Torture
Bona was surprised when she was greeted by Xuanyi's warm hug the moment she opened the door of their dorm. She and Eunseo had no idea that the Chinity will visit them today.
"What's wrong? You look stressed, Bona." Xuanyi said as her right hand rested on Bona's waist. She really missed the smaller girl.
Bona forced a smile even though she knew Xuanyi can tell it is forced. She doesn't want to worry her members esp the maknaes who are always lively.
"Is it about Eunseo? What did the doctor tell?" Xuanyi whispered knowing that Bona doesn't want to worry their members.
Before Bona can respond, she noticed Chengxiao walked closer to Eunseo who just entered the dorm. Chengxiao looks so happy as she circled her hands on Eunseo's neck.
"Surprise! Did you miss me?" Xiao asked with a bright smile. Eunseo smiled back at her but Xiao can feel that Eunseo looks tensed. "What's wrong? Tell me that you can finally remember our precious memories. Please, Eunseo?"
Everyone fell into silence and just watching Eunxiao who's staring into each others eyes. Eunseo doesn't want to make Chengxiao cry but she really wants to ask a lot of questions to her.
"How can I do that if my mind choose to forget you? Until now, I can't remember all of my past moments with you, Seongso. I'm sorry." Eunseo said sincerely. She felt ChengXiao's hold on her neck slowly loosened so she tried to cupped her cheeks but before she do it, a hard slap landed on her right cheek.
Their members are all surprised esp Bona and Exy who run closer between them. Exy stood next to Chengxiao while Bona stood next to Eunseo who is still in shock.
"Maknaes, go to your room now." Exy commanded but the 99line are still watching them. "I said go to your own rooms. Now!"
Seola, Dawon and Soobin helped forcing the younger members to go to their bedrooms even though they whined telling that they want to help. Luda took a glance at Eunxiao first before following the other members away. The only people left on the living room are Exy, Bona, Eunseo and the Chinity.
"How long will you keep on torturing me like this? Why do you keep on telling me that you can't remember your past with me? Why only with me?!" Xiao cried making both Exy and Meiqi rubbed her back comfortingly. "Why are you doing this to me? What have I done to you, Eunseo?"
"Can't you remember what have you done to Eunseo before she lost her memories, Seongso? You are the one who should answer that and not Eunseo. What the fxck u did to her that her mind chose to forget you?" Bona said finally losing her control.
Everyone felt surprised because of Bona's choice of words making Exy reminded her about "No cursing rule" in the dorm. Chengxiao recovered then glared at Bona who glared back at her while Eunseo and Xuanyi are holding both of her arms.
"What are you talking about, Bona unnie? Are you telling me that the reason why Eunseo can't remember me is because I did something wrong to her? Is that what you're trying to say, Kim Jiyeon?" Xiao said trying hard not to shout at Bona.
"Yeah. That's true. Maybe you did something so bad to Eunseo that her mind chose to forget you instead of dealing with the problem who is you, Seongso." Bona said making other girls confused. She took a long deep sigh then continued. "We went to the doctor a while ago and you know what? Eunseo is suffering from Dissociative Amnesia, a form of amnesia caused physically by an event where something so distressing occurs that the mind chooses to forget rather than deal with the stress!"
The rest except Eunseo frowned cause that condition is unfamiliar to them. Chengxiao processed in her mind everything that Bona said, her heart aches when she realized something.
"What? So Eunseo's mind chose to forget me because I've caused her too much pain? Are you saying that I tortured her feelings that her mind chooses to forget about me instead?" Xiao asked with tears rolling down from her eyes. She can't believe this is possible and she can't believe it more that she hurted Eunseo so much that her mind choose to delete everything about Chengxiao just to save her.
Meiqi sighed then tightly hold Chengxiao's right hand. "I think fighting over this in front of Eunseo will only make her condition worse. Let's talk about this next time after we all had enough rest."
Before some members agree, Chengxiao run away then entered Seola and Eunseo's bedroom. Eunseo sighed then excused herself as she followed Chengxiao.
Bona closed her eyes tightly while taking long deep breaths making Xuanyi secured her in a back hug. Exy looked on the other room then noticed her supposedly 'hiding on their room' members peeking at them on the doorway.
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Xiao is lying on Eunseo's bed while crying when Eunseo entered the bedroom. Eunseo slowly sat on the bed, lay next to Chengxiao then hold her in her arms. Maybe she can't remember Chengxiao but she can't stop herself from caring for the said girl.
"I'm sorry, Xiao Xiao." Eunseo whispered in Chengxiao's ears.
Chengxiao looked at her then hugged her tight. "No. I'm sorry. This is all my fault. I'm so sorry for putting you in this condition, Eunseo. I'm really sorry."
"What really happened between us before the accident? Did we fight? Why did this happened to me, Seongso?" Eunseo asked hoping that Xiao will finally tell her everything that happened to them before but Xiao remain silent. "What is it? Can you tell me? Please?"
Xiao took a long deep sigh then shook her head. "How can I tell you if I don't know what to say? I can't remember any misunderstanding we had before. As far as I remember, we are always on good terms, Eunseo."
Eunseo frowned." Are you sure? Then how did this happened to me?"
"Stop stressing yourself over this. Everything will be alright soon. I'm sure your condition won't be permanent so we just have to wait for you to get better. For now, stop thinking about the past if we can just make new memories together, Eunseo." Xiao said with a smile before capturing Eunseo's lips.
Eunseo just let herself get lost in Chengxiao's kisses but at the back of her mind, she feels that Chengxiao is keeping a secret to her.
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