Behind A Shattered Mask Lies A Broken Girl
Sam and Dean stayed for dinner. Jody came in with wine. She started to hand me a glass but Dean snatched it away.
"Ah ah ah, nope, you aren't getting any. Jody, please make sure she doesn't drink any alcohol."
Of course, a shared look of confusion filled the table.
"Did you two actually explain to Jody why I'm here? Or just the bare minimum?"
"No, we didn't think you'd want us to."
I frowned at Sam and threw a glare at Dean.
"Oh, I see. But was that really the reason?"
Sam started to speak but I stopped him.
"Or was it the fact you didn't want to explain that I have nightmares to which I wake up from screaming? That after almost 6 months I still suffer from them, that you sideline me from hunts, leaving me completely alone? That one night after sidelining me and waking up from a nightmare, I decided enough was enough, that since I was alone you would be too late? That I tried drinking and overdosing before attempting to slit my wrists? That you guys were lucky to have been close to home?" At this point I was standing up, shouting.
"Do you think I'm such a screw up even Jody wouldn't want to take me in with full knowledge as to why? Fuck you! Both of you!"
I went to the door stormed out. Then I ran to get distance from them. After I felt it was a good distance, my pace slowed to a walk. Before I knew it, my feet had guided me to the place that felt most like home and where I could always go to release some steam.
Bobby Singers.
But that place was nothing but a burnt shell of a house and an abandoned automotive scrap yard.
It was like that because of the Leviathan, because of Dick Roman. They burned Bobby's house down, Dick Roman shot Bobby in the head. It wasn't lethal at first, but no doctor could ever save someone from that.
My knees buckled beneath me. I fell to the ground. The Talia I made everyone see and believe to be true was just a mask. I wasn't that girl, I never was. I've continued to wear it all these years, but now, that mask shattered, revealing the empty shell that is all I am.
Broken
Hollow
Cracked
Chipped
Empty
Scarred
Worthless
Now, that mask shattered, revealing that inside, I'm already dead. Everyone can see me now. Everyone can see me now, no, no I can't let them.