Save Me
The WJSN other dorm is currently in chaos. Their cook Eunseo is still not yet home and Seola keeps on saying that she wants to make a bread making her members scared for their dear lives. Seola baking or even cooking doesn't sound like a good idea for everyone of them.
"Why don't we just help her in baking? I think it's much better than listening to her whining about baking breads." Yeoreum whispered to the Chinity while they are blocking the kitchen door.
Meiqi groaned. "Why don't we just order online? I'll pay no matter how much it is."
Yeoreum and even Seola felt happy hearing that from Meiqi making the chaos finally end. Xiao is still tired from crying late at night so she just sleep back on the floor while Xuanyi planned to sneak out and go to Bona's dorm. She wants to spent time with her princess as much as possible.
Xuanyi almost screamed when the door opened, good thing she didn't hit Eunseo who looked at her with a blank look on her face.
"What's wrong, Eunseo? Is there a problem?" Xuanyi asked concerned.
Eunseo ignored her and was about to enter her bedroom when she noticed Xiao lying down the floor. Eunseo groaned when she felt her head aching again.
Xiao opened her eyes and saw Eunseo standing a few steps away from her. She was so happy to saw her that she hurriedly run to her and hug her tight.
"What took you so long, Eunseo? I really missed you." Xiao said between her sobs.
"I missed you too, Seongso. But...what is this I'm feeling? Why it seems like my heart is aching because of you? Why loving you is hurting me so much, Cheng Xiao?" Eunseo whispered making Xiao pulled away from her then looked straight in her crying eyes.
"I'm so sorry for causing you this pain, Eunseo. If only I can, I will took all the pains of yours. I love you so much, Son Juyeon." Xiao said cupping Eunseo's cheeks. She slowly leaned closer to capture Eunseo's lips making Xuanyi panicked when Seola, Meiqi and Yeoreum was about to exit the kitchen.
"There was a cockroach!" Xuanyi shouted making her members except Eunseo screamed then jumped in fear. The door opened again and the WJSN members living on the other dorm entered in a hurry.
"What's going on? Why are you making a lot of noises?" Exy asked.
"Cockroach!" Meiqi shouted making the newly came members shouted too then jumped in fear.
"Where is it? What are you waiting for? Do something, Eunseo and Xuanyi unnie!" Luda shouted while clinging on Dawon's back.
Eunseo looked at Xuanyi who obviously looks so nervous right now. "The cockroach is gone. I saw it flew away outside the window just a while ago." Eunseo said calmly and Xuanyi confirmed it too.
Well, they are both lying though. Eunseo knows Xuanyi just shouted that to distract their members so they won't caught her and Xiao almost kissing.
The other members finally calmed down. Dayoung decided to prepare foods for them since Eunseo just went home and Meiqi felt relieved. She's sure that Seola esp Yeoreum can really order a lot of foods online. It's not like money is a problem to her but still.
Eunseo felt pain on her head again. This time, it was too painful that she shouted in pain and almost fell down the floor if Xiao and Xuanyi didn't hold her in time.
"What's wrong, Eunseo? Yah! Did you drink a lot of alcohol last night?" Bona scolded Eunseo.
Eunseo wants to laugh cause Bona is acting like a boss again despite her being small but Eunseo felt her heart aching too while looking at her. Eunseo is so confused in what she really feels for Bona and most of all, she's afraid to say that Bona is just playing with her own feelings.
"You are just like my pill, Bona unnie." Eunseo said making her members shut their mouths then listen to her. "You know why? Because instead of making me better, you keep on making me ill!"
Bona widen her eyes in surprise then looked down the floor. Xuanyi hurriedly stand next to her then hold her waist.
"What the hell are you talking about, Eunseo?" Soobin asked making Seola covered her mouth.
Eunseo then looked at Xiao. "And you, Seongso. I thought you will be my cure but no, you are just like a disease that's spreading into me. I thought you will be the one to save me but you were the one who are killing me inside, Cheng Xiao Xiao!"
Xiao felt tears rolling down from her eyes. She was so hurt hearing those words from Eunseo. "Really? Is that what you think of me? Am I really killing you instead of saving you, Eunseo?"
Eunseo felt her heart breaking into pieces watching Xiao crying in front of her. She was about to hold Xiao in her arms when Exy hold her wrist then forced her to face her.
"What is wrong with you, Eunseo? How dare you blame Bona and Seongso? Stop acting like you are the only one suffering because of your condition. It's not only you but all of us!" Exy shouted while glaring at Eunseo. Dawon and Luda forced her to hold off of Eunseo.
Eunseo felt more guilty. She run into her room then locked the door. She felt so pathetic for blaming Xiao and Bona. She doesn't know why she had Dissociative amnesia, she can't remember any possible cause of it.
Eunseo can't help but blame herself. Maybe, she deserves suffering like this. Maybe, her condition right now is the punishment in all of her stupid acts before.
She deserves this pain. This is all her fault.
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Xiao is standing on the balcony while continuosly crying. Meiqi is just standing a few steps behind, keeping an eye on her.
"Why this happened to Eunseo and I? Why us?" Xiao asked while gripping hard on the railing. "Is this really my fault, Meiqi? Am I really the one at fault here?"
"No way. If there is someone who should be blamed here, it should be Eunseo and not you, Xiao Xiao." Meiqi said making Xiao looked at her with a scary glare. "Well, I think...Eunseo's mental health is weak. It doesn't mean she's crazy, okay? What I'm trying to say is her mental condition isn't healthy that's why she can't control her emotions well. Maybe, she can't manage her stress well that her mind just choose to shut off cause she didn't allow it to rest."
"Maybe you're right but...I love Eunseo. I have to take responsibilty in this situation because I want to save her." Xiao said seriously.
"Well, Hippocrates, the father of medicine said that before you heal someone, ask him if he's willing to give up the things that made him sick." Meiqi said making Xiao frowned at her. "I think we can save Eunseo if we can convince her to let go of her unhealthy thoughts."
"What if...I'm one of her unhealthy thoughts? Maybe that's the reason why her mind selectively erased her memories with me." Xiao said while sobbing. Meiqi bit her lower lip, she felt guilty because of her words of wisdom. "But I don't want to let Eunseo go. I want to stay with her and love her forever. I can't imagine my life without Eunseo anymore, Meiqi."
Meiqi hugged Xiao tightly as the latter cried her heart out. Bona is leaning her back on the wall, silently listening to Xiao and Meiqi's talk.
She felt guilty for confusing Eunseo's heart, for having playful kisses with her and she felt more guilty for taking Xiao's place in Eunseo's life.
Bona is just an unnie for Eunseo, a lovable unnie who will do what is right for the sake of her dongsaengs. Bona should do what is right even though it involves breaking her own heart.
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Xiao is already lying on her bed, she's not yet asleep when she felt someone crawling into her bed. Xiao can't be mistaken of that familiar scent, it only belongs to her other half.
Xiao remain on her position, backfacing Eunseo who is now lying next to her while backhugging her. Xiao felt so happy being this close to Eunseo but she just pretended to sleep, fearing that Eunseo will run away again from her.
"I'm sorry for being so weak, Seongso. I'm sorry for blaming you for my weaknesses. You don't deserve this. You don't deserve the Eunseo now, yeobo." Eunseo whispered while crying silently.
Xiao can't hold back anymore. She faced Eunseo then captured her lips in a long deep kiss. She pulled away then wiped Eunseo's tears with the back of her hand. "Don't say that. I'm not mad at you and I don't hate the Eunseo now. You are still my Eunseo no matter what happens."
Xiao placed Eunseo's hand on her left chest then smiled. "My heart knows you everytime. It doesn't matter if you're the Eunseo from the past,the Eunseo from the future or the Eunseo now. You are still my Eunseo no matter what."
"Help me. Save me. Love me, Cheng Xiao Xiao." Eunseo said.Xiao nodded her head then captured Eunseo's lips once more.
Xiao really wants to save Eunseo from this cruel world. If only she can, she will ask Eunseo to run away with her, away from the judging eyes of people who can't understand their love story. Xiao promised to herself that she'll do everything to protect Eunseo. She's willing to give up everything just live a happy life together with Eunseo someday.
A/N: Are you excited for WJSN comeback soon? Same! Anyways. Feel free to leave a feedback. Thanks for reading.