What happens when you hide from your problems
So guys I really need to know if you want me to add smut to the tags, until I get a few different people to comment for it I will not continue. If I get no comments or less than lets say 3+ within the week (Feb 22- March 1 of 2017) I will skip it all together and rework the chapters. Please comment with your wishes.
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“Levi.” The scolding tone from Hani's distinctive voice made Levi tense over his paperwork, he knew he was in trouble.
“Yes Glasses?” His voice portrayed a calmness he did not feel.
“When was the last time you saw Eren?” Levi flinched at the sound of the boy's name.
“I don't know I have been busy making sure to keep him and Ymir safe and doing a ridiculous amount of paperwork.
“It has been almost 3 weeks you have been avoiding him. He has physically healed to the best that I can push him to. He is barely eating, he is being harassed around the base. He refuses to sleep in the bed we got him, he crawls into the corner and cries until he finally falls asleep, though his dreams are more like nightmares. We have been trying to move him to the bed after he falls asleep but as soon as soon as people steps to close to him he wakes up and fights whoever until he wakes enough to calm down but he cowers away from everyone's touch. When he thinks no one is around his room he will cry, mostly for you. He only will smile when he thinks he might see you. When I asked him about it while counseling him he said he was trying to make sure you didn't worry about him. He knew you were having a hard time with all of this and he didn't want you to be burdening you more than he had to. He has faith that you have your reasons for being away.”
“Tch that brat is supposed to be healing not hiding his problems.”
“How can he heal if the only person he trusts and whom his entire body is telling him he needs is avoiding him like he is the plague. You are being cruel to all of the new recruits and we all know that though you are a mean son of a bitch this is a new level for you and it is because you are avoiding you boy. So the question is why are you hiding in your office like a little bitch?”
“You are a gutsy pain in the ass Hanji.” Levi glared at the gender ambiguous figure who was glaring right back at him.
“I am your best friend I have to be because everyone else is too scared to be! Someone has to kick your midget ass in the right direction!” Hanji knew that they were the only ones who would live through cussing out Levi along with throwing all of Levi's bull shit back in his face without even a maiming. They definitely were his best friend and he knew they had his best interests at heart even if it was something he did not want to face.
“Fine you psychotic spazz, I am doing my paperwork...” He ignored the loud groan they let out “BECAUSE I can not think straight around him. I have no restraint when he is concerned and I become murderous when others are around him. I don't want to hurt him or scare him so until you have given him a clean bill of health I was planning to keep my distance. I am trying to protect him from me.”
“Well you self sacrificing moron he is not getting better without you around. His physical wounds are healed but he is slowly but surely giving up the will to fight. He only eats when forced, he sleeps less then you, and does the minimum to take care of himself. He does not want to admit out loud that the doubts of you actually caring for him and that you may have lied to him about wanting him or would help take care of him just so he would be the bade freak show of what his father did.”
“Stupid Brat.” Levi slammed his fists down and stood up abruptly. Hanji knew they had finally gotten through to the stoic man. Levi's rage was a feared thing but seeing that rage in those metal eyes be for for someone else's safety and well being was impressive, Levi had not been like this since Isabel and Farlan died. “He should be in bed right now right? I will go get him and handle him myself. I was trying to do this for his own good but if he is so damn determined to die I will just have to see how good my restrain actually is. Send some food up to my room and I will get him to eat and then even if I have to smother him he will sleep tonight.”
“Good, you should sleep too by the way. I noticed Eren is not the only one not sleeping, your insomnia has gotten bad again. Hopefully you two can cure each other in ways that I can not help with.” Hanji winked as they left Levi's office, hopefully going in the search for food. Levi put his paperwork in order, he knew he was not coming back to it tonight, and left his office As quickly as he could Levi maneuvered the castle they called a base and made his way to the large wooden door that stood between him and the stairs leading to the first level of dungeon cells that the Scouts had renovated to extra rooms. Eren of course had been put into the nicest of those new rooms but they were still not as nice as the officer's rooms up in the various towers of the castle, Levi got his own tower being one of only 3 officers in the scouting legion. Mikasa was supposed to be on duty with Eren tonight but she could give him shit later once he made sure the boy was safe and in his room. Levi could hear Eren's whimpers as soon as he stepped through the door before he even stepped down the stair case. Levi's hear felt like it was breaking as he walked down to the lower level as the whimpers get louder.
“About time Lee. He just fell asleep, fix this brother.”
“What Mika going soft for the boy already?”
“He seems to have that effect on the Ackermen blood doesn't he? Screw this up Lee and I may try to steal him from you.”
“Watch yourself Mika, you may be blood but I will kill even you for him.”
“Good that is what I wanted to hear. The monster in you is willing to spill blood for this boy. That means the killer in you has claimed him as your own now let the human part of you take care of him, and once he is healthy let the animal part of you ravage him.”
“You are too wise for your age Mika. You know more then you should.”
“I am aware remember we are more alike then you wish to admit.”
“I know we are but I wish we weren't because of the darkness you had to face alone to make you turn out like me. None of our parents we like us only nightmares form monsters like us Mika.”
“I know Lee, you are more caring then people give you credit for, now go take care of him. If you can find happiness maybe I can too some day.”
“You deserve more happiness then I ever do Mika, you maybe a monster to most but I am a demon to all.” Levi smiled softly at his younger sister. They shared only a father and were 7 years apart but she was still special to Levi, they had noticed each other when Mikasa was 16 and joined the military. She became Levi's recruit when she was 18 and decided to join the scouts. Levi got to watch her grow from an over aggressive twerp to s fine young woman who no longer needed to prove herself to anyone. Levi turned to the locked door where he could see Eren crumpled on the floor shivering and whimpering. Flashes of Eren once again covered in blood on that dirt floor of his father's basement where he had been so close to death flooded Levi's mind. As quickly and quietly as Levi could he rushed to Eren's side and lifted the feather light boy to his arms. Mikasa watched her older brother as he carefully cradled the smaller boy to his chest, like he had done years ago when they first found each other when he saved her from a fight, the boy didn't so much as flinch in Levi's grasp. In fact Mikasa could have sworn he leaned further into his touch.
“Wow he isn't waking at all.” Mikasa said in surprise.
“Well I need him to wake up so this should be interesting. I have food waiting for him up in my room.” Mikasa's eyebrows raised at the thought of Levi willing to share his space with another living person, Levi of course just ignored her. “Hey brat, Wake up for me Eren or I will drop you from up here.” Levi whispered gently in Eren's ear getting him to stir and Mikasa to roll her eyes, everyone knew he would not drop the precious one in his arms on the floor, or anywhere.
“Levi? What is wrong? Why are you here in this cell?” Levi flinched at Eren's description of his temporary room. Eren's voice was deeper than normal and dripping with sleep, he finally had been drifting into a deep and peaceful slumber unbeknownst to him that it was only in Levi's arms.
“Well you were misbehaving and not taking care of yourself so I am going to make sure you do.”
“Levi, no I don't want to be a bo...”
“Finish that sentence brat and you will regret it.” Levi's sharper tone kept Eren from responding. “Is there anything in this room that you are attached to?” Eren quietly shook his head but questions were written all over his face. “You are being moved to my private room from now on so I can make sure that you are getting better. I did agree to take care of you didn't I. That being said I had food sent to our room so you can eat when we get there. Your clothes can be brought up tomorrow.” Levi moved with grace as he carried Eren up the stairs and through the corridors up to the tower that only held his room and office. Levi managed to enter their room without once jostling or releasing Eren from his arms. Once inside he made a quick movement to the bed to set the boy down, on the bedside table sat an assorted tray of light foods compliments of Hanji.
Erwin said take the next three days off for you and your boy!
Have fun, enjoy and try not to knock him up yet!
XOXOXO Hanji XOXOXO