It was good until it wasn't
Lexa was sitting on top of her car chilling outside the school in morning sun, it was a cold day but the sun was warming her face so she closed her eyes towards it.
”I missed that pretty face” Luna finally arrived and jumped up next to Lexa and did the same as her, closing her eyes and enjoying the sun.
”God” Lexa threw and arm around her friend. ”I am so happy you’re home”
”Me too…” Luna smiled. ”Sorry for ditching you so quick yesterday, had a meeting with the principal and had to help my parents unpack.”
”I get it..” Lexa looked at her friend. ”I can’t believe you kept this a secret from me” She chuckled.
”I wanted to surprise you, I know you had a rough year…” Her friend sighed. ”How are you holding up? I feel like we have so much to talk about?”
”You need to tell me everything about Portugal and all the beautiful women you posted on your stories…” Lexa looked at her with teasing eyes.
”I was living a gay dream” Luna chuckled. ”You would’ve loved it”
”I’ll bet” Lexa flickered with her eyes and her friend noticed of course.
”Don’t tell me you are still with Costia?” She bursted out.
”No no no….” Lexa shrugged. ”She want’s to get back together but I’m over it now…”
”She never realized what she had” Luna pushed her arm gently. ”She doesn’t deserve you”
”Nah…I thought it was better to be with her than alone but in the end I realized that I would rather be alone than with someone that just used me”
”I never liked her…” Luna shook her head. ”She broke your heart and pretended like it was nothing”
”I was blind” Lexa agreed. ”Glad it’s over”
”Me too kiddo” Luna said as she took a deep breath. ”What about your mom?”
”Still nothing…my dad wanted to talk to me this week but I haven’t heard anything yet”
”Fuck..” Luna leaned her head on Lexa’s shoulder. ”Sorry I wasn’t here for you this year”
”I been focusing on the campaign” Lexa told her.
”OH!” Luna smiled at her. ”Miss president Woods, that I have to honor to talk to you in person” She chuckled.
”Don’t jinx it, I am running against Clarke Griffin” Lexa’s heart made an extra beat by just saying her name.
”Noooooo way. When I was having some trouble with my homework Kane always told me to ask her for help” Luna laughed. ”I never did though, felt weird. I saw her face all over the schools website”
”She’s dedicated” Lexa agreed.
”Is she a pain in the ass?”
”Nah…to be a geek she’s actually pretty chill. She just wants to get into collage real bad”
”She’s pretty hot isn’t she?” Luna looked for her phone and searched for the blonde on Instagram like Lexa hadn’t already stalked it. ”Oh, she has a boyfriend?”
”What?” Lexa looked at the feed and saw a new picture of Clarke and Bellamy at the last game celebrating the win. ”No, they’re just friends I think”
”She’s so your type?” Luna looked at her friend. ”If I know you well enough you have already flirted with you, haven’t you?” Lexa swallowed, yes first time she saw Clarke this year she had been taken away by her beauty - and yes she had flirted.
”We are each others opponents, I can’t flirt with her” Lexa lied.
”So you wouldn’t mind if I…” Luna zoomed in to a bikini picture of Clarke. ”Fuck”
”Okay okay…” Lexa locked Luna’s phone. ”Let’s talk about Portugal instead, I want to hear all about it…What did I miss in your adventures life?” Lexa couldn’t stand her friend checking Clarke out and needed them to talk about something else.
Lexa had sent a message to Clarke before her first class but the blonde hadn’t replied yet, it was strange and annoying. She hadn’t seen her today either but as she was walking too lunch with Luna she hoped she would at least catch her in the cafeteria.
They sat down next to her sister and Gustus that was in an intense conversation about some party this weekend.
”Sis” Anya greeted her. ”And the long lost Luna, there is an underground party on Saturday we are thinking about swinging by”
”Sounds cool” Luna sat down. ”Not sure if I have to help my parents this weekend and I was hoping Lexa would keep me company?”
”Of course” Lexa would love to spend time with her friend.
”I forgot that the two off you are stuck too each other” Anya rolled her eyes. ”If you finish early I think you both would love it, we haven’t hanged out in a while Lex”
”Yeah sure” Lexa nodded before she glanced over the crowded cafeteria and spotted Clarke’s friends, they where sitting at their usual table but she wasn’t there and her friends seemed unbothered by it. What the heck? Where was Clarke? ”Shit…I forgot I had to talk to Kane” Lexa lied. ”Some campaign stuff”
”Bummer” Luna looked at her.
”I’ll see you later” Lexa left her plate with food, she wasn’t hungry anyway and rushed out to get to the hallways. She did her best to quickly check every classroom for blonde hair but most off them where empty. She tried some bathroom but no success there either, after around fifteen minutes she finally found her in the cramped study room with the ugly purple couch, the room they had been making out in a lot of times.
Clarke was laying down on the couch with a laptop in her knee and some headphones that she took out the moment Lexa opened the door.
”Are you ignoring me?” Lexa locked behind her.
”No, I just need study” Clarke sighed.
”So you couldn’t take three seconds to get back to my text?” Lexa crossed her arms, she didn't
buy it.
”Shit..I’m sorry, I’’m just really stressed right now”
”About?”
”School, work…the campaign” Clarke finished her sentence she had been typing on and Lexa just looked at her in silence until the blonde closed her laptop and sat up.
”Okay..” Lexa sat down next to her. ”Why do I have a feeling that you have been avoiding me?”
”Since Sunday?” Clarke chuckled but Lexa wasn’t having it, she could feel that something was off.
”You know what I mean, one second you don’t want space and I when I change my mind you suddenly don’t answer my texts? Did I do something wrong?”
”No Lexa” Clarke put a hand on Lexa’s leg and she hated the affect it had on her, she was weak by her touch. ”School is important to me and I am just a bit behind…I need to focus on what’s important right now”
”And I’m not?” Lexa scoffed.
”Tell me something…” Clarke locked her ocean blue eyes with green. ”What are we?”
”What?” Lexa knew exactly what she was asking but she wasn't sure how to reply.
”You and me, don’t play dumb” Clarke sighed.
”We are just chilling, hanging out” Lexa shrugged.
”Chilling?” Clarke questioned her. ”So we are not exclusive you mean?”
”Why do we have to label it?”
”Because I can’t waste my time on ”hanging out”, that’s why” Clarke quoted her and Lexa got a bit surprised by her words.
”So you are wasting your time with me?” Lexa looked at her, feeling her heart raise a little as she was getting a bit frustrated.
”I am not saying that Lexa..I just” Clarke sighed as she was struggling to get to her point. ”You would be fine with me seeing other people, that’s what you’re saying?
”I can’t stop you if that’s what you want?” Lexa bursted out, damn she didn’t wanna say that - seeing Clarke with someone else would probably make her suffocate.
”Really?” Clarke shook her head.
”Why are you being like this? You wanted this as well?” Lexa questioned her as she stood up.
”This? I want you Lexa is that so hard too believe? If you just want some silly games and secret meet-ups then yes, it’s wasting my time right now”
”What changed?” Lexa wondered as she crossed her arms again.
”Nothing, I just happen to care about my future. Life isn’t a game for me, I am not drowning in money like you…”
”You think you’re better than me?” Lexa interrupted her. ”That I get everything served on a fucking silver plate?” Lexa sighed. ”I thought you where different…” Lexa was seriously getting pissed at this point and she knew she had to leave before it escalated even more. ”Don’t worry Clarke, I won’t waste your time anymore” She slammed the door behind her even if she could hear Clarke yell something after her.
The rest off the day she was in a mood, a really bad mood. Her argument with Clarke really affected her and even her friends could tell she was pissed. Luckily they knew too leave her alone and give her some space.
As the school day finally was over it got even worse as soon as she drove in to the parking spot outside the mansion. Her heart went numb as soon as she saw her fathers car parked outside next too Anya’s.
With heavy steps she walked into the entrance and noticed mumbles from the kitchen, what the hell was going on? Where was mom?
”Dad?” Lexa walked into the big kitchen and saw her father standing next to Anya that was sitting down on a bar stool. He was dressed in a black suit as usual but his hair was messier and he had some dark bags under his eyes.
”Lexa” He looked at her, exhausted and she couldn’t help but to rush into his arms.
”I’m sorry” He whispered into her ears as she held her tighter, it was probably the realest hug they had in years.
”Where’s..mom” Lexa tried to look at her sister, to see if she had been crying.
”Please sit down” Her father pointed at the chair next to Anya and she did as she was told, he took place in front of them. ”The cancer is gone” He started.
”That’s great news?” Lexa looked at Anya, she didn’t understand.
”Yes, she’s been so strong my love but…”
”Just tell her the god damn truth” Anya spitted out. ”You have been lying to us for weeks, do you understand that we have been scared that you would call us any day to tell us she’s dead?!”
”Anya” Her father warned her, she had always been firm with him.
”Can someone explain what’s going on? Where is she?”
”You don’t remember this because you where too young Lexa but your mother is bipolar…she suffers from deep depression”
”No she doesn’t” Lexa interrupted her.
”The cancer treatment took a toll on her…She actually got free from cancer when you where in Hawaii..”
”WHAT?” Lexa bursted out, her mother had been okay all this time? Or what?
”But…once the cancer was gone she got weak my dear and she’s been weak ever since”
”She can’t even call her daughters to tell her she’s fine? And our good ol dad lies to us. Fucking perfect, super fucking perfect. Why do you think I can’t stand this fucking household?” Anya swore to her father.
”I didn’t know it would last this long…” Their father seemed stressed. ”I didn’t want you girls to see her like this, she’s…she’s not herself”
”Can we see her?” Lexa asked.
”She doesn’t want to see us Lexa” Anya looked at her. ”She hasn’t left her bed in weeks”
”Maybe seeing us could help?” Lexa looked at her dad.
”I don’t want to keep you from her anymore but I have to warn you Lexa..it’s not the woman you remember but she’s in there” Her dad seemed really upset about it.
”If I can help, I want too” Lexa shrugged. ”Anya…” She looked at her sister to get some support.
”Fine…but you don’t remember what I do..”
”Why hasn’t anyone told me?” Lexa looked at them.
”To protect you” Anya looked at her. ”She got better…and mom is like your hero we didn’t want to destroy that for you”
”You where just a little girl” Her dad added.
”I am not anymore” Lexa sighed. ”But let me guess…you didn't want to waste your time telling me” There was more to where that was coming from but she didn’t care, she had a shit day and she needed a break, she left the kitchen in anger and dialed the number to a person she could count on.
”Lexa” Luna happily answered.
”Code red” Lexa sighed. ”Remember?”
”Let’s get wasted and fool around with girls we wont remember until we forget what we feel bad about?”
”I had rough day” Lexa admitted.
”You have me now, drive to my place and we can get ready”
”Already on my way” Lexa was feeling self-destructive, she was pissed and hurt at the same time…she was so glad that her friend was back, the only one she could count on.