Rocky's Pub
It was Saturday and Lexa woke up with and headache, she sighed as she reached for her phone - it was almost 11 and she had five new text messages from Costia. She ignored them and carefully stood up instead, she tried to move as slowly as possible to not feel any worse. The house was quiet, her sister probably slept somewhere else as usual, she made a quick look into her sisters room and it was empty as she expected. She looked at her phone again to make sure her sister hadn’t texted her, or if her father had called - nope.
She reached the kitchen and poured herself a big glass off water, she drank it in the silence as she sighed. She hated being alone and especially when she had an hangover, it gave her even more anxiety. She decided to read the text messages from her ex out of boredom.
20:37 Why are you sitting with her???
22:14 Where are you? Lexa answer me
23:34 Stop ignoring me, please I’m sorry…
00:11 LEXA
02:33 Can I sleep at your place?
Lexa sighed, she knew Costia was talking about Clarke - the reason she had dumped her in the first place. Once she had found out she had visited her at the restaurant she got crazy jealous and mad, Lexa was used to her behavior by now…She deep down knew their relationship wasn’t healthy but it was better than to be alone all the time. She looked through her phone list and dialed her dad, no answers and sent to voicemail - so she texted him.
*Dad, call me. I am worried about mom*
She sighed again before she threw her phone away and poured herself a new glass off water, she already felt a bit better. Her mind wondered to the blonde girl like it usually did these days. it was something about Clarke - she hadn’t figured it out - all she knew is that she was drawn to her. It was something special about her but she knew she had screwed up pretty bad with her, she didn’t knew why she was like this. Why she had to act the way she did and piss people off, it happened naturally.
She was unfortunately very attracted to her as well, after their kiss she couldn’t stop thinking about how her whole body might feel like - how her lips felt against hers and how her hands felt electric against her skin.
She even started to get jealous, firstly when she saw her with Raven she realized it - that she thought she was dating her, at the restaurant when she said they where just friends she had gotten mad. Not by the fact that they weren’t dating but by the fact the Clarke probably was straight - she acted out and it was stupid.
It was also at the game yesterday, the team captain…Bellamy? Was that his name? She had ran towards him at the end and they had hugged intensely and then spent the entire evening together. Lexa wanted to ask her about it but she knew it wasn’t her place. As soon as she saw Clarke alone however she couldn’t help but approach her. They hadn’t talked much but Lexa had for the first time enjoyed the silence. Lexa wanted to say that these past weeks wasn’t really her, that she knew she was acting badly - that she had been straight up rude. The hardest part was that Clarke wasn’t interested in that and Lexa didn’t really have an explanation for it either.
Lexa needed distraction so she had to go after her phone that she threw away, she found her sisters name and called her. It took a while and Lexa wasn’t surprised when she didn’t pick up, Anya was almost never home - unless she was having people over for a party or movie hangouts.
After a refreshing shower and a quiet lunch in the kitchen Lexa was restless and bored, she wasn’t really that hangover anymore either. She couldn’t stand the emptiness in the mansion, it was torture right now. She decided to grab her car keys and go for a drive before she would do something stupid like answer her ex.
Lexa started driving through the familiar city, she didn’t have a plan but according to her turns she knew exactly where she was about to end up - as soon as she saw the street she slowed down and slowly passed the restaurant. It didn’t seem like Clarke was working, she turned around and tried to have another look but there was no sign of a blonde girl in the restaurant.
Was she being pathetic? Was she actually stalking Clarke? She had been lying this whole time, of course she knew who the blonde was, how could you not? Her face has been all over the school since they started - she was motivated and had goals, Lexa liked that. That was it though, she had known her name, liked her dedication but it wasn’t until Clarke had talked to her at her party that she realized that she was her opponent.
She doesn’t know why that was a big surprise really, of course Clarke Griffin would - she was born for this. Lexa wanted the title to get her fathers attention, he had never in her life given her an honest compliment. He probably thought her and Anya was some lost causes that he had to pay for - maybe if she became the schools president he would finally see her.
With mom being gone from the house it had become even worse, he hadn’t been home in weeks - he sent her and her sister away from the house when their mom needed special treatment. Something expensive and what he explained it as - nothing you want to see - it’s better like this. When they came back they where both gone and haven’t been home since. It worried her sick.
Her mother had always been there for them, Lexa wanted to be there for her but her father didn’t let her. Maybe if she became the president maybe he could see that she was responsible enough - all though…she wasn’t really proud of herself for the past weeks.
Her phone started buzzing and she reached for it quickly, maybe it was her father - nope - it was her sister.
”SIS” Anya yelled in the phone. ”What are you doing?”
”Nothing” Lexa told her. ”Where are you?”
”Me and the gang are at the pub, Rockys you don’t need any ID here - join us?” Anya suggested.
”Yeah” Lexa didn’t want to be alone anymore.
”Warning though…your beloved ex is here” Anya lowered her voice.
”Did she ask you to call me?” Lexa sighed, of course it wasn’t just her sister wanting to hangout.
”Just talk to her, she’s driving me insane"
”Whatever” Lexa hanged up annoyed but started driving towards the pub, it wasn’t a long drive and she parked near the entrance.
As she entered the bar she was surprised to see Raven playing pool with Anya…did that mean? She looked around and spotted Octavia, Clarke and Bellamy and some other guys from the team sitting to the table next to her friends. Okay so everyone was invited to the party expect for her? Or what the fuck was this? She was already in a bad mood but now it got worse, her friends finally noticed her and waved at her with smiles on their faces.
”LEXA” Gustus moved so she could sit down next to him.
”Whats going on here?” Lexa wondered.
”Anya wanted to spend time with the Latina and we got them as well apparently” Gustus explained.
”Why didn’t you call me?” Lexa crossed her arms.
”Umm…sorry, we just woke up, had some hangover pizza and ended up here” He said nervously.
”Whatever” Lexa sighed as she looked around to see if Costia was close by.
”She’s in the bathroom” Gustus knew what she was looking for.
”I’m not in the mood for her today” Lexa shrugged and then she saw the bathroom door open and Costia walked out with her friend Nessa by her side.
”I got your back” Gustus calmed her down.
”Lexa?” Costia spotted her and rushed to sit down at their table.
”Hey” Lexa looked at her, trying to show her ex that she was not having the best day.
”You never texted me back” She asked.
”Busy and I fell asleep early, also we broke up” Lexa reminded her.
”About that…That’s what I wanted to talk about” Costia tried to reach for Lexa hands but she moved them from the table.
”No, I am done” Lexa crossed her arms. ”Let’s not do this now”
”Come on, it was a silly fight…I was just mad”
”You are always just mad Costia…not now okay?” Lexa warned her.
”But…”
”FUCK, just shut up” Lexa raised her voice and realized that she caught everyones attention at the bar. ”It was mistake coming here” Lexa stood up.
”Lexa” Anya tried but she ignored it and walked out the pub, she could tell someone was following her since she could hear the door slam again.
”Go away Costia” She yelled without looking back.
”Wait” That wasn’t her ex, she looked around as saw Clarke jogging towards her.
”Clarke?”
”Yeah…that was quite a show in there”
”Here to give me another lecture? Then please save it” Lexa sighed.
”I wanted to see if you where okay?” Clarke nervously asked and Lexa’s body relaxed a little, the blonde seemed sincere.
”I don’t deserve your kindness” Lexa shook her head. ”I have been an total ass too you…I think you have been right all along, stay away from me”
”I asked if you are okay?” Clarke stepped closer. ”You seemed off the minute you walked into the bar?”
”Rough day” Lexa admitted as she studied the girl in front of her, she couldn’t tell if she was being sincere or just…tried to do something? Trick her? Get back to her? She had been shitty towards Clarke so why wouldn’t she try to get her back? ”So you checked me out huh?” Again with her comments, she literally just couldn’t help it. Her mind couldn’t let go of the fact that Clarke noticed her.
”Costia..?” Clarke wondered.
”It’s not because of her, well she’s a part of it but…” Lexa struggled. ”I have bigger concerns and she’s getting on my nerves”
”Hmm…I know an other girl that is pretty good at stepping at other peoples nerves” Clarke teased and Lexa couldn’t help but shyly smile.
”Oh, she sounds annoying”
”Yeah a total bitch” Clarke smirked.
”Bet she looks fine though” Lexa locked eyes with blue eyes, she couldn’t control herself around Clarke and it was like her concerns was on pause.
”Fishing for compliments? Like you need them?” Clarke nervously smiled at her.
”What do you mean?” Lexa stepped closer mesmerized by Clarke’s eyes as she with confident placed and arm on her waist. Ever since their moment in the bathroom Lexa had wanted to feel Clarke’s body close to her again, she couldn't help herself.
”I don’t think people need to tell you that you are gorgeous” Clarke breathed.
”You are gorgeous” Lexa told her.
”I think you are a bit close” Clarke bit her lip.
”Do you want me to back away?” Lexa asked.
”Yeah” Clarke hesitated.
”You don’t seem that sure?” Lexa breathed.
”Last time was a mistake” Clarke swallowed.
”Okay..” Lexa studied her, she didn’t want to do anything if the blonde didn’t want too. ”You are not moving?” She teased Clarke.
”I think you…” Clarke sadly backed away from Lexa’s grip and she already missed her presence, she was crushing hard on this girl. ”You use people Lexa…take advantage off them, you use your beauty to draw people in and then you stab them in their back”
”That’s not true” Lexa got caught off guard. ”Clarke..?”
”Isn’t that what you did, visit my work…acting nice, just to get some dirt from me?”
”That’s not…” Lexa wasn’t sure how to explain herself.
”I just…hope you are okay. That’s all I wanted to know” Clarke took a deep breath. ”But I don’t like people playing with me and I am not Costia…I see you for what you really are”
”Okay” Lexa didn’t want to argue, she was snapped back to reality again and remembered her shitty day.
”That’s all you have to say?” Clarke questioned her.
”I fucked up…you’re probably right” Lexa didn’t want Clarke to notice how hurt she was. ”Go back in there, have fun with your friends, or mine? I don’t even know anymore” Lexa gave her one last look before she turned around to get to her car and then she drove home to the empty mansion.