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n- dude if little james met now james what would he think
k- hed be like wtf happened to me i used to be so happy
j-life is hard ok
l-how
l- worst thing thats happened to you was probably when keith decked you
j-....
j- less than 2 months after my 4th bday i was told my dad was dead only to find out last year that hes not but he chose to live a life of luxury in cities around the world instead of come back for me and the one time he came to the garrison after the war he didnt recognize me and he only wanted me to be his son because i did something that made him look good and my mom literally just walked out of the hospital after i was born without even looking at me
j- still think keith decking me was the worst thing thats ever happened to me
l-....
n-.....
l- how am i supposed to respond to that
j- try to get to know someone before you start talking shit about them
k- james calm down i can see you shaking
n-you look like you want to strangle someone
j- there are several someones i would like to strangle but if im in jail for murder i cant be in space
k- you could just talk yourself out of it
l- lets be real, ryan and keith could do a lot better than james
n- explain
l- james is literally only your team leader bc keith dropped out and cause adam died
n- but hes a good leader
p-yeah and hes pretty smart too
l- yeah cause he had no friends and ll the time in the wolrd to be a nerd and study
s- lets not forget the only thing he was better at than keith was in academics keith was a better pilot and fighter
s- so if keith hadnt dropped out james would still be second
k- i was only at the garrison for so long bc james helped me study and not fail my classes
k- and lance wtf is your problem with james
n- yeah whatd he ever do to you
l- he almsot got ronny killed
i- we were there too
n yeah but you dont hate me ina or ryan
l- you guys werent bullies
k- playful banter taken out of context is bullying but it wasnt
l- but he insulted you for being an orphan
p- im with lance on this one that was pretty messed up
s- exactly griffin is an ass
n- he what
i- i havent heard about
h- we were in flight class and keith kept screwing around and iverson got mad at us
h- he promised two weekends of drills and james was all "thanks a lot" and keith went "my pleasure"
h- and james went "we all know the only reason youre here is because of shiro" then keith went "i can outfly anyone in this bulilding" nd james started saying "oh yeah, is that what mommy and daddy told you-" and next thing you know keiths decked hiim and hes on the floor
l- t was a surprisingly powerful punch
j- stfu lance you werent even there
j- and for the billionth time, i didnt know mr.k was dead
j- and ive apologized a trillion times
l-prove it
j- i dont have to /prove/ anything to you
j- and id appreciate it if you actually took the time to try and get to know me before you start talking shit about me
p- how could you not know
p- didnt you live in the same town
j- my uncle didnt exaclty encourage me to be social
n- uncle?
j- i lived with my uncle from when i was 9 1/2 ish to 17
i- why
j- its complicated
j- you dont need to know
l- maybe we want to know
j- thats nice
k- guys please no fighting
l- aw come on griffin, tell us
l- it cant be that bad
j-....
j- my dad and his squadron disappeared on a mission a little while after my 4th bday and i lived with my grandma but then she died so after a bunch of legal shit i was sent to live with my uncle
n- mom?
j- walked out of the hospital without even looking at me once
l- if youre an orphan why did you insult keith for being one
j- bc my grandma sent me to this boarding school where adults essentially sent their kids bc they didnt want to put up with them and the default insult was something along the lines of "oh yeah is that what mommy and daddy said before they shipped you off" so thats just automatically what came out of my mouth
j- and who tf gave you the right to say that im not good enough for my boyfriends
r- james do you really want to go down this road
j- i think i have a right to know wtf lance's problem with me is
r- this isnt a good idea
l- no id be happy to tell him
l- first off, youre a self centered asshole who isnt really worth shit to anyone
j- say it to my face you pussy
l- bet
j- you wont
l- meet me in the hangar
r- guys no this is not a good idea
n- too late lance just stormed off
p- james did too
h- AND YOU DIDNT TRRY TO STOP THEM??
k- im killing lance and none of you can stop me
s- um i can
s- what happened
n- lance and james were fighting and james told lance to say it to his face so they met in the hangar and lance started yelling a bunch of insults and stufff at james
n- but then he inturuppted him ans went "youre not mad at me youre mad becausea llura is gone and so youre directing that anger at me"
h- lance tried to deny it and started the insults again but this time he started using stuff like things about james's parents and something about his uncle and james went pale
h- then ance started yelling in spanish which james apparently speaks and i guess it got worse and then he started getting up in james's face and when he picked his hand up to wag his finger james flinched away from him
n- then james said something in spanish and lance froze and veronica started in on him along with rachel and mrs. mcclain and james actually looked kind of scared and then mr. mcclain got involved and he pulled the dad voice and five minutes later somehow iverson is involved and its gone from lance saying why he doesnt like james to iverson telling him the only reason hes gotten as far as he has is because the people they really wanted in his position left or died
h- and he starts going on about how maybe this is why his dad went on that mission instead of staying with him and james was kinda shaking and looking like he wanted to cry
n- then he took a deep breath and glared at them all, said something in a different language, and walked off
k- it was greek
k- james's first language is greek
k- basically he said "My whole life, I've been told how people hate me, how they don't want me, how I'm worthless. How I'm never good enough, and never will be. I thought you guys were different. I thought you were better than everyone else. But you're worse. At least they had the decency to try and get to know me before deciding they hated me. At least they didn't make me out to be an asshole, or remind me that I'm not good enough. I know that I'm not good enough. I know that Keith and Ryan can do better. I know that I'm only where I am because the people you wanted to be there couldn't be. You don't need to remind me. Believe me, I know."
s- why do you know greek
k- when he panics or gets emotional he reverts back to it and it used to happen a lot when we were 16/17 so i learned it
k- he has *self esteem issues*
n- why
k- his uncle's motto was "if youre not perfect, youre not worth it" and james was never perfect to him and the school his grandma sent him to had harsh teachers who didnt sugarciat anything and even when we were at the garrison and regular school he got bullied a lot
k- it was really bad
k- like "contemplating suicide bad"
n- where is james he needs love
r idk i cant find him anye=where on the ship
r- kei? any luck
k- no
k- the lesbians, blade and kosmo dont knw either
unknown- KEITH I STG WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO
k- ERIC CALM DOWN I DIDNT DO ANTHING
unknown2- KEITH AKIRA YORAK KOGANE WHAT DID YOU DO IM OVER 6 MILLlION MILES AWAY BUT I WILL KILL YOU IF JAMES IS HURT