relieved but worried.

“What’s happened here?” Serena asked

Bernie was sobbing “you left me and I tried to find you”

“Don’t worry I’m here now” said Serena trying to reassure Bernie not that it was working.

It was then that Serena realised that Bernie was banging her head on the wall behind her, not that Bernie seemed to notice. Serena could see a small trail of blood running down the wall.

“Bernie you’ve got to stop that” Serena urged Bernie but it was as if Bernie’s mind wasn’t there anymore. She just sat there blank. Serena could see that the cut on her forehead
was weeping quite a bit; whether she had fallen down the stairs or tripped she couldn’t be sure. All she knew was she had to get her back up to AAU quickly. She found an old wheelchair in the corridor and got Bernie sitting in it. As they set off down the corridor the wheelchair had a slight squeak in one of the wheels, Bernie screamed and ran off to hide in a corner. It was at that point Serena had no choice but to phone Fletch to come with Raf and a trolley. She needed two strong men to help as Bernie was far bigger than her and she couldn’t manage her in this state.

Raf and Fletch rushed down to the basement to find Serena trying to calm Bernie down, She was crying quite a lot at this point.

“What’s happened?” Fletch asked

“I don’t know just help me get her on the trolley” said Serena

Both Fletch and Raf went to help her up, She flinched Bernie wouldn’t let anyone touch her.

Bernie continued to cry, she had so much pent up emotion inside her she just wanted to let it out the only way she knew how. She had let everything get on top of her and she
hated it she hated herself. She rocked back and forth banging her head on the wall once again.

“Shall I get something to calm her down with?” Raf suggested

Serena didn’t like the idea of that but thought it was for the best. But first tried to persuade Bernie to get onto the trolley her, but it was like Bernie wasn’t even listening to her. Everything she did just made her cry more. Bernie knew she looked stupid but couldn’t stop she was like a broken tap that couldn’t switch off. Raf came back about ten minutes later with some stuff to calm Bernie down with. Both Raf and Fletch picked Bernie up and put her on the trolley.

“The back of her heads bleeding” said Raf alarmingly

Bernie flinched slightly when Raf took a look, she rolled into a tight ball slightly sobbing.

“She was banging her head when I found her” said Serena shamefully as she pointed to a pool of blood on the floor.

Serena placed a blanket over the top of Bernie and all pushed her up to AAU

“You found her then” Morven said looking worried

“Don’t let her out of your sight again” said Serena “if I have to watch her all night I will”

Bernie just laid there rocking to and throw, she didn’t like what was happening but didn’t have the energy to fight it.

Morven came in to dress her head wounds they needed a few stitches

“when I first met her she was so strong assertive, I think that’s why I fell for her and now look at her a shadow of the person she once” Serena Explained to Morven

“She needs you more than ever now, She’s still in there the Bernie that you love you’ve just got to find her again” said Morven

“I know I can’t bare to see her like this it’s made me more determined than ever to help her she will get through this it will just take time” said Serena

She pushed Bernie’s Fringe out of her eyes, some of it had become sticky from the blood. She wiped the blood from around the wound and Morven put in a few stiches.

“She needs to go for a head scan” Morven said to Serena

“I know she does just let her sleep for a little bit first” Serena said

Serena looked down at Bernie, Bernie felt herself beginning to relax a bit more now. She gave Serena a small smile. That was some of the old Bernie she knew and loved Serena thought, but she also knew it wasn’t as simple as a bit of sleep to fix all this.