First Fight
Hey sister, how are you? It's long enough for me to decide to reply to your message.
I know this is ridiculous, but you were with me from the first time you came to earth, so texting and being in a very long distances relationship with you makes me feel a little sad.
Don't worry, just a little sad, i'm totaly fine..
But I did what you said, I take care of myself, I lost a little bit of weight because I rarely eat donuts lately, and I had to throw some expired food in my fridge because you didn't here to eat it all.
Oh Kara, I miss you..
I know you're home right now, but is it fair if I really miss to hug you?
Alex wanted to write would it be fair if I wanted you to come back here? but she deleted the it because Alex is Alex and she never changes. The happiness of the person she cares about is above all else. she wouldn't selfishly ask Kara to come back just because she missed her sister so much.
Alex reads the message one more time before giving it to Winn to translate it into kryptonian code, making sure Kara knows she miss her, but doesn't turn to make her worry.
Winn is so sure that he saw tears in Alex's eyes right now but he knows Alex doesn't like to be pitied so he just embraced Alex and gave a support smile to his big sister.
"Where have you been, Alex? It's been a while since we went to the bar after work. Want to go? Maybe tonight?"
Winn's question makes Alex realize how long it has been since she's been out of the real world. Well, she didn't call Lena this morning, it feels weird, because they used to wake up in each other arms every morning, they didn't move in together, but almlst every night they always find a way to sleep together, wet kisses or long making love section, or just cuddling into each other, doing nothing.. And she also didn't reply to Lena's messages.
She hated imagining what Lena was doing now. Work? Meeting? or meet his ex-girlfriend again.
Oh lunch .. yeah .. they would going to have lunch together..
And before she can put any emotions there, DEO's alarm is ON, level two dangers..
Alex is happy she has some things to think about over the next few days, it doesn't mean that she loves the chaos, it's not like that
But anti-alien club is mess up the city. Alex is constantly doing damage control, directing agents to the highest priority calls, and at the third day She did fieldwork, it's also easier to walk away from afterward, and develops a headache that seems to last for days, Winn is there with her, and she told winn that Maggie is in town and maybe after this is finish they can catch up and celebrate. She met Maggie on the street with the NCPD, feeling so familiar with that, feeling real, back to old times, don't know it's a good thing or not. She eats erratically, and sleeps in her office in small mattras on the floor, it feels normal and she kinda likes it.
The fourth day everything get better and Alex was able to sleep a little longer. Being in the field is no longer needed, she just needs to compile a report and it can wait, and she falls asleep again on her desk, still in her tactical gear, messy hair, scars on her forehead, cheeks, and around her neck, not to mention aches and pains all over her body, but then again it feels normal, she is grateful she got the diversion. She miss Lena Luthor so much, and she was happy she didn't have to think about it. And what will happen after this can wait at least after she has a normal sleep.
Alex had slept for two hours in her office and that's where Lena found her. Lena called her no less than thirty times in the past four days before deciding to come to DEO. Winn was very enthusiastic when she saw Lena's coming. it's usually Lena only comes when DEO calls. Today Lena wore a tight short black dress and with ponytail, she was very hot without trying hard to be.
And from the confused look of Winn she knows that Winn doesn't know about her and Alex. Yeah of course Winn knows she and Alex are friends, but looking for Alex to the DEO and bringing lunch box on her right hand instead of thousand dollar pouch is a new thing, but then again entering Alex's office is prohibited.
No one is allowed to enter Alex's room other than if Alex asks, including Maggie, Maggie is having a free pass to the DEO because of the past relationship but she still needs special permission to enter his ex-fiance's office and Maggie is standing next to Winn when Lena insists on meeting Alex, Winn have to made several agents finally willing to pave the way for Lena to the Director's room at last.
"Alex."
"Mmmm."
"Alexandra Danvers."
"Emergency Only." Alex says, cracking open one eye. Suddenly it registers who she's talking to, and both eyes fly open in shock.
"Why are you here?" Alex looked at the woman who was standing in front of her, bossy look, CEO mode on. Lena seems dissatisfied with Alex's reaction on her, especially considering Alex has not contacted her or responded to her calls for several days for whatever the reasons.
But seeing the wounds on Alex's face almost made her melt and forgot her first purpose to come here to confront Alex.
"Being with your ex-fiancé for a few days made you forget me?" asked Lena, one eyebrow raised, clearly challenging Alex.
"Are you talking about yourself? "Alex replied, curtly. Things that Lena didn't expect. The Director was always gentle with her.
Lena blinks, and pulls one of the chairs to sit down near to the Director. Lena tried hard not to jump into Alex's lap and touch the scar on Alex's face with her lips.
"You didn't call." Lena said, frowned, annoyed to find her tone softening on this woman.
"My phone died days ago. And I didn't felt the need to call since you've had friends over lunch, or maybe dinner, or maybe--"
"Alex. What this is all about??" Lena stood up from her seat, arms folded in her hands, she really look angry.
Alex groans. "I think I'd rather sleep."
Lena hates rejection and Alex's attitude to her is a clearly a rejection.
"Why are you mad at me?"
"Who said that i'm mad at you?"
Lena felt so lost in this conversation and not sure if she would going on this. Maybe Alex is lack of sleep, her eyes were red and her bags were clearly visible. Or maybe Alex is upset about her work, yes she work hard this view days, Lena saw it on TV, or maybe Alex is so tired, or whatever. And... maybe she should leave Alex to sleep alone and rest and wait a little more time until things get better by itselves.
is this a fight?
Of course, every relationship has a fight, but why is fighting with Alex feels so weird? Alex has always been super patient with her in every condition.
Lena stepped closer and taking her right hand into her own, looking at the bloody knuckles, eyes focus on that Agent's hand.
"That doesn’t look good." She said before Alex basically ripped her hand out of Lena’s grip.
"Yeah i know." Alex replied turning away from Lena who couldn’t hide the expression of hurt that crossed over her face.
"Did I do something or are you mad at me for no reason? Or its just simply as you going sick of me and leave like your sister?"
"I heard a Luthor doesn't need a lot of people by her side. And considering you were so welcome to your ex-girfriend till you forgot when your phone is missing, i thought you don't need me anymore and that's obvious."
Lena wanted to yell and shake this Agent's shoulder but she saw a hint of despair in Alex's voice and she felt a little guilty about it when she found out what this is all about.
"So, this is all about Kate. Are you jealous?" Lena asked carefully, because again, this is new to her. She didn't know this side of Alex, and she really wanted to know her, she really want to works it all, between she and Alex.
And Alex laughs, wet and mirthless. "Lena, i didn't call it jealous."
"I am a soldier, also a scientist, I calculated everything, i didn't fight to win when i'm already lost." Alex said, avoiding Lena’s gaze.
"Alex. No. I don't want this to be like this, okay? You were mad at me, and we can fix it."
"So can you explain to me why your ex-girlfriend came to you and wanted to talk private just you and her then you disappeared for half a day without touching your phone?"
Lena bit her lip. She knew she couldn't tell Alex because she had promised Kate. And she believes in her feelings for Alex so that this Kate's thing do nothing about her relationship with Alex.
"I can't talk to you about it. It’s work thing, Alex..” said Lena and suddenly she regretted it. She should have chosen a better answer when she noticed Alex's hurt expression.
"Then it's done, Lee.. i'm not doing this." Alex said quietly, no angry tone in her voice right now, no intimidation. Alex was very calm when she said it. As if she was used to this kind of conversation.
"Alex, going home with me, we can talk it over, okay?" Lena took Alex's hand again, softer this time.
"No, i'll going home tonight. My own home. I have my own apartment. You should go."
Alex pulled her hand away from Lena, standing walking towards the door of her office. Lena realized that her legs were shaking as she walked to the exit door. Her eyes met Alex's as they stood stiffly at the door.
Alex stared into those familiar green eyes, and there was no doubt of the sadness in them. Worry, doubt, and fear, were not too far off. Tik Tok.. She just can't believe this is happening.
"I told you to take time before you saying anything to me and this is all about. I know she's still here, and would stay for a while, Maggie told me. You can meet her any time for your private business, no hard feelings... If you need friend, you know where to find me. but I know you're not the type who like to make friends. Believe me, Lena.. there's no point you're here. I am a nobody. I'm just a Government Agent who gets a paycheck everymonth."
Alex opened the door wider this time. And Lena knows it's time for her to leave. She felt numb and had difficulty holding her tears from falling. But she still had to walk several hundred meters before she got to her car.
Even now she has to face Winn who smiled sweetly at her and ask her to catch up with her at the Alien bar tonight. Lena couldn't hide her tears when Maggie looked at her. She knows this woman.. She knows how broke Alex is when she broke up with Maggie, and realizing that Maggie Sawyer fits Alex Danvers better than herself is hurt her so badly.
She left winn who stared at Maggie confusedly...
And she cried when she got into her car. She hated how Alex never made her cry. And the first time she did was when it’s over. She's not ready yet for this.
Alex Danvers has made her too happy...