crashing

Serena spent most of the morning trying to decide when to tell her best friend and colleague that she was in love with her, hoping that she would feel the same. should she do it over a coffee in their lunch break, in Albies after work or take her out for a meal? then she thought the best thing to do was just to do it quickly or she would bottle out altogether. Coffee in pluses it was then she thought as she saw bernie from a distance and smiled.

Bernie joined Serena in their office five minutes later with a big pile of paperwork.

"hope thats not mine" Serena laughed

"this lot is" said Bernie as she placed a pile of eight files down on her desk

"oh goodie you know how much i love paperwork" said Serena sarcastically "just put them down over there i will do them later, how do you fancy coming for a coffee at pulses?"

"That sounds like a great idea after the morning we've had we're due a break" Bernie replied

They made their way out of the office and down to the cafe at the front of holby Serena ordered them a coffee each and they both sat down

"Bernie you know how we have become such great friends over the past months since you came to work on AAU" Said Serena

"yeah we've become the ultimate partnership" Bernie Replied

Serena sat there for a moment wondering how to phrase the next bit so as not to sound stupid

"yes we have but i think it's more than that and i think you feel it too" said Serena with a big smile

"how do you mean?" Bernie asked with panic in her voice

"I really like you well mmore than like you" Serena stuttered "i love you" Serena put her hand on top of Bernie's hoping that at any moment she was going to say the same thing

Bernie sat there with panic in her eyes wondering what Serena had just pulled her hand away, her mind was telling her she's not good enough for Serena not worthy of her love, nobody wants you, your past it. she looked at Serena for a moment, a single tear fell down her cheek

"no you can't , i can't" Bernie shouted as she ran off out of the hospital

Serena sat there in shock and for a moment wondering what that was all about, she didn't expect that reaction. She wondered whether she should go after her or just leave it for a bit, no a bit of time on her own would do her good she thought. so she decided to go back to the ward and do some of that paperwork. she met fletch on the stairs on the way back up.

"Hi fletch i'm just going back to my office to do some paperwork if you see Bernie can you send her to me" said Serena

"i thought she was with you?" Fletch asked

"she was till i said something and she ran off" Serena replied

" you didn't finally tell her you love her did you?" asked Fletch with a big grin on his face

"how do you know?" said Serena looking puzzled

"it's not hard to work out i've seen how you are with her" said Fletch

oh no Serena thought i bet i'm the talk of the hospital

"well if you see her tell her i want to talk" Serena said

Fletch looked out the window

"will do, then again isn't that her over there" said Fletch pointing to a small bush Bernie was sitting behind

"what is she doing?" asked Serena

"can't tell from this angle but you better get down there and find out" Flech replied as he left

Bernie just ran out the hospital, where she was going she didn't know she just kept running. her mind was going at 100 miles an hour, she couldn't process what Serena had just said. it was all a mistake surely, how could anyone love her after what she's been through. then all of a sudden she tripped on the curb and ended up face first in some damp grass. she sat up quickly shaking and ducked behind a small bush next to her. she looked there was a hole in the trousers she was wearing her leg was bleeding, not that she was taking much notice of it. she sat there for a few moments thoughts going through her mind. she started crying and just sat there absent minded before she saw Serena standing in front of her.

Serena came running down the stairs and out the main doors she ran into Jac along the way

"isn't that your girlfriend over there?" jac asked pointing to bernie who was sitting on the damp grass

"does everyone know that i love bernie?" Serena asked jac

"you couldn't make it more obvious if you tried" Jac laughed "go and pick her up she's making the place look untidy"

"Bernie Bernie" Serena shouted but Bernie either didn't hear or wasn't listening "Berenice Wolfe what are you doing down here?"

Bernie was now scratching at the gash on her leg not even paying attention she was still crying

"was it something i said that made you run?" asked Serena

Bernie still sat there like she hadn't heard, Serena noticed she was crying

"Bernie whats wrong?" Serena asked she bent down to Bernie's level and looked at her "whats happened here your bleeding" serena noticed the big gash in her leg she also noticed that bernie was scratching it making it worse and getting blood all over her hands "bernie we have to get you inside" said Serena as she went to help bernie up

Bernie Flinched and moved over a bit "come on its only me Serena lets get you inside so i can take a look at your leg" Serena suggested

Bernie looked up at Serena but she still looked like she was still zoned out. Serena knew there was something seriously wrong but couldn't work out what she helped bernie to her feet and supported her her as she hobbled back to the hospital