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Serena ran back into AAU she could hear Bernie before she saw her. her heart sank, she thought about running away. she couldn't bare to see Bernie like this but she loved her too much to give up on her. she wanted to be there for her.
she walked into the room. Bernie was sitting in bed crying, She was clearly upset.
"well we will leave it there for today we can continue this again next week" said the counselor
"thank you" Bernie sniffed as the counselor left the room Serena went after her
"hows she doing?" Serena asked the Counselor
"it's going to take time and a lot of Support but she will get there, she'll have one session a week for four weeks. then we will take it from there" she Explained
Serena went back into see Bernie, she was still sat up in bed deep in thought.
"people must think i'm mad" said Bernie with a tear in her eye
"no they don't" said Serena trying to reassure Bernie but not really helping much Bernie was getting really agitated
"you get some sleep then in a few hours we can go home" Serena Explained
"no no i can't sleep i won't" Bernie panicked "don't make me" Bernie Begged
suddenly Bernie was panicking more than usual and she couldn't catch her breath the world around her was spinning, she was shaking with fear.
"just breath Bernie it's ok there's nothing to be scared of, like i showed you last time" Serena tried to explain
Bernie tried to breath properly but it wasn't working it was just making her worse. Serena held her hand and Bernie's Breathing started to return to normal
"ok just lay back and relax" said Serena
but Bernie was restless she just laid there fidgeting. after talking with the counselor she couldn't get the image of the accident out of her head, no matter what she tried. she couldn't really see what help talking about it could do. it just brought up stuff she'd rather forget. she was so worried that if she fell asleep she would have to relive the whole thing again and she really couldn't go through that once was enough. she relived it everytime she closed her eyes, she didn't want to but she couldn't help it. now she was thinking about it when she was awake she tried to focus but it didn't help. she really wanted to switch off but it just wasn't that easy. she tried her hardest to calm done and relax but that was just making her feel worse. don't panic Bernie thought you'll make it worse. all she wanted right now was Serena to hug her and say everything was going to be ok.
"maybe we should think about taking you home, help you relax a bit more" Serena suggested
Bernie thought about it for a moment. she realised that would be a great idea just her and Serena on their own. she hated everyone else coming in and out asking her how she was all the time, it was really annoying her.
Serena left the room to talk to Raf
"i'm going to take Bernie home" said Serena to Raf
"do you think that's a good idea?" Raf asked
"it would help her calm down a bit if it was quieter with less people around her" explained Serena
"that sounds a good idea" said Morven who was standing nearby
"see even Morven agrees" said Serena
"ok you win but if anything happens you come straight back" said Raf
Morven left to go check on Bernie
"thanks Raf don't worry i will take better care this time" Serena replied
"well if you're sure" said Raf
"Um Ms Campbell you might want to come in here" said Morven as she poked her head around the door
Serena looked worried and rush back into the side room. Bernie was sitting on the bed rocking back and forth. she looked like she was staring into space, zoned out almost. she had a blank look on her face almost one of fear. Serena noticed that Bernie was scratching her arm quite a lot and realised that she'd pull the stitches out.
Serena walked over to Bernie and rested her hand on Bernie's shoulder. not that Bernie seem to notice, she didn't even seem to notice that Serena was even standing next to.
"Bernie, Bernie love it's me Serena" said Serena in a soft but worrying voice "it's ok i'm here"
Bernie continued to rock like someone who was utterly terrified
"Bernie" Serena said again
Bernie jumped and looked up at Serena, Bernie looked so scared like she didn't know what was going on anymore.
Bernie hadn't realised that Serena had been standing there. how long had she been there. she couldn't tell, it was like she couldn't process anything anymore. there was too much hurt and pain inside and it felt like there was no room for anything else.
"you're Bleeding" said Serena to Bernie as she looked down at Bernie's arm
Bernie looked down at her arm but didn't say anything
"it's alright we'll sort that out" said serena trying to reassure Bernie she wasn't sure that helped but then again she couldn't tell what was going on in Bernie's mind right now. "Morven quick get me some dressings lets get this cleaned up"
Morven opened and draw near by and gathered up a few dressings before giving them to Serena
"This might sting a little" said Serena as she started cleaning the wound
Everything was too numb to hurt Bernie thought as she sat there in silence
"you will get through this you know and no matter what happens i will always be there for you" Serena said as she finished dressing Bernie's wound
Bernie just sat there in silence she really didn't have the energy to say anything. Serena finished dressing Bernie's wound. Bernie laid her head on Serena's shoulder. Serena put her arm around Bernie.
"What you gonna do now?" Morven asked Serena
"i don't know i really don't know" said Serena with a worrying look