Something

Sarah was running.
Running away. That’s what she’s always been used to. That’s what she knows best. But this time there was no way she could end any of this by running. It wouldn’t bring her sister back to life. It wouldn’t change the fact that Cosima was gone. Forever. Even if she did try so god damn hard to protect her and all of her sisters. From Dyad, from Topside. From Castor and even Neolution. But she just couldn’t protect Cosima from this. And now that this brilliant science monkey is gone, maybe none of her sisters is ever going to be safe. Except of herself. And Helena. The twins who are immune. And cursed. Cursed to watch all of the sestras die if they won’t find a way to a fucking cure.
With a loud cry Sarah’s voice breaks the silence of the dark night. As this sound leaves her mouth she breaks down on her knees. Covering her face in her hands. Feeling the wet cold ground underneath, her. Her whole body shivers. She just feels so exhausted. Alone. Done.
“Come on, you’re going to catch a cold if you will stay here.” Sarah nearly jumps to those words coming out of nowhere. “Holy shite! You just scared me to death!” she answers without getting up. “No, obviously I haven’t. And now, would you please get up and come in with me? Please…” the last word nothing more than a whisper. Sarah hesitates for just a second before standing up on her feet and following that tall blonde woman.
Delphine heads right into the bathroom, catching a towel and handing it over to Sarah. “You should change clothes, too.” After a quick look down on herself Sarah just nods. She turns herself a bit, looking through the hallway of the small flat Delphine calls her own for a few months. It’s nice, but there seems to be less personal touch. Of course, she didn’t spend this much time in here. Since she has mostly been working with Scott and…Cosima.
But still it’s clearly the Frenches home. Softly, carefully Sarah takes a frame placed on a small counter. In it one of her favourite pictures of Cosima. It shows her bursting out in laughter. She couldn’t even remember why her sister was laughing so hard in that moment, but Felix did catch this moment on camera – and Delphine framed it and put it up.
“I miss her so much…” the voice of the blonde cracks and Sarah is too afraid to turn around. She feels her pain. Her whole presence is screaming it right into her face. Yes, Sarah misses Cosima, too. And there is no way to even try to describe her own pain of this big loss. But she can’t imagine how hard it is for Delphine.
So, Sarah just nods and puts back the framed picture. The silence is loud. But gets interrupt by small sniffs.
“Yeah, I miss her too.” She slowly turns around – facing a crying Delphine just a few inches away from her face. The taller woman focuses her. Her eyes slowly looking all over her face. Sarah knows what she’s trying to find – but will never find again – ever. No matter how many faces like hers Delphine will see. There won’t be what she has seen in Cosima.
“She’s not here anymore. No matter how hard you’re looking for.” Sarah whispers. She wasn’t supposed to but still it sounds more aggressive than she wanted it to be. “Just shut up.” Delphine responds and puts Sarah’s face into her hands. Softly stroking her chest with her palm.
Sarah stares back at her. Watching every little change in her view. Those hazel eyes wandering all over her own face again and again. Searching. “She’s not here anymore.” “Shh…” “Delphine, you won’t find what you’re looking for.” Nothing more then a whisper. Still Sarah slowly is moving a bit more forward. Feeling the breath of Delphine. “Please. Don’t say anything…just let me…” with a slow movement Delphines thumb moves over Sarahs lips. The brunette drops the long forget towel, puts her own hands on Delphines. Tries to get eye contact. “I just want to forget about this. I just want to have her back. I just want to feel something else than this life sucking pain…” with a quick movement Sarah presses her own lips against Delphines. Pushing her against the nearest wall. Forcing her tongue to be let in. After a short second of confuse Delphine lets her do so.