Part 31
Part 31
𝓣𝓪𝓮𝓱𝔂𝓾𝓷𝓰 𝓹𝓸𝓿:
As soon as I snapped my eyes open, the realisation settled in me like mist in air, I shoved all the duvets away running towards yeri's room.
Yesterday night I had tried my best not to sleep early so I could send her off with a hug and goodbye, but I slept, I don't even remember the last thought that had sparked in me before heading off to bed.
As soon as I reached Queens Bedroom, I swinged the huge doors open. The room was absolute lonely, a facade of Livingness when all it was dead and at peace. No lingering scent of yeri,her clothes were gone, her scented candles, her hairpins and roses she would keep by the window to bloom, everything was gone at once and they took yeri with them too.
"Taehyung shii" I flinched back when I heard a strong firm voice
The guard stood there motionless.
"My honourable queen departed this morning to King Jang's kingdom. She will be back in few weeks. Any other help I could provide? "
I shaked my head as no, I bowed to them and left the place. There was no point in waiting at a place where you could find traces of hurt and Desperation to move away. The person won't come back soon..... And the person would definitely not come back the same either.....
Walking back towards my room, I found the maids had already set up milk, scented rose water, candles, perfume, incense sticks and my freshly washed, ironed clothes near the Thermae I would bath.
I walked, stripped naked and douse myself in warm hot watter. My muscles relaxed immediately, the maids started scrubbing and scenting my body and hair.
When I came outside, I had ordered to let me have my privacy while I get ready on my own, I sat myself in front of huge mirror as I stared at my body, I was not uncomfortable with it anymore, I could surely see growth of some flesh on my stomach and my arms, they were bulkier, I had gained lot of weight and I could make that out.
My cheeks were fuller and not sunken and pale anymore, they were glowing. I felt myself back in kingdom Dane with Jungkook . Not that I didn't expected this , It was made sure that I was eating my meals and not skipping them, It was made sure I was resting as well, sometimes it was done by Jungkook's mother while most of the time it was Jungkook himself.
I side braided my hair, tucking small daisies in my hair, the vision of meeting yeri for the first time with her wearing same hanbok as me and pretty daisies in her hair caught my breath, it did really affected me for a infinitesimally small moment.
I scented myself with the patchouli scented fragrance that I use every single day these days. With giving a last look at myself in the mirror I walked out for breakfast at the Royal dinning table.
Doing breakfast with royals here in Jungkook's Kingdom was not bad at all, it was nothing like the meals I use to have in kingdom dane, here people won't judge, they won't spy there eyes on me, nor would they obnoxiously make mean comments, here people are genuinely nice and there words are comforting, but sitting with them on the same table to do breakfast still feels so unsettling and out of place to me.....
Afterall that's what I have grown upto, being the interior one...
I stop at my steps on one of those stairs and think of possibilities were I could run back to my room and just ask for my breakfast there, and I do just that.
I take a step back,tiptoeing silently, and that's when I feel a arm rested on my hips and a hot breathe over my ear.
"Pearl? " I panick and flinch.
I turn around hastily and while doing it I miss one step.
I could feel a hollow in my chest as Jungkook starts to seem far and myself falling back.
My eyes instantly are tightly shut, and then one moment I'm falling while the other moment I'm securely wrapped in Jungkook's arms.
The moment I open my eyes, I see Jungkook's both arms curled up around me as he smiles foolishly. I'm stiff in his arms, but then I melt right away.
"Jungkookie, I would have fell—"
He tucks my hair back.
"At this point, you should know tae, I won't let you fall"
He is right
He won't let me fall, and may be that's why, my body refused to work on my reflex. I let myself fall, so he would catch me in his arms.
Jungkook then makes sure I'm standing properly on my feets, he holds out his hand for me, which I happily let him hold.
"Your breakfast is already in your bedroom. , let's go and have it" I suck in breath, and then I hear myself giggle.
"And why is my breakfast in my room my honour?? "
He folds his arms, clicks his tongue.
"I heard, Taehyung shii don't like to eat meals with royals." He said, I could only form a chuckle.
These small moments where we both forget the strings we are caught in and are happy genuinely with just looking at each other being happy, are moments I crave to my core.
I hold out his hand again and this time I guide us both to my room.
As soon as we reach in my room, I see my breakfast already set up on my bed, there's milk, fried egg and kimchi toast. I sit leaning towards the bedpost while he sits in from of me.
We sit and eat our breakfast in silence, outside the window, the sun starts to drain it's colour due to heavy clouds, it's little drizzling outside. The smell of wet soil inhales us calming our senses.
"Yeri, left this morning. I was asleep" I said
Jungkook takes a sip of milk as he nods.
"I came back early from training so I could go with her till the borders, I sent her off. " I smile at that .
"She'll be back soon"
I hummm
I stare at him as he continues to finish his kimchi toast.
"Jungkookie"
He looks back, and nods.
"How are you doing? " Just when I ask him, he jerks back lightly. He might have not expected me to day something like this randomly.
"How am I doing? I'm fine pearl, why are you asking though? "
I inhale deeply, I hold his hand in mine and I could feel myself caressing his rough skin.
"Are you eating and resting well jungkookie?? You make me worry so much. "
He smiles fondly
"Back then you use to come and tell me what all things you were going through, but now I'm unable to even see you enough"
He places his other hand on mine bringing it close to his lips, his lips never touch my skin though, we stay in our boundaries, we never forget that.
"Whenever I go to see you in your chambers you are at training camps, you even skip meals and I don't even see you sleeping. What is happening jungkookie?? I'm worried. With all the things going on between us, I fear if you are doing well. I fear —"
"I fear if I have left you alone, to grow through this"
I see a raging emergency in his eyes, I see him gathering all the words so he could let me know he was doing fine, so he would act being strong and not make me worry. Jungkook's one palm is on my cheeks, caressing the soft skin over my full chubby cheeks.
"Heyy, pearl, I'm fine. I'm eating well and I'm resting well too. You don't need to worry about me yeah?? I'm doing fine."
Behind his soft smile I see him whimpering.
"You are here with me, you haven't left me alone okay? It's just I'm busy with training, war is set to happen anytime in this coming week and I don't want to lack back. So I'm just trying to pull this off"he says
" Eat and sleep well okay? "I said.
" We will win this war too right? "
He shrugs
"May be, may be not. "
I try to search for answers that I want on his face, I try to search him saying, he would win this war too and come back safe.
I keep staring and the meal plates that were separating us are slided far away.
He leans closer, his hand somewhere puzzled up hair, and he softly brings me in.
His warmth grows in me as well, our forehead are joined together, his eyes are closed shut. I try not to hold him tight close, I circle my hands around his neck as well.
"I want to win this, and come back to you. But chances of pulling off a war safe and fine and coming back home are always half and half, it's like falling in love.—"
"You fall deep and hard, but chances of the other person falling for you are never known. But for the person who have fallen it's a living hell, he cannot get out of it. And he have to live with it. He have to die with it. I will try to come back yeahh?? "
"Like always?? "
He smiles.
"Yes, like always.When I'm gone you are going to eat well, and rest well, when I'll come back I don't want to see you not being yourself okay?"
I nod with emptiness.
My hand slides over to his chest, the cloth crumbles against my fingers.
"Please come back okay, I-I just want you safe. Ju—just know I'm waiting, don't throw yourself in those ruthless wars like you don't have anyone waiting for you back here. I am. I am waiting for you"
May be he feels the rushed voice in me, he holds me more close, stares right in my eyes.
"Shhh, I'm not going right now, we have enough time"
"Do we??? What if this is the last time? " I tremble with force.
"Then it is a last time tae. "I freeze at those ruthless words.
He smiles.
I throw my forehead on his shoulder. I don't want to live like this were I live in fear thinking if he would be safe or not. Thinking if this would be our last time or not.
"Don't say stuff like this please. I won't be able to let you go then" I Chuckle at my vulnerability.
He wraps his hands around my waist, his head on my shoulder.
"Tae, why are you sad? I am here with you. " We pull apart.
He breathes and holds my shoulders patting them.
"I'll come back , don't be sad okay? "
I sigh, it's not easy.
" Why do you had to be a warrior out of all?? You could just have been a Potter, a farmer, a gardener anything. You give my heart a aching pain Jungkook. " He smiles..
"You want that? "
"What? "
"Me ,to be just a normal person?? I will then"
"Huh? "
"I'll quit throne and my position. Let's run away. Let's make a small house. You can rest all day, I will cook for you and take care of our house. I'll start farming or may be giving lessons to small kids around us, we can earn pretty well like that, no? "
I whine at that.
"Are you making fun of me now?? "
He laughs endearingly.
"No, I'm not joking. I'm serious. Just say yes pearl"
I sway my hands jokingly, throwing a soft punch on his shoulder.
"Shut up now. " I smile
"You love what you do. You are a warrior, and I don't want you to leave anything that you love—"
"But I love you more, no?"
Colour drains of my face, my heart beats as if its the first time. There's these thousands of butterflies at his words.
I had told him to not say those words, but looks like he says them to many times when alone, that those words ran out of his heart abruptly.
They feel nice though.
They feel powerful and beautiful, they makes me melt and burns me on fire at the same time.
I love him too.
I wanted to say back.
"I'll leave everything behind, just to stay with you a little more, just say you will let me take you far away from here. " I do not want to believe the seriousness in his voice, but I do.
I trust him again when he says this.
I will run away with him this time too.
I won't hold back.
He keeps staring at me, I do the same.
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Then there a loud knock making us bring back to the room in palace, and suddenly we both are not in our small house by the sea, where I stare at him lovingly as he brings out fresh strawberries from our farm.
Everything breaks suddenly.
The guard stands tall and nods looking at Jungkook. I follow his gaze.
Gaurd leaves the next moment.
Jungkook's smile doubles over. His nose scrunch and eyes shine.
"Pearl, come let's go. I have something for you. "
"Something for me? What? "
"God just come with me pearl "
He pulls me on my feets and we both chase the doors, he runs pulling me for wherever he is going.
He stops in front of a room, it's a guest room. I looked at him puzzled.
"You won't be alone when I'm gone." He says and push me towards the door.
I look at him and then slowly peek inside the room.
I gasp.
"Jungkookie" I walk towards him again and for the first time in months.
I hug him close to me without fearing the prying eyes on us.
I nuzzle his neck, his hands on me.
I don't know enough words to thank him for it.
"You like it? "
I pull back and just nod ,smiling stupidly.
He signs me to go inside the room.
"Noona" my two noona's stand there crying .
I run towards them and pull them both in arms. They cares my hair and pat my back, I shed tears happily.
I missed them, and watching them here makes me so happy.
"our taehyungie looks more pretty now. " One of them says, I blush tint pink
"How have you been tae? We missed you so much. "
"Noona, I'm happy here, I missed you both as well" I hug them again.
Jungkook clears his throat behind us, noona move forward bowing to him.
This reminds of the last time he had scared them away.
"My honour, don't scare my noona's away like last time"
Jungkook stands still, with those same motionless eyes and still muscles, but he adorns a smile this time.
"I was just joking with you three, calm down there pearl"
I smile back.
"You guys can have your own time, I shouldn't Interrupt"
"Right" I say.
Noonas gasp a little holding my elbow and telling me not to mess with there warrior jeon.
Jungkook chuckles instead. He raises his hands upward as defeat.
"Okay there my pretty dove. I'll give you guys privacy."
I mumble a thank you.
He bows back to noonas and leave the chambers.
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