Halloween confessions
Angela's pov:
A couple months have passed and finally it was Halloween my favorite day of the year. The leaves were changing to orange and brown, the air was cool and crisp and mom was taking jack trick or treating tonight so I had the house all to myself.
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I decided to surprise robin buy meeting her when she got off from work today.
It was almost 4:30 when robin gets off her job. As we were walking to our bikes she was telling me about how a costumer farted and tried to act like it didn't happen.
"It just smelt so fucking bad". We both laugh at that.
"Well I get the whole house to myself tonight since mom is taking jack trick or treating" I say. "Oh cool" She says as we continue to walk.
Once we finally got to our bikes robin grabbed my hand. "Hey um- is it okay if I can stay with you tonight".
"of course you can" I say. Her grip on my hand tightens up a little bit before letting go.
As we ride out to the my house I notice how amazing her hair looked flowing in the wind. With all the leaves turning orange it was like a scene out of movie.
"You ever see that movie heathers?" I ask robin "Yeah" she says nodding her head "I made whole costume for veronica" I say. ".
We silently ride to my house. As we ride into my driveway mom's car is there. Forgot she wasn't working today. "Fuck" I try to say under my breath. "what's wrong?" I hear robin ask me. "Ready to meet my mom?" I turn my head towards her. "Oh" "yeah".
As we put are bikes up i start to get really nervous and have to take some deep breaths. I feel robin's hand on my shoulder.
As I look over to her she looks back at me and gives me a reassuring look. She squeezes my shoulder before she slides it off and back to her side.
I take my key out of my pocket and unlock the door. I yell out "MOM I'M HOME and i brought someone with me".
As we walk in mom walks out of her room "hey angela, who's this?" she asks me turning to robin.
"She's robin, robin this is my mom" robin gives her a small wave and smile. I can feel myself die a little inside.
"Oh this is robin, yeah she's told me about you I've just been dying to meet you" she says as she takes robin into hug.
As they part from the hug robin says "well it's nice to meet you too". After a couple seconds of silence i finally say "yeah so we're gonna go hang out for a bit".
As we head to my room mom calls me back over to her I tell robin to just go to my room.
"So that's robin I hope" mom asks me. "yeah that's uh robin" "she seems nice" she comments. "among other things that too" I feel a smile form on my lips.
"oh so you got it bad don't you" she says smug. "mom stop she could hear us" I say feeling embarrassed.
"She better, she could finally come over for dinner sometime" she says jokingly "mom stop. Please" "okay, okay I'll stop" she puts her hands up.
"Thanks..... So i'm gonna go back to my room now" I say walking away."okay... don't have to much fun" She says "mom" I say turning back around. "okay i'll stop forreal this time".
As i walk to my room I let sigh of relief and hope robin didn't hear any of that. I walk into my room i see robin was laying on my bed with holding my camera.
"You wanna take a picture?" I ask her. She looks up from the camera towards me "oh i'm sorry for not asking if i-" "its ok i don't really use that thing much anyways".
I give a chuckle at the end. "Sorry about my mom she can be a litt-" ''oh no it's perfectly fine... she's nice" robin says happily. "yeah she is".
We kinda stand awkwardly before robin points to the dent in the wall "so what happened there?" She asks me.
"Oh um.... started to remember someone i wish i could forget" i say looking down.
"oh sorry" she says with sympathy "no don't be it's okay". And again we go back to that awkward silence.
"You got some strong hits though" She says to fill the silence. "oh yeah guess I do" I say looking down and rubbing the back of my neck.
She puts the camera back on the shelf and then grabs her backpack. She pulls out the sheet and sunglasses. She throws the sheet over her head.
As she does so I notice she had cut holes for her eyes. After that she pulled the glasses out and put them on her head.
After putting it all together she turned towards me and asked "so how do look?" It took me a second to answer but i said " you look great...real spooky" "perfect" She says trying to give me two thumbs up through the sheet.
She pulls it off and run her hands through her hair a couple times. The front parts of her hair sculpted her face on each side perfectly. I can't even count the amount of times i have wanted to run my hands through her hair.
"Why don't you go try yours on" she says pulling me out of my thoughts. "Oh yeah just give me a second" I walk over to my closet and pull out the costume.
I then walk to the bathroom after grabbing everything i need. After a couple minutes i had on everything i needed.
I take a second to look into the mirror and I start to think that I look stupid. I don't think people are going to get it.
I had decided to finally take my braids out and let my afro out.
But then I hear robin from outside the bathroom ask me if im done yet. I take a deep breath and head to the door.
It takes me a second to finally open the door. When I do I see robin look kinda stunned.
"I know it looks awful don't it'' I say almost on command. But robin just says "no you look show stopping to be honest". As my face grows hot from the compliment I notice her looking me up and down.
Any other time someone did this I always felt uncomfortable and like a spectacle. It was as if they weren't looking at me but just my body.
But with her it feels like she is actually appreciating how I look. She was taking all of me in, from head to toe and for once it felt nice to be looked at.
"well why don't we go listen to some music" I say with fake confidence and walk back to my room.
I plug in my record player and grab a random album my mom gave me. It's Etta James At last.
I take the album out and place it on the record and let it play. As "Anything to say you're mine" plays I sit on my bed.
I waved at her to come in. She smiled and sat on the floor right in front of my bed and laying her head back on my bed.
She closed her eyes and tilted her head back as the music played. She looked so peaceful and beautiful.
But then she opened her eyes and I felt my throat close up and my face grow hot. Quickly I turn my head away from her.
She laughs and closes her eyes. I lay myself on my back and place my hands over my stomach. As the music played I felt at peace.
But it got cut short buy mom coming in and saying "I'm about to take jack out we'll be back around 9, have you fun you two". I lift myself up and nod my head. "Bye mom" I say as she starts to leave.
She walked out with jack following not far behind. The front door open's and closes as they leave. "I really like this song" Robin says with her eyes still closed.
"Yeah it's one of my favorites" I say. We sit and listen until the music stops. I hop up from my spot on the bed and walk to the record player. I lift the needle up and move it away from the record.
I flip it over and put the needle back on. Before I can get back to my spot on the bed robin gets up and leaves her hand out for me to grab. "May I have this dance?" She ask hand still out.
I laugh and take her hand. To my surprise she twirls me around and dips me.
My eyes go wide and face grows hot. She picks me up and slides her hands over my waist and I slide mine over her shoulders.
We sway in each others arms. I slide my arms to her back and pull us closer together. I lay my head under hers and we stay like that until the record stops playing.
We part from each other and I noticed robin's face has grown a little red. I rub the back of my neck before robin says "So I brought some scary movies if you wanna watch".
"Sure whatcha got?" I ask sitting myself back on my bed. She picks up her back pack and hangs it upside down. Multiple movies fall out to my bedroom floor. I slide off of the bed and onto my knees in front of the movies.
I search through them and christine. I smile and look up to robin holding up cujo. "Jesus I could never make it through that movie" I say to her. She laughs and I look up.
"It's not funny" I say looking through the rest of the movies. "I know, I know." she says trying to hide her laughter.
"You pick first and then mine and will keeping going until we're tired" She says sitting the movie by her side. I shake my head in agreement and pick up carrie.
I pick myself off the ground and help put the movies back in her backpack. She zips it up and slide it over her shoulder. We walk out to the living room and I slide myself in front of the tv.
I slide the movie out of the box and turn the tv on. I put the vhs into the player and press the play button.
I turn around and stand. I sit next to robin leaving just enough room between us.
As the movie started to play robin yawned. She stretched her arm out and landed it over my shoulder. She think she's slick. I side eye her trying to hide my smile. I shimy closer to her.
I rest my left hand on her thigh and my head onto her shoulder.
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I don't remember closing my eyes but i remember robin shaking me awake. I move myself up from her side so she could change the movie.
"Sorry about that it's a bad habit of mine" I say rubbing my eye."it's ok" she says getting back in her spot.
I look to the tv and wait for the movie to start. Before i knew it the word cujo popped up on the screen and I immediately looked over to robin. "Really" I say. She looks back at me and smiles before turning back to the tv.
I let out a laugh and turn my head back to the movie. I snuggle closer to her as the movie played.
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After the movie ended I got up and stretched. "Can you go turn the light on?" I ask her. "Oh yeah no problem". As the light turns on I walk over to the tv and take the movie out.
I get up and put the vhs back in box. I'm not really paying attention and next thing i know i bump right into robin.
Dropping the vhs onto the floor I feel robin grab onto my arms to stabilize us. After taking a couple deep breaths I look into her eyes and something in me just cant take it anymore.
I just need a little more. So I lean in closing the space between us. It turns out to just be a small peck but even that sent me into an automatic panic mood.
I lower my head so i don't have to face her. But then i feel her hand rise and rest on the right side of my face.
She whispers "it's ok...i promise" as i feel her hand slide from my cheek to my chin and slowly raise my head up.
I look back into her eyes and I can start to feel my eyes become glossy.
Noticing her face moving closer to mine I make the trip shorter and I kiss her. For what feels like the first time ever in my life I genuinely don't care in the best way possible.
All I can think about is the fact that I am kissing robin fucking buckley again. I am full on kissing robin buckley in my living room.
After a couple seconds we part from each other taking in our own deep breaths.
Slowly I back away from her and sit back down on the couch. She slowly follows after me. I ghost my fingers over my lips.
"I need to sit down" Robin says moving to the couch. "You okay?" I ask. "Yeah...just do you want to do this?" Robin ask gesturing towards us.
"Oh yeah I want to I just....what happens after tonight?" I question.
I turn my head to face her but she's still looking down. "robin, just look at me" I tell here. Slowly she lifts her head up and runs her face behind her hands until they are under her chin.
She finally turns her head towards my mine and says "I don't know...i'm sorry I just don't know what will happen''.
All I can seem to do is just look her in the eyes but then I catch a glimpse of her lips.
Slowly I slide my head onto her shoulder and say "I guess will just have to wait and see won't we?" "Yeah I guess we will" she replies softly.
I remove my head from her shoulder and get up from the couch reaching my hand out for robin to grab. She takes it and I lead her back to my room.
After closing and locking the door to my room robin turns me around and kisses me.
She softly shoved me against my wall. She moves her hands into mine and our fingers intertwine with each others. She starts to kiss my jawline and neck but she stops herself and ask me "Do you want to do this?".
"yeah... but i've never done this before and I just-" "Its ok we can just stick to the kissing stuff" she says with a smile as she's returning to kiss me.
"But I want to do more than kissing...i...just....i'll say when to stop" I say before she can continue.
She gives me a confused at first but then shakes her head yes. As she starts to kiss my neck again I let out a small sigh of relief and to my surprise pleasure.
She removes her hands from mine and slid them down to the straps of my dress and pulled them off my shoulders. I slid the dress onto the ground leaving me in just the sweater and underwear I'm wearing underneath.
She slides her hands up from my hips to under my sweater and up to my boobs. A moan came out of my mouth as she gripped them softly.
she removes her mouth from my neck and looks at me. She smirks and connects her mouth with mine. I put my arms over her shoulders and interlock my hands together behind her back.
We fall into sync with each other so easily its almost like melted butter. She puts her hands on my ass and lifts me up.
I jump up and interlock my legs together behind her back. Her grip on me drives me crazy in the best way. She walks us over to my bed and lays me down gently.
She pulls herself up and takes her shirt off. It felt like my mouth went dry the second she had it of. I move my hands to the hem of my shirt and pull it up and over my head.
As I through it onto my floor robin bends down and kisses me. I close my eyes and melt into the kiss. I feel her hands rome all over me until they reach the waist band of my underwear
But my chest grows tight and I stop functioning, I try to break through it but all I can do Is stay still.
"Angela you okay?" Robin ask quietly. "It's not your fault... I just haven't done this before... and I really want but I just.. i'm sorry" I say as.
"Hey don't blame yourself you're just not ready and that's ok" She says as she pulls me in for a hug. "But I really like you...are you sure?" I say unsure.
She pulls me away from the hug and says "Yes i'm sure...we don't ever have to do this ok?". "okay" I say, a smile forming on my face.
She looks at me for a few seconds then kisses me on my forehead. "now let's get some sleep...im getting tired" she says.
"Wait I need to wipe my makeup off and get ready" I give her a quick peck on the lips before getting up and heading to closet.
"What do you mean get ready?" "Robin ask confused. It then hits me that she's never seen how i look when I sleep. "You know what I'm just gonna show you" I say."
I grab plaid shorts and a white tank top and walk into the bathroom. I through the rest of the costume onto the ground and put my pj's on.
I open up the cupboard under the sink and pull out the make-up remover.
Once I get the makeup off I rinse over my face with water, and put a bonnet over my hair, I grab my costume and walk out the bathroom into my room.
I walk In to find robin asleep on her back and still in her old clothes.
I put my costume with the rest of my dirty laundry. I walk over to robin and nudge her a little to wake her up.
She opens her eyes and gives me a look. Not of judgement but rather appreciation. "What?" I ask. "You look so beautiful" She says before pulling me in for a kiss.
After a couple seconds we part.
She groggily says "what's wrong?" "You're still wearing jeans" I whisper back to her.
"Oh shit...I really am tired" she laughs. I get up and grab a pair of sweats and walk back to her. "Here you go" "thanks" she replies almost asleep.
I back up and turn around to give her space. When I hear her shuffle back into my bed I turn back around. She's lifts my cover up and ask "You coming?".
I smile and hopped into bed. Before I turn over away from her she kisses me.
It leaves me with the biggest smile on my face. I turn over and feel her arm slide over stomach.
For the first time in a long time I fall asleep happy.