Chapter 2
Water from the shower trickled all over her as she sat down on the tiled bathroom floor, letting the shower be the noise for her, hoping that it would distract all the voices in her head, all the thoughts trying to go into her mind, but it didn’t work, as Yeh Shuhua found herself crying again.
As if she didn’t cry herself to sleep last night.
“The tears wouldn’t stop…” she uttered to herself, for the tears that came cascading down her cheeks like a waterfall was tiring her out, making her wish to end it all, as her eyes wandered across the bathroom, noticing that all the razors and sharp things were gone.
“Should I just drown myself then?” Shuhua uttered to herself, looking at the pail of water that was there for reserve, wondering if she should just—
“Shuhua? Are you alright?” a voice said, snapping Shuhua from her thoughts as she got up from the floor, turning off the shower and wrapping herself in a towel.
“Yes, unnie.” A lie, again.
She chastised herself for lying, but it was the only thing that keeping her sane, the thing that was pulling her from the edge.
Pretending that everything was alright; wearing a mask when she went out of her room, meeting the others who had merciful faces aimed towards her, but when she was alone, she let herself out of the mask.
And all she did when she was alone was cry, cry and cry all night, thoughts pouring into her head, no matter how much she wanted it to stop, it wouldn’t.
“Please…” she pleaded, but nothing answered her.
Soojin wasn’t going to come back.