crashing

she helped Bernie to the main entrance and found a wheelchair. which was a relief for Serena as much as it was for Bernie, Bernie is much bigger than Serena and it was getting hard to keep holding her upright. Serena wheeled her into AAU, Bernie just sat there trying not to show she wasn't crying and staring into the distance.

"Fletch any side rooms free?" Serena asked

"what the hells happened here?" asked fletch

"i have no idea i found her like this she needs her leg seeing to" Serena replied

"there's one over there free" said Fletch as he pointed at one to his right

Serena wheeled Bernie into the side room and shut the door

"well we have to get you on the bed and have a look at your leg" said Serena to Bernie as she tried to help her onto the bed. Bernie jumped when Serena put her hand on her shoulder. Serena not really knowing what to do left the room.

"Fletch Bernie's acting really strange" said Serena

"like what?" Fletch asked "then again i did see Bernie acting a little odd at the beginning of the week

"odd like how?" Serena asked Fletch

"she was jumping at random sounds and at one point she tried to hide it but i could tell she had been crying" Fletch replied "i thought it was just the stress of this place"

"since when did anything affect the great major Wolfe" said Serena

"you have a point there maybe it's built up it can happen" Fletch said

Morven and Raf came over to see what was going on

"i'll leave you to fill them in i have to get back" said Serena as she left to go back and help Bernie

Serena walked back into the side bay to see a small pool of blood, she knelt down in front of Bernie

"what have you done to yourself?" Serena asked "love don't do that you'll make it worse" she noted as bernie stuck her finger into her leg wound making it bleed a bit more "come on you have to let me take a look at it"

Bernie mouthed the words sorry and hopped onto the bed

"what have you go to be sorry about?" Serena asked Puzzled

Bernie just sat there in silence before bursting into tears. Serena put a loose dressing over her wound to stop it bleeding and sat down next to her on the bed. Serena put her arm around bernie's shoulders and pulled her in for a hug

"now whats all this about?" asked Serena not that she thought Bernie would tell her anyway

Bernie sat there crying she really wasn't one to show her emotions like this and didn't know what to say, to be honest she really didn't know what was going on. she just continued to cry into Serena's shoulder. Serena had never seen Bernie like this before and just rubbed her back giving her some little comfort. Bernie started to settle down after a little while and Serena decided it might be the best time to go get some bits to sort out Bernie's leg.

Bernie noticed that Serena was about to get up and she panicked, tears began to fall again and her lungs were filling with air she she couldn't let out. she was terrified. Serena noticed Bernie was having a panic attack

"Bernie look at me you've got to breath let it out" Serena urged Bernie "Breath in and out do it with me" after a minute Bernie's breathing was returning to normal

"I thought you was gonna leave me hurt me like everyone else has" said Bernie in a scared voice

"well i'm not them i will always be here for you" said serena "i'm just going over there to get some stuff you need for your leg it needs seeing to before it gets infected you can watch me i'm not leaving"

Bernie watched Serena as she gathered a few things she needed and sat back on the bed Bernie swung round and laid down on the bed. Serena set about cleaning Bernie's wound.

"this looks deeper than i first thought i'm gonna have to put a few stitches in" said Serena as she took a closer look at the cut

Bernie yelped a little

"does that hurt?" Serena asked

"no no its alright i like the pain it helps" Bernie Replied as she turned away from Serena, not wanting to make eye contact with her. not wanting Serena to think she was weak. She felt ashamed that anyone knew about this, she was always good at hiding it but today she just had enough she couldn't take it no more.

Serena started stitching the wound thinking about what Bernie has just said i like pain it helps, what could she have meant by that. then it hit her, she remembered seeing bernie making her wound worse. she decided to ask her out right

"Bernie you don't hurt yourself on purpose sometimes do you?" Serena asked

Bernie started crying again she nodded

"how long have you been suffering with this alone? you know you can talk to me" said Serena as she put a bandage on Bernie's leg and sat next to her

"i don't know" she sobbed weeks months she didn't really know things were starting to blur into one "i had a few flashbacks" Bernie cried some more and pulled Serena closer

Serena stayed there awhile long while Bernie cried it out exhausted she finally fell asleep and Serena left the room

"so what's going on?" Raf asked as morven and Fletch looked on

"well she's got some big problems that's not going to go away overnight so we will just leave her to sleep till my shift finishes in about 2hrs and then i will take her home" Serena explained "looks like she's been suffering with this a while no wonder she always cames to work tired i should have seen it, today she just completely gave up and had a meltdown"