Musicalia

The week started off as normal as ever. Shouto spent the week talking with the others. Iida Uraraka and Aoyama. The only thing he seemed to notice was the fact that the song got slightly louder with each passing day. It was by much and he really didn’t notice it until three days of the song getting louder. He spent most of his week either studying with the others or studying alone with Izuku. Shouto hadn’t really realized it yet but he had been watching Izuku almost all week. He watched him just to see if his suspicion was right. And even if it wasn’t he noticed how his own heart would speed up at seeming Izuku happy or seeing Izuku smile at him.

 He had never really paid attention to his own emotions before but now. Especially not his own emotions for his friends. After all they had their careers to think about they were all busy with their hero and school work. So Shouto had never taken the time to just stop and think for a second. Stop and process his emotions and feelings towards anyone. He did occasionally take time to think of his emotions and feelings towards someone else. Like how he took time to understand his feelings towards his father. But he hadn’t taken that time to understand his feelings towards anyone else. Now he realized he was caught up in his feelings for Izuku. That he had fallen. He wasn’t sure when he fell but he had fallen and hard. 

He slowly began to realize that those times he spent hoping that Izuku would study with him. Or hoping they would get paired up for projects. Shouto had just thought that he liked working with Izuku but if that was the case how could Shouto explain all the time he spent with Izuku that wasn’t work related. Sure he could say that friends spend a lot of time together but Shouto was spending hours and hours with Izuku. He would come up with excuses just to see Izuku or just to go over to his room. They had always been close with each other and almost everyone took notice. Sometimes Denki would even tease them about it. 

Almost a week had passed and Shoto knew that his soulmate was Izuku Midoriya. He was with Izuku all week and he noticed that the song only changed with Izuku’s mood. Of course this should be a great thing. He could confess to Izuku and hope for the best. He hoped that Izuku would return his feelings for him. But why would he do that? Why would he return his feelings? And why would he confess now? During their last year of Yuuei? They were busy and Izuku almost always seemed buried in his hero work. He wasn’t even a pro, yet he had already made a name for himself. Shoto knew he was just getting started. He didn’t want to get in the way of Izuku’s career as a hero. Not to mention he had no idea what his father would think. So he wouldn’t confess. At least not now. He couldn’t let himself get in the way of Izuku’s hero career. 

So he would hide it. He would hide and he wouldn’t tell anyone about it. He would never admit to it, not while Izuku had his career to focus on. And he couldn’t let go of his feelings and have the surgeries either. He couldn’t just let go of these feelings he had just started to understand. So he would keep these feelings to himself; he figured that the sound wouldn’t get too loud. And wouldn’t get in the way of his hero work there was no way it could ruin his hero career too much. 

Soon the day of their test arrived and passed. And just like he and Izuku planned they were going out. They would be going out shopping in the mall. Izuku would often take him around his favorite shops and he would occasionally ask if Shouto wanted to visit some of the stores that were there but he would usually say no and continue to follow Izuku. Most of the class made jokes about how Shouto was almost like a lost puppy following Izuku around like he had saved him or something. Which technically he had. 

He had been saved by Izuku which is why he couldn’t ruin Izuku’s career. He had a decision between telling Izuku about his feelings or ruining Izuku’s career. He knew how giving Izuku was and he was worried Izuku would give up parts of his career for him. That he would make more time for him. And that would take time from his career and Shouto didn’t want to take that from him. He couldn’t get in the way of Izuku’s dream to become the number one hero. He could get in the way of Izuku’s focus. So he would forget about these feelings. He wouldn’t get the surgery he couldn’t lose a part of himself. So instead he would wait, wait until he felt that it would be a good time for him to confess to Izuku.

“Shouto? Are you ok? You’ve been zoning out a lot I haven't seen you lose focus like this in such a long time.” Izuku asked him to always tell when something was off with Shouto. “No I’m fine Izuku I’ve just been thinking about what our lives will be like as heroes.” He lied which made him feel really bad. He hated lying to Izuku even if it was just a small white lie he still tried to avoid lying to Izuku. 

“Oh! Yeah I guess we’re going to become pros soon… Where do you think you’ll work after we graduate?” He asked. “Hmm that’s a good question… I have a few options but I’m not quite sure yet.” Izuku nodded. “I can’t decide whether I should go to America or stay here. I’ll have to decide soon though… Both have their perks but I feel like I would lose a bit more if I went to America.” Shoto raises an eyebrow and says. “What would you lose?” “The chance to grow as heroes with the rest of the class. Even though we will be competing against each other I still want to stay in Japan. And rise up the ranks alongside you and the rest of the class. Shoto’s heart almost fluttered when Izuku mentioned you. It made him feel like Izuku wanted to stay just for him and that Izuku would stay in Japan if he asked. 

“Oh really? You would want to stay here? I thought you want to stay here and follow in your step father’s footsteps.” During the past two years All Might had actually become Izuku’s step dad. Which increased Shouto’s teasing that Izuku really was the secret love child of all might. Izuku blushed and looked away. “I know that what I said I wanted to do but I’m starting to think I want to take my own path in becoming a hero.” Todoroki nods. “That makes sense. I guess you won’t want your fans calling you a carbon copy of All might. He said nodding slowly. 

They stopped in front of one of Izuku’s favorite merch stores. Izuku looked so tempted to go in. But he knew Izuku from what he had said early couldn’t. He was trying to save money for an apartment he would buy at the end of school. And he also refused to let Shouto go into the store and buy anything for him that was in there for him. “Izuku I can always-” “No it’s ok Sho, let’s just go to the next store. And so Shouto followed him. He followed him all day until finally they got back to the dorms. They were holding food that Shouto had insisted on buying for them. He had bought Izuku’s favorite. He couldn’t get any soba but he didn’t mind. He was happy to see Izuku’s face light up when he saw the bowl of Katsudon Shouto he had ordered for him. “Thank you for all this Sho, we should do this again before we Graduate.” Shouto nodded “Yes I would like that.” And with that they both went to their dorms.

Shouto started eating the food he had gotten for himself and then he started research more about the music playing in his head. Which he tried to ignore all day. He did but now he was just starting to realize that the music was giving him a headache. He wished he could just shut off the music and make the sound go away. But he couldn’t instead he was stuck listening to the overly happy tune as he tried to learn more about this. After about an hour of research, sleep danced behind Shouto’s eyes. He didn’t let himself fall asleep just yet however. Instead he wrote down what he found which wasn’t much. He couldn’t find out about how much worse the music could get and how quickly it would get worse. He did discover that most of the people that didn’t confess to their soulmate were either insane or deaf after their experience with the music. And that after this happened nothing could be done to help that person regain what they had lost. Even if their soulmate had accepted them and gave them a chance there would be no saving what that person had lost to this. 

That kinda frightened Shouto even if he did end up confessing to Izuku which he doubted he would any time soon. He could lose a part of himself forever. And nothing could get it back for him. Not even Izuku could get it back for him. And the other scary part was that he didn’t know the deadline he had. He didn’t know how long it would take him to go insane or how long it would take him to go deaf. The idea of losing the thing that he had lived with for so long he didn’t know what he would do without these things. He didn't know what life would be without his hearing. Bakugo made it look like living partially deaf wasn’t that bad. But according to Izuku, Katsuki had suffered with the idea of becoming deaf and not being able to talk to everyone like he once had. He knew that Katsuki had gotten support from both Izuku and Kirishima. But would he get the same would he be able to cope with losing his hearing if it ever came down to that? He already knew he couldn’t live without his sanity and that if he became insane he would lose all that he worked for. 

He was so lost in thought that he also missed the second call that he was getting. He picked up the phone without realizing who it was. And the voice of Enji Todoroki started speaking.