Suspicions
WJSN made a comeback with the song "Boogie Up", the song became popular and gave their group 4 music show wins. Everyone are happy esp Chinity line who currently did a video chat with them on their dorm. They had fun congratulating and teasing each others but Chengxiao noticed Eunseo is not that lively and avoiding eye contact with her on the screen.
"Did you miss me, Eunseo?" Xiao suddenly asked while Bona and Xuanyi are telling how much they missed shopping together.
Eunseo looked on the laptop screen then saw Chengxiao smiling brightly at her with Meiqi and Xuanyi on each of her sides. Their members fell into silence thinking that Eunxiao will finally had conversation thru this video chat but Eunseo just dryly relied. "Yes. I miss you and also Meiqi and Xuanyi unnie."
Chengxiao felt her heart aching again. She became very busy in China but she knows that she did her best to communicate with Eunseo thru phone even though most of it are just online chats. There's no way that Eunseo can forget about her again.
"Is there something wrong? I thought everything between us is better now. Exy unnie even told me that your memory is better now. You are no longer suffering from temporary amnesia, right?" Xiao asked with her eyes fixed to Eunseo who sat next to Bona but eyes are looking down the floor. "Don't you dare say that you can't still remember anything about me esp about us, Son Juyeon."
Their members excused themselves and was about to leave Eunseo alone on the living room but stopped their steps when they heard what Eunseo said.
"Can't we just make new memories together? I keep on pushing myself to remember you but I can't. I can't remember any single thing about you esp the things you said to me before you left last month. I ...I can't remember any single thing about you, about us. I'm so sorry, Seongso."
Their members can't beleive what's going on. Eunseo is no longer suffering from partial amnesia as the doctor said the last time she had a check-up but why can't she still remember Chengxiao? Why only Chengxiao?
Eunseo looked on the laptop's monitor then saw Chengxiao crying while Meiqi and Xuanyi are comforting her. Eunseo hates herself for making Chengxiao cry but she can't lie to her saying that she can finally remember her esp their secret love affair.
"Why? Why are you doing this to me? Did I do something wrong to you? How could you do this to me, Eunseo?!" Xiao shouted in frustration making her members run back to where the laptop is then asked her to calm down.
Bona looked at Eunseo then studied her facial expression. She knows Eunseo too well and she can tell that Eunseo is really guilty but she's not really lying right now.
"I love you and you said you love me too. You also made a lot of promises to me before I left but...why are you doing this to me? Why did your stupid mind choose to forget me? Why me?!" Xiao cried then run away making Meiqi chased after her. Xuanyi looks so worried but remained sitting on her spot.
"Please keep an eye on Seongso very well with Meiqi, Xuanyi. Let's end this video chat now but don't forget to inform us anything about Seongso, okay?" Exy said worriedly but still keeping her composure. She's the leader and she doesn't want to look weak esp for the maknaes.
Xuanyi said goodbyes to her members esp to Bona who keeps on rubbing Eunseo's back comfortingly then ended the video chat. Exy knows that her members esp the maknaes wanted to scold Eunseo so she hurriedly asked them to go back to their bedrooms but Eunseo is the one who run back to her own room.
Bona sighed. "Give me the key to your room, Seola unnie. I'll be the one to talk with Eunseo while you take care of the kids, Sojung."
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Eunseo is crying while sitting on her bed. She keeps on blaming herself for being so stupid. She can't use partial amnesia as an excuse for not remembering Chengxiao cause her doctor already confirmed that she's fine now. Maybe she should not lie and told her doctor that there is a special someone whom she can't remember her past with.
She can't understand how this happened. Why can't she remember Chengxiao? Why Chengxiao who told her that they are bestfriends? Why Chengxiao who always made her heart jumps whenever she's around? Why Chengxiao who told her they are really lovers but just keeping it secret to everyone even to their members and families to protect WJSN from criticisms? Why her mind choose to forget only about Chengxiao?
Eunseo heard knocks on the door then wiped her tears when the doorknob twisted. She glared at Bona who entered with keys on her hand. "Yah. I need privacy right now, Bona unnie."
"In your state right now, I won't suggest for you to stay alone. You need someone to talk to and give some sense on your stupid mind, Son Juyeon." Bona said cooly then locked the door. She sat on Seola's bed then looked at Eunseo. "Now, you can tell me everything. I will listen to you first before scolding you, don't worry."
Eunseo scoffed. "You? Stop acting smart, Kim Jiyeon."
"I don't need to act if I'm already smart. Now, tell me your excuses for making Seongso cry a while ago before I smack your head, Eunseo." Bona said with her arms crossed. She's just acting cool but she's really worried for Eunxiao esp to Eunseo.
Eunseo sighed. "Everything I said a while ago are all true. I hate to admit it but...I can't really remember anything about Seongso. What I can only recall are the moments we've shared after I'm discharged from the hospital and was welcomed in this dorm. All of my past memories with her before the accident, I can't really remember it no matter how hard I try, Bona unnie."
Bona can't explain what's going on with Eunseo. She watched a lot of TV shows and movies about amnesia and she knows that their stories won't really happen in real life but Eunseo's condition now is the most unbeleivable of them all.
"I hate this feeling. The feeling that my mind can't remember Seongso but I can always feel that my heart is aching for her. What's going on with me? What is this I'm experiencing, Bona unnie?" Eunseo asked then started crying again.
Bona sat next to her then hold Eunseo in her arms. "I don't know what to say, Eunseo. I'm not a doctor to explain what's happening to you. But as your unnie, I'll do my best to take care of you." She cupped Eunseo's face with her hands then stared into her eyes. "My only suggestion is we should see the doctor as soon as possible. I will accompany you, okay?"
Eunseo smiled then nodded her head. She really wants to know what's going on with her. She doesn't want to keep making Chengxiao cry. Eunseo knows that she hates seeing Chengxiao cry.
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"Why do you think this happened, Bona unnie? Why did my mind chose to forget Chengxiao, my bestfriend?" Eunseo asked Bona who's sitting across her in a coffee shop.
Eunseo doesn't like drinking coffee with an excuse that she can't fall asleep if she drink one but after the accident, Bona tricked her to drink coffee everyday so Eunseo get used to it without knowing that Bona is giving her decaffenated coffee so she can still fall asleep.
Bona wants to feel proud for making Eunseo immune to coffee but she's not in the mood to brag about it after she accompanied Eunseo to the doctor a while ago. Everything the doctor told them are all new facts to them and they can't beleived that's possible. Bona searched about it online thru her phone and she can't beleive the infos she've learned about that condition.
"I don't know, Eunseo. But this already happened so the only thing we can do is to help your stupid mind to remember your lost memories with Seongso." Bona said seriously. Her researches online gave her a lot of suspicions. "Can't you remember even just one moment of yours with Seongso? Did you two had a misunderstanding? Can't you remember...fighting with her?"
Eunseo frowned then squeezed her mind to remember any of her past moments with Chengxiao but she really can't.
Did they really fight before that her mind chose to permanently forget Chengxiao? Did something so distressing happened between them that her mind chose this kind of escape from the pain?
"Ah, this is so frustrating. How will I know the answer in my own questions if my own mind chose to forget about it? What shall I do?" Eunseo said in frustration while messing her hair so Bona softly scolded her making her stop.
"I think we should go home now. Stop stressing yourself about this. Besides, the doctor said your lost memory can still possibly comeback so stop forcing yourself or else, your condition will only get worse, Eunseo." Bona said while picking Eunseo up from her chair. She recieved a text message from Exy asking her about their doctor's appoinment and she hurriedly replied texting that they will just discuss it on the dorm. "We need to hurry now, Eunseo. Our members are waiting for us. Let's go home, big baby."
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