Josiah
Kara’s blue eyes were trapped in his memory. They were so dark and beautiful. They reminded him of the midnight sky he used to see from his window on restless nights. The eye’s of Kaz Brekker’s son were so beautiful. They were stern for the majority of the time they were together but when he smiled his eyes lit up, like stars in the night sky. Josiah decided right then and there that he loved those eyes. He loved that smile and his beautiful eyes.
His thoughts then shifted to the hurt look in Kara’s eyes. Those beautiful eyes had darkened and the smile he once had had faded significantly.
Josiah never meant to say anything that would hurt him. He didn’t mean to sound so disgusted. He hadn’t truly cared if kara was gay. He wouldn’t have minded if he was. In fact he was sure he would have loved it if he was-
He then heard footsteps coming from the stairs stopping his thoughts as fast as a train leaves for its next destination.
“Dad, why can’t I just go outside for once? You never let me see my friend unless you or mom takes me there.” Kara said his voice bouncing around in Josiah's head
“Because Kara it’s dangerous to go outside on your own. If you wanted him to come here then you should have asked. Now stay in the house or else the next time you're grounded you won’t be leaving your room.” Kaz said dragging Kara down the hall.
Kara groaned as he let himself be pulled towards his room.
Then they walked past his room as fast as they had come. Before Kara was out of sight he got to take a look at Kara's eyes. Clearly filled with distress.
‘What are you thinking?’ Josiah thought to himself flopping on his bed
‘I know I shouldn’t be thinking about this. But his eyes there like a blackhole sucking me in. I’ve never felt like this. Why do I feel like this now?’ Josiah thought, trying to put his thoughts in a ‘deal with in a very long time box’. But to much of his disappointment the thought just kept coming back.
‘Maybe i should go check on Kara and see how he’s doing.’ Josiah thought
Another part of his brain said ‘If you go check on him all that’s going to happen is you're going to get distracted.’
“Shut up.” Josiah said just as Inej walked by
“What was that?” Inej asked
“Nothing ma’am I wasn’t talking to you.” Josiah said as respectfully as he cou
Inej nodded and walked into the room and said “Dinner is ready downstairs.”
Josiah simply nodded and watched Inej leave
He let his thoughts gather and become unfocused on Kara then he walked down to go to dinner.
It didn’t go as planned however because he tripped on the last step. Strong arms catching him from falling.
“Thank you.” Josiah said blushing from embarrassment of falling. Then he looked up and saw his beautiful eyes again.
“No problem,” Kara said, his voice deep and smooth, “You should really watch your step.”
“Yeah I really should.” Josiah agreed.
Kara flashed him a quick smile before putting him back onto his feet. Almost immediately Josiah missed the feeling of being held in Kara’s arms. He wanted to be that close to him again. To be able to feel the warmth of his body. To be held so close to his chest that he could practically feel Kara’s heartbeat against his own.
Suddenly he was overcome with that familiar feeling of hatred toward himself. He hated that he felt that way. That he desired nothing more than to stare into Kara's beautiful eyes.
‘It’s wrong of you to feel this way.’ He thought, his fathers voice echoing in his mind and replacing any good thought he had had that day.
He was pulled out of his thoughts by those eyes staring at him again. It took a moment to realize that Kara had asked him something.
“Oh um I’m sorry I zoned out. What did you say?” Josiah asked, finding himself having to force out the words
“I asked if you were ok. You aren’t hurt are you?” Kara asked him, giving him a kind smile.
With that smile the glow of his eyes had returned. That beautiful glow that he was growing to love so much.
“No I’m not hurt. I’m fine thanks to you catching me.” Josiah admitted
“It’s no problem. Are you normally this clumsy?” Kara joked
“I’m not that clumsy usually but stairs seem to hate me all the time.” Josiah responded
Kara laughed a bit at that. “Yeah? My sisters the same way.”
‘Wow I never thought someone's laugh could be so good to hear’ Josiah thought
“Is she?”
“Oh yeah she’s really clumsy. The poor thing can barely walk straight.”
“I see we should get going now.” Josiah said grudgingly because all he wanted to do was stay by Kara and his seemingly never ending positive energy
“Yeah we should.” Kara agreed, not seeming very thrilled to be around his father
They then headed over to where they were sitting. Josiah spent most of his time looking out of the window. A bushy tailed creature was staring at him as it ate an acorn.
Josiah had always wanted a pet but he didn’t know if a squirrel would be the right one
‘But look at it and it's bushy tail.’ Josiah thought to himself
“What are you staring at?” Roxanne asked knowing he looks outside if something distracts him or if he's avoiding something.
“There’s a squirrel.” Josiah said
“Don’t tell me you're thinking about keeping it.” Roxanne said
“Why would you say that?”
“Because you don’t need a squirrel look for an actual pet.”
“Ugh your no fun.” Josiah grumbled
The squirrel stared at Josiah as if challenging to grab it.
“Aw come on Roxanne just look at the squirrel. It’s just asking to be taken.” Josiah teased.
“it is pretty cute.” Kara said, looking up from his untouched dinner.
He seemed to not even want to try to eat any of it.
“It is. I will be back. You can’t stop me Roxanne!” Josiah said taking a piece of food fit for a squirrel out of his pocket then he walked outside. The squirrel stood there eying the food Josiah had in his hand.
“Do you want some little guy?” Josiah asked in a soft tone
The squirrel nodded and hopped over to Josiah. Grabbing the food and scurrying back up the tree. A bit later it came back down with a tiny squirrel in her mouth being held by Its scruff. The tiny squirrel was happily eating the piece of food he just gave the mom.
“I think they want a bit more.” Kara said looking at the two creatures and kneeling down next to Josiah
Josiah jumped startled by Kara just appearing beside him
“Yea they probably do. If I had to guess I’d say the tree isn’t producing enough food for them.”
‘He’s just like his mother with sneaking up on people. How does he walk so silently?’ Josiah quietly pondered.
“Sorry did I startle you?”
“A bit. How were you so quiet while walking here?”
“Something I picked up from my mom. I can’t seem to sneak up on my dad though.” Kara said with a shrug
“I heard he tends to be able to tell if people are sneaking up on him,” Josiah said
He then turned to face the squirrels and said “Do you want to come with me little guys?”
“Your dad told you that?” Kara asked as the squirrels nodded scurrying on top of josiah’s head
“No he doesn’t really tell me anything. I accidentally overheard him talking.”
Josiah said as he started walking back towards the house.
He reached into his pocket and grabbed more food for the tiny creatures.
“It appears that they like you.”
“It certainly does seem that way. Or they're just using me to get them food.”
“It’s probably a bit of both.”
“Probably.”
“You really got the squirrel josiah?” Roxanne groaned
“Yes I did, do you have an issue.”
“I think you know dear brother. You're not allowed to bring the creature into my room. And I will not hesitate to end It’s bloodline if it sets It’s fuzzy little foot into my room.”
Josiah sighed as Kara laughed from beside them.
“Now, now children calm down, having a squirrel isn’t that bad Roxanne.” Inej said
“They’re little demons.” Roxanne insisted
“They are not demons.” Inej replied
“You're just jealous one stole your food when you were younger. And it needed the food more than you did. The poor thing looked like it was starving.” Josiah pointed out
“Demons.” Roxanne still insisted.
“Like my dad.” Kara added, seemingly without thinking
Kaz just sighed smiling slightly, seeming to not care about being called a demon
“There not demons Roxanne. They are adorable creatures. Who deserve life.” Josiah said
Roxanne simply rolled her eyes
“Whoever eats their food fastest gets the most desert. 3… 2.. 1.. Go!” Inej said challengingly
All of them then started to eat thor food as fast as they could, wanting Inej’s desert they all love.
In the end The two tiny squirrels ended up in first, Luna got second sucking up all the food.
‘What is this girl a vacuum cleaner?’ Josiah thought amazed by how fast she ate,