Painful
Painful
Xiao is currently in a coffee shop in China, sitting in a table for three while her manager is sitting on the other table not too far from her. Xiao keeps on looking at her phone, hoping that she'll recieve a phone call or a text message from Eunseo but she recieved nothing. Xiao really wants to contact Eunseo, to see her face and hear her voice but she's scared.
After Eunseo hugged her and cried with her last time, Xiao thought Eunseo finally remembered their past memories but she's wrong cause after Eunseo calmed down, she started ignoring Xiao's existence once again.
Xiao wants to cry, slap Eunseo and tell her all the bad words that she deserves but Xiao can't do it. She really loves Eunseo that she can't stop loving her even if doing it keeps on killing her inside.
"Are you okay, Xiao Xiao?"
Xiao noticed Meiqi now sitting on the chair across her. She was so lost in her thoughts that she didn't noticed Meiqi's arrival.
"I'm fine, Meiqi. Where's Xuanyi unnie?" Xiao asked.
"She said she has some other things to do today so she can't make it." Meiqi said. Xiao just nodded her head then looked on the glass wall. Meiqi knows what's troubling her mind. "Everything will be alright, Xiao Xiao. Stop worrying, okay?"
Xiao sighed heavily. "When will everything be alright, Meiqi? How long will I keep on hurting like this?"
Meiqi took a glance on their managers having a nice chat on the other table. She then looked back at Xiao then hold her right hand. "True love can always wait, right? I know you can do it, Chengxiao."
Xiao looked at Meiqi with tears on her eyes. "But I'm scared. What if even though Eunseo finally recovered her lost memories with me, she will still choose to end our relationship? What if...after she recovered, she will still stay in love with Bona unnie instead of me?"
Meiqi sighed then gently wiped Xiao's tears with a tissue. "Be positive, okay? We both know that Eunseo really loves you so much."
"If that's true, why her mind choose to forget me? They said it's hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember. Does it mean I didn't gave Eunseo so much memories that's why she forgot me easily?" Xiao can't stop thinking out loud. She's really scared and frustrated thinking about her uncertain future with Eunseo. "How could she fell in love with Bona unnie if I'm still the one inside her heart? This is too much, Meiqi."
"Don't think like that, Xiao Xiao. We do not know what's really going on in Eunseo's mind that her own brain did it's own job to shut it just to save herself." Meiqi said making Xiao more sad thinking about Eunseo's suffering. "They said forgetting is a survival mechanism but we shouldn't give up especially you. We need to do something to bring back our Eunseo even if that process will hurt us so much."
Xiao bit her lower lip, trying hard to stop herself from bursting into tears. She really wants to help Eunseo, to bring back the happy, loud and energetic Eunseo of WJSN but this battle is too painful.
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Eunseo just woke up from her nap when she noticed Bona standing on the balcony. She walked closer to her and watched Bona looking so lost in her own thoughts.
Eunseo still felt guilty for blaming Bona last time. She felt mad at herself too cause she caused a misunderstanding between Bona and Xiao. This is all her fault. Xiao and especially Bona are both innocent, they don't deserve suffering because of her stupid acts.
Eunseo backhugged Bona then started crying. "I'm so sorry, Bona unnie. I'm sorry for falling in love with you."
Bona sighed then released herself from Eunseo. She turned around to face Eunseo who suddenly captured her lips in a long deep kiss. Bona will admit that she loves tasting Eunseo's lips but she knows to herself that what their doing isn't right. They are just flirting, more like cheating to Xiao.
Bona pushed Eunseo away from her then slapped her face. "Stop it! Stop confusing my heart, Eunseo. We can't do this. I can't fall in love with you because of Seongso. This is so wrong."
"I already broke up with Seongso. We are not cheating on her if that's what you think we're doing right now. I am now in love with you, Bona unnie." Eunseo said sincerely. But she can't understand the pain in her heart as her stupid mind reminded her of Xiao's pretty face all of a sudden.
Bona shook her head. "No. Stop saying that you love me not until you finally remembered Seongso's real place in your heart, Son Juyeon." She felt tears rolling down from her eyes and she hates being so weak in front of Eunseo. "You are not really in love with me. You are just using me as a bandage from all the pains and confusions that Seongso is giving you. Don't tell me you love not until you finally recovered all of your lost memories with your ex lover. I don't deserve being a rebound, Son Juyeon!"
Bona run away from Eunseo then exit their dorm leaving Eunseo alone. Eunseo realized that Bona is right in everything she said making Eunseo felt more guilty and mad at herself.
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Eunseo went to the rooftop deck of the building where their dorms are. She looked on the sky and realized that the sun was about to set soon.
Eunseo smiled bitterly. "Sunset proves that endings can be beautiful too. Can we hide in this world together, Mr. Sun? I don't think I can take this pain any longer."
Eunseo carefully climbed up on the railing. She felt scared seeing the small town, the building is too high. Tears started rolling down from her eyes as she carefully walked even more closer to the edge.
"Son Juyeon!"
Eunseo looked behind her when she heard a familiar voice calling her name but her vision is starting to get blurry and her mind seems in haze. She felt dizzy when she heard different voice this time.
"Don't do this. Don't give up, Eunseo!"
Eunseo shouted in pain when flashbacks started running in her mind again. It was too painful that she lost balance and fell.
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A/N: No! Eunseo-ya! Please be safe. :-[ Don't forget to share me your thoughts. Thanks for reading.