Chapter 3
Kara was half laying against Alex's couch armrest. She went to visit her early in the morning the day after the discussion with Lena. Being a superpowered alien changed nothing when it came to confront feelings, and Alex was always ready to be there for her little sister, so as soon as Kara showed up in her door, pale, with puffed eyes and looking like she'd just kicked a puppy, Alex went straight to get them comfort food and fluffy warm blankets.
Kara was grateful, she was glad to end up with the Danvers and have such a great sister that cared for her. She tried as hard as she could not to let her pain be so obvious in front of her sister, but she knew she couldn't fool Alex, they were raised together after all. They were inseparable, of course she would know something was wrong. But Kara couldn't bring herself to tell Alex what exactly happened when she asked, instead choosing to keep most of it to herself, only giving vague explanations to her sister insistence.
Kara did let Alex know something had happened with Lena and that she was sad because of it, but nothing else. She didn't want to make her worry more than necessary or risk Alex getting mad at Lena.
Kara sighed and moved her legs to make a space big enough for Alex to sit. Alex handed her a steaming cup of tea, wich Kara took after putting the half eaten carton of rocky road ice cream (that was slowly melting) aside.
Alex still wanted to know what happened, but didn't want to push it. Instead, she decided she would be the support her sister needed, and would be patient and wait for Kara to feel ready to talk. Kara knew that, she knew Alex was giving her space while still being by her side, and it made her realize just how much Alex loved her. She felt a pang of guilt, knowing that what she was about to do would definitely hurt her. 'It will be for the better.' Kara repeated to herself every time.
"You know i love you, right?" Kara asked, sitting properly and taking a sip of the tea. "I wouldn't be here and be the person i am today without you. Everyday i thank Rao for having you and Eliza with me." She smirked. "Even if it meant fighting for the bathroom most of our teenage years."
Alex giggled at that. "Well excuse me for being an excellent sister." She put an arm around Kara's shoulders. "Of course i know, Kara. And i love you too." Her smile faltered, She looked at Kara's eyes, concern visible all over her face. "But why are you telling me this? Is everything okay?"
Kara smiled as wide and bright as she could, and tried to reassure Alex, or at least try not to make her suspicious. "Yeah, Al, everything's fine. I think i'm just a little bit sentimental, don't worry about it." Alex looked like she didn't buy it, but didn't say anything.
Kara left Alex apartment not long after that. She still had to go to work, so she went back to her apartment to quickly get ready and then stopped by Noonan's to get a coffee before she strode, with determination in her step, towards CatCo.
But she couldn't stop thinking about Lena.
Lena had made it very clear that she didn't want anything to do with Kara. That to her, she was dead... So that's what she'd do. Not die, of course, Alex and Eliza would be devastated if she did. No. Instead, she would follow Lena's wishes and just… disappear. She would make sure to become invisible, to go so far away that no one could find her, not even Kal.
Kara's heart felt heavy, knowing the pain she would cause to her loved ones, especially to her family, and a part of her, deep inside, wanted to stop and try to fix things one more time, but it was too late to do anything.
Maybe she could take it as a chance to be a normal human? It could be a fresh start for her. Or she could just take a ship and simply go to another planet. Maybe go back to Argo? No, that wouldn't do, Kal would make her return to earth in a second. In any case, she'd have time alone to think and clear her head. Perhaps with enough time she'd be able to forget the love she so fiercely felt for Lena and hopefully she would stop seeing her beautiful face in her dreams... Ha! As if! Kara knew very well that it would be impossible to forget Lena. Her name was burned into her heart forever. Her captivating green eyes, the sweet melodic voice she possessed, her beautifully sculpted face, her immeasurable kindness, her willingness to always help, that brilliant mind of hers, all of that, everything of her was so present in Kara's mind that it ached. No one could ever compare to her. Kara's soul knew Lena was the love of her life.
But still, Kara would force herself to get over it. She'd learn to ignore the pain of her broken heart. She would go and vanish, disappear of the face of the earth...
But before any of that, there were things she still had to do. Kara had a plan: She would wait two days, only to spend time with her friends and family and to destroy all evidence of her existence, anything linked to her. If she was doing this, she would make sure it'd be perfect.
The first part was quite simple. Kara was going to quit CatCo, and make sure no trace of her remained. It was a shame though, she really loved the place, the memories and friends she made there, but she loved Lena even more.
So there she was, walking through the bullpen, barely paying attention or returning the greetings of her co-workers, going instead directly to her boss's office. There, in the large white desk, busy doing paperwork and cursing under her breath, sat Andrea Rojas.
Andrea was so focused on her papers that she didn't acknowledge Kara until she called her. She didn't look surprised to see her, since Kara was always standing up to her, and didn't make any comment.
Kara took a deep breath. "I just came here to let you know that i quit."
Andrea looked at her, unblinking. "You know what the consequences are, Ms. Danvers. If you leave this place you won't be able to report again. Ever."
"I know."
"If this is your way of rebelling, i assure you, it's not working."
"I'm not rebelling, Andrea," Andrea looked taken aback by Kara using her first name. "I'm just tired. I have made my decision. I quit and i don't care anymore. I just came here to leave my resignation letter."
Andrea was perplexed, to say the least. Kara had proven herself to be a great reporter. One of the best in the whole building, she might add. And her conviction to always seek the truth, her defiance by standing up to her was admirable, and even if they didn't always see eye to eye Kara had never gone so far as to actually dare to quit. So yeah, Andrea was surprised. A part of her wanted to take back her threat, but something inside her told her that the issue was beyond that.
"I see. If that's the case, then you can clear your desk. Expect your paycheck by the end of the week, you can retrieve your papers from the HR office. And Kara... It was... nice working with you."
Kara nodded and turned around. There wasn't much else to say to Andrea. They were never friends, their relationship wasn't anything but that of a boss and employee. She quickly finished packing up her stuff and as soon as she got out of the building she dropped the whole cardboard box and all it's contents into the nearest trash can.
But Kara wasn't done yet. She still had work to do.