Winning
Clarke eyes flickered, she was surprised and she turned her head it felt like everything was in slow-motion. Lexa was smiling at her and clapping her hands - did she actually win?
”CLARKE GRIFFIN EVERYONE!!!” Kane said loudly and she could hear the audience applaud even louder. Why didn’t she feel happy about this? ”Come on up her Clarke!” Kane welcomed her to the stage.
”Wow” She breathed in the microphone she was given. ”Thank you everyone!”
”Anything you wanna say?” He smiled and she nodded as she once again looked back at the brunette who was giving her thumbs up.
”Hi” Clarke started talking. ”First of all, thank you for this year and your dedication in this campaign. I am so grateful for you support…” She took a few breaths, she thought she would be overwhelmed by happiness but it didn’t feel right. ”I am however afraid that I cannot accept the title…” The students gasped at the announcement.
”Clarke?” Kane looked at her confused.
”Unless Lexa will do it with, look at the numbers. It’s a fair tie and I wouldn’t want anybody else but her on my side. Leading you guys together with a 50/50 role.”
”Umm…” Kane cleared his throat. ”It doesn’t work like that”
”CLEXA!” Raven yelled somewhere in the assemble hall, a ship name she had came up with in the beginning when they started dating, she couldn’t help but smile about it. ”CLEXA” The Latina repeated herself and suddenly people started to join in.
”Okay calm down everyone” Kane tried but the students where now standing up shouting Clexa loudly over and over.
”Come on” Clarke looked back at Lexa and as she walked out it got even wilder in there.
”What are you doing?” Lexa whispered into her ear.
”Together” Clarke smiled at her and carefully lingered their fingers together, the brunette welcomed her hand and as the loud cheering continued they reached their lingered hands to the air.
”Settle down everyone” Kane got serious and it got calmer. ”I suppose there is a first thing for everything…If you girls are willing to share the title you have my blessing” He seemed to actually like the idea and Clarke looked at Lexa with happiness in her eyes.
”What the heck” Lexa laughed and Clarke couldn’t help but throw her arms around her ex to celebrate the win.
”Are you okay with this?” Clarke whispered into the hug.
”Of course” Lexa smiled and lifted Clarke from the ground to spin her around. ”We’re making history baby!!” The scene on the stage made people standing up to applaud, everyone seemed to be satisfied with the decision.
***
Once everything settled down and people where ready to head home - or partying to celebrate that they finally had a result Clarke found herself not being able to take her eyes of Lexa. She looked so happy and filled with joy, the smile never disappeared from her face. They where currently celebrating at Lexa’s mansion, her parents was apparently away on a trip somewhere. Clarke wasn’t sure where, she missed knowing every detail off Lexa’s life.
The music filled every huge room, it was students hanging around in every corner and they all congratulated her as she passed by. Clarke was happy too, it was like a weight had been lifted off her shoulder - she had realized up on the stage that her biggest worry hadn’t been the scholarship after all. In the end it wasn’t what she cared about the most, it was Lexa.
She didn’t wanna be a president alone, knowing how hard Lexa had fought for this as well - how much it meant to her. If Kane hadn’t accepted the two off them sharing the job, she wouldn’t have been able to accept it.
Clarke had been so anxious these past weeks, worrying about the campaign and how it would affect her future but she had been blind to see that it was an excuse. She was worried about her future with Lexa, if the campaign ended and this was over - it meant that they suddenly didn’t have that in common anymore. They could’ve easily slipped away, getting back to their old patterns and drifted apart.
They where still friends but lately the campaign has been the only thing keeping them together, a chance for Clarke to see Lexa and talk to her. Once they had a moment together they talked about it as well, it’s like they where scared off talking about them.
She didn’t wanna push the brunette either, she tried and Lexa freaked out.
So even if she had won with a high score, it wouldn’t have been the same. Being the president alone would’ve only reminded her off the time she spent with Lexa and all the fun they had. Clarke had no idea what the future would look like but she couldn’t be happier sharing this with the brunette, even if it was like friends.
”Hey!!” Lexa greeted her a bit tipsy already. ”Feel like I haven’t seen you all evening”
”Been all over the place” Clarke informed her as she started making herself a drink at desk next to them, it was filled with cups, soda and alcohol.
”I can’t believe you did that” Lexa chuckled and leaned against the wall as she was preparing the drink.
”Want one?” Clarke wondered and the brunette nodded. ”It was a tie I would say…and I couldn’t be more excited about doing this with you”
”What if we disagree on something?” Lexa teased, was she flirting?
”Oh…” Clarke smiled as she handed Lexa a cup filled with a drink now. ”I guess we have to look the door to our new little office and discuss it until we agree”
”And if that doesn’t work?” Lexa pushed it.
”I remember a few tricks you used to play” Clarke stepped closer and Lexa smirk was still at place but her eyes seemed hungrier.
”Like me kissing your neck or biting your lip?”
”If you do that I promise to rip your fucking clothes off” Clarke teased back and the girls where inches away from each others lips.
”CLEXA!!” Anya and Raven interrupted the moment and they quickly jumped away from each other, they had been caught up in a moment.
”Always…” Lexa mumbled under her breath.
”Hey” Clarke greeted them. ”You want some drinks?”
”HECK YEAH!” Raven smiled big and Clarke turned around to prepare some more drinks for her friends, she also wanted to hide the fact that she was probably blushing right now. That conversation with Lexa had been unexpected, they hadn’t been like this in forever.
”Thanks girl” Anya smiled once she got her drink. ”We will leave you too it” She winked and the couple disappeared again.
”Come on” Lexa grabbed Clarke’s hand and dragged her out from the crowded area, she knew the brunette was leading her to the roof.
It was as breathtaking as she remembered, but even more so once the stars was filling the skyline. That day when they shared a joint here felt so far away, like a different life almost.
”I still can’t get over this view” Clarke breathed out.
”I love it too” Lexa agreed as she sat down to get herself more comfortable.
”So why did you drag me here?” Clarke was hopeful as she sat down next to her.
”I wanted you for myself for a second” Lexa got shy.
”Can I be honest with you now?” She wondered.
”Always” Lexa nodded.
”You know…I still remember the feeling when we first started talking” Clarke smiled to herself, the butterflies she had in her stomach had been something else. ”And how it feels now… the hardest thing is not talking to someone you used to talk to everyday…” She continued. ”You reminded me what it feels to like to love, you made me fall in love and losing you has been…my biggest mistake…and maybe I fell in love with you because you loved me when I couldn’t even love myself, and for a second it was like I could feel the timing clicking together, finally pieces falling into place” She took a quick breath and looked at Lexa, she was focused on every word she said.
”What are you trying to say?” She carefully asked, Clarke knew she was a bit all over the place.
”Well…relationship fail because people take their own insecurities and try to twist them into their partner’s flaws…in our case I forced all my baggage on you and just expected you to understand…”
”We both made mistakes Clarke…” Lexa sighed.
”You know…I find myself just thinking of you and then I begin to wonder for how long you’ve been on my mind, then it occurs to me - since I met you, you’ve never left”
”Clarke..” Lexa smiled even more shyly at her.
”I guess I just wanted to tell you that wherever I am, whatever happens - I’ll always think of you and the time we spent together as my happiest time. I’d do it all over again if I had the chance…”
”I thought we where talking about giving it another try?” Lexa asked.
”I just…I hate not being able to with you. I just want you, that’s it. All your flaws, mistakes, smiles, giggles, jokes, sarcasm. Everything. I just want you Lexa. I’m not perfect, I’ll never be…but I do love you with all of my heart. I’m so freaking in love with you. I could scream it out loud, I love you Lexa Woods” Clarke looked into green eyes, scared of the words that just came out of her mouth but she had been dying to say them for so long. She loved Lexa.
”Are you done with your love confession?” Lexa smiled wide and Clarke nodded nervously. ”I love you to silly” The words made Clarke’s body feel electric and as the brunette grabbed her neck to collide their lips together Clarke couldn’t help but feel complete. The brunette was kissing her so gently and it was probably the most romantic they had ever been, she didn’t want the moment to end.
”Are we gonna do this right this time?” Lexa wiped some hair away from Clarke’s face and gazed into her eyes.
”Yes” Clarke was getting teary, she wasn’t sad - it was tears off happiness to finally have Lexa look at her the way she used too.
”Aww, baby” Lexa used the same hand to carefully catch the tear falling on her cheek.
”God I love you” Clarke had to say it again.
”And I love you, all off you” Lexa leaned in for another kiss and Clarke threw her arms around her neck to push the girl closer. ”That means I’m not just here for the pretty parts, I’m here no matter what” Lexa breathed into the kiss.
Lexa crawled into Clarke’s lap and the blonde threw her arms around her, ready to hold her forever. She wasn’t gonna screw this up again.
***
The next day Lexa woke up with Clarke all over her, it put a smile on her face and she remembered how the blonde nervously confessed her love last night. The smile didn’t last too long once she noticed her headache. How much did they drink last night? Last thing she remember was getting off the roof to join Anya and Raven for some beer pong…that Raven replaced with some surprise tequila shots. That explained the way she was feeling and the memory loss.
”WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED HERE?!” Her dads voice suddenly filled the huge mansion and Lexa froze in panic, why where they home already? ”LEXA?!” The noise made Clarke’s body shift but she was still heavily sleeping.
”Clarke you have to wake up!” Lexa shook her body.
”Mom?” Clarke was clearly half asleep.
”ANYA?!” Her dads voice got closer.
”CLARKE” Lexa tried again and she finally got the blonde to wake up.
”What?” She looked at her confused.
”My parents are home!”
”Shit” Clarke understood and sat up immediately while Lexa flew to her drawer, the house was a mess and the last thing her dad needed to see was her with another naked girl in her bed.
”Hurry up” Lexa was stressed and threw on the nearest clothes she could find and as she looked back and Clarke finished pulling her pants up the door swung open.
”Lexa, you have no idea how upset I am right now!” He looked at his daughter and she couldn’t help but too look back at Clarke who looked like she wanted to sink through the floor.
”I can explain dad” She tried.
”Not another word, my office NOW!” He closed the door again.
”Fuck…” She swore.
”What should I do?” Clarke was stressed as well.
”Get ready or we’re gonna be late for school, just grab whatever you need” Lexa told her before rushing after her dad.
The door to his office was wide open and he was sitting in his chair waiting for her, looking extremely angry.
”A party on a school night?” He shook his head. ”Do you have any idea how worried we where?”
”What?”
”Your mom and I decided to leave our phones to focus on us and when we got back I had tons off missed calls from you -”
”Well that’s because - ”
”And when I try to call you back you didn’t answer and now I know why, you where drunk and partying with your friends while me and your mom jumped on a plane scared for your life!”
”I didn’t know…” Lexa got surprised that it was the reason for them to cut their trip short.
”This is so freaking irresponsible off you” He continued.
”What about Anya?” Lexa couldn’t help herself and she immediately felt like she was five again trying to blame her sister as well.
”Your sister isn’t here is she? Where the hell is Anya anyway?”
”I don’t know” Lexa lied, she was obviously with Raven.
”I’ll deal with her later”
”Do you even care about why I called?” Lexa sat down in the chair in front of him and looked him in the eyes. ”Or why we celebrated last night?”
”Why?” He asked her.
”You sent me to freaking Kane? For bad grades? I am one off the best students in that school and I am NOT in need for extra help, what the hell was that all about?”
”You can always do better” He said firmly and that made Lexa’s mood switch, now she was mad as well.
”Why am I never good enough for you?” She questioned him. ”What day was it yesterday?”
”Thursday”
”Yeah but what happened in school?” She pushed him.
”I don’t know, what?” He shrugged.
”The student body president was announced yesterday, the campaign I been working on all year that you have totally ignored” She crossed her arms. ”And you know what? I could’ve won - I was the last too vote and we where at a 50/50 insanely enough….but I decided to vote for Clarke instead because the only reason why I even decided to run was because off you”
”Lexa…” Her father relaxed a bit.
”But you haven’t cared at all and when you sent me to Kane yesterday I realized it didn’t matter…I would rather see Clarke happy because for her it meant everything”
”Is that what you think? That I don’t care?”
”It’s like you don’t even see me and when you do you always complain - but you don’t treat Anya the same. She always get off the hook, you never nag on her”
”Hey” Her father stood up and walked to her side off the desk to crouch down. ”I’m sorry I made you feel that way…You’ve always been so strong and independent that I might forgotten that you’re still a teenager, you never needed my help growing up and I admired you for that. I tried to push Anya for so long but it only made us drift apart and in the end we couldn’t even be in the same room because the only thing we did was arguing. I decided to let her be and it made our relationship easier…and I didn’t wanna lose her.” He sighed. ”You have so much potential Lexa, you have goals and dreams and I just wanted to push you too your limits. I understand I’ve been distant this year, it’s been a rough one and I’ve done my mistakes and handled situations recklessly. You’ve been through so much and I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you, I am so proud of you Lexa.”
”It’s a weird way off showing it…” Lexa mumbled but she was actually just trying to take it all in, what he was saying right now was the words she’s been dying to hear for what felt like forever.
”I’m sorry sweetie…I’ll talk to Kane and I will work on being a better dad for you and Anya. I love you so much and the last thing I want you to think is that I don’t care about you. Because I do, my family means the world to me”
”Okay…” Lexa looked at him, he looked genuinely sorry.
”Come here” He opened up his arms and Lexa leaned into the hug, it felt like she was talking to her dad again - the man she had missed so much.
”So do you wanna know why we celebrated even if I lost?” She asked into the hug and he nodded and looked at her. ”Yesterday we made some new history - me and Clarke being the first people to share the title, she didn’t accept unless I did it with her and Kane agreed”
”That’s my girl!” He smiled and hugged her again.
After explaining a bit more to her dad about the results and last night he was definitely calmer and Lexa left his office feeling satisfied. Her father was not the easiest to understand and they never had a normal relationship really but knowing that he was proud off her was all she needed to hear. It felt like he felt bad about it as well, regretting how he hadn’t paying enough attention to her. It wasn’t ideal but for them it was a big step.
”Are you done?” She entered her room again and Clarke was waiting on her bed.
”How did it go?” She stood up as soon as she saw her walk in.
”I’ll tell you on the way, we’re gonna be late - let’s go!”
”Umm…” Clarke cleared her throat. ”Are you sure you’re going in that outfit?”
”What?” Lexa turned around and looked at herself in the mirror, she was wearing her pants inside out and a shirt that said ”Sundays are for snuggles” that she got from her mom years ago. ”Oh for fuck sake” She threw off her outfit and grabbed some black clothes instead. ”How can you be this calm? We’re gonna be late the day after the election?” She asked Clarke.
”We can still make it” Clarke smiled and got closer, she wrapped her arms around the brunette and Lexa stared at her confused, they didn’t really have time for this. ”I’m so freaking happy how can I be worried about being a few minutes late” She chuckled and leaned in for a kiss.
”Maybe you’re still drunk…” Lexa raised an eyebrow at Clarke’s suddenly chill behavior.
”Maybe…” Clarke thought about. ”Maybe you’re right, we better hurry up!”
”Sounds more like you” Lexa laughed before grabbing Clarke’s hand to rush to her car together.
It’s been a weird morning but at least she had her girl back.