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Serena drove to the local supermarket, which was only 5 minutes away. all she could think about was the hurt and pain Bernie was going through and why she didn't tell her soon she could have helped. but there was no point in dwelling on the past and the things that could have been, but focus on the here and now. getting the shopping and getting back to Bernie. she wasn't sure she should have left Bernie on her own but she had no other option. she had no food in the house they couldn't starve, yet Bernie wouldn't step foot outside the house. right now every loud noise seem to scare her and she couldn't bare seeing the woman she loved in so much pain. she got out the car and grabbed a trolley. she thought she better not be out too long she didn't want Bernie waking up to find she wasn't there. she ran into the store and starting putting things into the trolley at record speed. she was just bunging things in the trolley that would make a great meal or the odd treat she thought Bernie might like. Just then she receved a text from Jason to say he was staying at his friends for the weekend Serena text back have fun see you on monday. she put a couple of bottles of shiraz in the trolley and headed for the self service till. she paid for the shopping and left the store.

Bernie had not long been asleep when something woke her up she jumped. she sat up and looked around. she couldn't quite place where she was for a moment and started to panic. then she remembered she was staying with Serena for the weekend. get a grip Wolfe she thought you'll go mad. Serena will definitely won't want you if you carry on like this. she went to the kitchen for a drink of water. that made her feel a lot better. she sat at the kitchen table deep in thought, when all of a sudden she had a flashback. she was back in afghanistan just after that IED exploded and she was thrown into a poppy field. the pain she felt and the feeling that no one was going to find her she was laying there for over half an hour before any got to her, she thought she was a gonner. The flashback felt so real the pain she was in the hot sun beating down on her and the panic she felt not knowing if she was gonna be rescued or not. she took a sip of her water trying her hardest to forget it put it out of her mind, but it wasn't that simple. she started sweating and panicking. she yelled for Serena but there was no answer one around. she got up and went into the kitchen. she looked around and picked up a small knife Serena had left on the side when cooking the breakfast earlier. she really didn't know what she was doing. it was like her mind was doing it for her and she had no control.

Serena loaded the car up and drove home she was hoping that bernie was still sleep and that everything was ok. she parked in the drive way and grabbed all the shopping. she walked through the front door, she could see that Bernie wasn't on the sofa.

"Bernie i'm back" Serena yelled but there was no response Serena began to panic thinking all sorts. she ran into the kitchen to put all the shopping on the table. she looked over, Bernie was sat on the floor crying. she went over to comfort her. it was only then she realised that Bernie was bleeding.

"Bernie what have you done?" Serena asked

Bernie didn't say anything she just sat there staring into space. Serena noticed that Bernie had cut her arm and hand. Serena grabbed a tea towel and went to put it round her arm. Bernie pulled her arm back.

"leave me alone" Bernie cried

Serena sat down next to her

"i thought they was never going to find me, i laid out there for what felt like hours" Bernie cried

Serena realise that Bernie had, had another flashback she thought for a moment. i can't leave her here not like this not anymore she needs help sooner rather than later.

"don't worry Bernie i'm here for you, we'll get through this together".

Bernie looked at Serena

"what have i done" she weeped

Serena quickly covered Bernie's cuts, Bernie panicked

"i didn't know i was doing it, i can't control my own mind anymore" said Bernie "please Serena help me i don't know whats happening anymore" said Bernie with a pleading look in her eye.

"i'm here to help" said Serena as she held Bernie in her arms "firstly i have to call for help you've lost a lot of blood"

"no don't i don't want anyone else seeing me like this" Bernie pleaded

"it's ok they can help you and i will be with you all the way" Serena explained trying to comfort Bernie

She took out her mobile and dialed for an ambulance

"i have to get up Bernie let go of me" said Serena as she tried to pull Bernie off her. she got up and let the paramedics into the house. "don't worry Bernie i will always be here i'll come with you" said Serena trying to reassure Bernie. she hadn't noticed that she was covered in Bernie's blood.

"they managed to stop the bleeding and stuck temporary bandages on the cuts, then Serena helped Bernie onto the stretcher. Serena was telling the Paramedics what had been going on. Bernie held onto Serena's hand tightly as they took her to hospital.