suayeon
What is Kim Bora?
Siyeon can't know. Less than a lover, but surely more than a friend.
Theirs is a relationship that's so ambiguous sometimes that it's painful, straddling — yet not quite crossing — so many lines. Siyeon gets dizzy, thinking about all the things that make the two of them up.
The flirting meant to be for jest, the playful bites pressed to vibrantly dyed hair or pale skin, the times they'd take a selfie with their faces pressed together and Siyeon would think that if she just turned her head a little tiny bit their lips would touch.
But none of it is real. All a mirage that could disappear into the wind. Because at the end of the day, they're just two girls who don't know what to do, dancing an infinite waltz that leads them spiraling around one another, hands reaching out and never touching anything but the folds of the other's dresses.
Still, Siyeon can't help but think that maybe Bora feels it too.
In the delicate way Bora grabs her arm and draws her closer, there's hope.
In the squeals of excitement as Bora runs towards her, limbs wrapping themselves around Siyeon's frame, there's hope.
In the smiles that Bora gives her on stage, framed by ripples of silky hair, surrounded by screaming crowds and yet there's only the two of them with Bora's eyes shining, glittering, flickering with maybe what could just be love —
There's hope, isn't there? For them.
Perhaps Siyeon is just pretending that one day, they'll be able to escape to an island of solitude where all they'll bring are each other, where Siyeon can kiss Bora as much as she'll ever want, where they'll watch the sun set on a paradise of blue sky and turquoise sea and white beaches, just simply together.
Because Bora's company is everything that Siyeon's ever wanted.
But for now, Siyeon can only relish in the sparse touches Bora gives her, the looks that aren't quite open and unveiled, the cheek kisses that flit by in a second of longing for those lips to be on hers.
And she can only hope and pray that this can be enough. After all, hope is the only thing this world will allow.