crashing

When they got to the hospital they found that A&E was full so they took Bernie to AAU instead

"Serena what are you doing here, i thought you wasn't coming in today?" Raf asked "and what the hells happened?" Raf saw all the blood on Serena's shirt

"it's not a work call" Serena Replied

"i gathered that" said Raf "why the hell are you covered in blood or shouldn't i ask?"

"it's Bernie" Serena Replied with a sad look in her eye

"whats she done this time?" Raf asked

"she cut herself, on purpose i think" Serena replied

"i thought you was going to get her some help?" asked Raf

"yes i was but it's only been less than 24hrs and i only left her asleep to go shopping, then we was gonna make a plan of action get her the help she needed. but i think this is far worse than i first thought." Serena explained "it's all escalated too quickly"

"well shes in the best place now" Raf replied "pop into the staff room and change your top you can't go round with blood down you" Raf said pointing at the blood stained shirt she was wearing

Serena hadn't even realised she was covered in blood, she was too worried about Bernie. she went into the locker room to get the spare shirt she always kept in her locker. she walked into the locker room.

"Ahhh bloody hell morven you scared the hell out of me" Said Serena looking a bit startled

"sorry didn't mean to scare you, thought you wasn't coming in today?" Moven asked

"i wasn't but we had to make an unexpected stop" Serena Replied

"whats going on?" Moven asked as she spotted the blood on Serena's shirt

"Bernie seems to have lost it" Serena explained

"i thought you was helping her?" Morven asked

"i thought i was but i can't do it alone" replied Serena as she changed her shirt

"it's worse than i first thought and she needs proper help" said Serena

"it's going to be alright we'll all be there for Bernie" Morven said as she gave Serena a hug

"i better get back to Bernie she'll be wondering where i've got to" said Serena "and thanks for your support means a lot" she gave Morven a small smile as she left the locker room.

she went back to the side room where Bernie was. she was just laying there not saying anything. Fletch was busy cleaning and stitching her arm and hand. Serena came round the other side and sat next to Bernie. She held her hand. Bernie Smiled.

"thanks for being there for me" Bernie smiled

"it's ok i'll always be there for you, you know that" said Serena as

she stroked Bernie's hair

"i'm sorry" said Bernie

"sorry for? what stop apologizing, it'll be the death of you" Serena laughed

"i'm sorry for dripping bloody all over your nice kitchen floor" said Bernie with an embarrassed look on her face

"is that all there's more important things to worry about then that" laughed Serena "besides i'll go home later and clean it up if that makes you feel better"

Bernie laughed

Fletch finished putting a bandage on Bernie's arm and went to leave the room.

"serena can i have a word with you please?" Fletch asked

"Don't leave me" Bernie pleaded

"i will only be outside i just have to talk to Fletch and i will be right back" Serena explained

"i'll send Morven in she can keep you company for a while" Serena said

"no don't i don't want her to see me like this" said Bernie with panic in her voice

"ok i won't" Serena promised "I won't be long"

"Doesn't look like there's much wrong with her" Said Fletch

Raf came over to join them

"This is a good period, i think she has PTSD and she's left it untreated for so long" explained Serena

"she always was good at hiding her true feelings" said Raf

"well something's got to be done about it" Said Fletch

"i was going to sort that out today but it all got on top of her too quickly it's like she gets frightened and doesn't know she's doing it half the time" Serena explained

"so she didn't know she cut herself?" Fletch asked

"no not until after I found her" said Serena "but she did say sometimes it helps with the pain"

"what pain?" Fletch asked

"Emotional pain she thinks it hurts more than real pain" Serena said "after her accident"

"that would explain it then" said Raf "we should send someone down from phyc to have a chat with her"

"thanks that would be a big help Raf, i don't know what to do anymore i can't bare to see her like this" said Serena as she left

Serena went back into see Bernie she sat by her bedside.

"i hope you don't think i'm going mad" Bernie sobbed

"no not at all and we will get through this together" Said Serena trying to reassure Bernie

"Promise?" Bernie asked

"i promise" Serena replied

Bernie looked so small and frightened laying in that bed. she just wanted her Bernie back fit and well and will do what ever it took to help her. she stroked the top of Bernie's head

"now you get some sleep" said Serena to bernie "you're so tired"

"i can't sleep i'm too scared" Said Bernie

"Scared of what?" Serena asked

"scared of the nightmares and that you're going to leave me because you don't like who i am now" Sobbed Bernie

"i love you no matter what" Said Serena with a faint smile

"are you sure?" Bernie asked

"always" Serena smiled and gave Bernie a kiss on the head