the saturday after
Robin's pov:
I wake up with my arm still warped around angela. But during the night she had shifted to where her body faced me instead of her back.
The sunlight from her window made her skin glisten like she's got glitter over her.
She's so effortlessly beautiful. And the fact that I get a front row view is the cherry on top.
Her yellow plaid bed comforter warped around us added another layer of warmth and happiness. For a small moment I swear I died and went to heaven.
I can barely believe anything that happened yesterday actually happened. Even right now I have a hard time believing that this is even happening.
That's until angela starts to wake up.
She rubs her eyes and stretches out. I pull my arm away and give her space to do so.
"Good Morning" I say to her. She slowly turns towards me and says "Good Morning... I would totally kiss you right now but I have to brush my teeth". I laugh as she starts to get up and head to the bathroom.
I sit myself up and look around her room. In full sunlight I could see all the small details I never noticed before.
How she had what seemed like a whole library of books on the opposite side of the room.
Then I saw her record collection sitting next to her record player and got curious. I hopped out of her bed and walked over and sat next to the records.
She had artist like etta james, prince, dolly parton, and new edition. "God you like a lot of music" I say still looking through them.
"Thanks" I hear from behind me making me jump. "Didn't mean to scare you" angela says as I get up from my spot and walk over to her. I slid my hands over her waist and say "It's ok".
Right before I could kiss her angela's mom is calling us for breakfast. She jumps out of my hands and scratches the back of her neck.
I step back giving her space and say "Let's get some breakfast, I am starving". I walk out of her room and into the living room.
"Hey robin" Jack says sitting a plate of pancakes on the dining table. "Hey jack" I say sitting in one of the empty chairs.
"Hey robin I cooked some breakfast if your hungry" angel's mom says to me from the kitchen. "Oh thank you but I'm not hungry" I say.
Angela comes out with a plate of waffles and bacon. She sits in the seat next to jack and eats her waffles.
Angela's mom comes in with two plates and sits one in front of me along with a fork. I look to her surprised.
I look at the plate to find bacon, scrambled eggs and sausage. "I said-" I try to get out. "I know but your a guest you should eat" angela's mom says before eating her food.
I smile before digging in. I don't realize how fast i'm eating until jack says "Make sure to breath, they food isn't going anywhere". I swallow my food and laugh.
After a couple minutes I finished my food and stood up from my seat. I pick up my empty plate and fork and walk to the kitchen sink.
I wash off my dishes. "Ms.brown where should I put the dishes?" I ask. "You can just leave them in the sink" angela's mom says from the dining table.
I sit them in the sink and dry my hands off with my shirt. I walk out the kitchen and walk over to the living room.
I sit on the couch and just wait. It's like all the memories from yesterday just flash into my mind. I close my eyes and hope my face doesn't show what I'm thinking.
I hear from behind me angela's mom say "Hey angela I'm gonna go run a couple errands today, jack you're coming".
I look over to the hallway to find lila walk out and over to me. She jumps onto my lap after rubbing her head against my legs.
I look up to try and find angela. "Is she aloud on the couch?" I ask. Angela smiles at me before walking over and saying "No and she knows that".
She picks up lila and sits her on the ground. She walks over to the tv and picks up the remote.
She turns the tv on and sits on the opposite side of the couch. I try to through it out of my mind. We're around her family so it makes since but they know we're friends.
I look from her as she stares at the tv and whatevers playing and back to the tv. We sit in silence for whoever knows how long. It's tense and neither of us makes a move.
It's not to long after jack and angela's mom walk out the front door and me and angela are left in that tense silence.
"I'm gonna go use the bathroom" I say before getting up from my spot.
Angela doesn't say anything before grabbing my hand and pulling me down to kiss her.
I'm confused so I pull away slowly and walk off to the bathroom.
Angela's pov:
"Fuck" I whisper to myself when robin leaves. I'm fucking this whole thing up I can just feel it.
After a couple minutes robin comes back but doesn't sit down.
I look up to her and before I can even get a word out "Angela what's going on?" Robin ask me. "What?" I ask.
"This morning you acted like anything happened last night never did and I understand If it's because your family but even when it's just us you just shy away. If you don't want to keep this going that's ok just tell me" Robin says.
For a moment I'm shooked how could she think that. "Of course I want...It's just hard to explain robin" I say. "Come on angela" Robin says before sighing.
I get up from the couch and walk out of the living room and in to my room. Robin follows close behind me.
"I like you a lot angela but I just want to know why" Robin says to me. "Why what robin? Why what?" I don't mean to raise my voice but I do and regret sets in as I did.
"What happened? why can't you tell me" robin asks "The real reason we moved here" I say exhausted. I turn away from her and put my hands on the sides of my head.
"My dad found these playboy mags in my room one day and just everything went to shit after that. He flipped out on me and mom for defending me." I take a breath rubbing my hands over my eyes and turning back towards her.
"The thing was they weren't even mine. An old friend of mine stole them and I took them and hid them so he wouldn't get caught.... But when my dad found them there wasn't even a point to try and explain"
"There never was when it came to him.... my mom worried as always found a new job as far away from north Carolina that she could find." I take a deep breath trying not to cry.
"And even though they don't want to admit it, all of this is my fault. Jack having to leave his friends and school, mom having to leave her job, everyone I care about having to leave their life they had...I just...I just can't make another person leave because I fucked upped" I say as tears fall down my cheek.
Robin pulls me into a hug and rubs my back. "None of that is your fault" "yes it is" I say without missing a beat.
"Believe me seeing the way i've seen this family from my point of view it's obvious it's not" She says trying to comfort me.
"Let's go sit on your bed" she whispers and we start to move towards my bed. I sit down and place my hands on my forehead.
Robin sits criss cross in front of me placing her hands on my knees.
We sit in silence until robin gets up and grabs a box from my desk. She sits back in front of me and says "Tell me about this picture".
I look up wiping away my tears and laugh seeing the picture. "That was jack's 3rd birthday party he had thrown the cake onto the ground and tried to eat it..." I say feeling better.
"How about this one?" She ask holding up another.
I smile and say "That's me when I was 4 or 5 my mom made me the dress and my dad took the photo...I loved that dress and since it took me forever to grow I got to wear it all the time".
"And this one? is it you?" Robin ask pulling out another photo. A smile settles on my face as I start to explain. "No, no it's my mom on her 19th birthday, an ex boyfriend of hers took it."
"They went to his lake house and he got her a cake and a gold necklace with her name on it... she doesn't think I know but she still keeps it in her jewelry box...I can only hope for someone to love me like that" I say.
"Like even after it's been years I still hold a place in your heart" I say.
"Believe me you already do." Robin says looking up at me as I look at the picture. I turn to her and she lifts her hand to my cheek. I smile and kiss her. As we kiss I lay the picture to my side.
She gets up from the ground and slides her hand on my back. She pulls away and smiles.
She kisses me again and we lay on my bed. She slides her hands on my hips and rolls us around so im on top of her.
Before I could go in for another kiss I hear mom's car pull up in the driveway. I lower my head and roll off robin.
We lay side by side in the silence. She moved her hand into mine and for a moment I felt something I couldn't explain.
It's more than happiness and peace and safety. It's all that and so much more when it comes to her. It feels dumb to say or think anything I am since we've only been together for less than 24 hours.
But then again there was that day in the summer in steve's car. But did that even count.
"Hey robin" I say. "Yeah?" She ask. "I'm sorry for everything" I say getting up and walking over to my polaroid camera.
"It's ok" She says sitting up. I take a quick pic of her as she looks out the window.
The sunshine from the window made her face glow and her white shirt and messed up hair pulled it all together in a way you'd have to see to believe.
I shake the picture and wait for the full picture to form. "Hey robin I can drive you home when you're ready to go" mom says walking in to my room.
Robin looks from my mom to me and back at my mom. "Thank you ma'am I'll be ready in few" She says to mom.
Mom walks out and into her room. I look back at the picture and smile to myself. "I shouldn't have treated you the way I did, I'm sorry" I say to robin sitting the picture on my desk.
"Like I said it's ok I promise" She says getting up from my bed. She walks over to me and picks up the picture from behind me.
She doesn't say anything just smiles and sits it down before kissing me on my cheek.
I move my hand up to her cheek and kiss her. It's long and sweet. But she pulls away.
"I gotta go soon" She says holding my hands. "I know but actions speak louder than words sooo" I say before kissing her again.
She smiles into the kiss and wraps her hands around my hips. I put my arms over her shoulders and slide myself onto my desk.
She pulls away and I can still feel the heat on my lips as heat rises to my cheeks. "I'm gonna go change and put my shoes on" she says.
"Why would you change?" I ask hopping off my desk. "Well I mean i'm wearing your clothes so" She says about to take her top off.
"No it's fine keep them" I say stopping her. She smiles to me and kisses me before grabbing her shoes and putting them on.
We stand waiting for the other to do something. She comes up to me and hugs me. I close my eyes and embrace her.
"You're acting like i'm going off to war" She says before we pull away and she grabs her bag.
I laugh and follow her out of my room. "Ms.brown I'm ready" She says to my mom when we get to her room.
"Ok just let me grab my shoes and keys and I'll be ready" mom says getting up from her bed.
I move my arm over robin's shoulders as we walk into the living room.
I pull her in for one last hug as mom walks in behind us.
We part and she walks out of the front door with mom.
I walk out to the sun almost below the horizon and the sky a dark blue.
I watch as robin puts her bike in the trunk of moms car and they get in.
I wave to her and she waves back as they back out of the driveway.
I walk back inside and lock the door. "So you guys are dating now?" Jack ask from the living room.
"Yeah we are" I say before walking into my room.
I pick up the picture I took of her. It's like my whole body is filled with happiness when I see it.
It's weird to say it but god damn it felt like I found my person. It's barely been a day so it's dumb so I won't, But damn it's felt like since I met her she's been the one.
Maybe she is but It's been a day and I need to calm down.