Maybe I want more
It was late in the evening and Clint couldn't sleep.
He tossed around in his bed, not nervous for his mission but something was nagging him and he couldn't ignore it.
Finally he couldn't take it anymore and slipped out of bed
He trew a quick glance at his digital watch that told him it was 23: 14.
He sighed and made his way to the kitchen.
Everybody was asleep except for Tony, Jarvis informed him.
He wasn't surprised.
The genius slept close to never.
Clint was actually starting to get worried a bit.
Seriously, it's not normal for a person to sleep half an hour in three days.
Clint opened the fridge and decided that he needed to talk to Thor about drinking less beer.
There was only half a bottle left and he knew he had bought 3 sixpacks two days ago.
He grabbed the bottle anyway and went to his usual spot on the roof.
It was raining but that didn't bother him.
Clint sat down on the edge and took a sip of his beer.
He sat there for hours.
His beer was finished quickly but he didn't really care and threw his empty beer bottle as far away from the ledge as possible into the darkness of the night.
His hair was wet and his soaked T-shirt clung to his body.
Suddenly he felt a presence,
Clint looked over his shoulder and came face to face with Tony.
"Hey'' he said and looked at the city around him .
It was a beautiful night and the lights of the city made him feel peaceful.
"What are you doing here Bird Boy? It's raining oceans and you're soaked."
Tony sat down next to him and protected them both from the rain with an umbrella.
Clint nodded a thanks but didn't answer Tony's question.
They just sat there in silence for minutes.
Until Tony spoke up "Clint?".
Clint looked up and ran a hand through his hair. "Yeah?".
Tony looked at him.
For a second Clint thought he saw a flicker of lust in the billionair's eyes but quickly shove the thought away.
"Before you go.." Tony swallowed and looked down "You need to know something"
Before Clint could response Tony gave him a gentle kiss.
"I love you Clint" Tony whispered against his mouth.
Clint was stunned and couldn't move anymore.
Only when Tony deepened the kiss he pulled away.
He never thought of Tony as a possible lover for him and he didn't want it.
No matter how much he liked Tony, it was as a friend not a lover.
"Tony" he whisperd.
He saw that Tony understood he didn't want him.
Tony trembled and tears streamed down his face.
"Tony. I'm so sorry" He knew he hurted his friends feelings and that nothing could make that right again.
But he couldn't leave for 6 months while leaving Tony behind with a broken heart.
"Please, Don't be mad at me" he almost begged, tears were streaming down his own face now.
Tony stood up and so did he.
"No, it's my faulth. I shouldn't just have kissed you. Sorry" Tony said sadly and quickly ran inside.
Clint was still a bit stunned and didn't immediately go after the man.
Moments later a scream snapped him out of his zone, Tony.
It was a heartbroken scream and chilled Clint to the bones.
He needed to talk to Tony.
He almost ran after him but something held him back.
Guilt maybe?.
He didn´t know and right now it wasn't the most important thing on his mind.
However, when he did go inside again Tony was nowhere to be seen.
Clint knew he could never go back to the amazing friendship he had with Tony.
He wanted more then everything then to tell his 'friend?' that he loved him.
But that would be a lie.
Clint cared a lot about Tony, he really did.
Just not enough to start a relationship.
He felt awful and stalked of to the gym to work off some anger