Chapter 3
Even if it was hard, Shuhua didn’t stop staring at the door, wondering if the girl she loved the most would come back, would come and open that door with that smile in her eyes and her lips, her name uttered from the girl’s lips so sweetly that she felt herself falling in love over and over again—
“Shu, it’s time to eat.” Minnie said, but Shuhua didn’t want to go, not when she could miss the girl’s arrival—
“You have to eat, Shu.” Miyeon said, and Shuhua found herself obeying the eldest’s orders, finding her feet carrying her towards the dining table, where Miyeon had cooked a feast.
She found herself eating only a small amount, her fork moving across the plate as thoughts rushed into her mind again, tears falling as she struggled to put on a mask—
“I’m sorry—” she uttered, rushing towards her room and abandoning the dinner her sisters had set for her as she locked herself in her room, hugging her knees and letting the tears fall from her eyes, once again cascading down.
“Shuhua? Are you alright?” she heard her unnies say through the ringing noise in her head, the voices and the knocking sounding like a mile away as she felt herself crying, again and again.
Soojin would come back, she told herself over and over, but each time she repeated it felt like a stab through her heart, stabbing herself over and over.
I want to end this, Shuhua thought, as she let herself drown in a sea of tears and sadness, letting herself drown in the sorrow that she carried.
Please, let me end this.